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Tbilisi
2012
Fight like a girl by Lisa Bevere, Georgian
© 2012 Messenger International
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Originally published in English as Fight like a girl
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To contact the author: LisaBevere@ymail.com
1. ra gogosaviT Cxubob?!.......................................................4
7. brZola sibrZnisTvis………………..............………………….91
ra gogosaviT Cxubob?!
hei, Sen qaliviT ibrZvi! am frazaSi, ra Tqma unda, xSi-
rad Seuracxyofa igulisxmeba. mniSvneloba ara aqvs amas
kaci eubneba kacs, biWi – gogos, Tu qali kacs, masSi ar
aris komplimenti. piriqiT, mas esvrian sapasuxod susti
dartymisa, gakawvrisa, an susti tyorcnisa. maS ratom
unda movuwodebde vinmes, rom gogosaviT ibrZolos? pir-
veli, is, rac mamakacebisTvis da biWebisTvis Seuracxyo-
faa, igivenairad ar unda iyos gagebuli qalebisTvisac.
qalebi qalebiviT unda ibrZodnen, magram raRac ucnauri
mizezis gamo, Cveni umravlesobisTvis umjobesi iqneboda
movisminoT, rom mamakacebiviT vibrZviT. SesaZloa es im
mizniT iyos, rom gogoebs CamouyalibdaT uxeSad brZolis
Cveva?
4
ra gogosaviT Cxubob?!
ase qalurad da qalis msgavsad viqceodiT. danarCenebs
dagvaviwyda, rom is, rac sisusted aris miCneuli erT
sqesSi, xSirad Zlieri mxarea meoreSi. me imis Tqma minda,
rom gana mamakaciviT Zlieri dartymis ar qona unda ganix-
ilebodes yovelTvis rogorc araswori?
qali da brZola
5
ibrZole rogorc qalma
gverdze gadadeben maTi daniSnulebis sanacvlod. biblia
ambobs, rom maxvilebs gadaadnoben saxnisebad (ix. esaia
2:4). Semdeg mamakacebic da qalebic daubrundebian Tavi-
anT sawyis mdgomareobas da Sesabamis dinamikas dedami-
waze. magram axla arsebobs problema, mteri da brZola.
6
ra gogosaviT Cxubob?!
rom odesme gadakveTon erTmaneTi. es isrebi ar moicavs
dedamiwis mrudes; isini miuyvebian drois wrfiv gzebs. es
imas niSnavs, rom mudmivi mtrobis popularuloba izrde-
ba drosTan erTad, radgan orive mxare farTovdeba da
mravldeba sigrZeSic da ricxobrivadac. TaobebTan erTad
mtroba Rrmavdeba.
7
ibrZole rogorc qalma
srulyofili qaliT Seicavda srulyofil mowinaaRmdeges.
gana adami ar iyo gafrTxilebuli daecva xe?
9
ibrZole rogorc qalma
`is Tavs gagiWeWyavs da Sen mas qusls daugeslav.~
(dabadeba 3:15)
10
ra gogosaviT Cxubob!?
sruliad Tavisufali, sruliad RmerTis
12
ra gogosaviT Cxubob!?
els imis niSnad, rom SevuerTdebodi mis klass. beWdva
gadaiqca swavlis darbazad. cxovreba mSvenieri iyo.
zeciero mama,
13
ibrZole rogorc qalma
ZalmiZs. ar davixev ukan SiSSi, aramed gabedulad warvad-
gen Cems moTxovnebs raTa SevebrZolo yvelafers, rac
dadgeba Cems pativs, Cems ufalsa da ojaxs Soris. amin.
14
Tavi meore
15
ibrZole rogorc qalma
SiSad meCveneba. modiT sxvanairad gamovxatoT es. verc
ki warmovidgen, rom mamakacebis jgufi eTanxmebodes sxva
Zmas, roca igi Riad acxadebs Tavis zizRs mamakacebis
mimarT. an warmoidgineT rom Savkaniani Zma an da idgnen
da acxadebdnen TavianTi sazogadoebis winaSe: `megobrebo,
iciT ra? sinamdvileSi ar momwons Savkanianebi.~ ase maTi
saqme kargad ar damTavrdeba. CasviT aq nebismieri xalxTa
jgufi, italielebi, arabebi, bavSvebi da a.S., da yovelT-
vis ucnaurad iJRerebs. vercerT SemTxvevaSi ver miiRebT
Tanxmobas garda qalebis SemTxvevaSi.
`bevrs wuwunoben!~
ra mouvidaT qalebs?
16
iqneb me ar momwons qalebi?
SegviZlia es daviwyoT kiTxvis dasmiT: `ratom aris rom
qalebs ar moswonT qalebi?~ ras SeeZlo gamoewvia rom qa-
lebis didi raodenoba uaryofs TavianT sqess? es yvelgan
minaxavs sadac ki mimogzauria, da Sedegebi Zalian didia.
samwuxarod, bevr CvenTagans ar gveswavla dafaseba imisa,
ranic varT, rogorc qalebi. sakvirvelia amis Semdeg, rom
vSordebiT Cvens rols maSin, roca arasodes gvesmoda re-
alurad Tu ras niSnavs iyo qali?
STamagonebeli xilva
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iqneb me ar momwons qalebi?
ciaze. RonisZiebis bolos mozardi gogoebis jgufma Sea-
srula lamazi cekva. moxibluli viyavi roca vuyurebdi
maT rogor ikribebodnen. isini yvela zomis da formis
iyvnen – maRali, dabali, momxibvleli da tanadi – Tumca
roca musika daiwyo saerTo taqtiT amoZravdnen. simRe-
rac uxdebodaT da cekvac. cremlebma Camirbines loye-
bze roca isini TavianT sacekvao pas demonstrirebdnen.
erTi Savgvremani gamudmebiT ipyrobda Cems mzeras. gavi-
fiqre: `ra sayvarelia.~ gavifiqre es Tu ara, gavigone su-
lis CurCuli: `Senc ase gamoiyurebodi mis asakSi, magram
amas arasodes amCnevdi.~ kvlav Sevxede. misi aRnagoba Cemi
anarekli iyo mis asakSi, Tumca sakuTari Tavi yovelTvis
mimaCnda uSnod da uxeSad. ratom vxedavdi amas axla gansx-
vavebulad? Sevxede Cems Zvirfas megobar leis, romelic
Cems gverdiT ijda da gavuRime. misi Tvalebic savse iyo
cremlebiT. axla sxvanairad iyo saqme. Cven viyaviT dede-
bi, romlebic qaliSvilebis cekvas uyurebdnen.
21
ibrZole rogorc qalma
kritikis damarcxeba
22
iqneb me ar momwons qalebi?
wmida werilis kiTxvisas. mesmoda igi ojaxuri urTier-
Tobebis dinamikaSic. gamigonia igi komikur situaciebSi,
wesdebebsa da procedurebSi. gamigonia iumorSi. momisme-
nia eklesiaSi, skolaSi. ras gaiZaxda kritika? `qalebi –
problemaa.~
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iqneb me ar momwons qalebi?
qali Seiqmna imisaTvis, rom pasuxi yofiliyo. is sagan-
Zuri iyo, visac adami eZebda, RmerTis srulyofili qmni-
leba. roca mas (qals) uyvars, igi zeTia romelic poxavs
da cxovrebac advilad midis. roca is Tavisufalia, igi ar
aris usustesi rgoli; igi aris lalis Tvali Camokidebu-
li oqros mZivze.
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iqneb me ar momwons qalebi?
qalebi Zalian Zvirfasebi arian, magram xSirad amas ar
gamovxatavT erTmaneTisadmi. SesaZloa sakmarisad ar gvs-
menia arc mediaSi, arc eklesiaSi, arc sakuTar saxlebSi,
arc seqsualobis sferoSi, arc Cvens urTerTobebSi. roca
davinaxavT da daveTanxmebiT Cvens bunebriv faseulobas,
Cveni Zalebi gaizrdeba. is, ranic gavxdebiT, metad da me-
tad cxadi iqneba. bneli, daCrdiluli sarke gaiwmindeba
da Cveni Tavdapirveli roli da silamaze, romelic mas
gaaCnia, gacxadebuli iqneba.
27
ibrZole rogorc qalma
zeciero mama,
amin.
28
Tavi mesame
29
ibrZole rogorc qalma
Zloa yvela sxvadasxva kulturis gansxvavebuli aromati
ganviTarda sicocxlis sapasuxod baRis gareT. magram
sqesi yovelTvis arsebobda. sqesi iyo RmerTis erTerTi
SemoqmedebiTi gza mravalferovnebis gamosaxatavad er-
TobaSi. es upiratesobaa, romelic amkvidrebs Cvens pozi-
cias da perspeqtivas.
TamaSis Sewyveta
33
ibrZole rogorc qalma
mxareebis gaTanabrebis sruli azri arasworia dasaw-
yebad, radgan kacebi da qalebi ar Seqmnilad imisaTvis rom
eTamaSaT an gamosuliyvnen mowinaaRmdege mxareebSi. Cven
erTad unda Segvesrulebina cxovrebis cekva! RmerTs ara-
sodes surda rom ormo amoeTxaraT qalebisTvis da piriq-
iT. faqtobrivad, miwa iZvris da kankalebs am ugunurebis
gamo. RmerTis gegmis mixedviT isini erToblivi memkvi-
dreebi da gaerTianebuli damcvelebi unda yofiliyvnen
da ara mowinaaRmdegeebi.
sqesi yvelaferia
37
ibrZole rogorc qalma
miuxedavad amisa is mainc ar dabneula: man swrafad,
moxerxebulad da sasikvdilod daartya mas. gamoweuli
kiseri Suaze gaupo … sinaTle daeca masze, da misi Tma
gabrwyinda ganTiadze.1
38
magram me mamakaci ar var
qalis Zala
39
ibrZole rogorc qalma
rogorc mxolod Cems asulebs SeuZliaT, radgan mters
marTlac eSinia am gamocxadebis metad, vidre misi eSinia
nebismier qals, romelic mamakaciviT ibrZvis.
