When I was grade 10 I’m a type of a student who doesn’t have any

achievements I am an average person , I am a student that studying is important

but I don’t focus wishing to have an achievements like medal , doing my best and
make my grades good and doesn’t fail it makes me satisfied and overwhelmed
this is my capability I didn’t expect so high to my self because I feel so pressure,
I am not smart unlike my other classmate some of them are competitor and I am
so proud to them that they can handle so much pressure to their self . When I
receive my first grading card , I didn’t expect that my average would be 88 , my
expectation would be 85 or less so it makes me feel that “ ow I can make 88 in
that first grading , I feel so happy to my classmate who achieve their awards
there was a point that I feel jealous in my entire I don’t see my self that I can be a
honor student , I feel sad at the same time that I cann’t stop thinking and wishing
I was like them , I became low self-esteem , I challenge my self to do my best
again but not like my first grade I would be more productive and double my
effort , I feel so pressure of course but I just want to prove that may 88 average
would became higher in second grade I feel so much disappoint to my self that I
feel so weak , I put so much effort but my effort didn’t meet the standard , my
grade is 89.25 I am near to 90 so in third grade , I am not sure if I am going to get
it high so like in my second grade , I put effort and especially I became more
confident so I decided again.

So in our classroom some of my classmate who was a top student I

notice that they are cheating I didn’t think that they are going to do that to
maintain their grades and to make their score high in every quizzes . There’s a
conscience in my self that I want to stop them from doing that . In exam day my
classmate called me and my friend give us a paper that have an answer in every
number ,our classmates told us that subject is AP so we shocked we think that
this is a scratch so we immediately exchange it , we didn’t expect to see that , I
feel so guilt , my other friend pick the paper to our classmates and tore it up ,
she scolded us because she think that we accepted that , she told us that we
reviewed together we don’t need to cheat to pass that exam , we explain to her
that we didn’t expect to see that we are not aware that the paper have an
answer.