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Front Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Summer
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Autumn
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Winter
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Spring
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Summer
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter Forty
Chapter Forty-One
Chapter Forty-Two
Autumn
Chapter Forty-Three
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Back Cover
For Tyler. You are my sun.
Summer
Chapter One
“Being an Everwitch means two things: you are powerful, and you
are dangerous.”
—A Season for Everything
Everything is burning, so many flames it looks as if we set the sky
on fire. The sun has long since vanished, hidden behind a haze of
smoke and ash, but its magic still rushes through me.
The fire has been raging for six days. It started with the smallest
spark and became all-consuming in the span of a breath, flames
spreading chaotic and fast, as if they were being chased.
Starting the fire was easy. But putting it out is something else
entirely.
It’s our last wildfire training of the season, and it’s more intense
than all the other training sessions combined. The fire is larger. The
flames are higher. And the earth is drier.
But wildfires are a threat we now have to deal with, so we must
learn. There are more than one hundred witches from all over the
world here on campus to take this training.
The other witches help. The springs provide fuel, growing acres
and acres of pines to sustain the fire. The winters pull moisture from
the trees, and the autumns stand along the perimeter of the training
field, ensuring the fire doesn’t spread beyond it.
We have to learn, but that doesn’t mean we’re going to burn
down our entire campus in the process.
The rest is up to the summers, and we have one job: make it rain.
It’s not easy. The winters pulled so much water from the ground
that it feels more like sawdust than dirt.
My eyes sting, and a layer of ash clings to the sweat on my face.
My head is tipped back, hands outstretched, energy flowing through
my veins. Summer magic is a constant rush, strong and powerful,
and I push it toward the forest, where water soaks the earth and a
lazy stream moves through the trees. The power of the witches
around me follows, and I send it deeper into the woods.
It weaves around trees and skims the forest floor until it finds a
particularly wet stretch of earth. Goose bumps rise along my skin as
the heat of my magic collides with the cold moisture. There’s enough
water here to coax from the ground and into the clouds, enough to
vanquish the fire and clear the air of smoke.
This is the first time I’ve been involved in a group training session
since I was on this same field last year, practicing with my best
friend. Since the magic inside me rushed toward her in a flash of
light, as bright as the fire in front of me. Since she screamed so
loudly the sound still echoes in my ears.
I try to push the memory away, but my whole body trembles with
it.
“Keep your focus, Clara.” Mr. Hart’s voice is steady and sure,
coming from behind me. “You can do this.”
I take a deep breath and refocus. My eyes are closed, but it isn’t
enough to erase the red and orange of the fire, a dull glow I’ll
continue to see long after the flames are out.
“Now,” Mr. Hart says.
The rest of the summers release their magic to me, weaving it into
my own. I tense under the weight of it. Our combined power is far
stronger than individual streams flitting around the forest, the way a
tapestry is stronger than the individual threads within it.
But it’s so heavy.
Most witches could never support the weight of it. Only a witch
tied to all four seasons can control that much magic. Evers are rare,
though, and our teachers didn’t have one in their generation—I’m
the first in over a hundred years—so this is a learning process for us
all. But it doesn’t feel right, holding the magic of so many witches.
It never does.
“Deep breaths, Clara,” Mr. Hart says. “You’ve got this.”
My hands shake. It’s so hot, heat from the fire mixing with heat
from the sun. The magic around me hangs heavy on my own, and I
focus all my energy on pulling moisture from the ground.
Finally, a small cloud forms above the trees.
“That’s it. Nice and easy,” Mr. Hart says.
The cloud gets bigger, darker. Magic swells inside me, ready to be
released, and the sheer power of it makes me dizzy. It’s a terrible
feeling, like I’m on the brink of losing control.
I’ve lost control twice before. The terror that haunts my dreams is
enough to ensure it will never happen again.
Sweat beads on my skin, and I have to work hard for each shallow
breath, as if I’m breathing atop Mount Everest instead of in a field in
Pennsylvania.
I temper the flow and give myself three good breaths. Just three.
Then I start again.
Ash falls from the sky instead of rain, flames leaping toward the
heavens as if they’re taunting me.
I find my thread of magic hovering above the forest floor. I let
enough energy flow from my fingertips to keep it going, but no more
than that.
“Rain,” I whisper.
Water rises from the ground and cools. Tiny droplets form, and all
I have to do is combine them until they’re too heavy to stay in the
air.
That’s it. I can do this.
I pull the cloud away from the trees, closer and closer to the
flames until it hovers above the heart of the fire.
Power moves all around me like a cyclone, and I send it spiraling
into the air, toward the droplets that are so close to being rain.
More magic surges inside me, desperate to get out, stealing my
breath. There’s a deep well of it, but I’m terrified of letting go,
terrified of what could happen if I do. I send out a small stream of
magic that does nothing to ease the pressure building inside me,
and I force the rest back down.