40
magram me mamakaci ar var
cxovrebis ra sferoebSi CarTulxarT brZolaSi mamak-
acad gadacmuli?
amin.
41
Tavi meoTxe
42
`oqros Sualedis~ aRmoCena
viyoT aRmdgenis nawili? arsebobs am sibnelidan sinaTlis
momavali mxolod erTi imedi. xalxma unda airCios icxov-
ros raime ufro metisTvis, vidre dRevandeli dRisTvis.
44
`oqros Sualedis~ aRmoCena
`oqros Sualedi~ - simSvidis adgili
45
ibrZole rogorc qalma
SevCerdeT. Tu bibliis WeSmariteba aRsruldeba maSin ase
iqneba iqamde sanam ca da miwa ar gadaivlian. cvlilebebis
am qariSxalSi, RmerTi gamoaRviZebs Tavis asulebs da mi-
vyavarT centramde. iq Cven usafrTxo adgils vpovebT,
saidanac mizidulobis Zala ver iqoniebs Cvenze gavlenas.
aris iseTi cxovreba, romelic aRemateba miwier kanonebs,
sadac siyvaruli usazRvroa da yvelas SeuZlia ipovos
gza usafrTxoebisken. es aris im adamianebis cxovreba,
romlebic sruli ZalisxmeviT cxovroben axla da axsovT
xvalindeli dRe. Cven viswrafiT zecisken da es swrafva
borkilebisgan gvaTavisuflebs, romlebic dedamiwaze gva-
kaveben. wesebi mxolod maSin moqmedebs, rodesac TamaSebs
TamaSob. xolo TamaSis dro damTavrda. Cven isedac ukve
didi xnis ganmavlobaSi vvarsebobdiT nacvlad imisa rom
gvecxovra. RmerTi mogviwodebs rom CamovSordeT Cvens
TamaSebs da mivapyroT Cveni Tvalebi raRac ufro dids.
47
ibrZole rogorc qalma
tavs: `adamiani, romelsac Tavis ujredul agebulobaSi
gaaCnia X da Y qromosomebis wyvili.~ es imas niSnavs, rom
sqesi aris faqtori, romelic Cadebulia dnm-is struq-
turaSi, da SeuZlebelia misi Secvla, miuxedavad imisa,
rom SeiZleba adamianis garegnoba Seicvalos. kulturas,
romelSic Cven dRes vcxovrobT, ar ZaluZs Secvalos ada-
mianis arsi. Semdeg amave leqsikonSi `mamakaci~ ganisaz-
Rvreba Semdegi Tvisebebis meSveobiT, romlebic mamak-
acebs da biWebs miukuTvneba: Zala, lideroba, gabeduleba
da vaJkacoba. sityva `dakaceba~ Seicavs TavisSi miniSnebas
mowifuli adamianis seqsualur da SemoqmedebiT unare-
bze. yvela miTiTebas, romelic SeiZleba moipovos am le-
qsikonSi sityva `kacobis~ gamokvlevisas, saboloo jamSi
mivyavarT isev sityva `kacTan~. uebsteris leqsikoni am
sityvaSi gulisxmobs rogorc mamakacis sqesis mowiful
warmomadgenlebs, iseve adamianis biologiur saxeobasac.
kerZod, mamakacs, am ganmartebis mixedviT, aqvs ganayofi-
erebis unari, Tumca Tavad ar ZaluZs Svilebis Soba.
50
`oqros Sualedis~ aRmoCena
jaris mier mopovebuli yvela strategiuli pozicia da-
karguli iqneba da xelSi Cauvardeba mters. da amis Sem-
degac mouwevT mtris mier dakavebuli poziciebis dab-
runeba didi danakargebis fasad. yovelma Cvenganma unda
gaviTavisoT, rom ramdenad kargadac ar unda varTmevdeT
Tavs Cvens davalebas, ar unda vmoqmedebdeT sxvebisgan
damoukideblad.
urTierTdamakavSirebeli kavSirebi
mTeli sxeulis janmrTelobis gasaRebia
53
ibrZole rogorc qalma
vis vcdilob gaviTvaliswino, Tu mocemuli problemis
mogvareba rogor aisaxeba Cvens urTierTobebze momavalSi.
xSir SemTxvevebSi Cven vpoulobT jansaR kompromiss, ro-
melic iTvaliswinebs orive mxaris azrs. (Tumca iyo iseTi
momentebic, roca me msurda Tavebis gaxleCa, xolo jons
uwevda Cemi gaCereba!) Tu ar gaviTvaliswinebT erTi meo-
ris azrs, mocemuli suraTi arasruli iqneba. momwons Cemi
eklesiis midgoma am sakiTxTan dakavSirebiT. Cveni xelmZ-
Rvaneloba miiCnevs kacsa da qals erT mTlian nawilad da
uxucesebis arCevisas orives niSnavs am poziciaze, miuxe-
davad imisa, vin iyo arCeuli maT Soris pirveli. ase imi-
tom iqcevian, rom ician yvela gadawyvetilebas col-qmari
mainc erTad miiRebs.
55
ibrZole rogorc qalma
modiT Tavs neba mivceT sicxadis mizniT pavles magali-
Tis parafrazireba movaxdinoT. qvemoT mocemulia zemoT
moyvanili sityvebis Cemeburi gadmocema:
zeciero mama,
57
Tavi mexuTe
58
vin aris namdvili kaci?
erTguli im SemTxvevaSic ki, Tundac Cven ar davrCeT misi
erTguli. ra Tqma unda, me vlaparakob iesoze, rogorc
mamakacze, romelmac imdenad Segviyvara Cven, rom daixia
ukan, rom mosuliyo dedamiwaze rogorc kacis Ze. iesos
uyvarda qalebi da nebas aZlevda gamoemJRavnaT TavianTi
grZnobebi mis mimarT yvelaze Seusabamo situaciebSic ki.
mas ar ugvrZnia Tavi uxerxulad maSinac ki, roca WasTan
daelaparaka samariteli qali, romelsac asamarTlebda
mTeli qalaqi, arc im dros, roca sxva qalma scxo misi
fexebi misi ganmkiTxavebis Tvalwin.
59
ibrZole rogorc qalma
RmerTi ar aris mamakaci
60
vin aris namdvili kaci?
sityviT gamosasvlelad, aRmovCndi dalasis aeroportSi.
mqonda cotaoden Tavisufali dro da vifiqre dameTva-
lierebina Jurnalebi, romlebic magidaze iyo dalagebu-
li. uecrad Cemi yuradReba miipyro popularuli Jurnalis
axalma nomerma, romlic ZiriTadi Temac iyo: `mamakacebi
da maTze nadiroba~. am Jurnalis yovel statiaSi sauba-
ri midioda urTierTobebze qalebsa da kacebs Soris. Tu
mexsiereba ar mRalatobs, iq iyo informacia qalaqebze,
sadac meti mamakaci cxovrobs, vidre qali, da imazec, Tu
ra adgilebSi SeiZleba aseTi mamakacebis moZebna, rogor
SeiZleba maTi yuradRebis mipyroba, rogor unda visaub-
roT maTTan; rogor gviyvardes mamakaci da rogor gavi-
goT uyvarxarT mas Tu ara, da a.S. rogorc qali, romelic
erT saxlSi xuT mamakacTan erTad cxovrobs, yovelTvis
veZeb aseT informacas. amitomac aviRe es Jurnali da da-
viwye interesiT gadafurcvla, roca uecrad gavigone Si-
naganSi suliwmidis xma: `magram me xom mamakaci ar var.~
62
vin aris namdvili kaci?
maTi ocneba rogor gadaiqceva koSmarul sizmrad! saso-
warkveTilad cdiloben ra sakuTari vardisferi ocnebis
gadarCenas, isini iswrafvian imisken, rom Secvalon sa-
kuTari qmari, xolo Tu maTma meTodebma ar gaamarTla,
wyveten rom Tavad gaxdnen mamakaci! damijereT, vici es
sakuTari gamocdilebiT. iqamde, sanam davqorwindebodi
Cems qmarTan, Cemi mTeli cxovrebis siyvarulTan, gulu-
pryvilod mimaCnda, rom igi srulyofili iyo, ideali. es
aris mravali axaldaqorwinebuli qalis Secdoma… isini
ocneboben idealur qmarze.
63
ibrZole rogorc qalma
mtkicebulebebs, rom jonma unda gaakeTos yvelaferi ,
rogorc me vfiqrobdi, ise xSirad gamovxatavdi xolme,
rom TiTqos maT moicves mTeli Cemi arseba. Txovnebi,
romelTac Tavdapirvelad rbilad da moTminebiT gamovx-
atavdi, Cemi jonis Secvlis survilis zrdasTan erTad
ufro metad da metad daJinebulbiT daviwye maTi gamox-
atva. es xom Cemi movaleoba iyo da wmida movaleoba –
meCvenebina jonisTvis is mimarTuleba, romliTac, ro-
gorc mimaCnda, mas unda evlo.
64
vin aris namdvili kaci?
rom faqtobrivad vcdilobdi yvelaferi mekontrolebina
cxovrebaSi.
