The document discusses the author's experience with self-doubt and loss of direction in college. She began struggling academically and socially, overthinking choices and questioning her path. She felt disoriented, blamed herself, and had difficulty socializing or knowing where to seek help. While wondering if she was changing for better and deserved her suffering, the author realized she was simply entering a phase that would teach independence and trusting the process of achieving her dreams.
The document discusses the author's experience with self-doubt and loss of direction in college. She began struggling academically and socially, overthinking choices and questioning her path. She felt disoriented, blamed herself, and had difficulty socializing or knowing where to seek help. While wondering if she was changing for better and deserved her suffering, the author realized she was simply entering a phase that would teach independence and trusting the process of achieving her dreams.
The document discusses the author's experience with self-doubt and loss of direction in college. She began struggling academically and socially, overthinking choices and questioning her path. She felt disoriented, blamed herself, and had difficulty socializing or knowing where to seek help. While wondering if she was changing for better and deserved her suffering, the author realized she was simply entering a phase that would teach independence and trusting the process of achieving her dreams.
I wholeheartedly concur with the statement that life's experiences shape a
person. What if you alter anything in line with your convictions only to find that other people do not like it? Everything was still clear to me when I first started college. I was full of energy and enthusiasm. I completed my assignments on time, took notes, and then talked to friends in my spare time. I was content at the time, but life suddenly dealt me a curveball. I began to lose interest in everything, having difficulty processing my thoughts and gradually progressing. And then comes overthinking, and I begin to doubt the path I'm walking. Is this really what I want? Am I on the wrong track? Some of the questions I couldn't help but ask myself. I felt disoriented and began to blame myself for my bad choices. Then all of a sudden, socializing becomes difficult. I have friends, but I don't feel I have one. I want to seek assistance and reach out, yet I'm unsure where to start. Perhaps I was tired of being disappointed by the people around me, which shaped me into the person I am today. I no longer hold expectations for people, and if their words don't reflect their actions, I don't care; life goes on. I feel numb, but what can I do? It is my way of protecting myself. Sometimes I wonder? Am I changing for the better? Then, why am I still suffering? Do I deserve this? Maybe the answer is a yes or a no. I didn't understand what was happening in my life. I was puzzled. I was also unable to understand myself. Is this what I want? All I want is to be acknowledged. I yearned to transform myself and return to my former self. But changing something is not that simple; I am unsure where to begin and where to go back. At this point, I'm still waiting for an answer. An answer that, I have no doubt, would restore my well-being. But when I was earnestly contemplating, I realized that perhaps I'm just entering a phase that will teach me to be independent and to trust the process, including myself. And what I'm going through now is normal as I move forward to achieving my dreams. Whatever it is, I'm confident I'll get through it and find the happiness I truly deserve. Not today, but someday, and I claim it.