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n|++~ X+. n+<T q+~+#, ndjT|& ns+<T.
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X!
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n H\T>TksT ]+~.
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~yH <$& sT\ deTT<jT+ e+~.
n+<T`
yT{ b*H yTd{ sT `
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< + > n fifl #d+~ X+. eT+> yT |<e\T >T; s $#THsTT. ns$]dq
q+~ esq + +{ sTqe q&+~.
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<+ X! HqT + &dsY #jTqT. ekH+!
<Ts> #d+~ X+.
+&T! s& $#]+#&+ >H HH k + #b\qT+{qT. s <s + *d y[flb<+.
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eTfl |X\T yjT&+ yTT<{&T bdLsY.
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MT neTqT #+|q V+& qTe #Xy?
#XqT.
eTfl #d >TsT|&y?
>TsT| & qT.
m& #dH >TsT|&y?
qT+& @&e&+ yTT<{ &T $.
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de<q+ #|<T $. eT]+ _>Zs> @&e&+ yTT<{&T. sT \\+ yTT<\sTT+~.
#= | fifl T&T#T+, eTfl ]q<+ k]> >Ts=qT |<> @&&T $.
TdTqT nH&T |_ bdLsY.
$! @&e. #|! @eTsTT+~? m+<T @&TdTHy? ujT|&y?
mfifl >Z &TeTT+TqT nH&T $.
e neT #+|q eTw & eH&T ksY!
sT eq n+<s k]> Xd |* rdTq X+.
$dTu n&>&T |_ bdLsY.
MT neTqT #+|q eTw & H&? mesqT?
n&T> nH neTqT #+|d+~ n #sTT #|+#&T $, d{> ~qsY #|d.
n+<] \\ n|jT +> ~qsyY | ]>sTT. n+<] #| s|D!
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ds<> dsdt #dTq |\ eT< VsT> |< |* <d m+ \+ #\s>TT+<, n+
\+ #\s+~ sT |\ >\` V+&T eT eT<H eH& *jT>H!
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T +> ~qsY
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n|{< c eq ~qsY, n|& d V eqy& nH&T. ~dC HHH! H s&es
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n *jT+&H, \T |&TTq+ |<> ek+~ n >=+T.
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uqT q s&T $y| ]>&T |_ bdLsY.
$! HH MT neTqT #+|+~? nH&T ~qsY y| #|d.
ms fdTHjTH e neT #+b&T! nH&T $ <sb+> ]bTq fifl m&+
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~+&T neT yTTV+MT< H= |fd T H&T. #d| \ =T +~ neT! s #bsTT+~! n
eTfl yfifl |&T @&e&+ yTT<{&T $.
n|{< |q \& dT bd&+> X<> >eTdTq bdt H|sT n\sT>
nsTTbsTT, ~qsY yqe \&&T. eTssY dT & #k+~ nH.
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|& T #k+ yTeTT! C |{+ #k+? + uj
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msT u> >TsT! nH&T $.
msT ydTH&T f qT MT neTqT #+|q y&qT+THy?
<T n+! H u> >TsT! jTH sEq e neT... @&T| eTT+#T=#d+~ $.
nsTdTqT |<> nH&T ~qsY. HqT + #TTHqT. qqT qeT+&. s&T qqT #d
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~qsY .
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M| >T#T+<?
! s+ L& ]+~.
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= X{H <s\, = u& <s\ rd ]bsTTq+ dy T s ] HH d q T> nH| D+>
&]+> #XsT. |{|{ #d> n& sT>T eq d+> me] ns+ njT <T.
~qsY <<| fiTqT jT{ q&|+#T=#&T HdsY. \ q&TdTq< &sY
X+ L& yq e+~.
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\T! H<+ @MT ns+ e&+ <T! nH&T ~qsY.
nse TjTT #kqT T $|+&! nedsy T , q e #+|< #fi flq >=+T es>*q
keTs+ e+~ HdsY ]eTy < {!
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wsTL& $b&T ~qsY.
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eT#<T.
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n mes Ls+> ={qT, ms> *q V+ y\T |{qT, d>s *qT, #s
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ss \ >j\ \ eT#\T!
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dT. nH= s& wsT.
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nsdT #jT e\d e+~. eTq eTs s +&T V dT, <=MTdT L& eTT<sTT. +esL
@ Hse T sTEe<T .
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m& |+ e+< k+~. q~ u> sTT+> nsTTq bdTyT+&T. q n+#H\, q }V\
k<sD+> | e.
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eTq # Hs\T #d e+&e#T.
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n+<T nsdT# d dT |e\d e+~.
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+eTT+<T |\y& k n+> \ |<T qT.
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}VeTsTTq \q n, n V\TdHw H \T>TTHjT nqTH&T.
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eH! J| m+&! nH&T , ~qsY.
#Tq eTT+<T e+~ X+.
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yT m>~> #X&T HdsY.
MT =~> \Tdy> < \ \N\T |P]> *dqT e. $q+& #TqT n
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z! y{ ysY & jT y+{?
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yT >=+T <s+ d Z+~.
yT e\ rdbsdTqT nH&T H|sY .
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L&! nsTT &fs TTH #jT & e+ ys+{ e+&*. HqT n|&T bdT dw q T s+ ~+#&
rdTbe&+ <T. |+#& rdTyfiTHqT. z.?
yT+ eTT+<s e jTsY Hd\T #j* n+~ X+.
ndVq+> nH&T .
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MT *jTbe#T. MTsT eTs<dT\T. ysY zesY jT sY @ &sY! n > @$T{ >yT$T{
sTT e+{MT< eq >j #TTHsTT. qT d{ |sY nH nsTT e+&*, N|t L nH nsTT
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n<w+! nqeds+> >=&e MTsT C+ #dT+&!
|T q _++ VsT> C]bsTTqsTT+~ X+. b<j
T |&T TqT n+~ .
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.
< d{> de<q+ #|+&, |~eT\T &#dT+ n+~ X+.
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#dkqT. yT! >{ H < J|t!
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kkk
bdtdwH eq s+ yfifl>H dt & |+, sE sT ]q $wj\ n+<T
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~qsY nH eMT~ VHs+ eTfifl&+ e bsTT+{ u bsTT+{ sX&T.
nqT sd e+&>H, yT yT @ bH yT jTsY? n+~ X+.
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dT k #d+~ HH! n qT f|t#d $jT+ k~+q dT\ *dT #~y&T .
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MT u>e+& @$T{?
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+ #|+&! y+{ ~ Y. < Y n+& q~+> { Y! eH! wO{!
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+ s{\ #d e+{&T nqT.
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n yTTV+ esTTq uy\ >eT+ <Ts> n+~ X+.
nqT #TT+~ yT HdsY!
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neqT! nqT nyTdj u<| & T TH&T.
nyTdj n+f C|X D+be&+ n \TdT .
nyTdj n+f H \TdT! Hes q *jTq+> eT]be&+ nd+ue+!
nd+ue + <T nsT<T. n|&| &T +{ dT\T sT>TH e+{sTT n s s> #| +~
X+. Hds !Y MTsT yTeTT #TTq~ qeTL&< eTT+< ds sj
T + @ss#T = e+f, HqT $TeT*
q$T+#qT. , ns+ #dTy\ |jTd e+ HqT #|< + MT q&TT+~ n
eTT+<T> | + > nyTdj n+f nd\T @$T{ yT& fsY $e]++~ &s Y X+. s n+~.
_LsT \Tk MT?
_Ls? n&$ n+#T +T+~ <? |sT $HqT.
n& eq |eT V\T d+sY HqT n+TH rdT yfifle\d e+~ k]. | #dT
] edT+ f ~qsY q&&T <]. q q~ e+~. < MT< q _&. d>+ fifl d>+ &TM T< e+~
Xs+.
dt @ $T{! nH&T . qT n+eTT+< MT \Tk?
<T. n< HqT yTT<{k] n #&&+
eT] |sT ~qsY n m \TdT? nH #b&? nH&T |< bsTT+{ |TqT, q
|sT e+ >TsT +& $T>$ m eT]b&T qT?
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d!
e+{MT<+ >j\ eq ~qsY q >T]+q $es\T @MT #| b TH&T. n j+TH
m+ |dT msTT&#d s H q]+> yT rdT=#qT
+{ dT\T bdT\ ]bsT #j*. MTs+<T #jT<T?
ndV q+> n+~ X+.
bdT\ {{yT+T m +T+< H u> \TdT. +eTT+<T s+&TeT&T dT #XqT.
~qsY nd eTd$T+ <T. bdT\ ]bsT #d q eT L& b>=&s|++~.
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n s>+ <T&q s ]bsT #<eTqTHqT. y<T\ <T&T Vb{ @eT
#b&T? y< T & n{ +f s s>+ eTTKeT. y< e e#eTT+<T Vb { |s |eD+ #dq
< HqT. s s>+ +f bdT dT eTTKeT m nqT+{qT?
ksY> e{&\ |jTdTHsT MTsT?
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#sqT. n >j\T qjTeTjsTT. , ce\ n C| X q+bsTT+~. He s q *jT
|]d eH&T.
nqT MT yTT<{k] q&q|&T n e+{MT<> \MT<> n \ >TsTMT
q&<? n \ edTeeTH q&j b++?
e+{MT< |u >+ M T e. b+T e+~. fifl <>sZ |*\sTTbsTT e+~. q&T+ <>sZ e+
eeT\T> e+~.
n \ edTe\T @yTH?
=+#+ |{sTT+ n+~ X+.
q&+~
@$T$?
]y\sY!
dq> $X&T .
z! ]y\sY e+<? nsTT bsTT+T <>sZ > H edTH + &s !Y MT <>sZ ]y\sY e+<? n+f
MT k+?
<T HeTeds+ ?
#Xs? MT <>sZ ]y\sY <T m+<T+f MT neds+ <T {. k<sD+> eTTb eT&=+T\
eT+~ Hu <>Zs ]y\sT e+&e. m+<T+f yfifl ]y\s neds+ e+&<T {.
<>Zs q~ HT ]y\s?
dY n+& ydH n e+~ < MT< n+~ X+.
n+f ~ +bs& ]y\sT. Vq|+ eTT|jYT q\u y\ sbjT\ K<T #dT+~. q\uy\
sbjT\ ]y\sY <>Zs +#Te\dq eTw mTe+{y& e+{& MT <X+ X+?
| <qT #| +~ X+.
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q bDbjT+ e+< sDd+ jTT<+ <>Zs e+#TH eTw nsTT e+&e#T.