65
ibrZole rogorc qalma
tyuili da Wori yvelaze advili gzebia warmatebisa da
winsvlisTvis samsaxurebriv safexurebze. adamianebi, rom-
lebsac swyuriaT garSemomyofTa yuradReba, xdebian an-
garebianebi da cxovroben principiT `Sen – me, xolo me
– Sen~. isini ifaseben Tavs da zevidan uyureben naklebad
warmatebul adamianebs. imaT, visac SeuZlia emsaxuros maT
raimeTi, SeyavT TavianT moziareobis wreSi, xolo sxvebs,
visTanac megobrobas sargebeli ar moaqvs, gareT yrian.
samwuxarod, aseTma azrovnebam daiwyo eklesiaSic Semos-
vla. urTierTobebi aRar iTvleba wmidad, aramed dRes
maT uyureben rogorc iseT rames, rasac sargeblis mo-
tana SeuZlia. moqcevis aseTi tipi metyvelebs ara mxolod
adamianebisadmi ndobis naklebobaze, aramed RmerTisadmi
undoblobazec. yvelaze metad Cven gvWirdeba RmerTis
keTilganwyoba.
da aseve,
67
ibrZole rogorc qalma
`RmerTs mivende – ar meSinia; ras mizams kaci?.~ (fsal-
muni 55:12)
68
vin aris namdvili kaci?
rogor gviyvardes konfliqtis dros
70
vin aris namdvili kaci?
vis.~ Tavidan gauazreblad vTqvi es sityvebi. vicodi, rom
unda meTqva, magram ar mesmoda ras vambobdi. vxvdebodi,
rom unda meTqva es sityvebi, winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi usia-
movnebebi Semeqmneboda. Tu RmerTi sakmarisi iyo CemTvis,
maSin ar aris aucilebeli vifiqro imaze, Tu ras fiqrobs
Cemze sxva. Tu me mxolod RmerTi mWirdeba, maSin ar Rirs
ganvicdide yvela naklovanebis gamo, romlebsac jonSi
vamCnevdi. Tu me mxolod RmerTi mWirdeba, maSin imedga-
cruebebma, romlebic axloblebisgan modioda, aRar unda
damamwuxron da ar unda moaxdinon gavlena Cems patiebis
unarze. da daviwye am sityvebis yvelgan gamoTqma, sadac
ar unda vyofiliyavi: diliT Cems saZinebelSi, manqanis
saWesTan, saRamos Zilis win. Semdeg raRac moxda. me mar-
Tla gavacnobiere, rom RmerTi ara ubralod yvelaferze
metad mWirdeba, aramed is erTaderTia, vinc me mWirdeba.
am gamocxadebam aRavso Cemi guli da male sZlia Cemi si-
marTlis mtkicebis survils.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
igi saboloo jamSi miiRebs mamamisis mier uaryofisgan
gankurnebas. adamianebi, romlebic seqsualuri Zaladobis
msxverplni aRmoCndnen, xSirad Tavad xdebian moZaladeni
da cdiloben daibrunon moparuli gabeduleba, romelic
maT mopares axalgazrdobaSi.
zeciero mama,
72
Tavi meeqvse
73
ibrZole rogorc qalma
Seni maxvili da momkali, rom ara Tqvan Cemze, deda-
kacma moklao.~ da gangmira igi misma msaxurma biWma, da
mokvda. da roca dainaxes israelis kacebma, rom mokvda
abimeleqi, yvelani Tav-TavianT saxlebSi wavid-wamov-
idnen.~ (msajulTa 9:52-55)
75
ibrZole rogorc qalma
romelic ase Sors aris Cvengan. maTi yurebi ismenen imas,
rac Cvenamde modioda mxolod CurCuliT. aucilebelia
maTTvis swori mimarTulebis micema da maSin isini zustad
mizanSi moartamen. Cven dapireba gvaqvs mocemuli, rom
Tu Cven maT saTanadod aRvzrdiT, maT ufro meti Sansic
eqnebaT vidre Cven, rom moartyan mizanSi da aRasrulon
RmerTis daniSnuleba.
76
rodis ayeneben qalebi sapasuxo dartymas
elTvis axlos yofiliyo Tu saWiro iqneboda misi daxmare-
ba. faqtobrivad, igi amzadebs pasuxebs Cvens saTxovrebze
jer kidev iqamde, sanam Cven mas SevZaxebT.
77
ibrZole rogorc qalma
yavi situaciaSi, Tu mindoda, rom masSi RmerTi Careuli-
yo.
sicocxlisaTvis mebrZolni
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rodis ayeneben qalebi sapasuxo dartymas
Zalis wyaroa. Tu maT davemsgavsebiT, vfiqrobT Cven Zli-
erni viqnebiT; Tu gansxvavebulebi – sustebi. magram Tavad
Sesaqmes procesi amtkicebs WeSmaritebas imis Sesaxeb, rom
qalis wvlili, ra formaSic ar unda gamoixatebodes igi,
arasodes yofila araswori, piriqiT – igi mniSvnelovani
iyo. araswori aris Cveni survili vimoqmedoT mamakaci-
viT, da amiT Zalas vixveWdeT da vugulebelyofdeT im
ZaliT, romelic Cadebulia Cvens qalur bunebaSi. kidev
erTi mcdari movlenaa – mamakacebis swrafva gadaiRon
qalis qcevis manera.
da
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rodis ayeneben qalebi sapasuxo dartymas
winaSe warmoiqmneba msgavsi kiTxva. Cemi niWi rame gavlenas
iqoniebs brZolis svlaze? Cems WurWelSi sakmarisi eleq-
siri iqneba sxvebis gansakurneblad? davujereb me imas,
rom RmerTma Seqmna qalebi da daayena isini Tavis samefoSi
swored am mizniT?
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
igi uwvdis Tavis xels gaWirvebaSi myofT da amasTan,
ar eSinia ziani miayenos sakuTar ojaxs. siTbo darCeba mis
ojaxSi. igi darwmunebulia, rom RmerTi uzrunvelyofs
mas yvelafriT, rac saWiro iqneba. rodesac igi xedavs
daWrils, umkurnalebs mas. igi arxia, romlidanac RmerTi
gadmoRvris Tavis gankurnebas. siTbo, gankurneba da imedi
– sruliad sapirispiroa sasowarkveTilebisa da ngrevisa.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Tqveni statusi mefis winaSe
88
rodis ayeneben qalebi sapasuxo dartymas
xolo ra xdeba dRes?
modiT vilocoT:
zeciero mama,
89
ibrZole rogorc qalma
lis winaSe. damexmare viaro sibrZneSi, da aseve momeci
unari winaswar vWvretde da mesmodes nebismieri mdgo-
mareoba. damexmare yovelTvis viyo SenTan erTobaSi, raTa
uSiSrad vigeriebde mtris Semotevebs. kaparWidan amovi-
Reb Cems isrebs. aRvzrdi Cems Svilebs da Cems locvis
isrebs gavuSveb zecisken. me – mravali problemis gamo-
savali var. amixile Tvalebi da damanaxe adamianebi, rom-
lebic saWiroeben Cems daxmarebas. amin.
90
Tavi meSvide
brZola sibrZnisTvis
sibrZnis aRdgena
92
brZola sibrZnisTvis
da
93
ibrZole rogorc qalma
brZeni qalebi eWidebian RmerTis aRTqmebs da xels uS-
veben cxovrebiseul imedgacruebebs, xolo ugunurebi ki
eWidebian warsul wyenebs da cdiloben sakuTari azris
damtkicebas. gonierma qalebma ician, rom SeuZlebelia
brZolaSi gamarjveba, roca iseTi mokavSireebi gyavs, ro-
gorebicaa simware da wyena. maT esmiT, rom SeiZleba sa-
kuTari azris dacva da saerTo jamSi SecdomaSi yofna.
bolos da bolos ra gsurT Tqven – ubralod ibrZodeT
Tu gaimarjvoT? brZenma qalebma ician rogor gaimarjvon
ubrZolvelad.
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brZola sibrZnisTvis
nis Zalis meSveobiT maT daicves sicocxle, winaRudgnen
ngrevas da daicves WeSmariteba.
eva
sara
95
ibrZole rogorc qalma
`…romlis Svilebica xarT, roca keTil saqmes akeTebT
da arafris SiSi ar gakrTobT.~ (1 petre 3:6)
Tamari
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brZola sibrZnisTvis
genealogiaSi. Tamarma gacvala qvrivoba da mitovebuloba
dadebasa da pativze.
raxabi
debora
ruTi da nayomi
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
vales imedsa da aRTqmebze. ruTma gacvala sakuTar Tavze
mzrunveloba dedamTilze zrunvaSi da amis gamo Sexvda
mTeli Tavisi cxovrebis siyvaruls. nayomi moeqca ruTs
rogorc sakuTar qaliSvils, da gacvala glova da mar-
tooba sixarulze, yofiliyo deda da bebia.
xana
abigaili
99
ibrZole rogorc qalma
misi qmari:
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brZola sibrZnisTvis
ra saocrad moiqca es qali… man SeaCera ganrisxebu-
li jari da qmris danaSauli Tavis Tavze aiRo. roca igi
mixvda, rom miipyro daviTis yuradReba, gamoiyena Tavisi
saidumlo iaraRi – rbili sityvebi. yuradReba miaqcieT
mis midgomas: `laparakis neba mieci Sens mxevals da is-
mine mxevlis sityvebi~. ra gaakeTa man? man aarida daviTs
codva Tavisi CurCuliT. man misca mas rCeva, romelic
ver gaigones mefis meomrebma. sTxova, ar gabrazebuliyo
nabalze, romelic ugunuri iyo. man iseT araraobad gamoi-
yvana igi, rom daviTma aRarc ki moisurva daekarga masze
Tavisi dro, Semdeg Seaxsena daviTs RmerTis aRTqmebis
Sesaxeb, Seexo ra mis sindiss. man daajera daviTi ar eZia
Suri sakuTari TavisTvis da Semdeg Seaxsena mas ratom:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
`da roca aRusrulebs ufali Cems batons yvelafer
sikeTes, ra sikeTesac dahpirda da israelis mefed da-
gadgens, nu Seawuxebs gulis qenjna Cems batons, rom
ar daRvara sisxli amaod da Suri ar iZia. roca sikeTes
uyofs ufali Cems batons, maSin gamixsene Seni mxeva-
li.~ (30-31)
beT-Sebayi
elisabedi
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Cveni uflis ieso qristes dedaze, akurTxa ra igi kurTx-
eviT, romelic dRemde vrceldeba yovel qalze:
mariami
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brZola sibrZnisTvis
sityvebis gamoyeneba Cems cxovrebaSi. vificebodi imaSi,
rom cxovrebaSi Cemi gzebiT davdiodi. me sibrZnes davar-
qvi Cemi da da vevedrebodi RmerTs moeca CemTvis gonie-
reba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
me Zalian madlieri var RmerTis yvelafrisaTvis, rom ar
aris aucilebeli iyo ukiduresad niWieri an kargad ga-
naTlebuli adamiani, rom miiRo sibrZne. Tu davujerebT
iakobis werils, RmerTi aZlevs sibrZnes yvelas, vinc ub-
raloebaSi sTxovs mas amis Sesaxeb:
zeciero mama,
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Tavi merve
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Tsa da mamakacis Soris urTierTobebis pirvelobaze.
