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Hadlea Dingledine
Dean Leonard
English 1201.2V7
25 January 2022
Life is like a puzzle, what is right? What is wrong? There isn’t a specific path that you
take, it has twists, turns, and possibly some cliffs. Let’s face it, we don’t have control over things
like chronic illness or injuries. I’ve learned that I have a choice to let life get me down or go with
the punches and grow stronger and faster from each experience. Perspective is a conscious
choice. Life happens, it’s how you respond to it. I choose to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I manage a chronic illness, social and emotional anxiety and on occasion, injuries that
come from playing sports. Sure, I could choose to give up soccer, but I’ve invested the better part
of my childhood in the sport and it saves me from myself on a daily basis. It’s how I manage my
stress level and it helps control the anxiety and panic attacks. I’ve learned to take the good with
the bad and overcome each situation stronger and more determined than before.
Last year, I got a concussion that took me off the field for exactly 11 months and out of
the game 13 months. I thought my soccer career was over. My mental health took a fast decline.
I ended up having to drop classes just so I could somewhat keep up with school. Now I’m taking
10 classes instead of the regular 7, so that I can graduate on time. After I was finally cleared to
exercise, it seemed like it took me forever to get back in shape. I felt physically weak, mentally
foggy, and socially exposed. It was a scary transition for me. I didn’t play like I felt I should
have, and I secretly struggled every day to get to practice. I felt like I was letting everyone down,
like the coach didn’t have faith in me and I felt like a failure. I felt like an outcast and wanted to
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hide. It was hard to put a smile on my face and fake it every day. My coach played me a few
games and then didn’t. I couldn’t understand why and she’s not the person you want to ask, or
she’ll bench you. I was frustrated, I wanted to quit. I thought, “Why am I killing myself when
she won’t even play me”. That’s where choosing to see that light I was talking about comes in.
I tend to expect more of myself then anyone else ever does and I have to be mindful of
that on a daily basis. Truth be told, I was truly lucky to get back in the game as quick as I did.
My counselor helped to create a schedule that would allow me to graduate on time and play
soccer. I had a rigorous soccer schedule that allowed me to fast track my fitness in order to get
back on the field, get some good touches on the ball and watch the game from an outside
perspective which helped to fine tune the fogginess I was experiencing. If I didn’t have anxiety, I
mindful and concentrate on the good things that are happening in my favor. I was given the
opportunity to be part of the team and come back from an injury at my pace, ok, maybe a little
bit slower than my pace but either way; I had my cleats on the field. I returned with grit and
determination to be strong both mentally and physically and I did just that! I ended the high
school season, ready to start my select season and showcase the many years of training that I
have invested. I feel mentally and physically fit and confident to do my job. I’m thankful for the
It’s important to be mindful and take one day at a time, know that you are not alone and
lean on your friends and family for strength and support. If you’re like me, you have to work
hard and fight to consciously remain positive because the negativity will eat you alive if you let
it. I didn’t say that looking for the light comes fast or easy for me, but it always comes. I choose
to control the storm in my head, I chose me. I will always choose to see the good in the situation
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and I’ve learned that each lesson is an opportunity to grow from. I will fight my way back