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Eigenfunctions of the Laplacian of Riemannian
manifolds
Updated: August 15, 2017
Steve Zelditch
Research partially supported by NSF grant and DMS-1541126 and by the Stefan
Bergman trust.
Contents
Preface xi
0.1. Organization xii
0.2. Topics which are not covered xiii
0.3. Topics which are double covered xiv
0.4. Notation xiv
Acknowledgments xiv
Chapter 1. Introduction 1
1.1. What are eigenfunctions and why are they useful 1
1.2. Notation for eigenvalues 3
1.3. Weyl’s law for (−∆)-eigenvalues 3
1.4. Quantum Mechanics 4
1.5. Dynamics of the geodesic or billiard flow 6
1.6. Intensity plots and excursion sets 7
1.7. Nodal sets and critical point sets 8
1.8. Local versus global analysis of eigenfunctions 9
1.9. High frequency limits, oscillation and concentration 10
1.10. Spectral projections 11
1.11. Lp norms 12
1.12. Matrix elements and Wigner distributions 12
1.13. Egorov’s theorem 13
1.14. Eherenfest time 14
1.15. Weak* limit problem 14
1.16. Ergodic versus completely integrable geodesic flow 16
1.17. Ergodic eigenfunctions 17
1.18. Quantum unique ergodicity (QUE) 18
1.19. Completely integrable eigenfunctions 18
1.20. Heisenberg uncertainty principle 19
1.21. Sequences of eigenfunctions and length scales 19
1.22. Localization of eigenfunctions on closed geodesics 20
1.23. Some remarks on the contents and on other texts 21
1.24. References 22
Bibliography 23
Bibliography 37
Bibliography 59
Bibliography 93
Bibliography 117
Bibliography 135
Bibliography 163
Bibliography 179
Bibliography 201
Bibliography 241
Bibliography 261
Bibliography 303
Bibliography 335
Index 399
Preface
These lecture notes are an expanded version of the author’s CBMS ten Lectures
at the University of Kentucky in June 20-24, 2011. The lectures were devoted to
eigenfunctions of the Laplacian and of Schrödinger operators, in particular to their
Lp -norms and nodal sets. The lecture notes have undergone extensive revisions
in the intervening years, due in part to progress in the field and also to the new
publications on related topics, which made some of the original lecture notes obso-
lete. In particular, the new book [So2] of Chris Sogge and the author’s 2013 Park
City Lecture notes [Ze7] are also devoted to eigenfunctions and includes extensive
background on pseudo-differential operators and harmonic analysis. (References
for the preface can be found at the end of §1.) The book of Maciej Zworski [Zw]
contains a systematic introduction to semi-classical Fourier integral operators and
includes applications to quantum ergodicity of eigenfunctions. The recent book
[GS] of V. Guillemin and S. Sternberg also gives background on the global theory
of Fourier integral operators and in particular on their symbols. Fanghua Lin and
Qing Han also have a book in progress on eigenfunctions from viewpoint of local
elliptic equations. For this reason, we do not feel it is useful in these lecture notes
to provide any systematic background on these techniques, although their proper-
ties will be used freely. We do include some background on symplectic geometry,
pseudo-differential and Fourier integral operators to establish notation and links to
other references. But overall we assume that the reader is willing to consult these
other references for the basic techniques.
The purpose of these lecture notes is to convey inter-related themes and results,
and so we rarely give detailed proofs. Rather we aim to outline key ideas and how
they are related to other results. The lectures concentrate on the following themes:
0.1. Organization
Let us go over the sequence of events in these lectures and explain what is and
what is not contained in them and what is the logic of the presentation.