< +fifl bD\ rjT& jTT<+ <>Zs e+#TH eTwsTTH e#T
e#T n+~ X+ d+~>+ >.
eTq+> y[fl<] e\ $+TH&T ~qsY. n yTTV+ fqH q&T+~.
Hds Y <w VsT> ~qsY MT~ eT[fl+~. |]o\q> ny| =~ D \bT #d s
X+ nH&T.
$Tdt X+! MTs= &s !Y eTw Xs |]d m e+< u> #| >\sT. u& #d
MTeT|dT + ~?
~qsY~ # <&eTsTTq Xs+. eeT\T eTw <\ XjT+> #bsTT e+&y&T
n+~ X+.
+=+#+ $es+> #|+&! + <&eTsTTq Xs+ n+<] q: edT+<? sTT eTs<H
dc*{ e+<?
=~> + #|+~. ~ q: <&eTsTTq XsyT e#T. , +> +&\T ]
eq<+f < s +& sD\THjT+{qT HqT. { q|{qT+ XeTJ$ nsTT, jTw+ #d e+&&+ .
y+&es{ _jT+ k\T yd L\qT #Xs? &T|+& +& bsTTH m+ +&\T ]
e+{s?
<{C bdT! + bd_*{ L& e+~. >+&\ #Xs? yfifl L& s|t n+& |t | et \
< &jTT e+{sT.
$ f jT dyT ysY bdt_*{d!t n+~ X+ #TsT>Z. H= ksT yTH nsTT e+&e#T.
usY, ssY nsTT e+&e#T n n+~. HdsY! MTsTL& # eTdT\sY> +&\T ]
q&sT. m+<Te\q+{sT? n+~.
<> <s+! eT+ | msYdEe\!
<{C {! ~qsY L& MT> bk|d s +&e#T < eTw +&e#T. n+>, nqT
< &jTT& +&&+ e\, n <>sZ ]y\sY +&&+ e n > #] n+ Hs\eTjT+ nsTT +T+<
nqTe& M< T . |> , n e\, n #\ #d nqT du , d+ks+ eq eTwq|k&T .
yTdj eqyfifl du, d+ks+ e+ eT]bL&<?
@~ eT]bs, @~ eT]bs #|+. n~ dT dT, eTw eTw e]b +T+~.
, |{ nqT V dT eTT<sTT. nH&T .
n y+ |P]eTT+< bH y+~.
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H q eTw | n~].
HTf m H{>\T+{j n ddT nMT< n n$ s|D\T HsTT. nsTTH
eT+ |+& |ywH\T d+b~+#d , | | y[flbTH&T.
|q y]+> eTT#> eT&eTT\T #b&T n~].
qTe yjT fifl eTT+<, yjT fi s |{*q y&$ sE |{*q eTw$ e. n~
H Ks.
$ &T sE\T |&+<s &T eTqTw\T. eTssY dT n+f ju y\ e >T+&+ e
n\yT <T. |&T <>Zs LsTq yfifl <>ZsqT+ juy\T qTe >T+C*. < wsT
m+ e V&wT #T&T. me]+ y L& y& #T&T.
s |{ > me] n+<e\dq |d \ T yfifl n+<b @+ sT>TT+< \Tk?
@+ sT>TT+~ nH&T b |=+.
juy\T rdT qTe CT ydTHe +e] wsY e&+ < n+<s nqT+{sT.
nqT+THs L&. |{ s+&T dT n{ nsTT+~. k] |wtyT+{ |<T. f sY!
udt H eTT+<T H bH &dt H #X&T. Hds Y . s @+ s>q f X+y| ], MT
~qsY m& q&& s> k{ H #|+#>\s nH&T.
@+ u+ ? ~ ] |{ H\T>T H\\e+~. n& + >TsT\ T $T*e+{jTqTqT
n+~ X+.
nsTTH ds! HHk] k{ #&*. <{dt yT &{.
m|&T yfifl*?
|&!
ny| +> #d+~ X+ ds!
sY H=&T HdsY . dT e#&T.
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q&T+~ n yTTV+.
J| s& #jYT
J| <sY! nH&T dT.
m& [fl+~?
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~+| e# #| nH&T >{>.

s <=sk>sT dHfis+ ksY!
H ns+T> J| y\ #|! nH&T >{>.
m& fifl*ksY?
#b&T .
MTsT n&fiflsT ksY! nH&T dT *>Z.
@+ m+<T?
yTTq es+ |&+~ <sY! eT{s&T =TbsTT+~. J| yfifl<T.
nqT #TT+~ y < ns+<T> $wjT+ e+ nsyT+~ .
q &bsTy T +{H q| dV jT ssD +{~ yTT<\sTT+~. qT \+#>=+& be&yT qT
#dq eTV|s<+ !
\|++ qTyfifl n d T |+|X&T . s y#Y #dT &s Y X+ nH&T.
+ sy $Tc H yfifl fH { +~. y[fl eTfl s ] e#jTT#T eTq+.
@+ #<+? nqT ~qsYy| #d+~ X+.
nqT ]|+ > \ |++#&T.
jT e#sT eTT>TZs. # >H |T \& q dT &T nsTTw+> d\{
#X&T .
{ |*#&T . be>+ dwH #sTHsT. {T =, b{bs+ MT~ yfifld] n|{
b{bs+ MT~ e#k+~ s\T.
s\T >>H mjT& M\T> yfifl <<| b{bs+ n+#Tq \&sT. d+& yfifleq
k{ dMT|++~ fH. + < y>+ |P]> >ZH<T.
n|&T ]+<~!
~qsY VsT> yqqT+ mes dqsTT+~. uH | eTT+<T ]>&T nqT. eTsTD +
s \ T+< |&&T .
~qsY s \ T+< |&b sTTH, s \ Te+ eTT+<T bH e+~. b{b s+ MT< q q+ n\&>
fifl fi fl HT +, eTT+<T + =+#&\ |jT dTH sT. n+| @+ #j me] @MT
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n+<] eTT+<T sT q~ . y>+ >T Z T q s \ T \ +Hy| ], |* \+|T +#&T

nqT. ]+~ n+ s +&T eTT &e sT #b&T. D + d&H u n|s TT #X&T &e sY. #\T <=s& +
H s\T <* ><T. #TeT+ X+ = n&T>T\T C], s +~ s\T.
n|{ dw q T n\ \+> e]bsTT+~. s <>T\T =+eT+~ b{b s+ ~ s \ T +~ y[fl
| #dTHsT. yfifluT qTL& +~ ~>&T HdsY .
<+ Xws b sTT #k+~ X+, @eTsTT+~ nd\T? @eTsTTbsTT +{&T ~qs?Y #bsTT
e+{&?
= jTT>\T >&q|+# <q+> | e#&T HdsY . n yTTV+ #|q+
Xs+ q&T+~.
@eTsTT+~? n+~ X+ eDb Tq >=+T n<T| #T e& e<|jT + #d .
nqT s \ T+< |& < T nH&q T | + >`
eT]?
V C H{ ; dH mysY! m& q&+<T ~qsY! e\T #$q &>H, d+w+,
d+ueT+ k]> q&sTT &sY X+ $X\ qjTH\.
eT] @eTsTT e+{&T nqT? n+~.
uTC\T m>sd k#q> s\T {y| #d e+&bj&T .
kkk
q yq qT+ mes \+> jT>H eTT+<T $sT#T|&bj&T ~qsY.
H\ >, D+ d>+ ee~H, n s+&T |X\T {sTT.
{.
mesT q XsT? m+<T?
s +&T
|&T qT #euTH&?
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qT. q qT s+#TuTH&T. |<T.
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]Hw H >T]|&q T{ e] q ~X ss TT+#T, s \ T |{\, b{b s+ eT< eq U
|&+~. eTsTD+ #\ eT< eq UqT+ |{\ eT< <=s&T ~qsY.
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nqT |jT|Ps+>, n+>Tfi\ <s+ & eyT n+eTj |+#TH& #|H