It isn’t enough.
The rain cloud flickers, threatening to undo all the progress I’ve
made. It needs more energy.
“Stop fighting it,” Mr. Hart says behind me. “Just let it happen.
You’re in control.”
But he’s wrong. Letting go would be like breaking a dam and
hoping the water knows where to go. I know better than that. I
know the devastation my power can cause.
There are so many sets of eyes on me, on the rain cloud churning
above the fire. I split my focus between controlling the flow of my
own magic and commanding everyone else’s, but it doesn’t feel
right.
I can’t do it anymore.
I won’t.
The thread of magic collapses, energy thrashing every which way
like a loose fire hose.
A collective groan moves through the witches around me. My arms
fall to my sides, and my legs buckle beneath me, the pressure no
longer holding me up. I sink to the ground, and heavy exhaustion
replaces everything else. I could sleep right here, on the sawdust
earth, surrounded by witches and fire.
I close my eyes as Mr. Hart’s steady voice begins directing the
other witches.
“Okay, everyone in the northeast corner, you’re with Emily.
Northwest, Josh. Southeast, Lee, and southwest, Grace. Let’s get
this fire out.” Mr. Hart keeps his tone even, but after working with
him for over a year, I know he’s disappointed.
After several minutes, four strong threads of magic are restored,
and the cloud above the fire gets larger and darker. Emily, Josh, Lee,
and Grace make upward motions with their hands, and all the water
they’ve extracted from the ground rises into the atmosphere, going
up, up, up.
They clap in unison, and the droplets of water combine, too heavy
to remain in the air.
I look up. When the first raindrop lands on my cheek, a sick
feeling moves through my body. It took four of our strongest witches
to do what should have been natural for me. Easy, even.
Another raindrop falls.
And another.
Then the sky opens up.
Cheers rise all around me, the sound mixing with that of the rain.
People clap each other on the back and hug. Josh pulls me up from
the ground and wraps his arms around my waist, twirling me
through the air as if I didn’t just fail in front of the entire school.
My hair is soaked, and my clothes cling to my skin. Josh sets me
down and high-fives the other witches around him.
“We did it,” he says, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and
kissing my temple.
But a training exercise is nothing compared to the unrestrained
wildfires burning through California. We’re going to graduate this
year, and then it’ll be up to us to fight the real fires. And they’re
getting worse.
Witches have controlled the atmosphere for hundreds of years,
keeping everything steady and calm. We’ve always succeeded.
We’ve always been strong enough.
But the shaders—those without magic—were swept away by the
possibilities of a world protected by it, of a world where every
square inch could be used for gain. They began to push the limits of
our power and our atmosphere. At first, we went along with it,
caught up in their excitement. Then their excitement turned to
greed, and they refused to slow down, ignoring our warnings and
charging ahead, behaving as if magic were infinite. As if this planet
were infinite. Now they’ve overplayed their hand.
We’ve tried to adapt and handle the shifting atmosphere on our
own, but we can’t keep up; it’s as if we’re blowing out candles when
the whole house is on fire. When we realized that what the world
needed was rest, we pleaded with the shaders and pleaded for our
home. But we were outnumbered. The shaders couldn’t see past
their desire for more, developing land that humans were never
meant to touch, requiring control in areas that were only ever meant
to be wild.
There isn’t enough magic to support it all.
And now the atmosphere is collapsing around us.
Three years ago, we didn’t train this hard for wildfires. They
spread and caused damage, but the witches were always able to put
them out before they became devastating. Now there aren’t enough
of us to manage all the ways the Earth is pushing back. I think about
the acres of land that burned this year in California and Canada,
Australia and South Africa, and it’s so clear. It’s so painfully clear.
We aren’t strong enough anymore, and the administration is
relying on me to make a difference, to make the difference.
But they really shouldn’t.
By the time graduation comes, I won’t be able to make any
difference at all.
Chapter Two
“Just remember: the choices you make today will be felt by who you
have yet to become.”
—A Season for Everything
I stay in the field for a long time. The ground is covered in ash, with
scattered embers sending trails of smoke toward the clouds. It’s
hard to believe our Summer Ball was just three nights ago, a thin
tent set up in this very field to honor the end of the season.
The sun has dipped below the horizon, and everything is quiet.
These are the last moments of summer. The equinox is tonight,
and witches will flood the gardens to welcome autumn’s arrival. The
summers will mourn the end of their season, and the autumns will
celebrate.
I hear footsteps behind me and turn to see Mr. Hart walking over
the charred remains of the field. The springs will be out here in full
force tomorrow, and the grass will grow back in a matter of days. In
a week, there will be no traces of the wildfire left.