We introduce the subject of eigenfunctions in terms of vibrating membranes and
quantum energy eigenstates. The rich phenomenology of examples developed over
the last two hundred years is rapidly surveyed. In Chapter 3 we give an overview
of the principal new results that will be discussed in detail. The model surfaces of
constant curvature are introduced in §4. Harmonic analysis begins with the Eu-
clidean eigenfunctions eihx,ki on Rn or T n , yet they have very unusual properties
compared to eigenfunctions on other Riemannian manifolds. The eigenfunctions
of S 2 illustrate virtually the entire range of behavior of eigenfunctions of any Rie-
mannian metric with regard to size and concentration. On the other hand, they
are restrictions of harmonic polynomials on R3 and their nodal sets are potentially
tamer than for a general C ∞ metric. Eigenfunctions of hyperbolic surfaces H2 /Γ
come next. They are the material of quantum chaos and are the subject of in-
tense investigation over the last 30 years. In §5-5.3 the local elliptic analysis of
eigenfunctions is surveyed. This leads §6 on the wave equation on a Riemannian
manifold and the Hadamard-Riesz construction of parametrices. This construction
parallels the Minakshisundaraman-Pleijel parametrix construction for heat kernels.
In some ways, the original presentations of Hadamard and Riesz remain the best
expositions, in particular in their presentations of the convergence of the parametrix
construction in the real analytic case. It was a precursor to the Fourier integral op-
erator theory, which is rapidly reviewed in §2.1, §2.5, §7. As mentioned above, this
material is contained in many other references and is principally used to establish
notation. In §8.2 classical results on the pointwise and local Weyl laws are reviewed,
and the results presented give the universal sup-norm estimates on eigenfunctions
and their gradients. The author is not aware of a proof of such estimates using
0.2. TOPICS WHICH ARE NOT COVERED xiii
elliptic estimates. Geometric analysts who are more familiar with elliptic estimates
might want to compare their methods to the small time wave equation methods
used in the proofs. In §9, the asymptotics and limits of matrix elements hAϕj , ϕj i of
pseudo-differential operators with respect to eigenfunctions are introduced. Matrix
elements are the fundamental quantities in quantum mechanics. They are quadratic
in the eigenfunctions and thus are related to energy estimates. There exist some
results on multilinear eigenfunction estimates but they are not covered in these lec-
tures. In §9.5 the basic facts about quantum ergodic systems are reviewed. At this
point in the lecture notes, the global long-time dynamics of the geodesic flow takes
over as the dominant player. In §11 some parallel results for quantum integrable
systems are presented. At this time there exist only a few results on quantizations
of mixed systems, and despite the great interest in mixed systems we do not present
these results but only record the existence of several articles devoted to them. Lp
norms of eigenfunctions are studied in §10. Sogge’s books [So1, So2] also concern
Lp norms but the material presented here contains both less and more on them.
Less, because the universal Sogge estimates are not presented, and more because
the more advanced results due to Sogge and the author are given in some detail. In
§11.6, Lp norms of eigenfunctions in the quantum integrable case are reviewed. One
of the motivations to include this material is the belief that such QCI eigenfunc-
tions are extremals for Lp norms and restrictions of eigenfunctions. Although it is
very relevant the restriction theorems of Burq-Gérard-Tzvetkov are not discussed
here. Rather we turn to quantum ergodic restriction theorems in §12.21. They
have proved useful in the study of nodal sets and that is the main topic for the rest
of the lectures. Nodal sets in the real domain are discussed in §13, in particular
bounds on hypersurface volumes and counting nodal domains. Starting in §14, the
analytic continuation of eigenfunctions to Grauert tubes and their complex zeros
are studied. Complex nodal sets and their intersections with complexified geodesics
are studied in §14.30. Use of the complexified wave kernel gives a simplified proof
of the Donnelly-Fefferman upper bound on the hypersurface measure of nodal sets.
The lower bound seems to be disconnected from global methods. In §14.33, Alex
Brudnyi has contributed a simplified proof of the Donnelly-Fefferman lower bound.
In §14.37, the author’s results on equidistribution of complexified nodal sets in the
ergodic case are presented. There are parallel results in the completely integrable
case which are still in progress. Other results in this section are those of John Toth
and the author giving upper bounds on numbers of intersection points of nodal
lines with curves in dimension two.
0.4. Notation
Notation regarding eigenvalue parameters is given in §1.2 and notation for
geometric and dynamical objects is given in §2.
