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emil Corani
qveynad movlenis usiamovnebaze

Emil Michel Cioran

DE L’INCONVÉNIENT D’ÊTRE NÉ

frangulidan Targmna ilia bawaSvilma

garekanze: hiromu kiras `moazrovne~

© Éditions Gallimard, 1973

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© gamomcemloba `diogene~, 2018

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 Ramis sa­mi saa­Ti. Se­vig­rZnob jer am erT wams, Sem­deg ki­
dev erTs, Ti­Toeul wuTs aR­vric­xav.
ra­tom es yve­la­fe­ri? _ imitom, rom davibade.
esaa uZi­lo­bis gan­sa­kuT­re­bu­li sa­xe, ro­mel­sac Ti­Ti da­
ba­de­bis­ken aqvs gaS­ve­ri­li.


`mas aqeT, rac qve­ya­nas mo­vev­li­ne~. es aqeT ise­Ti sa­za­re­
li mniS­vne­lo­biT dam­Zi­me­bu­li meC­ve­ne­ba, rom sru­liad au­ta­
ne­li xde­ba.


ar­se­bobs Se­mec­ne­ba, ro­me­lic wo­na­sa da mniS­vne­lo­bas ac­
lis imas, ra­sac va­ke­TebT: sa­ku­Ta­ri Ta­vis gar­da, mis­Tvis
yve­la­fe­ri sa­fuZ­vels aris mok­le­bu­li. rad­gan im do­nem­de
wmin­daa, rom obieq­tis ideac ki sZuls, igi war­mog­vid­gens am
uki­du­res cod­nas, rom­lis mi­xed­vi­Tac, su­ler­Tia, gan­va­xor­
cie­lebT Tu ar gan­va­xor­cie­lebT rai­me qme­de­bas, da ro­mel­
sac Tan ax­lavs ase­ve uki­du­re­si kma­yo­fi­le­ba: ker­Zod is, rom
SeeZ­los imeo­ros, ro­gorc ki amis sa­Sua­le­ba mie­ce­ma, rom
Cvens xel­Ta­gan mom­di­na­re arc er­Ti Jes­ti ar Rirs imad, rom
mi­si Ta­na­zia­ri vi­yoT, rom sub­stan­ciis nam­ce­ce­bi ara­fers
am­bo­ben Ri­re­buls, rom `rea­lo­ba~ _ es ab­sur­dis sam­flo­be­
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loa. ase­Ti Se­mec­ne­ba im­sa­xu­rebs, `sik­vdi­lis Sem­dgo­mad~ iwo­
de­bo­des: is moq­me­debs, TiT­qos Sem­mec­ne­be­li coc­xa­lic iyos
da Tan arc iyos coc­xa­li. yof­na da yof­nis xsov­na. `es uk­ve
war­su­lia~, _ am­bobs is yve­la­fer­ze, ra­sac ga­nas­ru­lebs, TviT
moq­me­de­bis mo­men­tSic ki, ro­me­lic amis ga­mo awmyos aris mo­
ci­le­bu­li.


Cven sik­vdi­lis­ken ar gav­rbi­varT, Cven da­ba­de­bis ka­tas­
tro­fis­gan vil­tviT, er­Tma­neTs vax­te­biT _ ltol­vi­le­bi,
rom­le­bic da­viw­ye­bas cdi­lo­ben. sik­vdi­lis Si­Si mxo­lod mo­
mav­lis­ken mi­mar­Tu­li proeq­ciaa Si­Si­sa, ro­me­lic sa­Ta­ves Cve­
ni da­ba­de­bis pir­ve­li­ve wa­mi­dan iRebs.
faq­tia, Za­lia­nac ar mog­vwons, da­ba­de­ba­Si Wir­sa da ube­du­
re­bas vxe­dav­deT. ga­na Tav­Si ar Cag­vi­beW­des, rom is iyo umaR­
le­si si­ke­Te, rom yve­la­ze ua­re­si Cve­ni ka­rie­ris bo­lo­saa da
ara mis da­saw­yis­Si? Tum­ca­Ra bo­ro­te­ba, nam­dvi­li bo­ro­te­ba,
Cven ukanaa da ara Cven win. swo­red esaa, rac ga­mor­Ca qris­tes
da bu­da mix­vda: `am qve­ya­na­ze sa­mi ram rom ar ar­se­bu­li­yo, o,
mo­wa­fe­no, qve­ya­nas srul­yo­fi­li ver moev­li­ne­bo­da...~ da mo­
xu­ce­bu­lo­bi­sa da sik­vdi­lis win is aye­nebs da­ba­de­bis faqts _
yve­la si­sus­ti­sa da ube­du­re­bis sa­Ta­ves.