L& qeT&+ w+ ` n+{~ k<yTq *dq yfifl |!
s \ T \ds + qMT< qT+ y[flbT+f ~qsY n|++~.
+{ yTsT|+{ ]| H q yT<&T dV >H eHj?
b , n+]e TsTTq B , s seTsTTq |d T > @ =]jTH es s HsT +fH n\e&q
]| k $? m&, @< d+<s + $H&q T. XTe MT< Tb >T]|{ *d Tb |\eTT+<
XTe yfifl \ meTT\T ~*q X+ $, T{ m|&T @ ~X suT+< ns D + eTT+<
>V +, | | , bDbjT+ | +#Te&+ =]jTH es sY HsT q y] k< yTq! n+
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m|&T?
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@+ #dy&T qT?
m+<T qMT< <sH\T sT>TTHsTT?
<e&!
#|! #|!! #|!!!
=~ D\ s s\T +~.
s\T ^ >>H,#\ d+<TqT+ s\T { ne* y| <=s&T ~qsY. d+>T> \&&T.
|H eTs s\T { e+~.
<\& d<+> eq s\T { {MT< \& e+~.
#Tq <H mk&T.
eTsTD + s \ T ~*+~. y>+ n+<T+~.
eTw s\T +< |&bj&q V&e& eq q+, | {MT< eTs s\T ~* y[flbe&+
>eT+#< T .
n+ >+<s>fi+q $wj >eT++~ HdsY &.
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nqT # ksT L! sd b]bsTT e+{&T nH&T qMT< q *q s
nDT#Te& |jT d.
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|\TH&T.
n|&|++~ n.
qsTT | +#T e#k&T>, X+ + Hds Y <>sZ e+&bsTT+~.
n|tsY! X+ @ HseT #jT<T. n~ q \TdT!
qMT~ b yT MT~ eT[fl+ #jT Hs @yTH yT MT< sT~, y~k& HdsY?
+<fiq +&bsTT+~ ~qsY eTqdT.
&sY X+ n+f u$TMT< q&# <e+{~. yT m+{ w+ eH qT u]+#&T.
n+|Xj
T MT< ;w & efifl+ >j\ qT eTTfiflb<\MT< |& +f, #d q q]+>yT
#]+~ X+. eT+<T\+f me> yT # ds q u< y]D>, yT |\T neT >T[\T>
| #XjT qeTT&T qT.
H <T.
yT <>Zs {{yT+{ rdTq | |w+ n> nqT+{& L& q qeT+!
n+{ X+ HdsY <>Zs e~d e#&T qT. e~d e |#X&?
qT bdT\u]qT+ | +#T bsTTq+<T X+ d+wdT + <?
b q |]|+<> eT{ ndV+#T+T+<? s>ujT< ujT|&+& ns+
#sTTH , s\T | +< <d eTfl X+ <>Z] |]> y[flby\ re+> n|++~ n.
n|{|&T sj e#d, >=\TdT >& euj&T L&.
n|&T >eTH=+~ n.
>=\TdT >& M +& q m<TsT> { <>sZ \& e+~ nesTT. u> b&T>Z e+~.
n<Te TsTTq \+ +{ e+|\T yqqT+ L& *dbH eHsTT. = s HT dt > eq
sZ+& Ns T e+~. e> q&T+ +~< yfifl&TTq &. @< ~e\ >TsT #
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fifl .
fifl n$? e.
||+#+ n+f q m+ sks+, s + e+< #{ #| #|\ k<H\T> eyT
eHsTT yT fifl.
n+{ #| { ~qsYy| k]+ s { |q LsT, d| jT{ #d s q
<w |q eq d{dT ~X b+~.
$eq+ { T <=s bH, b $eH\T yfifl #T yfifl e\d edH | s \ T msT =+eT+~.
sV #+~q eTw e+~ nesTT. eqeeT&=&T q m<TsT> Lse&+e\ n&
yesD+ n+ \Tw+ nsTTbsTTqT |\ e+<y n|k+~ yT yTTV+ q&TTq m|wH
#dT+ f.
sqT+ +< <d ||+# weTD e<]+#s<? nqT zk] ~qsYy|
s>Z #d s q e| T+>s+ y| #dT, s @ |y k sY \ { d\HH
eLsY #dq T q|&T Tq q >fifly| |> #dTe&+ yTT<{ + ~.
+~> d{ =~> ~*, |t yTTV+ T&T#TH&T ~qsY.
n|dq +> eq yesD+H be>+ >& bsTT+~.
eTfl #q |&&T ~qsY.
$<+ > #d qT | +#T b]bsTT se&yT ds q |Hy ! y| qMT< m+<T mes>
# |TqT <&T\T #dTHsT. mesT #dTHs, nd\T Hes L& q *jT<T. \TdTy*
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$|&T. |> H V+&q HdsY >q sTEe #jT>*, q ] UjT+!
n+<T `
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|P]> [+| njT< qT bdT\ <=sL&<T. X+ *d qT |+#Ty*q J$+ eTT+<T
m+ e+~. < #d #d b&T#dT&T qT. wOsY!
nqT n nqT= nqTeTT+< `
VsT> | +bsTyT+T qT+ q\T>TsT bdT\T +bsTyT+{ |y+#sT.
>T+& bsTTqsTT+~ ~qsY .
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y[flbsTT nesTT <>Zs >sT yfifl. bdT\ #&>H nesTT yTTV+ b*bsTT+~.
@B eC\ Vs+? nH&T bdt HdsY, nesTT eb<yTMT +&.
n|&T >eT+#&T ~qsY, nqT <, ys Hds.
eC\ Vse? @ eC\ Vs+? n+~ nesTT |Tq >+;s+.
n|{ nesTT <s+ ~>C]q|++~ #dTq ~qsY.
w|t! <=+>yc\T yjT&+ eHd <=+> kT jT jYT! nH&T HdsY |sTw+>.
k]> e+{ eq X n+ &bsTTqT |\e, dTe> d{dT ]+~
nesTT.
d{dt q Ey u e+~. n~ HdsY n+~++~ nesTT. ] #k&T HdsY
m+& b& |& >\ yT]d+~ n+<T eq eC\ Hdt.
<y| #d \|++ |f eTdk&T Hds Y me y~+ # +& eC\ Vs+ n|+#dq +<T
qT n_q+~dTHqT yX! nH&T.
d V, w+ *dq #| #d+~ yX*.
#| HdsY C* *qT+~.
Vs *>Z n|+#ke >q k<yTq+ e |&&T #&& H XjTX
|jT kqT. e# dw H ~ bTH+ eTq+. y] yc\T yjT +& e y+ sy*! C>! n #|
~qsY y| k] jT<|+> #k&T HdsY .
s d T q seT d> # d eTT+<T q&#&T. yfifl +bsTy T +{ \ <s\{
<>Zs, eTT+<T C>> | e+{s }V+#&T ~qsY.
bdt HdsY , dT n&qT+ y[flbj k]> fifl fifl e_sTT yX*. n$
m<T{ yfifl q&&+ w+ qT \ ~+#dT+~. +<{ <s+ \ #jT\T yT |&T @
e+ q&+<T .
nesTT #dT+ f ~qsY m+ kqTu *+<+f, qT nesTT +f L& |e<s y T q
|]d Hq eT]bj&T *+>.
$Tdt! @eTsTT+~? HqT \TdTe#? nH&T <s+>.
e{&+& yTTV+ |+~ yT.
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eq \ m #d+~ nesTT.
+ s=Ve+> #b\+f ||+#+ <=+>\T <esT? <=]bq+ \+ n+<s
<=s! <=]H <=+>\T! n+~ ndT>.
q$ nH&T ~qsY.
MTsT e\+ <=+> e#T. HHes \Tk?
|Xs + > #d+~ yT.
HH= ujT+syTq V+&
d]>Z q HM T< |&T >T|&q T n~]|&+ ~ nesTT.
y{?
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n+f MTsT +> V+\Ts?
<T. eTTe{ <T.
n n+#H ydTqT eTq+> #d e+&bsTT+~ yT.
eTfl nH&T ~qs.Y eTq sTT<s + <<| sy T q |]d T \ eH+ {, fifl =fifl + kjT+
#dTe#y. jT VMT! n+& $ VjT! H fMT! y{C jTTesY bu+?
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CTqT+ d>s{ rd n+{+ yT #|ujT~ $q&+ d+ s&> LsTH&T ~qsY.
qT+& n+~ yT.
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+~.
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ne jd sTdTqT #bqT.
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\u sTT #d+~ yX *.
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~>uj&T ~qs.Y
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n~ $q>H b*bsTTq yX* yTTV+ s+>T ] e+~.
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m<T{qT+ ed e+&+ L& n +|&+~.
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yX * L& q+{ <=+>q n u> \TdT. yT +L >=+L +& n e#dT+ &&+

#d n Xs+bT \es+ L& *+~.
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| mX&T X+uT.
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<=+>y<e n+<T <s&T. V yC nu{ k#Y ny yT &eT+& Hdt |yT MT! d]>Z n< f+
<e< e#&T HdsY.
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| <T! @eT+{sT? n+~.
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b sTT+~.
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ndVHq+ &sY X+MT< #|d nH&T.
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n.
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fi> >Z < T . n ET #es H]dbsTTH e+>s\T ] d\T s>+> yTsTd e+&&+ e\
nB s D>H e+~.
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ns\ msYdE\ #jT&+e\ d\T d+> e]q n<{ u& n~.
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yT fifl.
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n& |< V\T { e+~.
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@qT>T> yc\T ydT eHsT.
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#dTH&T nqT.
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sMT< #MT $T\$T\ yT]dbTq eTT<TsT \+ C{+{ { ydT e+~.
nesTT #|\T q #|\ *d< #dT+&bj&T yT.
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q fifl dyVq X e+~. $+| e+~.
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]+~ nesTT.
q> d #X&T nqT.
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qeH&T yT. yTdC n+<T+~. + eT]b<T |\.
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>yT nesTT q bsYqsY> >, d+ |]>> sy\.
n <T.
n |]> , uquC eq _Hdt e>{ |sT e+~.
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n|{< ny| #d eq yT qTs|\T y*bjsTT.
yTT<+ ~.
#<s+>+ usT eq b]+>MT< q\T|, \T| yc eq s+&T |\T m<Ts<TsT> \&
eHsTT. eTV d+>e dsdq<+> eq XT dq+>.
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_HdteH sTTbsTT+~ n yTTV+ y& bsTT+~.
s { |s+ _HdteH, ms #T&<sY nesTT b{ |&+~.
eTfl >fifl \&sT be\T.
T #dTH&T yT.
yTT<\sTT+~.
yTT<{ mT nesTT yd+~. @dt |jTsY, >+& edsY yTTV+ |{.
=+#+ +, | mT yX&T _HdteH.
n~ #d qT<TsT {+ nesTT k] mT yjT& # ee~ rdT+~.
be\ yc eq eTqTw\T |jTsY d>\ n+<T >fifl n esTTHsT.
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nesTT yTTV+ ms&bsTT+~. V+&u>qT+ V+ rd yTTV+ T&T#T, z |>
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MT sT T +#jT+&. H sT &|t #kqT
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f+ <T n+~ nesTT. q >=+T e]bsTT bes+ ee&TTqT $q&T+~.
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&T .
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X+& =\++~.
n<< n<Te TsTTq X+>s $HdeTqT qjT+> #X&T yT.
yT & b<+MT< nss bsTT d+ |TeT# e+~.
ns $Tw+d| n n #& s e n <TsT> LsT+~ nesTT.
+ yfi qT n+~ ndw+ >.
+=
e<T!
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dH nsTTbj&T yT. n ~>eT *qsTT+~. q fiflMT< q qeT+ bsTTqT
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] k] q$ y[flbsTT+~.
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sT #&bsTT+< n<+ #|+~. n #|>H qT *|t kq+{&, nbsTyT+T qsTT{

#k& >V++~.
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dV n& e#jTeT u V& _Hdet H ` y&T | +& yT \ nsTTe+{&T, |se sTT++~.
q <>Zs \sbjT\ # rdT sT #d+~.
edsY>yT & edsY |jTsY |\!
b!
n n{+f u< *++~ eTs $wjT+!
\sbjT\T b bjsTT!
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sTq &|\ mes L& q |su$+ b]b<T.
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n $<\T>!
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n|&T nqTH&T nqT.
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+ s yT X+>u+ >+ #dq yX *, eTs&T b<TH u+ y[fl, yT q \s bjT\