Acknowledgments
Thanks go to Peter Hislop and Peter Perry for organizing the CBMS lecture
series at the University of Kentucky. Both author and reader will thank Alex
Brudnyi for giving alternative arguments to the Donnelly-Fefferman lower bound
in §14.33. Thanks also to Hans Christianson, J. Jung, C.D. Sogge, J.A. Toth for
collaboration and for an infinite number of discussions on the topics discussed here.
My main thanks go to Robert Chang for reading the text and for suggesting many
corrections. Robert also did almost all the technical support in producing the book.
CHAPTER 1
Introduction
In this chapter, we introduce the main objects and themes of this monograph.
In particular we introduce the quantum mechanical interpretation of eigenfunctions
and their time evolution. At the end we outline the topics emphasized in later
chapters.
∂2
− ∆ u(t, x) = 0;
∂t2
(1.1) ∂ϕ
u(0, x) = ϕ0 (x), ∂t u(0, x) = 0;
u(t, x) = 0, x ∈ ∂Ω.
1
2 1. INTRODUCTION
The nodal set (or zero set) of ϕλ gives the positions at which the vibrating
membrane is still. The nodal patterns have been studied since the time of Chladni
(ca. 1800).
∂
replacing the Euclidean Laplacian ∆ above. Here, gij = g( ∂x , ∂ ), [g ij ] is the
i ∂xj
√ p
inverse matrix to [gij ] and g := det[gij ]. Since g is usually understood, in
subsequent chapters we suppress the dependency of the metric by writing ∆g = ∆.
It follows that on a Riemannian manifold (M, g), the eigenvalue problem (1.2)
has the form
(1.7) (∆g + λ2 )ϕλ = 0.
If M has a non-empty boundary ∂M then we impose the standard Dirichlet or
Neumann boundary conditions. If M is compact case, there exists an orthonormal
basis {ϕj }j≥0 of L2 (M ) of eigenfunctions,
Z
(1.8) ∆g ϕj = −λ2j ϕj and hϕj , ϕk iL2 (M ) := ϕj ϕk dVg = δjk
M
The Bohr model (1913) of “old quantum theory” proposed that the electron
can only occupy special stable orbits defined by Bohr-Sommerfeld “quantization
conditions.”
1.4. QUANTUM MECHANICS 5
However this theory is too specialized. It relies on the special structure of the
orbits of the Coulomb problem, in particular the (hidden) symmetry that makes
all of the orbits periodic. It does not extend in any clear way to more compli-
cated atoms such as Helium or even to the hydrogen atom in an electric or mag-
netic field. In the article Quantisierung als Eigenwertproblem, Annalen der Physik
(1926), Schrödinger [Sch1] proposed to model the electron by a wave function
ψ(x) ∈ L2 (R3 ) with the states of energy Ej (~) solving the eigenvalue problem (as
in (1.16))
~
2
(1.20) Ĥψ~,j := − ∆ + V ψ~,j = Ej (~)ψ~,j ,
2
P ∂2
for the Schrödinger operator Ĥ, where ∆ = j ∂x 2 is the Laplacian and V is the
j
so that the state ψ~,j defines a probability amplitude, i.e., its modulus square is a
probability measure with
(1.23) |ψ~,j (x)|2 dx = the probability density of finding the particle at x .
This probability density is not concentrated in the classically allowed region {V ≤
E}, i.e., a quantum particle has a positive probability of going into the forbidden
region {x : V (x) > E}. The only observable quantities are the matrix elements
Z
(1.24) hAψ~,j , ψ~,j i = ψ~,j Aψ~,j (x) dV
6 1. INTRODUCTION
where Vol denotes the volume measure of E (corresponding to the metric underlying
the Laplacian ∆). One could also use (1.23) as the measure to determine the relative
proportion of the L2 mass of the eigenfunction which is concentrated near its top
values.
One may also imagine graphing (1.23) over the high-dimensional configuration
space and asking for the prominent features of the graph. In the case of a high
frequency spherical harmonic on S 2 one may obtain the graph:
8 1. INTRODUCTION
One observes that there are many local maxima near the peak values of the
eigenfunction (or its square (1.23)). They appear to be rather uniformly distributed.
Can one at least prove that the number of critical points tends to infinity with
the eigenvalue (or equivalently as ~ → 0)? This is known to be false for some
eigenfunctions of general Riemannian manifolds. How does the distribution or
number of critical points reflect the underlying Hamiltonian dynamics?