Mr. Hart sets down a blanket and sits on top, watching the plumes
of smoke with me. After several minutes he says, “What happened
out there today?”
“I’m not strong enough.” I don’t look at him.
“It isn’t a matter of strength, Clara. For as long as I’ve been in
charge of your education, you’ve held yourself back.” I open my
mouth to object, but he holds his hand up, silencing me. “I’ve been
doing this a long time. Most of my students have to fight to get their
magic out. I know what that looks like. But you’re constantly fighting
against it, trying to keep it in. Why?”
I stare at the barren field in front of me.
“You know why,” I whisper. He wasn’t here when my best friend
died, when my magic sought her out and killed her in one instant,
one single breath. But he’s heard the stories. And yet, he has never
shied away from me. When he was brought in to take over my
education, he never worried that he might share Nikki’s fate.
He moved toward me when everyone else moved away.
“There’s too much of it,” I say. “I’m not in control.”
“And you’ll never be in control if you don’t let me teach you. Do
you really want to live in fear of who you are for the rest of your
life? Control doesn’t come from avoiding the power you have, Clara;
it comes from mastering it. Imagine the good you could do if you
were to dedicate yourself to that.”
“How can I dedicate myself to something that has taken so much
from me?” I ask.
Mr. Hart keeps his eyes straight ahead. He shoves his wire-framed
glasses up his nose, and moonlight reflects off his frizzy white hair.
“At some point, you have to stop punishing yourself for the things
you can’t change. Learning to use your magic does not mean you
accept the loss it has caused. You have to stop equating the two.”
“You say that like it’s easy.”
“It’s not. It’s probably the hardest thing you’ll ever do.”
Tears burn my eyes, and I look down. I’ve never cried in front of
Mr. Hart, and I don’t want to start now.
“Then why do it?”
“Because you deserve some peace.”
But he’s wrong. I don’t deserve peace.
I know Mr. Hart is getting pressure from the administration. But he
never pushes me to go further than I’m comfortable with. He meets
me where I am. But I should be the most powerful witch alive by
now, and the school is starting to lose patience, with him and me.
“Besides, aren’t you tired?”
“Tired?” I ask.
“It takes a lot of energy to fight your magic, so much more than it
would take to use it.”
“Can’t you just tell everyone my magic doesn’t work?”
“No one would buy that. It’s there, Clara, whether you want it to
be or not. We need you.”
I’m silent. The school pushes me as if I’m the answer, as if I can
single-handedly restore stability in the atmosphere. But if that were
true, if I were supposed to use all the power within me, it would
never target the people I love. It wouldn’t come with a death
sentence.
It has taken so much, too much, and I hate my magic because of
it.
“Look at me.” Mr. Hart faces me, and I meet his eyes. “What did I
tell you when we started working together?”
“You’ll never lie to me. You’ll tell it like it is.”
He nods. “This is how it is.”
We’re quiet for a long time. Darkness has all but enveloped the
field, and stars shine brightly overhead. A breeze picks up in the
distance, blowing the remaining smoke out toward the trees.
“Yes, I’m tired,” I finally say, my voice nothing more than a
whisper. “I’m so tired.”
For the first time, Mr. Hart sees me cry.
***
It’s late by the time I get to my small cabin in the woods. Its
shingles are weathered and old, but the two small windows are clear
as crystal. They’re the only way light gets into the small space, and I
clean them almost obsessively. The cabin was built for the
groundskeeper fifty years ago, but he married and moved off
campus, and it sat empty for years.
Until I moved in. I dusted the cobwebs from the cracked white
ceiling and scrubbed the walls until the dust was gone and the warm
wooden planks were bright. But no matter how much I clean, I’ve
never been able to get rid of the musty smell. I’m used to it by now.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever stop aching when I pass the dorms
where everyone else lives. I was living in Summer House when Nikki
died, and the administration forced me to move to the little cabin
beyond the gardens.
At first I was devastated. Moving out of the dorm where Nikki had
lived felt like losing her again. But I understood why I couldn’t be
there anymore.
When someone dies because you love them too fiercely, you turn
off the part of yourself that knows how to love. Then you move to a
cabin away from other people and make sure it never happens
again.
I push the door open, and the floor creaks when I walk inside.
Josh is waiting for me, sitting in my desk chair. Equinox is next to
him, shoving his black head into Josh’s side, purring.
“What are you doing here?”
“It’s my last night. I want to spend it with you.” He scratches Nox’s
head. “And you, Nox,” he adds. His accent gets heavy when he’s
tired. Tomorrow, he’ll fly back to his campus in the English
countryside, and we won’t see each other again.
He got here three weeks ago for the wildfire training. He didn’t
heed the warnings about me because he’s arrogant, and I didn’t
stop him because there was no risk of me loving him.