# mHwt #d, juy\T wt rdT+~. $T> juy\T q n+T ydT+~.
s jTbs+ eq &esY q&T|Tq +bs& msTTsY +&wH& sT m q>s+
|<<sTTq q>\ c| y[fl+~ yX*.
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nsTTbjsT.
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qT<TsT {+ ny| #d n+~ yX*.
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#|+, >>u |* yfifl&T.
s +&T eTTc |\qT+ jT{ e#&T c| jTe dsY < HsjTDY. ><T eTs+>T d\T
, |Ce ydT eH&T nqT. yfifl H\T>T +>s\T, yT& +>sT >=\TdT.
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d #dT +~.
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@$T{?
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q$+~ yX *. qTe #k+~ ybs+ <T! <|&! n V+& u>qT+ e+< sbjT\ \ T
rd, eT&T n n+~++~.
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m+ e yT+ku! Bd+ MTsT eTfl XeT|& + <s+ |T sy? HH djT+>
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rdT=d rdTs+&! feTT+f #<+! n+~ yX*.
MT n&dt yT&yT?
#| +~ yX *.
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HsjTDY.
yT q n&dt _Hdt e>{ eTVH \ _Hdt m+|sY sZHCwH >dtVdt~!
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nse TsTTb+~.
yX * yTTV+ e+ n< $<y T q m>s TT{yT +{ y*bTqT n|++~ dsY < HsjTDY.
n+<yT q nesTT n+ m>s TT{yT +{ m+<T \T>TT+~!
z n+<yTq s& eTqdT *dq|&T.
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@$T~? V\+ *+~ n.
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HqT yT+ku! dsY < HsjTDY! q MTsT =q q>\T n|+#& e#qT.
zVt! n+~ yT >Ts=qT.
d| ysTT{ #ks? HqT # _J> eHqT.
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n $qj |<]d.
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s| s+&! @ d+> #TqT n+~ yT.
dsY eD y[flbj < HsjTDY qe n+~ yT yfiflusTT d+<u< eq
@< H+T m.J dT y*! qT+{q #bqT.
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MTsT q q>\T |T[flbsTT eTfl s| rdTs+&. #kqT.
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nqT y[flb>H q jTsT e+ #d nse++> q$+~ yT.
eTs&T n< fyT e#&T dsY < HsjTDY, q>\ |f dV! n m>H ds Vq|+ z
|~\\ sbjT\ q>\T yT # =|+#j\ |q> e+~.
nqT e#d] n& dsY eD L& eH&T. yfifluT jTsY L& eH&T.
e+< ms\+f +& d*+> s<? n+{+~ yT jTsY.
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jTsT.
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$Tc\ jTsT L& y[flbj&T.
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|* n&T>T|{&T e.
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eTs&T nqT e#d] n& eD, jTs, ]jT md{ @C+ ` Mfifles sT.
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d{J |H L&+ @+ y qT |+#T n.
H |! nH&T < HsjTDY $qjT+>.
d | |+#& jT y[fl+~.
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fTMT< eq ssTT +{~ n <w ]++~. fi fl {+ #X&T. n<$T{ ##jT> ns+
nsTTqT n|dT + ~ n.
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e+~ <.
u>s+ eq eC\ jT |f #T!!
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e |e# ssD #d+ ~.
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` jTsT ` n+f!
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m>s TT{yT +{ s+ eqsTT+~.
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L& & edTHsT.
n+esL nse TeH +~.
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rdT+{qT n+~.
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c| yfl yfifl>H D+ ]jT md{ @C+T bH #X&T nqT.
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yT+ku |+ sb e eTq$ #j\ e+~.
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m+<T? nH&T yT n|jT+>.
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n< deTjT+ y>+> edTq ms d &d dT k{ dMT|++~. s&TMT< q |<
>T+ | +#& dT d&H u yd, d] +>T >>u | b&T &sTTesY. dT d&T qZ =~
D\, ~qsY dTy| |]>&+ q&+~ .
eTfl y>+ |+E y[flbsTT+~ d dT.
dTuT ejTyTb j&T ~qs!Y
q, &s Y X+, ~qsY *d s \ Tdw H [flq|&T s \ T+< |&q ~qsY #e | +#T >
##+> <T\TTq + s\T md y[flbe&+ >TsT=+~ H|sY .
|&T L& ~qsY eTfl n< { | #X& >V+#>H |+ Ce]++~ HdsY
yTTV+. y+H @+ #j dT]+# n #X&T. nTy| edTq bdT J| n
q&+~. ]|>t |\ j&T.
y+H s&T eT< e#d J| |eTqT s+&T #T\ }|&+ yTT<{&T.
J| d&T Z+~ J| eq bdT\T HdsY >TsT|>H, eTq+<T \+|+!
nqTqT eTfl d&T |+#sT. >+&H y[flbsTT+~ J|. H|sY &bsTyT+T eT&
bTq eTw n n+<] \TdT. n eeVs C+ #dTe&+ n+f =]$ \>e&yT
neT+< yfifl #eT+~ nqTue +.
<syT y[flbTq J|y| ndV q+> #X&T . &bsTy T +{ qq |s| @$T{ n
#+|MT< ={ #| q+ ~> ns+ nsTT+~. *+> d V eV++~ n. |jT |Ps+>
eTqdT n<T| |T, +eTsTTH yVH\T nTy| ekjTyq #X&T. nqT nqTqf
n\+ <sq q&+~ \ yT]&dt u+C sT. sV+d CsT ek+~ n+~.
n~ q dMT|+#>H #sTT #|+ b&T H|sY .
sT eH&T _Hdt e>{ eTVH.
$+&dt eq q\{ n<\T +~ ~+|, HdsY y| sTqe <s+> #X&T.
y{ H & |sY jT HdsY!
eTT+<T y[flq dT $Tq eH&T dsY! n m>H |Ty*! nH&T <&+>.
qy&T _Hdt e>{ eTVH.
ydt djTsY |dsY! neH?
b>&\ T w+ qT +~> sTqe qy&T .
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eH! >|t nH&T eTVH.

sT m &sTTesY |dT LsTH&T.
bjYT! {|td& nH&T eTVH &esY.
b]H sT & sT eTTTq sT eTT+<T es& + yTT<{ + ~. qT#|yTs <s+
m& q&<T msdT.
|t jyT H{ s+>, MT |sT ! neH? nH&T eTVH.
Xs+> eTVH y|#d neqqT \|++#&T . q |sT jTq \TdT?
n&> n |X yT nH&T eTVH.
eT< @< | MTsT sdq $\T #~yqT. MT b{ L& ydqTHsT. kV+ n+f
#$dTH yfifl MT &bsTyT+T eHs+f XsyT! | bdT\+f eq yTC ysT. q|&T
Hqsdy& $+ n|&| &T. $\T #<e & eyT |]$T+ nsTTbsTT+~ n_w |&T!
f+ bsY! jTd! }|] d\| |qT\T!
$+ eTs<| sks+> \ |++#&T .
sdq | ns+q @< d+<X+ n+~+#\H |q q&T e+T+~ MT $+! ...
n >&T eTVH. @$TqT |Xs+> #X&T .
MTsT #| T\ MTs b{+#\qT+f e+ wyT! n qy&T eTVH.
b{+# T\T #{ #|&yT+<T? nH&T s=Ve+>. nqT e{&TT+f f
$]qT+~.
eTfl qy&T _Hdt e>{ eTVH. s y<+ #|&+ yTT<{&T.
ddt| || n+<] J$+ eT&T s\T> e+T+~. {: n+<] *dqyfifl |_ |t.
b yfifl b|wq | t s +&T: yfifl |y { | .t ~ +> |y { > e+&<T . eT |y { | t L&
|_> Z dT+ {sT Mfifl $|eTsTTq |_d { ! H eT |y { | t e+T+<H yTC,
ueT *dT+{sqe! eT&~: yfifl d{ |t! meeT+~ *d neX+ d{|t yfifl
jT#| T\, jTe\ n rd e+ *+#d, |se T E>Tbse TsTTq J$+ >& |d e+{sT.
n< u>T|&yfifl \D+! jT+>eH! ~ ns+ #dT! >T]+ # $HqT HqT. qTe # {+{
eq |dsYe #bsT. {+{ m& eH #kqT HqT. nsTT f |+!
e{&+& d]jTdt> $+TH&T .
bdt eqTe n+ +s e#T. \HH ds +&jT H |q& n+ \+<T> L&
e|#|jT>\e. s\ D+> \TdT !
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! | sy\+f e\+ s\T \TdT+f #\<T! n++f eTTK+ s\T *$>

$s=yT> L& *d e+&*.
! #bqT> H {+{ n+f # weT! qT m+sC #j\ e+~ H. eTT+<T
qTe d es*! nH&T eTVH nse++>.
eTVH de<q+ #|+& d&T |+#T nH&T &esY.
*|&q T sT d&T eT]+ |]+~.
n|&T dT<s+ q&T+~ ms d dT D D dT, sT eT< <s+ ]b+~.
k] y| |> #d eTfl nH&T eTVH.
HqT #|~ n+> sT+#qT+~! b z | #jYT! qTe sdq $\ z d+|+>
ysTTkqT H KsT! n~ H n+$Te. |d @<H |< nysY b @<H _sT<T
e#T HqT #kqT. n~ eTq # |! < kV+ |sT>TT+~ ~eT n+ ...<T>!
@eT+{e?
d]jTdt> eq yTTV+ |dq+> e]+~. HqT MT \T|y* nH&T.
e]q+<T d+wd nH&T eTVH m+<Tj q< m+<T+ |< |< e\T?
~ q $wjT + <T ds!Y MT e\ # { |< + { H >TsTe # #dq +<T MT
\T|y\|dT + ~ nH&T eTfl.
#Xy! H nC+> $ eH&T! #|! @+ |<+ n~? nH&T eTVH eTV<q+<+>.
V d\T eq|&T #<T eHqT HqT bq>] |< +! b\+ <TqT |<> TTq ue>sT
bq #d m|& sCXjT + $d+> J$+ >& | lH<T &T qTe L& y @ sEH
n++ |<]+ b>=Ts<? n+f n+<T bq @eTH& \Tk?
u\ sk\ k\ qe|\e eT\ e qH >fi\ n|&T| L&T uT+#T+f de
V*q H$T... $T>~ MT >TsT+ & e+T+~! eT\eTsTTq eqqT uw \ sTTq yfifl n+$ T,
|&T |L& q&+ +f eT+ e\T u $T <TqT bbdTe&yT yT\ <! n nse TqT+{qT.
MTsT sdE\T. $ V<jT+ MT u> *d e+T+~. jyT s dsY?
< eTVH yTTV+ e&bsTT+~.
sT |! nH&T &e sY s X+>. sT +~. n|{ n~ ms dT zesY f #dd+~. sT
>&+ d&H u dT L& >e\d e+~.
eTq+ eTfl \Tk+! + dV|P] yesD+ <T nH&T eTVH.
yT #|+& dTy| |]>&T . eTVH sT ~* y[flbsTT+~.
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dT &sTTes, +&s , dT |j D \ jTbs+ eq Hds Y #&>H uj

T |&sT
@+ ]+<q.
s=| dT m n+<] |> #X&T HdsY .
yfifl ~qsY &T!
@yTH&T! eT< jT&sTTH ~bj&?
n< n&>&T +&s Y .
<sY! +&|* e~ eTfl < |&+ nH&T +&sY ujTu\.
VsT> eTs nqTeq+ e+~ HdsY .
n+f... +&|* s <] mes mqT L& <?
<T ksY! nH&T +&s .Y |j D \T L& #eT+~ +&s T e\ deT]d \\T }bsT.
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n+f ~qsY dT mH <qe! n& m& q q < +{&T. D+ s&T ne\
~qsY q&+,eTsTD+ dT >&+ dy>+ >Z&+ s D+ dT uT ~qsY L&
n<XeTe&+ q dV+>H n|++~ ` ~qsY dT m b]bsTT +{&! ~qsY n+
eTT+<Tk] n+{ { | #jT&+ q #q nfbsTT+~!
n|&|++~ Hds Y `
sTTH bdt usTTH L& H|PH #jT>\T>TTH&+f `
~qsY me&> eeT\T $Tq <T! nH= $ JjTdt nsTT +&*!
XjT+>!
` mesqT? mT y[flbj&|&T?
kkk
n+ z q\u $Tc\ eTT+<T `
s dwH njeTjT+> #d \& +~ &sY X+.
dwH eq s ~qsY d+ y nqT q&be&+ q <>Z] e#&T H|sY .
M&e&> nk<T & H&T. yD sT eTT+ yfifl* HqT! MTsT H y+ se&+ MTL HL
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q #| e< y]dTH $q+& y[fl, q d+ {T = #&T .