ada­mians SeuZ­lia yve­la­nair WeS­ma­ri­te­bas Seew­yos, ro­go­
ri da­man­gre­ve­lic un­da iyos is, oRond im pi­ro­biT, rom is
sxva yve­laf­ris ad­gils dai­ka­vebs da dai­tevs im­de­ni­ve sa­si­
coc­xlo ener­gias, ram­den­sac imeds, ro­me­lic Caa­nac­vla.


ara­fers va­ke­Teb, asea nam­dvi­lad. mag­ram vuyureb, ro­gor
ga­dis saa­Te­bi _ rac jo­bia imas, rom maT Sev­se­bas vcdi­lob­de.
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au­ci­le­be­li araa, wig­nze mu­Sao­bi­sas Tavs Za­las atan­de,
mxo­lod imis Tqmaa sa­Wi­ro, lo­Tis an mo­mak­vda­vis yur­Si Ca­
Cur­Cu­le­bad rom Rir­des.


Tu ra do­nis reg­ress ga­nic­dis ka­cob­rio­ba, ama­ze uke­Te­
sad ara­fe­ri am­tki­cebs: SeuZ­le­be­lia, ipo­vo Tun­dac er­Ti xal­
xi, er­Ti to­mi, sa­dac bav­Svis da­ba­de­ba jer ki­dev ga­moiw­vev­da
glo­va­sa da vae­bas.


au­jan­yde mem­kvid­reo­bas _ niS­navs, ajan­yde mi­liar­do­biT
wlis wi­naaR­mdeg, pirveli uj­re­dis wi­naaR­mdeg.


yve­la­nai­ri si­xa­ru­lis da­saw­yis­Si _ da­sas­ruls Tu ara _
Rmer­Ti dgas.


me, ro­me­lic uSua­lo aw­myo­Si Tavs mSvi­dad ve­ras­dros
vgrZnob, mxo­lod is mac­du­nebs, rac Ce­mam­de iyo, rac aqau­ro­
bas ma­So­rebs _ uric­xvi wa­mi, ro­ca me ar vi­ya­vi. ar­da­ba­de­bu­li.


dam­ci­re­bis fi­zi­ku­ri moT­xov­ni­le­ba. vi­sur­veb­di, ja­la­
Tis Svi­li vyo­fi­li­ya­vi.

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ra uf­le­biT lo­cu­lobT Cem­Tvis? Sua­ma­va­li ar mWir­de­
ba, me Tvi­Ton vuS­ve­li Cems Tavs, marto. ube­du­ris­gan, al­baT,
ki­dev mi­vi­Reb­di, mag­ram sxva ara­vis­gan _ wmin­da­nic rom yo­fi­
li­yo. ver vi­tan, ro­de­sac Cems ga­dar­Ce­na­ze wux­de­bian. Tu ga­

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dar­Ce­na mZags, Tu mas ga­vur­bi­var, ma­Sin ro­go­ri Tav­xe­do­baa es
Tqve­ni loc­ve­bi! moa­So­reT aqe­dan! rac un­da iyos, Cven er­Ti da
ima­ve Rmer­Te­bis msa­xur­ni ar varT. Tu Ce­me­bi uZ­lur­ni arian,
yve­la­nai­ri sa­fuZ­ve­li gvaqvs, vi­fiq­roT, rom Tqve­neb­sac bev­ri
ara­fe­ri SeuZ­liaT. romc da­vuS­vaT, rom isi­ni ise­Te­bi arian,
ro­go­ra­dac Tqven war­mo­gid­ge­niaT, maT mainc ar eq­ne­baT sak­ma­
ri­si Za­la, gan­mkur­non Cems mex­sie­re­ba­ze uf­ro Zve­li Si­Si­sa­gan.