Maybe years ago there would have been, but not anymore.
Besides, tonight is the equinox, and when summer turns to
autumn, any affection I have for Josh will fade. It’s a consequence of
being an Everwitch—being tied to all four seasons means I change
with them.
Tomorrow morning, my feelings for Josh will disappear, just in
time for him to fly home to London.
But right now it’s still summer, and what I want more than
anything is the false comfort of his warm body next to mine.
“Then stay,” I say.
I take Josh’s hand, and he follows me the three steps to the bed.
He tugs me close to him, brushes his lips against my neck.
Until this moment, I didn’t realize how much I needed this,
needed him. I close my eyes and let go of the heaviness of the day.
It will be waiting for me in the morning, but for now, all I want is to
shut off my brain, shut off the worries and expectations and
crushing guilt that rule my waking thoughts.
I pull Josh onto the bed, and his weight on top of me replaces
everything else. For one more night, I can pretend I’m not so lonely
that it has practically hollowed me out.
For one more night, I can pretend I remember what it feels like to
love someone. To be loved in return.
So I do. I pretend.
We fill the darkness with heavy breaths and tangled limbs and
swollen lips, and by the time the moon reaches its highest point in
the sky, Josh is asleep beside me.
The autumnal equinox is in seven minutes.
In seven minutes and one second, the reality of my life will come
crashing down on me. My magic will morph to align with autumn,
and I will be a more distant version of myself.
Suddenly, I’m furious, searing-hot rage coursing through me. It
isn’t enough that I’m dangerous, that my magic seeks out those
closest to me. I’m also forced to change with the seasons and watch
versions of myself drift away like leaves trapped in a current.
My skin gets hot, and my breaths come shallow and quick. I try
my best to calm down, but something inside me is breaking. I’m so
sick of losing things.
Of losing myself.
The sun will pull me to autumn the way the moon pulls the tide.
My chest is tight. There’s an ache so deep, so strong within me
I’m sure it’s radiating out my back and into Josh’s stomach.
Four more minutes.
My body hurts from trying to stay still, perfectly still, so Josh
doesn’t see how torn up I am. He shifts behind me and tightens his
arm, pulling me close to his chest.
The room is silent except for his slow, even breathing, and I try to
match my breaths to his.
Thirty seconds.
I scoot back into Josh, getting as close as possible, no space left
between us.
This time, I’m going to fight. I will hold on to Josh and refuse to
let go. The equinox will pass, and I’ll stay right here. I’ll want to stay
right here.
I grasp Josh’s arm, and he sleepily murmurs my name, nuzzles his
face into my hair.
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be severely injured, and until all hopes of her ever becoming a
mother are at an end.
158. The quiet retirement of her own home ought then to be her
greatest pleasure and her most precious privilege. Home is, or ought
to be, the kingdom of woman, and she should be the reigning
potentate. England is the only place in the world that truly knows
what home really means. The French have actually no word in their
language to express its meaning:
“That home, the sound we English love so well,
Has been as strange to me as to those nations
That have no word, they tell me, to express it.”[33]
161. Every young wife, let her station be ever so exalted, ought to
attend to her household duties. Her health, and consequently her
happiness, demand the exertion. The want of occupation—healthy,
useful occupation—is a fruitful source of discontent, of sin,[35] of
disease, and barrenness. If a young married lady did but know the
importance of occupation—how much misery might be averted, and
how much happiness might, by attending to her household duties, be
insured—she would appreciate the importance of the advice.
Occupation improves the health, drives away ennui, cheers the
hearth and home, and, what is most important, if household duties
be well looked after, her house becomes a paradise, and she the
ministering angel to her husband. But she might say—I cannot
always be occupied; it bores me; it is like a common person: I am a
lady; I was not made to work; I have neither the strength nor the
inclination for it; I feel weak and tired, nervous and spiritless, and
must have rest. I reply, in the expressive words of the poet, that—
“Absence of occupation is not rest,—
A mind quite vacant is a mind distress’d.”[36]
174. The mind, it is well known, exerts great influence over the
body in promoting health, and in causing and in curing disease. A
delicate woman is always nervous; she is apt to make mountains of
molehills; she is usually too prone to fancy herself worse than she
really is. I should recommend my gentle reader not to fall into this
error, and not to magnify every slight ache or pain. Let her, instead
of whining and repining, use the means which are within the reach of
all to strengthen her frame; let her give battle to the enemy; let her
fight him with the simple weapons indicated in these pages, and the
chances are she will come off victorious.
175. There is nothing like occupation, active occupation, to cure
slight pains—“constant occupation physics pain”—to drive away little
ailments, and the dread of sickness. “The dread of sickness,” says Dr.
