As the day I turn into ashes, my life has fullfil the duties that was needed to be done, all

of the
sufferings that turn into poets and all of the pain will come at ease. as my speech go along I
don’t want to see people crying in pain, I don’t want any sad song in my funeral because my life
is full of darkness and I don’t want to bring it in the day the I will die, I always say that if I will be
dead now or later because we didn’t even no what time will happen. I want to be just on my
bed dead not into accident or any sickness will happen. And also I want to see all of my friends,
love ones especially my family, and relatives I know that I am not a perfect son to my family I
endure all the pain, the hurtful words that my parents told me and I didn’t even say a pinch of
word back to them, I am that kind of person who is all of the hurtful words will be kept as
possible and not any words will be release through my mouth, because I belive that no matter I
say they will no longer listen,

Gusto ko lang naman pagnamatay ako yung masaya yung nagawa ko na lahat ng gusto ko tapos
marinig ko na proud ang parents ko sa akin, kase I believe kahit anong gawin ko hindi nila
nakikita yung worth ko kahit isakripisyo ko na buhay ko at kahit anong galling ko hindi nila ito
makikita sino ba naman ako, ako lang naman ang gitnang anak nila na kahit anong gawin hindi
parin sapat ang pagmamahal na binibigay ko mga achievements ko, at lagging nacocompara sa
ibang tao at sa mga kapatid ko, I feel this nung time na hindi na ako nagkaroon ng achievements
when it comes to school, merong isang malaking adjustment sa akin nung lumipat ako ng smag
nung grade 7, kase yung dati kong school 5 lang kami sa klase then hind advance yung mga
lesson na itinuturo sa min, then as time goes by grade 7 lagi kong nakikit ang pagkadismaya nila
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