INGOSAN, XYJI MAVE February 7, 2023

BSCRIM -2B

GREATEST FRUSTRATION IN LIFE

In our life, there is happiness and there is frustration, and it is normal for human beings to
experience this kind of situation. As for me I also encounter this kind of event but the focus was
my greatest frustration in life. When I was a kid or during our elementary days it was normal for
the teachers to shame the student if they made a mistake, commit a faulty situation, or even just
were the fact that being late because we need to walk for us to reach our school since a public
vehicle is not common in our province. So every school day I was late and our teacher always
scold me and shamming my identity. That’s the reason how I built my low self-esteem and my
low competitiveness, I easily doubt myself or my ideas just a mere question of my classmates
back then if they question my idea I don’t have the courage the defend it so I just disregard my
ideas and just agree to my classmate, especially in group work. Even in high school every time
they ask for my opinion my heart suddenly burst in its beating that’s why it’s hard for me to
think since I am occupied with calming my heart rate. And the same routine if I can’t say a word
my classmate looks at me with a disgusted face and I continue to think that I’m the lowest of low
luckily when I reach grade ten (10) we have a subject that dealt with education on human
(education sa pag papakatao). They teach oh how to build a character for you to use in dealing
with a certain situation that’s why I’m so intrigue by this subject and I focus on understanding
this subject and somewhat build up my character. But sometimes if I think about it during my
childhood till my teens, what if my self-esteem is not that low? what if I indeed believe in myself
back then? What if I didn’t hesitate and just grab those opportunities ahead of me? What might
happen to my life? Do I have a great life? So I considered this as my greatest frustration in life
since even now I’m being bothered by this question, I’m being hunted by those missed
opportunities that might happen to me if I just those opportunities or the instances that benefited
me during my childhood don’t have a bad personality or low self-esteem. So I came up with the
conclusion that if I indeed manage to encounter that subject in an early phase of my childhood, I
may not have difficulties in dealing with problems or situations since I have confidence in facing
it. But as of now I somewhat managing this frustrating situation, slowly but surely my
confidence is being built up just like always trying to participate and do my best when it comes
to recitation and trying to socialize since socializing helps in building self-esteem.