# dqT&sTTq H|sY #d q s | |+ sef< >V++~ X+. nqT
~qsY eTT||\T |&TTH&T yT!
`
nqT | #jT&+ <T.
q &{ #jT e\dq <+f e+<s T me B #dT H &T. n+<T n | |e \d+<MT
<T .
q <>Zs X\e rdT |sT>T+{ q& dwH jT{ y[flbj&T .
y[flbj b{bs+MT< d +&bsTT+~ qT.
y| q ~qsY y{&&TTq +Te b]b +f, qT +> +{ m y[flbT+~?
yT n|++~.
~qsY q m& <=]&, n& +=k] H y[fl #d?
HdsY +f eTT+<T H= y[fl D+> n+ #d se&+ eT+!
n ss TT+#T, fsTTH ] e, HsT > sT y[fl, n& bsY #d +q q sT rdT,
k{ jT\T<]+~ &sY X+.
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d]+>T k] n, k] ]qT> ...
d| eTT+<T...d| yq...
<={ d++<+ #q\T! C|\T! <X\T!
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m+<T |s |e\d e+~?
qT #~$q yT& C { |jTsT+&y&T ~qsY n.
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|sT n # sE\ bT |*q s Xu<jq dT]++~ q!
q |sT, n |sT n$Hue d++<+ +<!
X+, ~qs!Y
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o~ n+eTsTTq s e# wdT ` <jT uqT&T nH> eT |s ns+ . n n|+q s

n eTs <w #&+ yTT<{+< qT?
b `
qMT< |P]> <s|& b sTT, qT +& d q ~qsY #d C*|& n eqd+ >
<>sZ s TT+<?
m& #~$+~ qT eTT me]#qsTTH |$T+#&{ |$TksT d\T. eTT ]#
s~+|&{ s~ksT. M{+f eTTK+! eTT +=] neds+ nq ueq d neds+!
q, q y< +, q sD , q kV#s + e nedse TjsTT ~qsY . nqT eeTT |w+{
<T.
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nH me deTjT+ >&|+ `
n neds\T |{ +&+ `
n d\J ns+ #dTe& |jT+#&+ `
n > qT>=H |jT+ #jT&+ `
m|&T ]+< *jT<T >, nqT |w+T nq ueq ]bsTT nqT eT>y&T nq ueq
*+~ q.
<uf...
qT &s <T...z n+<eTsTTq nesTT nH dV L& *+~.
b\ &T#T |&q s n$ |sT>T> e]q+ X+>H |w+{ q |jTT&j&T.
&sT n |jTd nsTT+~.
~ n+<] $wjT+q, n dTq s>be#T! s><T L&!
n ]>T+f @ &s bdT #jT<T! #jT<T! m& q{...{...k] ]
$wjT+ n+!
n~ q $wjT+ ]+~.
VsT> }V <X+ e]bsTT+~.
sEq...
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<s T <=+>\T #\> q]+>+ |\ e#sT.

qT deTjT+ ~qsY d&{y @< dT+~.
<=+>\T dMT|dTq de& qT L& >V+#H <T d>+ eTT q ~qsY e+ qT+&
n\sY> nsTTbj&T!
n yTTV+ HdHfwH q&+~. #e\T ]+ $H&T.
s #Tq n #d n& eq d]{ u{ n+<T \T| |q \&&T.
<=+>\T q q |* e#&T.
T s>+& nH&T ~qsY yT*>.
*|& yq #XsT <s . y+H yfifl eTTU\ MT< d]{ bdX&T ~qs.Y d]{ fifl |&> H
fifl u>TZq eT+& y[fl<s |<> \T yjT&+ yTT<{sT. y+H #s # yfifl &d |TH&T
~qs.Y
> k|t n+ |]> T n& e#sT. <=+>\T ~qsY |T e~*+#T fi fl qT\TeTT+
n w+MT< {qT+ jT{ <XsT. yfifl |uj&T ~qsY. n Xs |]d n
M\T|& e<T .
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$q&+~.
<+ s+bsTT #dTq X+ Xs+qT+ sTq s n+~.
q]+>yT <=+>\T |& + < yTT<{k ]!
yfifl HsT> HqTq #{ se&+ + Xs+> <? nH&T ~qsY k#q>.
nd+~>+ > \|+++~ X+.
n~ >Ts=d |&|k+~ yfifl nd\T <=+>H !?
b ~qsY #+|& eq V+ yfifl?
n|&T Vd ~qsY MT< V |jT+!
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<+ #dT+f ~qsY #+b\H |jT\T # sZHC&> sT>TTqT> <!
n nsTT mesT #dTHsT |jT\T! m+<T? nd\T ~qsY mesT?
yT n n\&> d e+&>H k{ dMT|++~ sT.
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n&...
y| q @sT.
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qT k{ + eTT+<T L& s+&TksT e+~. ~qsY > jT|f +yTH >TsT\T
<=sTjTyqq X. n|{ @MT <=s<T.
+k] |jT d <=se <=s L &< m&T+~? + eTT+<T $TdsTTbsTTq bsTT+T
|&T #e#T <?
#Tq bsTT+~ &s Y X+.
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@$T~?
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n~ sbsTT HD+!
sbsTT <T.
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sbsTT HD $s={s+&TeTT\T #d y{ eTT> e+~ n~.
sbsTT eTT s+&Ty| s+&T H\THsTT.
k ~ddt dyT~+>!
d> ]+q, $s>=Z{q sbsTT HD+!
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qT ms d dT mTqT HdsY ueT*+ s&T |H q |< eT]#T
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e#&T.
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qT+ bjT+> | +#T+ e+&&+ n nTs+ *++~.
eTfl n< |X!
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bdT e\ nsTT @+ bdT?
mesT qT? V+&? eT+y&?
#q m+ >, ] eTT+<T @+ #j +#&+ yTT<{&T ~qsY.
q #d ujT|& bDujT+ b]bsTTq e qT <=+*+q y{sY d MT< m
y[flbu |*bj&T.
y{sY d eq u+T mes> q #+|& |{ e+{sT. n~ \TdH e+~.
u+T |{+~ mesH e#T. < y{sY d u |{ +&&+ e+ qT { q
<>Zs nsTT e+&*.
q #d b]bsTTq e L& yTT<{ q sd|&+~ n&.
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jT& d<+ > #T e+&e#T n&.
yfiflbe&+e\ ]> |e<+ L& # e+~.
yfiflb Hes q *jT<T.
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eTfl y| yfifl es+Z q&e&+ yTT<\T|{&T ~qs.Y
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VQX n~ &+> nsTT e+&e#T.
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#=,
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m{
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sbjYT nsy |d\T y*. dssT sbjYT mqu|d\T yk&T.
zqsT u\T ={ dssY |* @$T{>\? nqT #X&T.
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=]dqT $] e+~.
<$T{? nH&T zqsT.
nsTT<T|d\ _fifl q MTs #sT. n~ m& #\&+ <T.
zqsT s+~.
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zqsY bHD s&T MT< |& T syT yX&T. m& n&T #y _\. yT$T+~
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|{&T .
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zqsT no\|<+ { #]+ e<T& MT< #sTT b&T.
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|{ = +< sTTe&+ ]+~.
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s eTfl ]bsT =qk+~.
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T+ us+ yTT+ yT MT< |&+~. * L& bj sTT+ eTT&T $ yT ~ nsTT+~!
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k< eTsTTq+ mT m~by\q V V e+~. nsTTH +& qT nd+<e TsTTq #q\T e.
yT @+ #dH |&+B> #dT+~.
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MT + w+ m\\+ e+&<T.
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n+H s s> n+~ Cq.
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m<TsT> s|TTq+<H us \& e+~. yT yTTV+ c q&T+~.
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|sT>T eTT& <>Zs y[flbsTT, eTT&! $! H $! n+~ sT<yTbTq >=+T. yT fifl
{bs @s&+~.
$ n+f q |+#bD\T! +!
yT q <>Zs edT+f, n&T>T yq yX&T $. n fifl H|PH q&T+~.
+ n&T>T eTT+<T yd+~ yX*. eTT& $! n+~.
+d yq ]>&T $. ] yT y| ujT+> #d nH&T qTyes H *jT<T! HqT
eTTD <T
n e\T #$q &>H Xws \sTTbsTT+~ yX *.
kkk
mes HeT~> {qT+ >~ ~qT n|d fifl ] #d+~ X+.
{ <>Zs \& +~ s+!
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n #&>H q >~q, q eTqdTq L& e]+eq eT N{ D+
b]bsTTq|++~.
<TTq eT+#+MT<qT+ +~ X+. n+> ~qsY dMT|++~, >&+ > yfdT +~
n.
~qs!Y H ~qs!Y qTe eTfl H q&yy q m+ ~>T\T|&b jH \Tk? n+~ ><~Z +>.
X+! yT &]+>! nH&T ~qsY HeT~>.
VsT> nMT< n\ e#d+~ X+.
m+<T qqT n e~d b]bje? qTe H <seTsTT HqT m+ yT+ {ssY
nqTu$dTHH *jT<? n+~ |<TqT>.
HqT <=] #\T! ] ysTT+#T H&T HdsY! eT] b]b @+ #j*? nH&T
~qs.Y
qTe #jT Hs m |&TT+~? HjT+ n+ >T&> e+T+<? HqT qeTqT.... n+~
X+.
n+<TH n+THqT X+! du # yT]{ +~! ||+#+ me] q+
n+<+ e+~! me] e+&q+ eT+q+ L& e+~. X+...
#TsT>Z #d+~ X+.
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Cq+ e+ u> <T. jTT sY @ d{ *{ d+{yT+ |P! n+! neH?
neqT! n+<T @ d+{yT+ |eT |&bjqT n+~ X+ #TsT>Z.
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n eTfl qTy \Bke!
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nqTu$ +q fqq eTqdT n+ n| dTeTsTTq |+ s|+ ]C nsTTbTHsTT.
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nH&T.
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n eTfl nH&T
$+ H k++ <qT! ns; eTTsu\qT+ <=+*+#
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nsdT #jT >\&T!
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nHH ~]k,
eTTHH ~ ]k,
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H s >T+& >T+
nH&T $. HqT L& &{ n eTq$ #dTHqT.
e<qTH qe e+~ X+. sTq yq ] n >{> e*+#T+~.
VsT> us |&T ~+&T $*+#Te&+ yT\e e#d+~ X+.
n+f.....
~qsY se&+...ns; eTTsu\T e*+#&+ ...
n+ H?
fifl fifl +&sTT X+.
m&TH&T ~qsY? m& +& +{&T nd\T?
~qsY, deTjT+ e<T&sTTq yeTqse *d dJe+> uk|+ #jT&q y&
>T+ bsTT H&, eT] =~ D \ e+< n&$ <Tq\ X q eTT&Tq < T
&sT b+q+ =d #<TqT #dj& edTq< yT *jT<T.
kkk
q bD bD+ +{ eTT&T $, qT me] d+ c\T dV d TT+< $ q
ms>q Hd] >T+& ysTT eTT\sTTqT n|++~ yX *. fifl fifl ]>sTT. >=+T m+&bsTTqsTT+~.
|<e\T & #dT+ w+MT< >=+T kBq+ #T n+~ yX*.
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$! $ &jTsY! T #&T! HqT! njT yX*! >Ts=#H? + |<! eTq +{ eTq+