These questions are almost completely open and (as in the images) are most
accessible for quantum integrable systems. The high excursion sets are the most
important sets, but also rather intractable since they involve the distribution func-
tion of the eigenfunction. The only case known to the author where the distribution
function has been discussed is in the case of toric eigenfunctions on Kähler mani-
folds [STZ]. It is likely that analogous results can be proved for joint eigenfunctions
of real integrable systems such as surfaces of revolution or (as in the images) the
hydrogen atom eigenfunctions.
These are the points where the probability (density) of the particle’s position
vanishes. Here, we consider eigenfunctions of the Laplacian ∆g of a compact Rie-
mannian manifold rather than a general Schrödinger operator.
The nodal domains of ϕλ are the connected components Ωj of M \Nϕλ =
SN (ϕλ )
j=1 Ωj . We write
(1.30) N (ϕλ ) := the number of nodal domains of ϕλ .
In [Br], J. Brüning (and Yau, unpublished) showed that H1 (Zϕλ ) ≥ Cg λ in
the dim M = 2 case, i.e., the length of a nodal line is bounded below by a constant
1.8. LOCAL VERSUS GLOBAL ANALYSIS OF EIGENFUNCTIONS 9
multiple of the frequency for some constant Cg > 0. A. Logunov has recently proved
the analogous result in all dimensions [Lo].
According to Courant’s nodal domain theorem [C], there exists a universal
upper bound for N (ϕj ):
(1.31) N (ϕj ) ≤ j.
In terms of order of magnitude, this bound is often obtained: when M is the unit
sphere S 2 and ϕ is a random spherical harmonics, then N (ϕλ ) ∼ cλ2 holds almost
surely for some constant c > 0 thanks to Nazarov-Sodin [NS] . However, it is known
that the bound is not always sharp in terms of order of magnitude. In the chapter
on nodal sets ♣ref♣, we will review results of H. Lewy and others that construct
sequences of eigenfunctions with a uniform bound on the number of nodal domains.
On the other hand, it is very plausible that every compact Riemannian manifold
possesses a sequence of eigenfunctions for which the number of nodal domains
tends to infinity. In the same chapter, we prove this to be true for almost the entire
sequence of eigenfunctions of a non-positively curved surface with concave boundary
(for Dirichlet or Neumann boundary conditions) and for negatively curved surfaces
possessing an anti-holomorphic isometric involution with dividing fixed point set.
Closely related to nodal sets are the other level sets
(1.32) Nϕaj = {x ∈ M : ϕj (x) = a}
and the sublevel sets
(1.33) {x ∈ M : |ϕj (x)| ≤ a}.
The zero level is distinguished since the symmetry ϕj → −ϕj in the equation pre-
serves the nodal set. A fundamental existence result states that there exists a
constant A > 0 so that every ball of (M, g) contains a nodal point of any eigen-
function ϕλ if its radius is greater than Aλ.
Of equal interest is the critical point set
(1.34) Cϕj = {x ∈ M : ∇ϕj (x) = 0}.
The critical point set can be a hypersurface in M . In counting problems it is better
to consider the set
(1.35) Vϕj = {ϕj (x) : ∇ϕj (x) = 0}
of critical values. At this time of writing, there exist (to the author’s knowledge)
no rigorous upper bounds on the number of critical values except in separation-of-
variables situations.
or propagator
it
(1.37) Uh (t) = e ~ Ĥ
It is the Schwartz kernel of the orthogonal projection onto the span of the eigenfunc-
tions with frequencies ≤ λ, and is independent of the choice of orthonormal basis.
Sometimes we wish to consider shorter spectral intervals, and then subscript the
projection by the relevant interval. An important case is the spectral projections
for a short interval:
X
(1.39) Π[λ,λ+1] (x, y) := ϕj (x)ϕj (y).
j : λ≤λj ≤λ+1
also natural to study the scattering phase shifts (eigenvalues) and eigenfunctions
of the scattering operator S(h) (see [GHZ] for references).