Grosvenor, “is a distemper of itself, and the next disposition to a
many more. What a bondage does this keep some people in! ’Tis an
easy transition from the fear and fancy of being sick to sickness
indeed. In many cases there is but little difference between those
two. There is one so afraid of being ill that he would not stir out of
doors, and for want of air and exercise he contracts a distemper that
kills him.”
176. What a blessed thing is work! What a precious privilege for a
girl to have a mother who is both able and anxious to instruct her
daughter, from her girlhood upwards, in all household management
and duties! Unfortunately, in this our age girls are not either
educated or prepared to be made wives—useful, domesticated wives.
Accomplishments they have without number, but of knowledge of
the management of an establishment they are as ignorant as the babe
unborn. Verily, they and their unfortunate husbands and offspring
will in due time pay the penalty of their ignorance and folly! It is,
forsooth, unladylike for a girl to eat much; it is unladylike for her to
work at all; it is unladylike for her to take a long walk; it is unladylike
for her to go into the kitchen; it is unladylike for her to make her own
bed; it is unladylike for her to be useful; it is unladylike for her to
have a bloom upon her cheek like unto a milkmaid![40] All these are
said to be horridly low and vulgar, and to be only fit for the common
people! Away with such folly! The system of the bringing up of the
young ladies of the present day is “rotten to the core.”
177. If a young married lady, without having any actual disease
about her, be delicate and nervous, there is no remedy equal in value
to change of air—more especially to the sea-coast. The sea breezes,
and, if she be not pregnant, sea-bathing, frequently act like magic
upon her in restoring her to perfect health. I say, if she be not
pregnant; if she be, it would, without first obtaining the express
permission of a medical man, be highly improper for her to bathe.
178. A walk on the mountains is delightful to the feelings and
beneficial to the health. In selecting a sea-side resort, it is always,
where it be practicable, to have mountain-air as well as the sea
breeze. The mounting of high hills, if a lady be pregnant, would not
be desirable, as the exertion would be too great, and, if she be
predisposed, might bring on a miscarriage; but the climbing of hills
and mountains, if she be not enceinte, is most advantageous to
health, strengthening the frame, and exhilarating to the spirits.
Indeed, we may compare the exhilaration it produces to the drinking
of champagne, with this difference,—it is much more beneficial to
health than champagne, and does not leave, the next morning, as
champagne sometimes does, either a disagreeable taste in the mouth
or headache behind,—
“Oh, there is a sweetness in the mountain-air,
And life, that bloated ease can never hope to share!”[41]
190. There are two most important epochs in the life of a woman—
namely (1) the commencement, and (2) the close of menstruation.
Each is apt, unless carefully watched and prevented, to bring in its
train many serious diseases. Moreover, unless menstruation be
healthfully and properly performed, conception, as a rule, is not
likely to take place: hence the importance of our subject.
191. Menstruation—the appearance of the catamenia or the menses
—is then one of the most important epochs in a girl’s life. It is the
boundary line, the landmark, between childhood and womanhood; it
is the threshold, so to speak, of a woman’s life. Her body now
develops and expands, and her mental capacity enlarges and
improves. She then ceases to be a child, and she becomes a woman.
She is now for the first time, as a rule, able to conceive.
192. Although puberty has at this time commenced, it cannot be
said that she is at her full perfection; it takes eight or ten years more
to complete her organization, which will bring her to the age of
twenty-three or twenty-five years; which perhaps are the best ages
for a woman, if she have both the chance and the inclination, to
marry.
193. If she marry when very young, marriage weakens her system,
and prevents a full development of the body. Besides, if she marry
when she be only eighteen or nineteen, the bones of the pelvis—the
bones of the lower part of the belly—are not at that time sufficiently
developed; are not properly shaped for the purpose of labor; do not
allow of sufficient space for the head of the child to readily pass, as
though she were of the riper age of twenty-three or twenty-five. She
might have in consequence a severe and dangerous confinement. If
she marry late in life, say after she be thirty, the soft parts engaged in
parturition are more rigid and more tense, and thus become less
capable of dilatation, which might cause, for the first time, a hard
and tedious labor. Again, when she marries late in life, she might not
live to see her children grow up to be men and women. Moreover, as
a rule, “the offspring of those that are very young or very old lasts
not.” Everything, therefore, points out that the age above indicated—
namely, somewhere between twenty and thirty—is the most safe and
suitable time for a woman to marry.
194. Menstruation generally comes on once every month—that is
to say, every twenty-eight days; usually to the very day, and
frequently to the hour. Some ladies, instead of being “regular” every
month, are “regular” every three weeks.
195. Each menstruation continues from three to five days; in some
for a week; and in others for a longer period. It is estimated that,
during each menstruation, from four to six ounces is, on an average,
the quantity discharged.