y[flb<+.
q uT+ MT< eq yX* # HfX&T $. += n&T>T yq ] yT y| ]bs #d
nH&T.
qTye]y H nd\T H <T. qTe H njT$ H<T.
@< nqTeq+ *qT ny| |> #d+~ yX *. s <q+> yTy| ]+~.
#| ! @+ #Xy HeTT&? m+<T nsTTbj&T y&T? @ eT+< e |+#y $ #?
#|! #|y+? n+~ = ns+ = |\T.
de<q+ #|+& L> yTy| #X&T yT.
#|! #|b >T&T |kqT n+~ yX* = n&T> eTT+<T yd.
}V s ! nH&T yT |>. yT+ & u+&+>, &> , d&wH , Vbdd,t usTTH yw+> n
|j+#&sTT $MT<. n+<T jT++>, su{> nsTTbsTT HH+ #_ n~ #dTH&T $.
nqT q >, &+{{ |P]> eT]bsTTqf +!
n& eq |esY b{ #T rdT \+> yT MT~ $dsd+~ yX*.
+ <\ +&H &T|> =~> | ]>&T yT.
|esYb{ y>+> <dT[fl yq eq >& * ufiflq |*bsTT+~.
+<|& q |+>D |+\y| , yX * y| e] e] #X&T yT. s sTqe nH&T.
n+<eTsTTq &|\\T |jTT&MT< |P\#+&T $d] dsd+>, |P\+& $ds&+ n+<+>
e+&<T yX !
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m+<T qs+ #|dTHe e? HfiflqT+N qTe m &d n &qT>! qH eTeT*
e~jYT. e <s yT+ b+!
\ |+d nH&T yT.
n+<\ k++ #dT+& |+|jT&+ H u<>H e+T+<qT! nsTTH ds +{H
> q eTT& e~kqT. nsTT qTe y[flbjT eTT+<T qTe #jTe\dq | +={
e+T+<qT+{qT.
eTfl + |H? e \& n+f @$T{ eTw$ qTe n+~ yX*.
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#j* HqT?
q$ mH ns<T! f! n #|&+ yTT<{&T yT.
kkk
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b+~. HsT ]d H{ <TeTT b+~. ] _se #T>=+T nH&T yeTqse.
eTq bjT f+ <>Zs |&+<qT+{qT. + med| +&&+ w+!
>T+ MT< eq \ # | mjT& $X|jT+ #dTH&T ~qsY. \ #MT< s+&T
eT&T n&T>T\ eT+<q eT{, sfiSfl, <\ nM |&b sTT e+&&+ e\ sTe # n+>Tfi+ yTs
L& <\&+ <T.
n+H `
T &sY >T+ <>Z]=#dTq X+ $q&+~.
>$+<! >$+<! nH&T yeTqse. T~ D u>e+T& \T#T+TqT.
~qsY e{&+& # | HfjT& |jTdH H&T.
T&sY >T+ dMT|++~. < <* n& H\+ n<TsT u +|+ eqT n|k+~.
yeTqse, ~qsY }|] _>|{ sT .
T&sY eTT+<T u>q bs+{~ +~. n~ n&+ edTq eT{ |\, sfifl eTT+<T
ddT+ b+~. n #jT&+ e\ mT> eq d eT{ n+ |\+> eq d |&
|<X e T+ deT\+> nsTTb+~.
>T+ <>]Z e#d+~ T&sY. < eTT+<T eq V+&yT q bs+{~ n& |L*bsTTq
yeTqse +{ \ eT{ , sfifl ddT+ eTT+<TbsTT |~VqT >C\ ne\ q |\+
dd+~.
|&T n& H\+ mT |MT +& deT\yTbsTT+~.
\ # MT< eq eT{q + T&sY djT&+ \ # MT< sTe +Z ~. T &sY # MT<
qT+ yfiTq|&T sTe # s+&T # {+~. |P]> $s><T.
@ sD+ e\HH T&sY k{ =~ D \T >&+ > < f+ \ # $] T &sY
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e<T& s TTq yeTqse #sTT ds n+~+#&T.
|<! |]>T! nH&T ~qsY.
fifly+! q&e&+ L& wyT! nH&T yeTqse.
n+<s+ y[flq T&sY d+& {|d+ yq ]+~.
<H fifly+ d+> eT]bj&T yeTqse. ~qsY *d |]>&+ yTT<{&T.
n nsTT<T $Tc\bT |]> jd+ rsTe&+ d+ >]<s . y[fl| &T sTs&TM T<
eHsT.
~> + qTy[flb! nH&T ~qsY yeTqse.
qTy& yfi THy?
<>Z]!
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d+>?
neqT! dT e H \T L\>=f eTT+<T d+ #+ | nH jT|&d +&y&T.
neH < e+&$ H. qTe \+ VqTeT+T&T <]qT H =+| <se. n+ ds HXqyTb sTT+~.
n+<T>q qTe H qw|]Vs+ #Ty*! n >TD+ |<Vs=+<\ mqu neT+~. yTT+
< <\qT e<\qT nH&T.
nsTT Ks! s! n y| <] rX&T ~qsY.
nss <{H deTsY +& + V\+> e+~.
yeTqse *d n&T>T|{&T ~qs.Y
nqT |* s>H n|{< $q&TTq qe\, \ bjsTT. NeT TeT+f
$q&+ X+ e]++~. n+<s n#q +> nsTTbsTT <j \ #dqT #&&+ yTT<\T|{sT
yfifl.
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LsTH&T yeTqse.
ds sT uj
T + uj
T +> e eT+fifl >dT \T |{&T yfifleTT+<T. s >>u |* y[flbj&T.
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eTfl s+&T $Tc\ s e#&T dssY. n # f e+~. f e+~ f*bH.

|Xs+> dssT y| #d bH n+<TH&T ~qsY.
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~qs?Y
jTdt!
q|t C q|t! ec\T + #\T! jT usY ds+&sY MT. +be&+ s>
eT+~! }|] _>|{&T ~qsY. s <q+> nH&T. mes e{&T+~? bdT?
<T bdT\ udt\+!
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+>b ?
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m<TsT> q fTMT< ms{| |T H&! y&T H eTw! m&+y| LsT qT +Tq
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#s\#= eTw. y& ey&!
#X&T ~qsY. e #|q >TsT\T>\ yfifl+<s eHsT.
+ mesesT HsT? nH&T ~qsY C>>.
+ eTT>TZ] e\ |sT #b&T e.
zs+{ #d yfifl+<s L& n& eHs \TdTH&T ~qsY.
s <q+> nH&T.
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e yfifl *d H <>Z] e#jYT. bD+ V s>< HqT VMT dTHqT.
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jT|& e<T nqT.
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qT mes, Mfifles *dbT+~ + d ee~.
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yeTqse y| #d nH&T ~qsY. qT$& e+&T! HqT ns+{ |MT< yfiTHqT.
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yeTqse.
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n eTT+<T \&<T ~qsY.
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#{ m|& #&<T.
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be#T! HH|& {> >\TdT+{ n qy&T {|y.
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s < q V|t b{ |TH&T. <+ qTeTd ]#> ]bsTT+~.
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m+> b{&TH u<TH = s\T b{k+.
d{ |{+> s? nH&T {|y <u+>.
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y\T m {|y>& fdMT< \+> ={&T ~qsY.
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T +
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>=]>&T @< #| ujT+ yqqT+ qe $q&+~.
sTq yq ]>&T ~qs.Y
n& yX* \& e+~.
n+ N{ L& yT yTTV+ n| s<q q&T+~.
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n+~ yT#T\T>.
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n$ d+fifl.
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kkk
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sbjT\< KsT e#T
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n&qT+ q +{ ] e#&T .
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$es+> #b&T .
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n+<] >q +{ neT e+f <X+ m+ u>T|& +&<! nH&T <>+>.
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|&d T + T+~.
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.
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s{ sTeT s>& + <MT< \& eq e <H e T +<|& &T . n \ \+> H\
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.
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n+!
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n& ]q<+ jTq #b\ n |jT+.
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|+ssTTq fsT e] d| yjT& m+ f+ |<T.
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n *jT<T!
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q f |fXsT Mfifl!
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m q&T+~ qT Mfifl? qTb&T#TH qs eT N{!
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eTT#eT\T bdTHsTT VHs u>+.
f |X yT eTqdT <=*#k+~.
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bsTT+{ H edsY d#Y HH b&sTTbsTT+<?
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y| #XsT dd t nesTT*<s .
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@MT #| ddt\ e+, dT~ |\ eq eT<s> eTqTw\ e+ e] e] #&&+
yTT<{ &T .
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n& eHsH ueyT =sT&T |&&+<T yT. $+> #k+~.
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; n+ b\ssTT. d+ msTTsY +&wH! n&+ n\eTT e+~ dTeTsTTq |]eTfi+!
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+~s yesD *#d >+;seTsTTq >=+T { $q&+~.
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#Tq ] #XsT n+<s.
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]q Xs+! ksT> H&qT.
n >=+T $q&>H yTsTTH &sY <>Zs &eq ddt\ k]> #\q+ e+~.
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s nH&T.
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yfifl # q+<+uT d +~ L& *++~.
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HsTT. = *| = >~ n+ |<~> +~.
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#X&T. H]+ s+>T $T+{>d bTq eT+\ #&>H n ]+~ @$T{ nsyTbsTT+~.
n|& *>+~ |+ <T!
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q $s~ &|q TqT+ n|q T e#X&, qT + nbjT+ uTH& ns+ nsTTbsTT+~
yT.
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yX * q { >T]+ #| +~ n+ $q s * VHsu>+ n+jT \ @sT yTT<{ &T
. *{ yfifl+<s L& eT T+ duT s\T yT bsTTq+> u<| & T kjT+
#XsT.
n+jT\T |P] njsTT. s #d| $>V+ #\q+ +& LsT+&bj&T
.
n|&T , sj e, ]y\sY CT |T jTs&T.
ns>+ s n dsY yT +>fi #]+~.
d+#+> |* y[flbj&T . n >T <>Zs mes n&+#<T.
n& es+&H q&&T` * #+|q V+\ &T.
n #&>H, H=d\T eTT&|&sTT.
n|& d& qT+ m |+#T e#&T M&T?
n|jT+> ]y\sY jT{ rX&T .
n~ #d L& uj
T |& < T V+ &T. +b~> CTqT+ <Tyq rd \ <Tee&+ yTT<{ &T .
= ns+ $&$&> |\T nH&T .
udsY! jyT >sTT+> jT!
|]Vd+> qy&T V+ &T.
qTe qqT #+|e ! m|{ #+|e!
H # ]y\sY +~! >TsT+#T! nH&T .
# + Tb H, ueT Tb H f ! qTe qqT #+|e!
n m+<T+THe?
qy&T V+&.
qTe CsTTr|sT &q |d s T $ ! s\T b{+#&+ qTy k{! qTe eTV nsTT qqT
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\TdT!
nysTTbj&T .
nqT #T+~ yTq n eTqdT \TdT!
#{ q #T rdT eTqTw\ #+|&T qT!
e], m<T{y&T q * #+|q V+&H ds!
n |{sTT+#&+ #d eTfl |<> qy&T V+&T! q$ $d nH&T.
H \TdT ! qTe |s <<eTe! nsdT #jYT qqT!
|&T qTe qqT nsdT #d, eTfl >+ s+&H Cs sT>TT+{ HqT. nsdT #jYT qqT
! <! nsdt #jYT!
rD+> n y| #d \&bj&T .
dVH |+#&qT + sbe&+ yTT<{&T V+&T.
qT #dT+f Ck+~ !
qTe |se T ndeTsT& $ ! | n~sT\ d+w|&+ # <T. d+ eTTd* * L&
dTK|bje qTe! q e< ! |{sTTH &+ HsT! e *d T> e+&T!
yT <qsT & +{ y&T. jTq # meTT <T . |s |+\T, |{+ |\ eHdjYT! e
*db m+ u>T|& y ns+ #dT ! e $s<+ |T +f eTT+<T sT>ujT <sTD\, y{
|*\ m e+{j ns+ #dTe& L& |jT+#T. s nK de s !
>{> }|] rdTH&T . =+d| eTq+> +&bj&T.
s <q+> nH&T.
qTe #|~ H ns+ nsTT+~. HH+ #j* |&T?
d+w+> qy&T V+ &T.
qTe m|{sTTH e] e y| #]be e \TdT . n+<T yT d+ ;|t
dT s &> e+#&T. qTe @< f+ sJ |&b e jTq eTT+< \TdT. <! <! n |* <]
rX&T.
n y+f q&#&T .
es+& <{ V\T +~.
|\ = ><T\T. n$ L& <{ `
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b w&+ |<~> e+~ V\T.