Remark 1.2. We set the potential V equal to zero for the sake of brevity, but
almost everything we do generalizes, often in subtle ways, to Schrödinger operators.
The dynamics of geodesic flows is sufficiently rich to exhibit the relations between
classical and quantum mechanics. More general Schrödinger operators −~2 ∆g + V
(or magnetic Schrödinger operators) give rise to significant additional issues that
in some cases have barely been explored, such as the behavior of nodal sets in the
forbidden region.
Most of the problems stated above are not only unsolved but appear to be
completely intractable. They are most accessible when the Schrödinger operator
is completely integrable on the quantum level in the sense of §1.19, although the
problems remain unsolved even in this case. There are many phenomena which
show up clearly in numerical plots yet which are far beyond mathematical analysis.
Therefore we need to simplify the problems to the point where rigorous results are
possible.
1.11. Lp norms
As mentioned above, excursion sets (1.27) are difficult to study in all but the
simplest cases (such as the standard spheres or surfaces of revolution). A somewhat
more accessible and natural mathematical problem is to study the Lp norms of
eigenfunctions (to the pth power),
Z ∞ Z
(1.40) tp dµϕj (t) = |ϕj |2p dV
0
as a function of the eigenvalue Ej (~). Here, µϕj is the distribution function of |ϕj |2
(1.28). Different powers measure different aspects of the intensity plot. Since ϕj is
L2 -normalized (1.22), high Lp norms, (e.g., the sup norm kϕj k∞ = supx |ϕj (x)|) is
large when there exist a few very high peaks and are not so large when there exist
many relatively shallow peaks. Lower Lp norms are large when the set of rather
large values has a large measure. A random spherical harmonic spreads its mass
rather evenly around the sphere, and thus has relatively small Lp norms for high p.
General upper bounds on Lp norms of eigenfunctions will be discussed in §10.
In §10.4 we discuss the case Riemannian manifolds possessing sequences of eigen-
functions achieving the maximal allowed growth for large p. The case of small p
is not understood in general. Lp norms of quantum integrable eigenfunctions are
discussed in §11.6.
zero, there are many results on the semiclassical limits of the L2 mass. Virtually
nothing is known for more general E such as Cantor sets of positive measure. It is
possible to allow E to depend on ~ and to let it shrink at a specified rate as ~ → 0.
Such “small-scale mass” is closely related to Lp norms.
The diagonal matrix elements
(1.42) ρj (A) := hAϕj , ϕj i
of an observable A (i.e. a bounded operator on L2 (M )) are interpreted in quantum
mechanics as the expected value of the observable A in the energy state ϕj . The
off-diagonal matrix elements
(1.43) ρjk (A) = hAϕi , ϕj i, (j 6= k)
are interpreted as transition amplitudes. Here, and below, an amplitude is a com-
plex number whose modulus square is a probability.
There is a special class of observables A for which it is possible to study semiclas-
sical limits of matrix elements (1.42), namely (various kinds of) pseudo-differential
operators Op~ (a) = a(x, ~D). Such operators are understood as ‘quantizations’
of classical observables, namely functions a(x, ξ) on phase space. For instance,
one may let a(x, ξ) = 1E (x, ξ) where E ⊂ T ∗ M is a nice Borel set. Then (1.42)
measures the phase space mass of the eigenfunction in E, i.e., the probability
(1.44) h1E ϕj , ϕj i
that its (position, momentum) = (x, ξ) belong to E. Just as ϕj determines the
probability measure (1.23) on configuration space, so it also induces probability
measures on phase space.
If we fix the quantization a → Op~ (a), then the matrix elements can be rep-
resented by Wigner distributions. In the diagonal case, we define Wk ∈ D0 (T ∗ M )
by
Z
(1.45) a dWk := hOp~ (a)ϕk , ϕk i.
T ∗M
Here, we are using semiclassical pseudo-differential operators (see [DSj, Zw]). If
we use homogeneous pseudo-differential operators, the Wigner distributions may
be defined as distributions on the unit co-sphere bundle S ∗ M .