RmerTi uyurebs Tavis mSvenier qmnilebas, mamakacebs, da
eRimeba! xolo, roca igi giyurebT Tqven, asulebo, aRfr-
Tovanebulia! aseve mamakacic, roca xedavs qalis dideb-
ulebas, ar SeuZlia Tvali mowyvitos. dominirebs ki si-
yvaruli Tavisi siyvarulis obieqtze? mxolod ugunur
mamakacs SeuZlia daiviwyos rom qali Sedarebulia gvir-
gvins mis Tavze. bibliaSi naxsenebia ori ram didebasTan
dakavSirebiT. pirveli – es adamianebis da RmerTs Soris
urTierTobebis didebaa. meore – mamakacebsa da qalebs
Soris urTierTobebis didebaa. mefsalmune daviTi roca
aRtacebuli iyo RmerTis damokidebulebiT mis didebas-
Tan, adamianTan, svavda ritorikul kiTxvas:
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SeimoseT madliT da didebiT
`miT (eniT) vakurTxebT RmerTsa da mamas da miT vwyev-
liT RvTis xatad Seqmnil adamianebs.~ (3:9)
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
jildos Rirsi cxovreba
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SeimoseT madliT da didebiT
cocxali maxvili
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
RmerTis sityvis maxvili orlesulia. araerTxel vyo-
filvar imis mowme, rom mas iyenebdne ara daniSnulebis-
amebr, roca saubari midioda urTierTobebze qalebsa da
kacebs Soris. am SemTxvevebSi an mamakacebi wamoswevdnen
sakuTar Tavs qalebis xarjze, an qalebi amcirebdnen mama-
kacebs sibrazisa da wyenis gamo. xSirad SeiZleba Semdegi
frazebis gagoneba: `qalebo, icodeT Tqveni adgili!~ an
`kacebo, Tqveni jeri dadga!~ rodesac maxvili gamoiyeneba
daniSnulebisamebr, igi yovelTvis icavs samarTlianobas
da adamianebis sicocxles. magram roca kanoni moqmede-
baSi modis im adamianebis mier, romelTac ar aqvT mefis
guli, maxvils sikvdili moaqvs samefos daqvemdebarebaSi
myofTaTvis. roca qalebs aswavlian orive sqesis warmo-
madgenlebze sazogadoebaSi, RmerTis sityvas xSirad iye-
neben rogorc rjulis asos da ara rogorc suliwmidis
gamocxadebas, romelsac moaqvs sicocxle msmenelTaTvis.
xSirad wmida werili gamoiyeneba kanonebis CamonaTvalis
saxiT, romelTa meSveobiTac SesaZlebelia qalebis prob-
lematuri qcevis regulireba, da ara mrCevelis saxiT Tu
rogor unda eqceodnen mamakacebi da qalebi erTmaneTs
sworad.
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SeimoseT madliT da didebiT
rogor akurTxebs RmerTi Tavis asulebs
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
mimoixedeT irgvliv: qalebi – iseTebi rogorebadac
iyvnen Seqmnilni, aRdgebian mTels msoflioSi RmerTis
siyvarulisa da WeSmaritebis gacxadebiT da daibruneben
dakargul didebas. me var pasuxi. me brZeni da mSvenieri
var. sxvebs unda gadavce Cemi Rirseba da dideba. me var
yovlisSemZle RmerTis asuli, romelic sxvebSi gamoiwvevs
aRtacebasa da gakvirvebas.
zeciero mamav,
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Tavi mecxre
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
ubralod cxovreba romeliRac calked aRebuli qalisa an
qristianuli Temisa, _ es aris cxovrebis azris da daniS-
nulebis sakiTxi.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
warmoidgineT gviani saRamo. aivi, mxiaruli, magram brma
gogo aRmoaCens Tavis aivanze biWs saxelad luci. isini
saubroben mTeli Rame gaTenebamde. roca gogonas CaeZina,
misi stumari Cumad gadis aivanze, raTa ar Seawuxos igi.
magram gaRviZebis Semdeg aivi gamosrialdeba saxlidan da
midis masTan. igi ajavrebs ymawvils da ekiTxeba Tu ratom
movida igi mis aivanze, da ara romelime sxva gogonasTan
sofelSi. ase xumrobiT da TamaSiT aivi cdilobs misgan
siyvarulis axsnas. roca es xerxi ar amarTlebs igi sxva
taqtikas mimarTavs: `Sen me arasakmarisad qalurad mTv-
li? me marTlac momwons biWuri raRaceebi… es Zalian
aRmafrTovanebelia.~
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
zemoT aRweril epizodSi luci gamoutyda, rom aivi
misi erTaderTi sisustea. am aRiarebis mosmeniT axla go-
gonas SeuZlia miandos mas sakuTari Zala. sxvanairi ada-
miani rom yofiliyo, albaT gamoiyenebda am sisustes mis
winaaRmdeg. aivis rom ecxovra Tanamedrove gaxrwnil sa-
zogadoebaSi, SesaZloa, mas misi survilebis da SiSebis ma-
nipulireba daewyo sakuTari piradi miznebiT. Tu Tqven
gagiCndebaT cduneba ase moiqceT, icodeT: manipulaciis
TamaSebSi, saboloo jamSi orive mxare damarcxebulia.
qali kargavs Tavis gavlenis Zalas, xolo kaci kargavs
adamians, visac andobda Tavis guls.
- me miyvars igi
- vici
- masac vuyvarvar
- vici
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raSi mdgomareobs siyvarulis Zala?
aivis mama xvdeba, rom Svili marTalia. safrTxis qveS
dgas ara mxolod lucis sicocxle – aramed misi qaliS-
vilis sicocxlec damokidebulia am daWrili ymawvilis
momavalze. aivis sityvebi `yvelaferi, riTac vcocxlob~
gadmogvcemen raRacas, rac Cvens sazogadoebaSi, romelic
dRevandeli dRiT cxovrobs, xSirad gvaviwydeba. igi mama-
misis STamomavalia, mxolod siyvarulis Zalis wyalobiT
SeuZlia mas gaagrZelos misi STamomavloba. ratom? imi-
tom, rom siyvarulis gareSe veraferi ver gaZlebs, rasac
gaaCnia WeSmariti faseuloba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Semdeg ibadeba meore kiTxva: ratom aivi? rogor Sei-
Zleboda arCevani gaCerebuliyo gogoze da Tanac brmaze?
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raSi mdgomareobs siyvarulis Zala?
meCveneba, rom Zalian bevrs vkargavT Cvens cxovrebaSi.~
sxvebis aRSeneba
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Cvens Soris mainc arian adamianebi, romlebsac ar sjer-
aT, rom nangrevebSi cxovreba ar aris Cveni xvedri. Tqven
– mefis asuli xarT, aRWurvili misi ZaliT aSenoT, ga-
naaxloT da aRadginoT. Tqven SegiZliaT iyoT gamosavali
problemebidan da aRadginoT is gzebi, romlebic adre
akavSirebdnen am qveyanaze mcxovreb adamianebs.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
qalebi – rbili pasuxia, romelsac SeuZlia Zlieri
risxvis mogerieba. es arian martoxela dedebi, romlebic
mzad arian iSromon kapikebze, raTa janmrTelad ixilon
TavianTi Svilebi. es is kompetenturi biznes-qalebi arian,
romlebic aswavlian TavianT axal TanamSromlebs. isini
mkacrebi arian da amavdroulad nazebi. isini gvanan wynar,
mSvid xmas qariSxalis SuagulSi. isini – arian sasiamovno
iavnana bnel da mousvenar Rames.
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raSi mdgomareobs siyvarulis Zala?
- deda, Tu SeiZleba, aRar misce mas ufleba rom CvenTan
saxlSi modiodes. Sevecade kibiT avsuliyavi mis sawolze.
- da ra giTxra man?
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
gaanawyenebda ise, rogorc is gogo. marTlac, araferia im-
denad gulsatkeni, ramdenadac grZnobde daucvelad Tavs
sakuTar saxlSi.
modiT vilocoT:
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Tavi meaTe
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orni erTi guliT
sikeTe moaqvs mxolod mflobelisTvis maT xarjze, vinc
mas eqvemdebareba. roca kacma da qalma dakarges sakuTari
ufleba mmarTvelobaze, anu gavlenaze, romelic hqondaT
dedamiwaze, amiT dazaralda yvelaferi, rac maT Zalau-
flebis qveS imyofeboda.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
adamma daiwyo Tavisi mmarTveloba imiT, rom yvela
cxovels saxeli misca. aman ganapiroba wesrigi da rolebis
swori ganawileba mTels cxovelTa samyaroSi. magaliTad,
ZiriTadi terminebi `qmnileba~ da `cxoveli~ dayofili
iqna adamis mier mraval saxeobad – cxeni, ZaRli, arwivi,
Tevzi da a.S. – da yvelafers gauCnda sakuTari saxeli,
wyvili da sacxovrebeli garemo.