V\T eT< `
q d$T+> |P +{~ e+~.
< |H |{ e+~ usT.
&+sY! m !
m nH \#s+ # |e<seTsTTq~. < q mesH , |#+&eTsTTq X
m c dT+~ n~.
c * eTqTw\T L& #e&+ UjT+!
n~ & m+<T+~?
yT q e $q yfifl n+<T dd <sTDeTsTTq eTsD >T]#k&qe!
n eT&T>T y| #d e+&>H,
VHs u>+ #+|q V+&T |* y[fl, ;|t dT ] e#&T.
! ~ e =* qT! n qe n+~+#&T ;|t dT.
< n+<T ] #X&T .
d]= e+< sbjT\ HT! ;|t dT+&!
qTe e u> | eke yT qeT+ ~]+~. n+<T + u> eTT #TTH&T
nH&T V+&T $e]dTqT.
&T y| d+w+> #X&T .
H + u mTq eTT #Ts *d, m|& e]bsTT e+&y&>! nH&T qe.
n+H ;|t dT, e+<sbjT\ H \ dV, m\ eq eT&T>T $dsX&T.
nqT n+ &T n s +> $dsjT>H T mssTT = HT!
# HT \T \T> |P |&bjsTT!
;|t dT = H \T +&bjsTT.
H \ dV |P |&bsTT+~ ;|t dt!
q fifl eTT+< n+ <q + fifl b\sTT be&+ #d V+ & eT u$ T+qsTT+~. H+ #dT H &
q *jT+&, #Tq e+ fifl #sTT|{, ;|tdt n+<Te{ |jT+ #X&T nqT!
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nqT fifl #sTT|{ |>H m dsds e n +~.

D +.
|< yTsT|\T!
\ z\T\ c ={qsTT+~ V+&!
<TsseTsTTq u< |{ $sT#T|& fifl |&bj&T nqT.
n bD\T n|{ fifl *dbsTT e+{jT \TdT .
n|&T $q&+~ yqTqT+ +sds+.
y&H ! y y &H! ...e dV#sT& #+|q+<T |> yT+ L& @< {
#j*>! T #&T...
#Tq yq ]>&T .
>=+T $q>H yq ] #X&T .
H |sT k|sY! nH&T yq \& eq eTw. #dt k|sY n+{sT n+<s! +&jTH
k|sT n +&T eH&T e <>Zs! n+<T! nH&T nqT. n~ |d+>+ n n\yT>
e+~. |dT| |#>, b{>, eT+>sTT& b*\ H&T nqT.
n # &kT ds+ e+~.
fifl {+ <y| #X&T .
n~ #d qy&T #dt k|sY.
BH eq +C H @$T nqT+THe < ! uj
T |& ! ~ qT #+|& <T. qTe >T+&
#e+& +#& +H
e{&+& $+TH&T .
|X#+ qe nH&T #dt k|sY.
+C H |sT *&H . qT |&T HqT e< #kqT <! n {ssY #dT q |&T #eT+~
u< u] +# >T+& #bsT. qTe n+ =+<s> #d eTC @eTT+~? e m<TsT ]q+<TL
e eTw & #+|q+<T >qT qTe sE\ s & $\$& s #y*! nse TsTT+<? n+<T
*&H. V+d f+ >T+& b+&! s! nH&T.
n ||T {+#& dq<e Tj&T .
n|{ & dMT|+#sT eTs q\T>TsT eTqTw\T. n ns+>Tfi+ L&
<\& M+& \+> |fdTHsT yfifl.
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y*> qe <>Zs e#&T #dt k|sY.

eTsTD+ ds+C \ d~ Xs+ ~>&+~.
s # dt k|s Y eTT+<T <] rdT+ &> $T*q q\T>TsT eTqTw\ <<| > +T+
{ssY #+sY rdT yfiflsT.
eTw q k{ eTw m $<\ V+d+#&+ k<y n $<\ V+d+#& | e#
|]s\T n& eHsTT. uqs+ e+~ {ssY #+sY.
#Xy e ||+! nHT y| #d qy&T #dt k|sY.
yTTV+ q<Ts u<T s q&< T . <s +> H\T>T y| #X&T nqT. n& + q
dsdT+{~ e+~. fifl +~ |< ks#|. s+b+{ |fifl e+{sTT <. eTw |T
=] s+&T eTT\T> #d+ X e+T+~ |fifl.
d]>Z dsd T |q \ +{~ e+~. <qMT< qT| >=\TdT yd e+~. qT| >=\TdT
y|q d+ ysTT \ sTeq m<T fis+ yfi&T+~.
>=\TdT s+& y|q z e+< \ sTe > eTw yfifl&TTH&T.
eTw+ f m<T sTyq ~ e&+ e\ m<T fi s+ <<| fifl TqT> +~ e+~. s +&y| q
eq eTw u> |q > yfifl&TTH&T.
m<T fi s |< |< eTT\T> =] +{+~ csY#|. m<T fi s+qT+ e+d+ qZ =B n~
* =~ =~> | b+~. >=\TdT ne\ eq eTw =~ =~> +~ e#dTH &T. m<T e+k
csY#| |P]> Hdq s eTw fifl |&be&+, csY n L& HjT&+ |<T.
n~ <Ts<we+T& L& \TdT. n+<T nqT V<jT$<s+> \T |&TTH&T. q
bD\T b&eT HH$<\T> b<jT|&TTH&T. >Ts=q <e\ <D\T |&TTH&T.
y| ]>&T #dt k|sY.
<$T{ \Tk? nH&T < #dd . *| > e+~ n~. < q n<+ { > neT]
e+~.
yTTV+ q&TTq ue+ #d n n<$T{ ns+ < *d+~ #dt k|sY.
n+<T qe nH&T.
yTeTT <Xu yT qT n s\ V +d\T |{q s #+sY k+! H ~ >dt
#+sY <T. +<TqT+ $wyjTTe\T e qT #+|jTe ! ~ {ssY fd t f ! n|&
n #|jT&+ m+<T! qTy \TdT+{y <!
eTq+> $+TH&T .
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#dt k|sY eTfl nH&T ! >`{ssY yTT<{ |T+ yTT<&<e? n+

|]s n+<TH&T.
kkk
qT <+d+ #dq b y| #d =~ D\bT \&bj&T ~qsY.
b eq HT u+T\bT n& k eq bjT\T L& n+Te&+ # +>
q&T+~ <X+. XeT+ mT d T q eT+\uT bjT\ \ |P\se\T L& $T+{
>d |&T THsTT.
~qsY n #d e+&>H`
sEe e nMT< |&+~.
n< deTjT+ `
+b+&T \ ne{ Vdt q =+eT+~ eTqTw\T nTy| |sT > T se&+ q&+~
~qsY. yfifl #T |esY | {yT{ y|H eHsTT.
yq = n&T>T\T yd s |]>&+ yTT<{ >&MT~ H\T>T n&T>T\T yd s n+#T
|T ne\y| < X&T.
n|{ ys Y d t <s & sT>TTq esDeT+ ys yT eTqTw\ # eT+~ *dbsTT+~.
#eT+~ s sTTs yVH\ |<X #sTe&+ yTT<{sT.
~qsY >& m nTy| <d deTj nf ek+~ yT eTqTw\T q yH.
<MT< <&T ~qsY.
eT yVq+ MT< mes >+ <qT |\ LsTqyfifl ns+ nsTT+~.
mes e+{sT?
|\ LsTq yfifl &T $+&qT+ \ u{ |{ {|y| #X&T.
{|MT< ~qsY q&>H Xs+ |< |{ # s | $+&+ jT |{ {|t y|
>T] #d &T nqT.
n< deTjT+ `
mes sjT HjT& k>+ #|& s&T n&+> sD+ {q ]+>T #X&T
~qs.Y
n~ >q q *
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qT +<|& b e&+ UjT+.