196. A lady seldom conceives unless she be “regular,” although
there are cases on record where women have conceived who have
never been “unwell;” but such cases are extremely rare.
197. Menstruation in this country usually commences at the ages
of from thirteen to sixteen, sometimes earlier; occasionally as early
as eleven or twelve; at other times later, and not until a girl be
seventeen or eighteen years of age. Menstruation in large towns is
supposed to commence at an earlier period than in the country, and
earlier in luxurious than in simple life.[44]
198. Menstruation continues for thirty, and sometimes even for
thirty-five years; and, while it lasts, is a sign that a lady is liable to
become pregnant—unless, indeed, menstruation should be
protracted much beyond the usual period of time. As a rule, then,
when a woman “ceases to be unwell,” she ceases to have a family;
therefore, as menstruation usually leaves her at forty-five, it is
seldom, after that age, that she has a child.
199. I have known ladies become mothers when they have been
upwards of fifty years of age. I myself delivered a woman in her fifty-
first year of a fine healthy child. She had a kind and easy labor, and
was the mother of a large family, the youngest being at the time
twelve years old.[45] “Dr. Carpenter, of Durham, tells us that he has
attended in their confinements several women whose ages were fifty.
‘I well recollect a case occurring in my father’s practice in 1839,
where a woman became a widow at forty-nine years of age. Shortly
afterwards she married her second husband, and within twelve
months of this time gave birth to her first child. These cases belong
to the working classes. But I know of two others, where gentlewomen
became mothers at fifty-one with her first child, the other with her
eighth. I can say nothing of how they menstruated, but I know of a
virgin in whom the catamenia appeared regularly and undiminished
up to and at the end of sixty.’ Dr. Powell says that he last year
attended a woman in her fifty-second year; and Mr. Heckford, that
he attended a woman who stated her age to be at least fifty. Mr.
Clarke, of Mold, states that he has attended several women whose
ages were upwards of forty-four, and that he lately delivered a
woman of her first child at forty-eight. Mr. Bloxham, of Portsmouth,
delivered at fifty-two, in her first confinement, a woman who had
been married thirty-five years.”[46]
200. In very warm climates, such as in Abyssinia and in India, girls
menstruate when very young—at ten or eleven years old; indeed,
they are sometimes mothers at those ages.[47] But when it commences
early, it leaves early; so that they are old women at thirty. “Physically,
we know that there is a very large latitude of difference in the periods
of human maturity, not merely between individual and individual,
but also between nation and nation—differences so great that in
some southern regions of Asia we hear of matrons at the age of
twelve.”[48] Dr. Montgomery[49] brings forward some interesting cases
of early maturity. He says: “Bruce mentions that in Abyssinia he has
frequently seen mothers of eleven years of age; and Dunlop
witnessed the same in Bengal. Dr. Goodeve, Professor of Midwifery
at Calcutta, in reply to a query on the subject, said: ‘The earliest age
at which I have known a Hindu woman bear a child is ten years, but I
have heard of one at nine.’”
201. In cold climates, such as Russia, women begin to menstruate
late in life, frequently not until they are between twenty and thirty
years old; and, as it lasts on them thirty or thirty-five years, it is not
an unusual occurrence for them to bear children at a very advanced
age—even so late as sixty. They are frequently not “regular” oftener
than three or four times a year, and when it does occur the menstrual
discharge is generally sparing in quantity.
202. The menstrual fluid is not exactly blood, although, both in
appearance and in properties, it much resembles it; yet it never in
the healthy state clots as blood does. It is a secretion from the womb,
and, when healthy, ought to be of a bright-red color, in appearance
very much like blood from a recently cut finger.[50]
203. The menstrual fluid ought not, as before observed, to clot. If
it does, a lady, during menstruation, suffers intense pain; moreover,
she seldom conceives until the clotting has ceased. Application must
therefore, in such a case, be made to a medical man, who will soon
relieve the above painful symptoms, and, by doing so, will probably
pave the way to her becoming pregnant.
204. Menstruation ceases entirely in pregnancy, during suckling,
and usually both in diseased and in disordered states of the womb. It
also ceases in cases of extreme debility, and in severe illness,
especially in consumption; indeed, in the latter disease—
consumption—it is one of the most unfavorable of the symptoms.
205. It has been asserted, and by men of great experience, that
sometimes a woman menstruates during pregnancy. In this assertion
I cannot agree; it appears utterly impossible that she should be able
to do so. The moment she conceives, the neck of the womb becomes
plugged up by means of mucus; it is, in fact, hermetically sealed.