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orni erTi guliT
gamo maT gamoumuSavdebaT aseTi pozicia: daqiravebulebi
bednierebi unda iyvnen ubralod imis gamo, rom muSaoben
maT kompaniaSi. Tu kompaniis mesakuTreebi ar daexmarebian
TavianT TanamSromlebs igrZnon, rom es dawesebuleba ma-
Tac ekuTvniT, es ukanasknelebi male dakargaven yovel-
gvar stimuls samuSaod. xolo amis gareSe sixaruli maT
mier Sesrulebuli saqmis gamo TandaTanobiT nulamde
dava da yoveldRiuri saqmeebis Sesruleba ubralo ru-
tinad gadaiqceva. pasiuri TanamSromlebi arafriT ar
gansxvavdebian robotebisgan, romlebic avtomaturad as-
ruleben TavianT funqciebs. dawesebulebis xelmZRvaneli
ukmayofilo iqneba misi SexedulebiT, saqmis ukusvliT. is
igrZnobs Tavs ise, TiTqos mis mxrebze devs mTeli kompa-
niis problemebis dauZleveli tvirTi.
gaziarebuli xelmZRvaneloba
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
vupasuxo mis raime saWiroebas, maSin vcdilob gavakeTo
yovelive, rac Cems ZalebSia, oRond gamovasworo es mdgo-
mareoba. me ubralod vifurCqnebi, roca igi meubneba, rom
vWirdebi mas.
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orni erTi guliT
blobaSi. isini xSirad uars eubnebian TavianT qmrebs in-
timur urTierTobebze, radgan uWirT imaze daTanxmeba,
rasac aiZuleben. qalebi, romlebic ar grZnoben rom
uyvarT da sasurvelni arian, cdiloben gaeqcnen yovel-
gvar siaxloves.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
zecisa da miwis Semoqmedi geZaxiT saxeliT da geZaxiT
Tqven sakuTars. agreTve igi ambobs:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
ZebnoT sruli gamarjveba, romelic Cven iesom mogvca,
evas STamomavalma? rodis daviwyebT erTmaneTis upiro-
bod Seyvarebas? nuTu, ieso mxolod imisaTvis movida, rom
moeca CvenTvis saukuno sicocxle Cveni skvdilis Semdeg?
ara, igi movida imisaTvis, rom aRedgina is, rac dakarguli
iqna, maT Soris, swori urTierTobebic.
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orni erTi guliT
da Tavisebi. qmars, romelsac coli uyvars, mas sakuTari
Tavic uyvars. niSnavs es imas, rom im qmars, romelsac Ta-
visi coli sZuls, sakuTari Tavic sZuls? darwmunebuli
var, rom qmari, romelic sakuTar colze batonobs, paravs
sakuTar Tavs yvelafers, risi micemac cols SeeZlo misT-
vis. misi gakontrolebiT igi ketavs mis sicocxlis wyaros
da kargavs sibrZnesa da sinazes, romelTa micemac cols
SeeZlo misTvis. zogjer aseT SemTxvevaSi qals rCeba mx-
olod erTi imedi – is, rom RmerTi dainaxavs mis uaryo-
fas. pavle, roca kacisa da qalis urTierTobebze sau-
brobs efeselTa mimarT werilSi, adarebs maT qristesa da
eklesiis urTierTobebs:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
nali Carevis meSveobiT. me vocnebob, rom vixilo rogor
gadaiqceva yoveli qorwineba kavSirad, sadac ors Zlier
uyvarT erTmaneTi. wyvilebma unda gaaerTianon TavianTi
cxovreba, radgan erTad isini ufro Zlierni iqnebian, vi-
dre cal-calke.
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orni erTi guliT
igi usamarTlo iyo maTdami. SesaZloa, Tqven arasodes
dagidanaSaulebiaT RmerTi (vaRiareb, me sul mcire mi-
fiqria ase Tan sakmaod xmamaRladac). modiT vnaxoT, ro-
gor upasuxa RmerTma Tavis bralmdeblebs da am pasuxidan
SeviZinoT sibrZne Cveni dRevandeli cxovrebisTvis.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
RmerTi imitom ar pasuxobda am mamakacebis locve-
bze, rom isini arasworad eqceodnen TavianT colebs. am
nawyvetSi qmrebs orjer eZlevaT brZaneba daecvaT saku-
Tari sulieri kavSiri da yofiliyvnen erTgulni Tavian-
Ti colebisadmi. roca kaci da qali erTi mTliani nawili
xdebian, RmerTi maTTan aris. igi kravs maT sulierad, is-
eve rogorc man isini qorwinebis dRes gaaerTiana. RmerTs
ar moswons, roca vinme arasworad eqceva mis asulebs an
Svilebs. qorwineba – aris kavSiri, romelic or adamians
erT mTlian nawilad aqcevs. RmerTs sZuls ganqorwinebe-
bi, radgan isini angreven Svilebis cxovrebas da tkivils
ayeneben maT dedebs.
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orni erTi guliT
Tavidan. colebs xSirad ugulebelyofdnen. gaxSirda gan-
qorwinebebi sxvebze daojaxebis mizniT, metad axalgazrda
gogoebze.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Tasxvaobebi, nacvlad imisa, rom isini Riad mogvegvarebina,
Cven `civ oms~ vaCaRebdiT. gamozomilad gviyvarda erTma-
neTi da aseTive megobrebi viyaviT, magram ara amaze ufro
meti. joni gamudmebiT imyofeboda mogzaurobebSi, xolo
me vrCebodi saxlSi da vzrdidi Svilebs. Cveni orbite-
bi TiTqmis ar ikveTebodnen. ase ufro gviadvildeboda
cxovreba: me ar vawuxebdi mas, xolo is – me. cal-calke
cxovreba, rogorc Cven gveCveneboda, ufro usafrTxo iyo.
me vfiqrobdi, rom Tu vaCveneb qmars, rom mWirdeba igi,
mivcem mas kidev erT SesaZleblobas damWras da imedebi
gamicruos. ramdenadac samwuxaro ar unda iyos, vfiqrob,
rom jonic igivenairad fiqrobda. Cven mzad viyaviT nebi-
smiers movmsaxurebodiT, mxolod ara erTmaneTs. Cvens
Soris iyo Rrma ufskruli, TiTqos vimyofebodiT araga-
formebul iuridiulad emociur ganqorwinebaSi. erTxel
diliT gaviRviZe Zalian adre da daviwye raRacis wera Cems
dRiurSi, da uecrad suliwmidam gulSi Camido wmida weri-
lis erTi muxli:
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orni erTi guliT
roca coli arasworad iyenebs Tavis Zalauflebas
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
ra mas Tavisi siyvaruliT. sapasuxod misi coli ayvavdeba
da meuRles aranakleb siyvaruls aCuqebs.
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orni erTi guliT
dangreuli sfero, romlebic gadmovitane Cems qorwineba-
Si. jonsac hqonda Tavisi problemebi da Cven arasodes ar
gamogvdioda Tanxmobis miRweva kamaTebSi, radgan erTa-
derTi, rasac Cven vakeTebdiT – wixls vaWerdiT erTma-
neTis sust mxareebs. aravis aqvs iseTi siaxlove, rogorc
qmars da cols. da RmerTs arasodes daugegmavs, rom axlo
adamianebi yuradRebas amaxvilebdnen erTmaneTis susti
mxareebis Seswavlaze.
qariSxlis dawynareba
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
darwmunebuli var (Tqvenc ki iciT es), rom SeiZle-
ba iwve kacTan erT sawolSi da ar grZnobde mis mimarT
aranair siyvaruls. roca ori adamiani iwyeben sakuTari
sareclis gaziarebas sxva adamianebTn, amiT qurdaven sa-
kuTar meuRles; ase orive iwvneven marcxs. ar vici, ra md-
gomareobaSi yofila Tqveni qorwineba. ar vici, ra qariSx-
lebi mZvinvareben am momentSi Tqveni sareclis fanjrebs
miRma. Tqven ar SegiZliaT imis gakontroleba, rac gareT
xdeba, Tqvens ZalauflebaSia miiRoT gadawyvetileba, rom
ar SemouSvaT `uamindoba~ saxlSi. Tu Tqven ukve mieciT
neba negatiur zewolas Semovardniliyo garedan Tqvens
qorwinebaSi, girCevT SecvaloT es dResve.
zeciero mama,
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orni erTi guliT
keTili memkvidreoba. gaaRviZe CvenSi pirveli siyvaruli
erTmaneTisadmi. aRadgine qmarTan Cemi urTierTobis siT-
bo, Zala da siaxlove. garemomicavi RvTismoSiSi megobre-
biT, romlebic daexmarebian Cems qorwinebas zrdasa da
ganviTarebaSi. damanaxe ra cvlilebebis moxdenaa amisaT-
vis aucilebeli. momiteve, rom viyenebdi Cems sityvebsa
da gavlenas aradaniSnulebisamebr. momiteve, rom vwuwu-
nebdi Sens mimarT. mama, Sen guluxvi da mowyale xar Cems
mimarT. me vRebulob gadawyvetilebas vqmnide Cems saxlSi
iseT atmosferos, romelsac Sen akurTxebdi. vRebulob
gadawyvetilebas Cems qmarTan erTad gavxde erTi mTlia-
ni nawili da aRvadginoT dedamiwaze mmarTvelobis Cveni
ufleba. amin.
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Tavi meTerTmete
brZola silamazisTvis
am swrafad cvalebadi samyaros pirobebSic ki zogierTi
ram ucvleli rCeba. qalebis swrafva, yovelTvis rCebod-
nen axalgazrdebi da lamazebi – ucvleli sididea. sadac
ar unda gaixedo, saxezea qalebis imedgacruebuli mcde-
lobebi SeinarCunon TavianTi qrobadi silamaze sxvadasxva
saSualebebis meSveobiT. unda davsvaT kiTxva: ratom eq-
ceva amdeni yuradReba silamazis SenarCunebas? vfiqrob,
rom pasuxi aris silamazis kavSirSi Cvens dafarul adami-
anur swrafvasTan… siyvarulis wyurvilTan. Cven gviqreba
survili vikiTxoT Jurnalebi, vuyuroT televizors an
viaroT maRaziebSi, Tu ar varT am wyurviliT mavalni.