The basic compactness theorem regarding the sequence of probability measures
(1.23) or their microlocal lifts is simply the compactness of probability measures
in the weak* topology. As the name suggests, weak* convergence is a very weak
type of convergence and it is difficult to determine many concrete properties of
eigenfunctions even from knowledge of the limit measures.
The Wigner distributions (also called microlocal lifts) dWk defined by (1.45) of
course depend on the choice of Op(a). If a is chosen to be homogeneous of degree
0 on T ∗ M − {0} (the zero section) then one can arrange that dwk ∈ D0 (S ∗ M ). In
the semiclassical setting one deals with non-homogeneous symbols. Eigenfunctions
localize on the ‘energy surface’ {H = 1}, i.e., on the unit co-sphere bundle Sg∗ M in
the case of the Laplacian, and the corresponding microlocal lifts concentrate there.
Problem 1.4. Determine the set Q of ‘quantum limits,’ i.e., weak* limit points
of the sequence {dWk }.
The set Q is independent of the definition of quantization a → Op(a). The
simplest examples are the exponentials on a flat torus Rm /Zm . By definition of
pseudo-differential operator, Ae2πihk,xi = a(x, k)e2πihk,xi where a(x, k) is the com-
plete symbol. Thus,
k
Z Z
(1.50) hAe2πihk,xi , e2πihk,xi i = a(x, k)dx ∼ σA x, dx.
Rn /Zn Rn /Zn |k|
k
A subsequence e2πihkj ,xi of eigenfunctions has a weak limit if and only if |kjj | tends
to Ra limit vector ξ0 in the unit sphere in Rn . In this case, the associated weak* limit
is Rn /Zn σA (x, ξ0 )dx, i.e., the delta-function on the invariant torus Tξ0 ⊂ S ∗ M for
Gt , defined by the constant momentum condition ξ = ξ0 . The eigenfunctions are
said to localize on this invariant torus. Given ξ0 , we can always define a sequence
k
kj so that |kjj | → ξ0 , and thus, every invariant torus measure arises as a quantum
limit.
In general, there are many possible limit measures. The most important are:
(1) Normalized Liouville measure µL . In fact, the functional ω of integration
against normalized Liouville measure is also a state on Ψ0 for the reason
explained above. A subsequence {ϕjk } of eigenfunctions is considered
diffuse if ρjk → ω.
(2) A periodic orbit measure µγ defined by µγ (A) = L1γ γ σA ds where Lγ
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So the elderly nurse knitted over the sleeping baby in Regent’s Park.
So Peter Walsh snored.
He woke with extreme suddenness, saying to himself, “The death of
the soul.”
“Lord, Lord!” he said to himself out loud, stretching and opening his
eyes. “The death of the soul.” The words attached themselves to
some scene, to some room, to some past he had been dreaming of.
It became clearer; the scene, the room, the past he had been
dreaming of.
It was at Bourton that summer, early in the ’nineties, when he was so
passionately in love with Clarissa. There were a great many people
there, laughing and talking, sitting round a table after tea and the
room was bathed in yellow light and full of cigarette smoke. They
were talking about a man who had married his housemaid, one of
the neighbouring squires, he had forgotten his name. He had
married his housemaid, and she had been brought to Bourton to call
—an awful visit it had been. She was absurdly over-dressed, “like a
cockatoo,” Clarissa had said, imitating her, and she never stopped
talking. On and on she went, on and on. Clarissa imitated her. Then
somebody said—Sally Seton it was—did it make any real difference
to one’s feelings to know that before they’d married she had had a
baby? (In those days, in mixed company, it was a bold thing to say.)
He could see Clarissa now, turning bright pink; somehow
contracting; and saying, “Oh, I shall never be able to speak to her
again!” Whereupon the whole party sitting round the tea-table
seemed to wobble. It was very uncomfortable.
He hadn’t blamed her for minding the fact, since in those days a girl
brought up as she was, knew nothing, but it was her manner that
annoyed him; timid; hard; something arrogant; unimaginative;
prudish. “The death of the soul.” He had said that instinctively,
ticketing the moment as he used to do—the death of her soul.