There certainly is sometimes a slight red discharge, looking very
much like menstrual fluid, and coming on at her monthly periods;
but being usually very sparing in quantity, and lasting only a day or
so, and sometimes only for an hour or two; but this discharge does
not come from the cavity of, but from some small vessels at, the
mouth of the womb, and is not menstrual fluid at all, but a few drops
of real blood. If this discharge came from the cavity of the womb, it
would probably lead to a miscarriage. My old respected and talented
teacher, the late Dr. D. D. Davis,[51] declared that it would be quite
impossible during pregnancy for menstruation to occur. He
considered that the discharge which was taken for menstruation
arose from the rupture of some small vessels about the mouth of the
womb.
206. Some ladies, though comparatively few, menstruate during
suckling; when they do, it may be considered not the rule, but the
exception. It is said, in such instances, that they are more likely to
conceive. Many persons have an idea that when a woman, during
lactation, menstruates, the milk is both sweeter and purer. Such is an
error. Menstruation during suckling is more likely to weaken the
mother, and consequently to deteriorate the milk. It therefore
behooves a parent never to take a wet nurse who menstruates during
the period of suckling.
207. A lady sometimes suffers severe pains both just before and
during her “poorly” times. When such be the case, she seldom
conceives until the pain be removed. She ought therefore to apply to
a medical man, as relief may soon be obtained. When she is freed
from the pain, she will, in all probability, in due time become
enceinte.
208. If a married woman have painful menstruation, even if she
become pregnant, she is more likely, in the early stage, to miscarry.
This is an important consideration, and requires the attention of a
doctor.
209. If a single lady, who is about to be married, have painful
menstruation, it is incumbent on either her mother or a female
friend to consult, two or three months before the marriage takes
place, an experienced medical man, on her case; if this be not done,
she will most likely, after marriage, either labor under ill health, or
be afflicted with barrenness, or, if she do conceive, be prone to
miscarry.
210. The menstrual discharge, as before remarked, ought, if
healthy, to be of the color of blood—of fresh, unclotted blood. If it be
either too pale (and it sometimes is almost colorless), or, on the
other hand, if it be both dark and thick (it is occasionally as dark, and
sometimes nearly as thick, as treacle), there will be but scant hopes
of a lady conceiving. A medical man ought, therefore, at once to be
consulted, who will in the generality of cases, be able to remedy the
defect. The chances are, that as soon as the defect be remedied, she
will become pregnant.
211. Menstruation at another time is too sparing; this is a frequent
cause of a want of family. Luckily a doctor is, in the majority of cases,
able to remedy the defect, and by doing so will probably be the
means of bringing the womb into a healthy state, and thus
predispose her to become a mother.
212. A married lady is very subject to the “whites;” the more there
will be of the “whites” the less there will usually be of the menstrual
discharge;—so that in a bad case of the “whites” menstruation might
entirely cease, until proper means be used both to restrain the one
and to bring back the other. Indeed, as a rule, if the menstrual
discharge, by proper treatment, be healthily established and
restored, the “whites” will often cease of themselves. Deficient
menstruation is a frequent cause of the “whites,” and the consequent
failure of a family; and as deficient menstruation is usually curable, a
medical man ought, in all such cases, to be consulted.
213. Menstruation at other times is either too profuse or too long
continued. Either the one or the other is a frequent source of
barrenness, and is also weakening to the constitution, and thus tends
to bring a lady into a bad state of health. This, like the former cases,
by judicious management may generally be rectified; and being
rectified, will in all probability result in the wife becoming a mother.
214. When a lady is neither pregnant nor “regular,” she ought
immediately to apply to a doctor, as she may depend upon it there is
something wrong about her, and that she is not likely to become
enceinte[52] until menstruation be properly established. As soon as
menstruation be duly and healthily established, pregnancy will most
likely, in due time, ensue.
215. When a lady is said to be “regular,” it is understood that she is
“regular” as to quality, and quantity, and time. If she be only
“regular” as to the time, and the quantity be either deficient or in
excess, or if she be “regular” as to the time, and the quality be bad,
either too pale or too dark; or if she be “regular” as to the quality and
quantity, and be irregular as to the time, she cannot be well; and the
sooner means are adopted to rectify the evil, the better it will be for
her health and happiness.
216. There is among young wives, of the higher ranks, of the
present time, an immense deal of hysteria; indeed it is, among them,
in one form or another, the most frequent complaint of the day. Can
it be wondered at? Certainly not. The fashionable system of spending
married life, such as late hours, close rooms, excitement, rounds of
visiting, luxurious living, is quite enough to account for its
prevalence. The menstrual functions in a case of this kind are not
duly performed; she is either too much or too little “unwell;”
menstruation occurs either too soon, or too late, or at irregular
periods. I need scarcely say that such a one, until a different order of
things be instituted, and until proper and efficient means be used to
restore healthy menstruation, is not likely to conceive; or, if she did
conceive, she would most likely either miscarry, or, if she did go her
time, bring forth a puny, delicate child. A fashionable wife and happy
mother are incompatibilities! Oh, it is sad to contemplate the
numerous victims that are sacrificed yearly on the shrine of fashion!