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brZola silamazisTvis
rom RmerTi dagvpirda rom mSvenierebs Segvqmnida. Cven
Seqmnilni varT mSvenierebisa da silamazisTvis. amitom,
aRar Cndeba kiTxva imis Sesaxeb, SesaZlebelia Tu ara iyo
mudmivad lamazi… Cven aucileblad viqnebiT aseTebi.
kiTxva mdgomareobs mxolod imaSi Tu sad da rodis mox-
deba es. maradisobaSi ukve aRaravin ityvis, rom RmerTma
igi daajildova silamaziT, xolo viRaca mis gareSe da-
tova. iq yvela adamiani mSenieri iqneba. amasTan dakavSire-
biT Cndeba kidev kiTxva: Tu silamaze gankuTvnilia yvela-
saTvis, maSin rodis miviRebT mas yoveli Cvengani? kidev
ra dro unda gavides, sanam yvela da yvelaferi Seimoseba
silamazesa da mSvenierebaSi?
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
da ideebisaken, romelTa miRebac Cvens gonebas ar Seu-
Zlia CanasaxSic ki. am aRTqmebis aRmatebuli mSveniereba
cdeba Cveni gonebis farglebs. didi xnis win, RmerTma am
aRTqmebis Tesli daTesa adamianebis gulebSi, icoda ra,
rom erT dRes isini masTan migviyvandnen.
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brZola silamazisTvis
Cvens sxeulSi aris organo, romelsac aqvs unari aRi-
qvas es gamocxadeba, _ es Cveni gulia. swored Cvens guls
mimarTavs suliwmida, roca CasCurCulebs mas Tavis sai-
dumloebebs, maSin, roca ufskruli zecasa da miwas Soris
droTa ganmavlobaSi metad izrdeba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
`yovelive mSvenivrad Seqmna Tavis Jams. TviT maradi-
uloba Cado maT gulebSi.~ (eklesiaste 3:11)
164
brZola silamazisTvis
li ocnebis aRsasruleblad. mas moswonda is, rac yovelT-
vis hqonda, ubralod ar SeeZlo manamde Tavisi namdvili
silamazis gamovlena. es qalbatoni yovelTvis lamazi iyo;
ubralod mas dasWirda sakuTari Tavis wesrigSi moyvana.
roca mis dasaxmareblad gamoCnda stilisti, adamiani,
romelmac dainaxa am `uSno ixvSi~ mSvenieri gedi, - maT er-
Tad SeZles imis gakeTeba mis garegnobasa da cxovrebaSi,
risi gakeTebac mas erTs ar SeeZlo. ara da, Cven yvelas
gvaqvs SesaZlebloba mivmarToT yvelaze niWier stilists
samyaroSi.
xangrZlivi cvlilebebi
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
es muxli yovelTvis iyo Cemi erTerTi sayvareli mux-
li. aq poetur formaSi aRwerilia Cemi cxovreba. CvenTvis
Tavad kardinaluri cvlilebebis momenti mwvervalad ki
ar unda iqces Cvens cxovrebaSi, aramed gzis dasawyisad,
aTvlis wertilad, roca Cvens SinaganSi inTeba sinaTle
da anaTebs Cveni cxovrebis pirvel etaps. es TiTqmis
hgavs zRapars jadosnur qveyanaze: rac ufro metad vuax-
lovdebiT mizans, miT metad ganaTebuli iqneba Cveni gza.
swrafva gadarCenisaken
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
viT garegnul gamovlinebas, da gvaviwydeba Sida mxare?
yvela cocxali arsebidan mxolod Cven vatarebT kanze si-
beris niSnebs naoWebis saxiT.
da
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brZola silamazisTvis
`ai, me saidumlos geubnebiT: yvelani ar ganvisvenebT,
magram yvelani SevicvlebiT.~ (1 korinTelTa 15:51)
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
romlebiTac aRsavsea Cveni yoveli ocneba. bundovnad ki
warmogvidgenia es srulyofili samyaro, magram danamdvi-
lebiT viciT rogori iqneba igi sinamdvileSi? Cven, Rmer-
Tis asulebs mondobili gvaqvs didi saidumlo. dadga dro
mivceT am saidumlos saSualeba rom gardagvqmnas Cven.
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brZola silamazisTvis
Si. radgan swored CvenSia dafaruli is pozicia, is roli,
is xma, is garegnoba, romlebic Cven ase gvWirdeba.
zeciero mama,
173
ibrZole rogorc qalma
da mxolod Sen erTs SegiZlia Cemi cxovrebis yoveli
sferos Secvla.
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Tavi meTormete
175
ibrZole rogorc qalma
ra Tqma unda, ar vapireb Cems qadagebebSi mliqvnelobas
xalxTan. radgan, romeli jansaR azrovnebaSi myofi ada-
miani isurvebda saxeli gaeTqva rogorc ara wrfels da
matyuaras? me namdvilad ar minda, rom meZaxdnen matyu-
aras. ubralod saqme imaSia, rom zogjer Zalian minda Cems
mimarT metad piradi, gansakuTrebuli da mniSvnelovani
komplimentebis mosmena. magram erTxel, roca morigi
msaxurebidan saxlSi mivfrinavdi, kvlav davfiqrdi am
sakiTxze - `iyo bunebrivi~ da uecrad vigrZeni, rogor
damelaparaka suliwmida:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
loebiT ase JRerda: `mama, aRavse Cemi cxovreba lamazi da
sasiamovno sagnebiT da movlenebiT. gaxade Cemi cxovreba
mSvenieri, radgan Sen giyvarvar me.~
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arasrulyofili, magram ganumeorebeli
zogjer meCveneba, rom Cems enasa da tvins Soris praq-
tikulad aranairi kavSiri ar aris. xSirad vambob raRa-
cas daufiqreblad, Semdeg vnanob. Tu Cven unda viyoT
gulwrfelebi da bunebrivebi, ratom aris rom RmerTi
araerTgzis gvirCevda vyofiliyaviT frTxilebi saubreb-
Si? Tu ar vivliT WeSmaritebaSi, Cvenma daufiqrebelma
sityvebma da saqcielma SeiZleba sxvebi daazianon.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
mavalni SeuZliaT gaCumeba an kurTxeva maSin, roca maT
sinamdvileSi surdaT daewyevlaT an daertyaT TavianTi
mtrisTvis. xSirad es ar aris sawyisi reaqcia, romelsac
vamJRavnebT, magram droTa ganmavlobaSi igi unda iqces
Cveni bunebis nawilad.
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arasrulyofili, magram ganumeorebeli
Cven, RvTis Svilebi, unda vamtkicebdeT sakuTar uni-
kalurobas imiT, Tu rogor vreagirebT momxdar situaci-
aze. Cvenda samarcxvinod, xSirad aRmoCndeba xolme rom
viCenT mowinaaRmdegeebs qristes sxeulSic ki. me vambob
`mowinaaRmdegeebs~ da ara `mtrebs~, radgan SeiZleba rom
sxeulis erTi nawili realurad mtrobdes sxvebTan? aseve,
xSirad Cven qristianebi Tavazianebi varT mxolod erTma-
neTTan da maTTan, vinc gviyvars.
184
arasrulyofili, magram ganumeorebeli
aSkara xdeba Cveni xasiaTis siyalbe. ra bednierebaa, rom
aravin ar varT srulyofili!
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
kopis qveS qvis Seswavlis Semdeg yvela misi eWvi sruliad
gamarTlda. Cemi `lali~ ara mxolod yalbi iyo, aramed
gansxvavdeboda kidevac dabali xarisxiT. igi savse iyo
mravali haeris buStiT. iuvelirma amixsna, rom es `Zvir-
faseuloba~ hgavs ucodinari mowafis gayalbebas qimiis
gakveTilze. ra Tqma unda, am beWedis Cuqeba mainc SeiZle-
boda vinmesTvis, magram veRar vetyodi rom masSi namdvili
lalia. igi gamodgeboda wveulebis samkaulad.
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arasrulyofili, magram ganumeorebeli
reblobas. is gvTavazobs, rom Cveni cxovrebiT vireklav-
deT silamazes, romelic Cadebulia CvenSi Semoqmedis
mier, da fass, romelic gadaxdilia Cveni xsnisTvis. mas
surs gvxedavdes Tavis Zvirfas qvebad, romlebmac saSu-
aleba misces, rom maTi naklovanebebi gamocdiliyo cecx-
liT. namdvili nivTi aris is, romelic faqtobrivad arse-
bobs, xolo ganumeorebeli, an unikaluri – is, romelsac
gaaCnia faseuloba da Tavisi Seqmnis sirTule.
187
ibrZole rogorc qalma
viwyebT Secvlas Tu uarvyofT mas da metad xelsayrelad
varCevT tyuilSi cxovrebas? mxolod WeSmaritebas Seu-
Zlia sicruis gavrcelebis SeCereba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
buli xarT aseT adamianTan ara mxolod gonebriv da emo-
ciur doneze – Tqveni kavSiri gacilebiT Rrmaa. igi Cnde-
ba imitom, rom Tavad Tqveni suli exmianeba warmoTqmul
sityvebs. Tqven SeiZleba arc ki mogwondeT rogor aris
mqadagebeli Cacmuli, rogor gadmoscems azrebs. Sesa-
Zloa, mis sityvebSi Tqven amCnevT garkveul Secdomebs,
magram Tu Tqven gulis doneze daukavSirdiT am adamians,
veraferi SegiSliT xels gaigonoT is, rasac ambobs. aseTi
kavSirisas arafers aRar aqvs mniSvneloba, garda imisa,
ris mitanasac cdilobs mqadagebeli. roca msaxurebaze
amgvari kavSiri miCndeba mqadagebelTan, me xSirad mesmis,
rogor CamCurCulebs suliwmida yurSi sityvebs, romle-
bic scenidan naTqvamic ar iyo.