Every one wobbled; every one seemed to bow, as she spoke, and
then to stand up different. He could see Sally Seton, like a child who
has been in mischief, leaning forward, rather flushed, wanting to talk,
but afraid, and Clarissa did frighten people. (She was Clarissa’s
greatest friend, always about the place, totally unlike her, an
attractive creature, handsome, dark, with the reputation in those
days of great daring and he used to give her cigars, which she
smoked in her bedroom. She had either been engaged to somebody
or quarrelled with her family and old Parry disliked them both equally,
which was a great bond.) Then Clarissa, still with an air of being
offended with them all, got up, made some excuse, and went off,
alone. As she opened the door, in came that great shaggy dog which
ran after sheep. She flung herself upon him, went into raptures. It
was as if she said to Peter—it was all aimed at him, he knew—“I
know you thought me absurd about that woman just now; but see
how extraordinarily sympathetic I am; see how I love my Rob!”
They had always this queer power of communicating without words.
She knew directly he criticised her. Then she would do something
quite obvious to defend herself, like this fuss with the dog—but it
never took him in, he always saw through Clarissa. Not that he said
anything, of course; just sat looking glum. It was the way their
quarrels often began.
She shut the door. At once he became extremely depressed. It all
seemed useless—going on being in love; going on quarrelling; going
on making it up, and he wandered off alone, among outhouses,
stables, looking at the horses. (The place was quite a humble one;
the Parrys were never very well off; but there were always grooms
and stable-boys about—Clarissa loved riding—and an old coachman
—what was his name?—an old nurse, old Moody, old Goody, some
such name they called her, whom one was taken to visit in a little
room with lots of photographs, lots of bird-cages.)
It was an awful evening! He grew more and more gloomy, not about
that only; about everything. And he couldn’t see her; couldn’t explain
to her; couldn’t have it out. There were always people about—she’d
go on as if nothing had happened. That was the devilish part of her
—this coldness, this woodenness, something very profound in her,
which he had felt again this morning talking to her; an
impenetrability. Yet Heaven knows he loved her. She had some
queer power of fiddling on one’s nerves, turning one’s nerves to
fiddle-strings, yes.
He had gone in to dinner rather late, from some idiotic idea of
making himself felt, and had sat down by old Miss Parry—Aunt
Helena—Mr. Parry’s sister, who was supposed to preside. There she
sat in her white Cashmere shawl, with her head against the window
—a formidable old lady, but kind to him, for he had found her some
rare flower, and she was a great botanist, marching off in thick boots
with a black collecting-box slung between her shoulders. He sat
down beside her, and couldn’t speak. Everything seemed to race
past him; he just sat there, eating. And then half-way through dinner
he made himself look across at Clarissa for the first time. She was
talking to a young man on her right. He had a sudden revelation.
“She will marry that man,” he said to himself. He didn’t even know
his name.
For of course it was that afternoon, that very afternoon, that
Dalloway had come over; and Clarissa called him “Wickham”; that
was the beginning of it all. Somebody had brought him over; and
Clarissa got his name wrong. She introduced him to everybody as
Wickham. At last he said “My name is Dalloway!”—that was his first
view of Richard—a fair young man, rather awkward, sitting on a
deck-chair, and blurting out “My name is Dalloway!” Sally got hold of
it; always after that she called him “My name is Dalloway!”
He was a prey to revelations at that time. This one—that she would
marry Dalloway—was blinding—overwhelming at the moment. There
was a sort of—how could he put it?—a sort of ease in her manner to
him; something maternal; something gentle. They were talking about
politics. All through dinner he tried to hear what they were saying.
Afterwards he could remember standing by old Miss Parry’s chair in
the drawing-room. Clarissa came up, with her perfect manners, like a
real hostess, and wanted to introduce him to some one—spoke as if
they had never met before, which enraged him. Yet even then he
admired her for it. He admired her courage; her social instinct; he
admired her power of carrying things through. “The perfect hostess,”
he said to her, whereupon she winced all over. But he meant her to
feel it. He would have done anything to hurt her after seeing her with
Dalloway. So she left him. And he had a feeling that they were all
gathered together in a conspiracy against him—laughing and talking
—behind his back. There he stood by Miss Parry’s chair as though
he had been cut out of wood, he talking about wild flowers. Never,
never had he suffered so infernally! He must have forgotten even to
pretend to listen; at last he woke up; he saw Miss Parry looking
rather disturbed, rather indignant, with her prominent eyes fixed. He
almost cried out that he couldn’t attend because he was in Hell!