The grievous part of the business is, that fashion is not usually
amenable to reason and common sense; argument, entreaty, ridicule,
are each and all alike in turn powerless in the matter. Be that as it
might, I am determined boldly to proclaim the truth, and to make
plain the awful danger of a wife becoming a votary of fashion.
217. Many a lady, either from suppressed or from deficient
menstruation, who is now chlorotic, hysterical, and dyspeptic, weak
and nervous, looking wretchedly, and whose very life is a burden,
may, by applying to a medical man, be restored to health and
strength.
218. As soon as a lady “ceases to be after the manner of women”—
that is to say, as soon as she ceases to menstruate—it is said that she
has “a change of life;” and if she does not take care, she will soon
have “a change of health” to boot, which, in all probability, will be for
the worse.
219. After a period of about thirty years’ continuation of
menstruation, a woman ceases to menstruate; that is to say, when
she is about forty-four or forty-five years of age, and, occasionally, as
late in life as when she is forty-eight years of age, she has “change of
life,” or, as it is sometimes called, a “turn of years.” Now, before this
takes place, she oftentimes becomes very “irregular;” at one time she
is “regular” before her proper period; at another time either before or
after; so that it becomes a dodging time with her, as it is so styled. In
a case of this kind menstruation is sometimes very profuse; at
another it is very sparing; occasionally it is light colored, almost
colorless; sometimes it is as red as from a cut finger; while now and
then it is as black as ink.
220. When “change of life” is about, and during the time, and for
some time afterwards, a lady labors under, at times, great flushings
of heat; she, as it were, blushes all over; she goes very hot and red,
almost scarlet; then perspires; and afterwards becomes cold and
chilly. These flushings occur at very irregular periods; they might
come on once or twice a day, at other times only once or twice a
week, and occasionally only at what would have been her “poorly
times.” These flushings might be looked upon as rather favorable
symptoms, and as an effort of nature to relieve itself through the
skin. These flushings are occasionally, although rarely, attended with
hysterical symptoms. A little appropriate medicine is for these
flushings desirable. A lady while laboring under these heats is
generally both very much annoyed and distressed; but she ought to
comfort herself with the knowledge that they are in all probability
doing her good service, and that they might be warding off, from
some internal organ of her body, serious mischief.
221. “Change of life” is one of the most important periods of a
lady’s existence, and generally determines whether, for the rest of
her days, she shall either be healthy or otherwise; it therefore
imperatively behooves her to pay attention to the subject, and in all
cases when it is about taking place to consult a medical man, who
will, in the majority of cases, be of great benefit to her, as he will be
able to ward off many important and serious diseases to which she
would otherwise be liable. When “change of life” ends favorably,
which, if properly managed, it most likely will do, she may improve
in constitution, and may really enjoy better health and spirits, and
more comfort, then she has done for many previous years. A lady
who has during the whole of her wifehood eschewed fashionable
society, and who has lived simply, plainly, and sensibly, and who has
taken plenty of out-door exercise, will, during the autumn and winter
of life, reap her reward by enjoying what is the greatest earthly
blessing—health!
PART II.
PREGNANCY.
SIGNS OF PREGNANCY.
222. The first sign that leads a lady to suspect that she is pregnant
is her ceasing to be unwell. This, provided she has just before been in
good health, is a strong symptom of pregnancy; but still there must
be others to corroborate it.
223. The next symptom is morning sickness. This is one of the
earliest symptoms of pregnancy; as it sometimes occurs a few days,
and indeed generally not later than a fortnight or three weeks, after
conception. Morning sickness is frequently distressing, oftentimes
amounting to vomiting, and causing a loathing of breakfast. This sign
usually disappears after the first three or four months. Morning
sickness is not always present in pregnancy; but, nevertheless, it is a
frequent accompaniment; and many who have had families place
more reliance on this than on any other symptom.
224. A third symptom is shooting, throbbing, and lancinating
pains, and enlargement of the breasts, with soreness of the nipples,
occurring about the second month; and in some instances, after the
first few months, a small quantity of watery fluid, or a little milk, may
be squeezed out of them. This latter symptom, in a first pregnancy, is
valuable, and can generally be relied on as conclusive that the female
is pregnant. It is not so valuable in an after pregnancy, as a little milk
might, even should she not be pregnant, remain in the breasts for
some months after she has weaned her child.
225. The veins of the breast look more blue, and are consequently
more conspicuous than usual, giving the bosom a mottled
appearance. The breasts themselves are firmer and more knotty to
the touch. The nipples, in the majority of cases, look more healthy
than customary, and are somewhat elevated and enlarged; there is