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arasrulyofili, magram ganumeorebeli
realoba daviTisTvis niSnavda uwyvet omebs, cxovre-
bas mtrebis garemocvaSi da megobrebis Ralats. da mainc,
miuxedavad yvelaferi amisa, igi iltvoda erTisken –
RmerTis Semecnebisken. raRacnairad daviTs SeeZlo dae-
naxa imaze Sors, vidre realobaSi xdeboda da daenaxa sa-
kuTari Tavi WeSmaritebis taxtze mSvidobisa da uxrwneli
silamazis adgilze.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
maSin Cndeba kiTxva, Tu ramdenad icis am adamianma biblia.
kolgotkebi ar gvaaxloeben RmerTTan da arc gvaSoreben
mas. ubralod es qalis tualetis sakmaod elastiuri da
mouxerxebeli nivTia, romelic malavs fexis naklovane-
bebs. vfiqrob, rom gavarkvieT es sakiTxi.
zeciero mama,
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Tavi mecamete
brZola samkaulebisTvis
me yovelTvis momwonda qvebi. bavSvobaSi vagrovebdi
sxvadasxva patara qvebs. Cems megobar marsisTan erTad
yuradRebiT vaTvalierebdiT patara mdinareebis fskers
da miwis nakveTebs, sadac SeiZleboda ramdenime patara
qvis moZebna. maxsovs, saaTobiT rogor viqeqebodiT xreS-
Si, romliTac Cemi mezoblebi gegmavdnen bilikis dagebas
TavianT saxlamde. Cven veZebdiT saaTebis ganmavlobaSi
mxurvale mzis qveS, im imediT, rom vipovidiT `mZivebs~,
romlebic iqnebodnen imis msgavsni, romliTac indielebi
akeTebdnen TavianT samkaulebs. ramdenadac gasakviri ar
unda iyos maT vpoulobdiT. Cven gvqonda mniSvnelovani
misia: mogveZebna es damarxuli saganZuri iqamde, sanam maT
dafaravda asfalti da samudamod daikargeboda.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
sakuTari `Sinauri cxovelebis~ daRupvis gamo da Znelad
vuZlebdi gaxrwnis saSinel suns, vakvirdebodi procedu-
ras usafrTxo manZilidan. vijeqi da vuyurebdi mamaCemi
rogor wmendda Tavis jaris daniT yovel niJaras, sanam
mas wyalSi gadaagdebda da vusmendi mis moTxrobebs did
rvafexebze da margalitebis maZiebel iaponel gogoebze.
Cemi warmosaxva mixatavda am patara `qalTevzebs~, rom-
lebic zRvaSi yvinTavdnen raTa zedapirze amoeRoT masSi
damaluli saganZuri. isini Sromobdnen, da mihqondaT mar-
galitebi maTTvis, visac ar SeeZlo didi xniT sunTqvis
Sekaveba wylis qveS.
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brZola samkaulebisaTvis
TerT Tavis sayvarel minerals, aramed iyida kidevac igi
Cveni Svilisgan 30 dolarad. sanam movaswrebdi gakvirve-
bis gamoxatvas, yurmilSi gaisma alekis mware oxvra:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
urnaSi. didi xani mogviwia dazgasTan wvaleba da rogorc
iqna qvebic gamoCnda. isini iyo brwyinvale, gluvi da di-
dad dapataravdnen zomebSi mas Semdeg rac dazgaSi CavdeT.
maT Soris erTma mineralma miipyro Cemi yuradReba. ram-
denime kviris win igi gavatareT saprialebelSi rogorc
mtvriani, daumuSavebeli ameTvistos natexi, xolo axla
igi gadaiqca patara, brwyinvale mewamuli feris kenWad.
roca xelSi vagoravebdi mas, rom Sememowmebina misi pri-
ala zedapiris yvela mxare, vigrZeni rogor mommarTavda
suliwmida:
cecxlis wyurvili
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brZola samkaulebisaTvis
gadameca, vwuwunebdi, vdrtvinavdi, rom cxovreba (Rmer-
Ti) usamarTloa Cems mimarT! iyo dro, roca gavurbodi
ufals, Tumca igi meubneboda rom mivaxlovebodi mas; an
TaviT veSvebodi im urTierTobebSi, romlis Sewyvetasac
mTxovda. im dros gamudmebiT saprialebeli dazgis mt-
veri idga Cems cxovrebaSi. me kvlav da kvlav vewinaaRm-
degebodi mas da gavurbodi im silamazes, romlis mocemac
mas CemTvis SeeZlo, Tu me myisve da upirobod davemor-
Cilebodi mas.
198
brZola samkaulebisaTvis
buli saxe da damuSavebuli imiji. momwons rogor gamov-
iyurebi mas Semdeg, rac Cemze mTeli erTi saaTi iwvales
maT, vinc icis rogor daayenos Cemi Tma. momwons rbili
ganaTeba, movlenebis kontrolirebadi ganviTareba da ta-
Sismkvreli mayureblebis brbo. Tumca arafer amas ar ga-
moaqvs zedapirze Cemi naklovanebebi, isini vlindeba maSin,
roca Cems cxovrebaSi rame seriozuli xdeba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
movCndiT saiuveliro maRaziaSi, sadac iyo vercxlis nake-
Tobebis farTo arCevani. interesis gamo movisinje beWedi
lurji topaziT, romelic Zalian momewona. idealurad
mixdeboda da mas SeeZlo Seecvala Cemi Zveli topaziani
beWedi, romlidanac qva amovardnili mqonda. roca davu-
brune nivTi gamyidvels, gadavwyvite, rom msaxurebis Sem-
deg moviyvandi am maRaziaSi qmars da vaCvenebdi beWeds.
200
brZola samkaulebisaTvis
`ki magram me minaxia isini,~ - daviJine da Tan vSiSobdi,
rom viyide beWedi ubralo SuSiT.
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brZola samkaulebisaTvis
patarZlebi yovelTvis ikeTeben samkaulebs. am samkau-
lebs RmerTi gvaZlevs, rodesac gansacdelis periodebs
gavdivarT. swored gansacdelebi avlenen Cvens namdvil
silamazes da svaven Zvirfas qvebs Cveni cxovrebis budeeb-
Si.
zeciero mama,
203
Tavi meToTxmete
brZola gavlenisTvis
`da debora, winaswarmetyveli qali, lafidofis
coli, gansjida israels imJamad. da cxovrobda debo-
ras palmis qveS, ramasa da beTels Soris, efremis mTa-
ze. da adiodnen masTan israelis Zeni gansasjelad.~
(msajulTa 4:4-5)
204
brZola gavlenisTvis
sxva qali, gavazviade deboras Tanamdebobis romantiulo-
ba (warmomidgenia ra iqneboda mis adgilze rom vyofi-
liyavi). bibliis metad yuradRebiT SeswavliT mivxvdi,
rom Cemi warmodgenebi deboras cxovrebaze iyo Zalian
Sors realobidan. bolos da bolos, verc erTi adamiani
ver Seva istoriaSi, Tu mxolod ijdeba erT adgilze da
imsjelebs imaze, Tu vin aris marTali da vin damnaSave.
vfiqrob, rom deboras cxovreba da msaxureba atareben
TavisSi aqtualur gzavnils, romelic mowodebulia gaaR-
viZos Cveni Taobis qalebi.
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brZola gavlenisTvis
Tavisi eris Secdomebis sapasuxod RmerTma ufleba mis-
ca, iabins, qanaanis mefes, rom daemonebina isini. yuradRe-
ba miaqcieT sityvebs `xelSi Caugdo~, romelic metyvelebs
imaze, rom RmerTma misca iabins neba gaemarjvebina. da
TiTqos es damcireba ar iyo sakmarisi, RmerTma daayena
maTze mxedarmTavari, saxelad sisara, romelic `sasti-
kad Cagravda israelianelebs~, da Tavis jarSi hyavda 900
rkinis etli. (israelianelebi male mixvdnen, rom xaris
sagmiris qneva am situaciaSi uadgilo iyo). RmerTis Svi-
lebma, maTze datexili ubedurebebiT daTrgunulebma, kv-
lav daiwyes TavianTi uflis moxmoba. am jerze, zustad
Tu vityviT, isini SehRaRadebdnen mas mTeli oci wlis man-
Zilze.
deboras gamoCena
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
hqonda, aramed Sidac. ers ara mxolod Tavs esxmodnen da
anadgurebdnen qanaanelebi, aramed Sida konfliqtebic ux-
vad iyo. RmerTis xalxs Soris iyo uTanxmoeba da brZole-
bi.
209
ibrZole rogorc qalma
istoriulad ise moxda, rom myisieri morCileba da
simtkice wamaxalisebeli gaxda adamianSi dafaruli li-
deruli Tvisebebisa, romlebic exmarebaT maT moagrovon
gafantuli meomrebi da daarwmunon isini imaSi, rom Rmer-
Ti aCuqebs maT gamarjvebas. deboras sityvebi daexmara ba-
raks Zili Seewyvita da gaeRviZa. mTeli eri aenTo suliT:
ufali ibrZolebs maTTvis mtris winaaRmdeg, ise rogorc
es adre xdeboda! RmerTi dapirda, rom Tu baraki Seagro-
vebda da waruZRveboda meomrebis saWiro raodenobas, igi
danarCens gaakeTebda.
210
brZola gavlenisTvis
elva, `ai, ra gibrZana ufalma, israelis RmerTma, wadi
da adi Taboris mTaze, da Tan waiyvane aTi aTasi kaci.~
(msajulTa 4:6)
211
ibrZole rogorc qalma
mteri damarcxebulia
212
brZola gavlenisTvis
niWi, - imaRleben xmas, generlebi iRviZeben Zilisgan. nax-
eT, Semdeg ra moxda:
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
iayeli gamoegeba mas. vfiqrob man gaigona RmerTis
gankiTxvis moaxloebis xma da elodeboda xelsayrel
wuTs. qalma miipatiJa sisara Tavis karavSi da daafara mas
fardagi. es magonebs rahabs gamosvlis wignidan, romelmac
sakuTar saxlSi damala israelianeli mzveravebi. Tumca
iayeli israelianels ar malavda, aramed RmerTis mters
da kargad icoda es. mterma moisurva daleva da sTxova
mas, magram amis nacvlad iayelma mas rZe miawoda. ratom?
undoda rom daeZinebina. sisaram dalia rZe da sTxova
iayels edaraja karvis SesasvlelTan, raTa daemala misi
adgilsamyofeli. qali daTanxmda, magram igi mas iqamde
darajobda, sanam sisaras Rrmad ar daeZina.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
es sagalobeli ufro naklebad sisxliania, vidre urosa
da palos moTxroba.
deboras sagalobeli
ra gaqvs xelSi?