People began going out of the room. He heard them talking about
fetching cloaks; about its being cold on the water, and so on. They
were going boating on the lake by moonlight—one of Sally’s mad
ideas. He could hear her describing the moon. And they all went out.
He was left quite alone.
“Don’t you want to go with them?” said Aunt Helena—old Miss Parry!
—she had guessed. And he turned round and there was Clarissa
again. She had come back to fetch him. He was overcome by her
generosity—her goodness.
“Come along,” she said. “They’re waiting.”
He had never felt so happy in the whole of his life! Without a word
they made it up. They walked down to the lake. He had twenty
minutes of perfect happiness. Her voice, her laugh, her dress
(something floating, white, crimson), her spirit, her adventurousness;
she made them all disembark and explore the island; she startled a
hen; she laughed; she sang. And all the time, he knew perfectly well,
Dalloway was falling in love with her; she was falling in love with
Dalloway; but it didn’t seem to matter. Nothing mattered. They sat on
the ground and talked—he and Clarissa. They went in and out of
each other’s minds without any effort. And then in a second it was
over. He said to himself as they were getting into the boat, “She will
marry that man,” dully, without any resentment; but it was an obvious
thing. Dalloway would marry Clarissa.
Dalloway rowed them in. He said nothing. But somehow as they
watched him start, jumping on to his bicycle to ride twenty miles
through the woods, wobbling off down the drive, waving his hand
and disappearing, he obviously did feel, instinctively, tremendously,
strongly, all that; the night; the romance; Clarissa. He deserved to
have her.
For himself, he was absurd. His demands upon Clarissa (he could
see it now) were absurd. He asked impossible things. He made
terrible scenes. She would have accepted him still, perhaps, if he
had been less absurd. Sally thought so. She wrote him all that
summer long letters; how they had talked of him; how she had
praised him, how Clarissa burst into tears! It was an extraordinary
summer—all letters, scenes, telegrams—arriving at Bourton early in
the morning, hanging about till the servants were up; appalling tête-
à-têtes with old Mr. Parry at breakfast; Aunt Helena formidable but
kind; Sally sweeping him off for talks in the vegetable garden;
Clarissa in bed with headaches.
The final scene, the terrible scene which he believed had mattered
more than anything in the whole of his life (it might be an
exaggeration—but still so it did seem now) happened at three o’clock
in the afternoon of a very hot day. It was a trifle that led up to it—
Sally at lunch saying something about Dalloway, and calling him “My
name is Dalloway”; whereupon Clarissa suddenly stiffened,
coloured, in a way she had, and rapped out sharply, “We’ve had
enough of that feeble joke.” That was all; but for him it was precisely
as if she had said, “I’m only amusing myself with you; I’ve an
understanding with Richard Dalloway.” So he took it. He had not
slept for nights. “It’s got to be finished one way or the other,” he said
to himself. He sent a note to her by Sally asking her to meet him by
the fountain at three. “Something very important has happened,” he
scribbled at the end of it.
The fountain was in the middle of a little shrubbery, far from the
house, with shrubs and trees all round it. There she came, even
before the time, and they stood with the fountain between them, the
spout (it was broken) dribbling water incessantly. How sights fix
themselves upon the mind! For example, the vivid green moss.
She did not move. “Tell me the truth, tell me the truth,” he kept on
saying. He felt as if his forehead would burst. She seemed
contracted, petrified. She did not move. “Tell me the truth,” he
repeated, when suddenly that old man Breitkopf popped his head in
carrying the Times; stared at them; gaped; and went away. They
neither of them moved. “Tell me the truth,” he repeated. He felt that
he was grinding against something physically hard; she was
unyielding. She was like iron, like flint, rigid up the backbone. And
when she said, “It’s no use. It’s no use. This is the end”—after he
had spoken for hours, it seemed, with the tears running down his
cheeks—it was as if she had hit him in the face. She turned, she left
him, went away.