n+<T n~ q >\+& |*yTT>Z yd > m] eTfl +~ <&T. D+ ]+>T<{
Ty| eq yH MT< eTfl \&&T.
yT eTw *q T{ ~qsY |* yTT>Z ydq|&T n +<qT+ <dTbsTT+~.
yH eTqTw\T qMT< \T\T sT|THs nsy T + ~ ~qsY .
eTfl s| |&T yH eTw.
k] eTfl |*y T T>yZ d s&T | H eq yT& yTT<{ n+dT \ u\ s sTT*+>qT n+<TH&T
~qs.Y
\T| \+> H{ |\ y[flbj&T.
\T| se>H k] |< y\yT s eT $q&&+ yTT<{+~.
n<= sks+T. #eT+~ deTsT LsT |\Vs\T + eT<+ >T &dt MT< eq
n+<eTsTTq nesTT &H #d e+f eTT> #d m+CjYT #dTHsT.
yfifl eT< T{> <dT=#&T ~qsY.
n|& #H + jT{ edTq ysTTsY T{ edTq ~qsY #d #T>=+T |{
# eq f e~X&T.
n~ k | fT <>sZ LsTq de TsY Hq |&+ ~. u> y&> eq d| n yTTV+ MT<
C]+~.
n|{ | > eq eTw ||+ fqT+ +<|& q >dT rdT ysTTsY y|
$ds&T.
>dT Vd+ > <dT y[fl eT\> LsT $d d$dTq deTsY MT< |&+~.
me& n~! n s+|{ #&T nqT. qeTT+<T eq |T n+<T $w #+ $ds&T.
D >+<s> fi+ yTT<\sTTbsTT+~.
+ >u sT>TTH &d Mt T< nsq >+> q+ #dT q nesTT e+ q | |< T . eT>
#dH q&T+ n | H+ #k+~.
deTsY fifl fifl T+THsT. =T+THsT.
nesTT &H #dH e+~.
d+<& #H <]bj&T ~qsY. X+&$#dt s+&T, fT s+& n+<T |H eq
ddt *|t m&T. eTsT$Tw+ yT& \ nsTT< n+dT &u MT< #sTH&T nqT.
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n& qT+ >>u |]> | &uMT~ <&T.

n&qT+ | &u!
n&qT+ | &u!
sD+ {sH #TMT< qT+ + #TMT~ < yfiTqT +{ + nq<q
|+ yT&MT< qT+ + yT& MT~ <d y[flbTH&T ~qsY.
nqT n sTyT&\T <{ `
n|&T q&+~ n.
| yT&, yT& eT< eq s&T!
\+|T + ne*y| < jT& <sq + y& { s&T n~!
m?
@+ #j*?
nqT n d e+&>H
X+ X+ $q&+~.
mesT?
yX ?
\ m #X&T ~qsY.
+< yX* eq V*|sY <T n~!
q dsY $eq+!
yX +< n+<T!
nqT n #d e+&>H
$eq+ k]> +~ e#d+~.
<<| ~qsY sdT+ y[fl+~.
#Tq +< e+>&T ~qs.Y
=+< s+ y[fl+~ $eq+.
eTfl yq ] se&+ yTT<{ + ~.
<H q~ yT eTqTw n >V+#& me d| |<T ~qsY.
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yT | |&& ysY &sY #X&qe qMT<!
q m>H ds &kjYT #j\ XsTT+#TH&qe.
n+<T $eH\ L& s+>+ ~+|TH&T.
k] $eq+ <>Z] s>H <H eq yT eTqTw\T qMT< \T\T yTT<&sT.
n~ n \TdT.
$eq+ u> +~ ~e eTfl <<| ~qsYqT sdTyfifl+ <>Zs>!
es+ T{ ]XsTT.
eTfl | +~ $eq+. $+&qT+ +~ #X&T |\{.
yT&MT< ~qsY &T !
@& M&T? nH&T |\{ +>sT>.
|\{ |q LsT eq eTs eTw qTL& <Ts> e+ #X&T.
q + +<> eq dsY $eq+ n+<T |Te+> <MT~ mX&T ~qsY.
+< ~qsY q& |\ {, n dV #sT & &y| |]o\q> #d e+&>H #Tq m&eTy| q
eq $eq+ \T| sT#T+~. |* Cs&bj&T ~qsY.
n #&>H eq yd, $eH | b s eTT+<T b#&T |\{.
H H= &y|q q \T| z|H #X&T ~qsY. s |\{, n dV#sT& \+>
| X&T. VVs\T #d y[fl<s <~ueT n+ mTMT< qT+ +< |&bjsT.
n|&T d]>Z {+ +& MT<qT+ b+~ $eq+. {++& ds Y s >{ |&e |+<\T sT>TTHsTT.
|qT+ |&q <sT <H\TeT uT |&sT.
+{ $eq+ |{+>T m|& #d e+& V<su< |\T #eT+~ {++& <>Zs
#]bsTT Hsfiflu{ sT>TTq<+ #dTHsT. |qT+ + #dTq ~qsY q> qe $eH
{|t d& eTT+<T b#&T.
nsTT<T $Tc V <su< b*yTs\T <fd+ ~ $eq+. n& deT\+> q&TTq |<X
mqT +& #X&T $eH. n~ +& nsTT H\MT< |]> & + yTT<{ + ~. n& |]ds\qT C>>
>eT+#&T ~qsY. |s+>T <s+ =+&sfifl >T\T q&sTT. $eH n& b#&T.
>T yfiTq J| ss\ Xu\T #d eTT+<T y[flbsTT+~ $eq+. >T\ dMT|dT+&>,
$eq+ d&T u> |+ D+ qT +< <X&T ~qsY. $eq+ {|t d&T eTT+<T |]>T[fl,
n< y>+ >T\ & =+~.
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$eq+qT+ eT+\T X+ #sTT.
V+&eTsTTq X+ $q&+~. bjT> |*bsTT+~ dsY $eq+.
*bTq $eq+ y| k#q> #X&T ~qsY. s \T <T\T| q&e&+ yTT<\T
|{&T .
$eq+ V C >T]+ yT b{ ys n+~ e+T+~. q b {, $eq+ {
<+dyTbj }] e+&&T yT. |d ysY &sY #k&T q MT<.
n< q e\d+~ L&!
|+> ujT+> q XTe |\T me #k&T.
| ] | \T #d e+f y{ mbsTT{ #d, MbsTT+{ |{ #e< =&+ q kfJ \
{.
=+<s+ q&#, b&T&q +{|qT+ yTsTTHs&T muj&T ~qsY.
n|&T!
b&T& +{qT+ @< q n*& nsTT+~.
n+ q Xu L& *>Z |d>fX&T ~qsY.
@$T{ X+? mesTHs&? q> n&T>T\ #|&T $q&+~. #Tq |* y[flbj&T
~qsY. n& eH& eTw! b{>, |\>! qTy nH&T ~qsY Xs+>.
neqT! HH! yeTqse! qTe qqT >sY|+& \ q]+>yT e~d #b|+&
y[flbj d+ ##T yT }s+ #&~]>qT. y<usTTq r> * #TTqT qT$&
y H! qTe H u eq |<Vs=+<\ mqu sbjT\ rs< H=<\qT
uH? @+ u? nH&T ~qsY |s< q+>. nqT yT >+>T >T]+# + dTH &T.
e\ H \T <+d+ nsTTbsTT+~ <! < >qT |]Vs+ nH&T ~qsY yeTqse.
ds! nH&T ~qsY $dT>Z
~>! *>Z rdT! HqT &T <>Zs # >{ eTw nH&T yeTqse.
<s jT{ e yTsTTH s&T msT.
~>! HqT qHfiSfl H uH u{ qTy y* nH&T yeTqse. H *
<V+#Tb+~. @eTH |{+#T
~qsY $dT>Z q CT eq &T\T rd K|{&T. me<T. =+u |d\T +~. $T>~
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|<! n n& |s+>T <s+ q { c| rdTfifl&T yeTqse. =+u |d\
eHj < eTfl zk] C>> |{ d+ { s]#&T.
|\, n& +sY <>Zs n<\ ;sTy q&TTq \y| X> #X&T yeTqse.
L& #|s<? nH&T ~qsY.
q~ =+u |d\T! < { | ++ s<T nH&T ~qsY >{>.
] ~qsY q n+~+q d>+ { }]+#T+ #d| >&T yeTqse.
jT{ e# n*yT+ dTqT nH&T yeTqse.
+ >+{ s +&T >+ uq+ #jT b H bD\T \e! yfi |Tq q&+ H n\yT.
qTy+ #ky H <T. + >+ H MT\T |{+#* nH&T >.
uTC>sd nH&T ~qsY.
nsTT HqT #|qT #j* qTe
#| nH&T yeTqse.
@+ #j n $es+> #b&T ~qsY.
<s s&TM T< eTfl q&e&+ yTT<\T|{sT .
d <s+ yfifl usY q&+~.
#| +~ >TsT+ <? n yeTqse V#]+ ## |* q&#&T ~qs.Y n yqH yfifl&T
yeTqse.
VQ{VQ{q |* eq ~qsY usY f+&sY eTT+<T >&T.
|Xs+> #k&T usY f+&sY.
@& MT yTHsY? nH&T ~qsY >=+T n~s<s+ |*d.
=~ D yTHsY e#&T n&.
+eTT+<T bdT |dsY <>Zs qT =fd q b+T q <=+>CT <q &+{{ sT
k] rd yTHsY #|+, nqT < d]>Z #<eeTT+< eTfl CT |fdTH&T ~qsY.
+f*CH &bsYyT+{! +< Ty| z eTw e +&* eeT\T & b&T>, { \sY
ws, &sY \sY b+ ydT e+{&T nH&T ~qsY.
eT> #X&T yTHsY. ~qsY #|> >|t +&yfifl sE e+<eT+~ eksT q usY.
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y&T |< <=+>H j >&T! y&T sys bjT\ HT j sT#d ]sT u+ yfifl L&
n$ <=+>H \TdTsqe! n+ m|sY y&T! y&T m&[flH sysbjT\ Hf _\T
#*dT+{&T. MT<>Z] yfi sy sbjT\ HfeTH e#j? nH&T ~qsY.
u&= e+{sTT nH&T yTHsY.
y{ <=+>HT +&e#T. #&e+& nH&T ~qsY.
yTHsY wt u H rd y{ sysbjT\ HT @], y{ uT> |q |{&T
yTHsY #|\T q edq \MT<, e+{MT< eq >j\ MT< |d]+#&+ >eT+ nH&T
~qs.Y
<=+>H j >&TH& qsyT. |swjTdt |! | e+ nejT+> q&&T.
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sTqe q&T+~.
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