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
• daviTma gamoiyena Surduli da qva, raTa gaemar-
jvebina Zlier filistimel berZol goliaTze.
218
brZola gavlenisTvis
uSavs, rom me ar maqvs uro an karvis palo, samagierod
maqvs Cemi leptopi. am `iaraRis~ wyalobiT Cemi codna da
gamocdileba gadaiqceva wignebad, romlebic mouTxroben
xalxs saxarebis gardamqneli Zalis Sesaxeb. ratom aris
ase mniSvnelovani vicodeT ra gvaqvs xelSi?
zeciero mama,
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Tavi meTxuTmete
momentis mniSvnelovneba
imis gamo, rom Tqven miiReT gadawyvetileba momsaxu-
rebodiT cocxal RmerTs, momentis an awmyo drois mniSv-
nelovneba metad gaizrdeba Tqvens cxovrebaSi. erTxel,
diliT gaRviZebulma gavigone Cems sulSi sityvebi: `Seni
warsuli da momavali gadaikveTeba am momentSi, Sens awmy-
oSi~ ras niSnavs es? CemTvis es niSnavs, rom me saguldagu-
lod unda vwonide Cems sityvebs da saqciels.
220
momentis mniSvneloba
zomlad metis keTeba, vidre Cven vTxovT an vfiqrobT.~
(efeselTa 3:20)
221
ibrZole rogorc qalma
gamigeT: saerTodac ar msurda, rom vinmes ezarala Cemi
locvebisgan; ubralod meCveneboda, rom cudi ar iqne-
boda RmerTis mxridan, moeca CemTvis raime niSani. (es ar
momxdara).
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brZola gavlenisTvis
Ceboda kiTxva an eWvi imaze, Tu vin aris mTavari, vin aris
gamarjvebuli, romelic drois aRsasruls dajdeba tax-
tze!
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
Cemi wignis `ambori cremlebamde~-s gamocemis Semdeg. vi-
jeqi saxlSi da vusmendi Tayvaniscemis musikas da vfiq-
robdi RmerTis sikeTeze. axlaxans momiwia mkiTxvelis te-
lefonis gulsatken zarze mepasuxa da kiTxvas vsmamdi:
`me, qalma, romelic cxovrobs mamakacebis garemocvaSi,
rogor gadavwyvite damewera wigni qalebis seqsualuri
siwmidis Sesaxeb?~
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brZola gavlenisTvis
ni. uTxari, rom miyvars isini da minda maTi gankurneba da
mTeli maTi sircxvilis waReba. gamoaTavisufle Cemi gan-
kurnebis sityva darbazSi, xolo danarCens me gavakeTeb.~
liza,
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brZola gavlenisTvis
mis sityvebi, romlebic TqviT: `dae meyos me Seni sityvi-
samebr~, - da vimeorebdi maT kvlav da kvlav iqamde, sanam
Cemi gulis rwmenam morCilebiTa da siyvaruliT ar sZlia
eSmakis simagreebs Cems gonebaSi. es Cemi pirveli menstru-
aluri ciklia ocdasami wlis ganmavlobaSi, ramelsac ar
axlavda herpesis gamovlineba.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
yoveli qristiani dameTanxmeba, Tu vityvi, rom Cveni
ufleba da privilegiaa – mivutevebdeT sxvebs, da aseve
RmerTis patiebis gamocxadeba. marTalia? arc erT Cven-
Tagans eWvi ar epareba imaSi, rom Cven mogvendo Serigebis
msaxureba. roca iesom ikiTxa: `ra ufro advilia?~, igi
gulisxmobda Semdegs: `CemTvis gankurneba da codvebis pa-
tieba erTi da igivea!~ mas SeeZlo im adamianisTvis orives
mocema!
movida dro!
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brZola gavlenisTvis
vfiqrob, rom ar mesmoda drois Zalis mniSvneloba
manamde, sanam deda ar gavxdi. bavSvebis dabadebamde me
gamudmebiT meqmneboda cru warmodgena, rom raRacnairad
SemiZlo drois gakontroleba. maxsovs, Cavixede ivnisis
kalendarSi da amovirCie ramdenime xelsayreli dRe Cemi
Svilis dabadebisTvis da daviwye Txovna locvaSi: `Rmer-
To, CemTvis marTla aucilebelia vSva bavSvi am ricxvebSi,
da ara amaze gvian.~
- ara, meore!
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
vfiqrob, iesos moswons roca gvimTavrdeba bunebrivi
Zalebi da vTxovT mas mis Zalas. movida dro, rom aRsrul-
des winaswarmetyveleba efeselTa 3:20-dan.
zeciero mama,
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Tavi meTeqvsete
Sen gakvirdebian!
aris raRac gamaRizianebeli roca ici, rom gakvird-
ebian. Tumca aravin vfiqrobT, rom SegviZlia sxvebis Tva-
lebs Tavi davaRwioT, Cven xSirad ver vacnobierebT, rom
Cvens cxovrebas gacilebiT ufro metad akvirdebian, vi-
dre amis warmodgenas SeZlebda yvelaze ukanaskneli para-
noidi. ver davTvli ramdenjer gavCerebulvar SuqniSanze,
roca vmRerodi da Cemi manqanis salonSi musikas ayolili
vmoZraobdi, da mxolod Semdeg SevamCnevdi xolme, rom me
cnobismoyvareobiT makvirdebodnen gverdze myofi manqa-
nebis mZRolebi. magram me ar vsaubrob axla SemTxveviT
Semoxedvebze SemTxveviTi mZRolebis mxridan SuqniSnebze.
Tqven da me gvakvirdeba metad mniSvnelovani da mraval-
ricxovani kompania.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
dasrulebuliyo. Tu miwevda sityviT gamosvla, viwyebdi
nerviulobas imdenad, rom maviwydeboda yvelaferi, rac
momzadebuli mqonda da absoluturad ar SemeZlo koncen-
trireba. magram rac Seexeba koncertebs, TiTqmis arasodes
vTanxmdebodi monawileoba mimeRo imaSi, rac maiZulebda
rom scenaze xalxis winaSe gamovsuliyavi. meSinoda Cemi
audienciis, Tu maTi ricxvi aRemateboda ors.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
agoneben Svils rom SemoqmedebiTad miudges davalebis
Sesrulebas da elodos jildos Tavisi saqmisTvis, maSin,
roca meore SemTxvevaSi mas marTavs sasjelis safrTxe.
me, magaliTad, SemiZlia sruliad CamovuSva xelebi, Tu
xalxi, romlebic makvirdebian, ar daijereben imas, rom me
mSvenivrad Sevasruleb Cems winaSe arsebul saqmes. magram
arian isinic, vinc ara ubralod gvakvirdeba, aramed imedi
aqvT Cveni warmatebis; isini aRfrTovandebian da xaroben.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
le kacobriobisaTvis, yvela procesi dedamiwaze Semotri-
alda da daiwyes dabruneba pirvandel mdgomareobaSi.
bunebasac da adamiansac dasWirdaT dro imisaTvis, rom
maT cxovrebaSi cxadi gamxdariyo sikvdilis damangreveli
Sedegebi, Tumca man ki moicva mTeli dedamiwa Tvalis dax-
amxamebaSi, miT umetes dro dasWirdeba yvelafris ukan
Semosatrialeblad. ori aTasi wlis ganmavlobaSi sikvdi-
li TandaTanobiT kargavda Zalas da verc ki movaswrebT
azrze mosvlas, rom is saerTod gaqreba. me Zalian mom-
wons es WeSmariteba: `magram madlis niWi ufro Zlieria,
vidre Cvens mier Cadenili danaSauli.~ erTi adamianis da-
naSaulma mravals moutana sikvdili, magram dae icodeT:
RmerTis niWi yovelTvis ufro Zlieria, vidre yvela Cveni
danaSauli erTad aRebuli.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
gveubneba uxilavis Sesaxeb da jer-jerobiT miuRwevelze,
da SevwyvitoT gamudmebiT fiqri sikvdilisa da ngrevis
xilul, realur mtkicebulebebze, romlebic gvTrguna-
ven. rogorc RvTis Svilebi, Cven unda vsaubrobdeT misi
imedisa da Zalis enaze.
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Sen gakvirdebian!
`vixile axali ca da axali miwa, vinaidan pirveli ca da
pirveli miwa gardaxdnen, da zRva aRar iyo.~ (gamocxa-
deba 21:1)
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
SemosoT sxvebi siyvaruliT;
mosasxami pirsaxocisgan
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Sen gakvirdebian!
Tu ifrialebs Tqvens zurgs ukan. qaris gareSe, romelic
wevs maT maRla, igi ubralod tansacmlis detalia.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
undoblobiT gadavxedeT erTmaneTs. es ukve aRar iqne-
boda igive, da yvelam vicodiT es. rogor vigrZnobdi mzis
sxivebs maisurSi? qaris Srials? Zalas, romelsac mosasx-
ami maZlevda? damwuxrebuli, magram vxvdebodi, rom sxva
gamosavali ar mqonda garda imisa, rom Camecva maisuri.
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Sen gakvirdebian!
qalaqs horizontze da esmiT, rom SeiZenen WeSarit Ta-
visuflebas mxolod iq, sadac mefobs WeSmariteba. iseve
rogorc Tqven, maTac swyuriaT raRac ufro meti, vidre
SeiZleba sakuTari TvalebiT danaxva. isini mzad arian
gadaixadon nebismieri fasi, raTa CamoiSoron am wuTi-
soflis koSmari da miaRwion TavianT ocnebas.
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ibrZole rogorc qalma
gaSaleT Tqveni mosasxami
zeciero mama,
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SeniSvnebi
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