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ro­go­ri sa­co­dao­baa Seg­rZne­ba! eq­sta­zic, albaT, me­ti
ara­fe­ria.

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dan­gre­va, Seq­mni­lis ga­nad­gu­re­ba _ er­Ta­der­Ti amo­ca­naa,
rac ada­mian­ma SeiZ­le­ba sa­ku­Tar Tavs dau­sa­xos, Tu igi es­
wraf­vis _ ra­zec yve­la­fe­ri miu­Ti­Tebs _ rom Se­moq­me­dis­gan
gan­sxvav­de­bo­des.


vi­ci, rom Ce­mi da­ba­de­ba Sem­Txve­vi­To­baa, sa­sa­ci­lo in­ci­
den­ti, da mainc, ro­gorc ki vi­viw­yeb sa­ku­Tar Tavs, ise viq­ce­
vi, TiT­qos sa­ka­cob­rio mov­le­na iyos, sa­si­coc­xlod mniS­vne­
lo­va­ni sam­ya­ros svli­sa da wo­nas­wo­ro­bi­saT­vis.


Cai­di­no yve­la da­na­Sau­li, ma­mo­bis gar­da.


ro­gorc we­si, ada­mia­ne­bi elian imed­gac­rue­bas: ician, rom
mouT­men­le­bi ar un­da iy­vnen, is ad­re Tu gvian mo­va; rom imed­
gac­rue­ba ac­liT, Ta­vianT im­wu­Tier saq­meebs mi­xe­don. sxvag­va­
ra­daa saq­me ilu­zie­bis­gan Ta­vi­su­fa­li ada­mia­nis Sem­Txve­va­Si:
mis­Tvis moq­me­de­ba da imed­gac­rue­ba er­Tia, mi­si lo­di­ni sa­Wi­ro
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aRa­raa, igi iqaa. drois svlis­gan ga­Ta­vi­suf­le­biT man Se­saZ­le­
be­li STan­Tqa da mo­ma­va­li zed­me­ti ga­xa­da. `Tqvens mo­ma­val­Si
ver Seg­xvde­biT, _ eub­ne­ba is sxvebs. _ er­Ti wa­mic ki ar aris,
sa­zia­ro rom gvqon­des~. mis­Tvis xom mTe­li mo­ma­va­li uk­ve aqaa.
ro­ca da­sas­ruls da­saw­yis­Si mov­kravT Tvals, dro­ze swra­
fad viw­yebT moZ­rao­bas. go­ne­bis ga­na­Te­bas, Se­maZ­rwu­ne­bel
imed­gac­rue­bas Tan moh­yve­ba sic­xa­de, ro­me­lic Tva­lis axe­las
ga­Ta­vi­suf­le­bad aq­cevs.

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Tavs vaR­wev ga­reg­nul mxa­res da mainc mas­Si vix­lar­Te­bi,
uf­ro swo­rad, Suag­za­ze var, ga­reg­nul mxa­re­sa da imas So­ris,
rac mas uar­yofs _ is, rasac arc sa­xe­li aqvs da arc Si­naar­
si, rac ara­fe­ria da yve­la­fe­ri. maT ga­reT ga­dam­wyvet na­bijs
ve­ra­so­des ga­dav­dgam. Ce­mi bu­ne­ba mai­Zu­lebs, vi­tiv­ti­vo, ma­ra­
diul gaur­kvev­lo­ba­Si vi­bo­ria­lo, da romc me­ca­da Se­Ce­re­ba,
rai­mes ga­daw­yve­ta, Ce­mi­ve xsniT da­vi­Ru­pe­bo­di.


Ce­mi imed­gac­rue­bis una­ri yo­vel­gvar war­mod­ge­nas aRe­ma­
te­ba. swo­red mi­si wya­lo­biT Se­miZ­lia mes­mo­des bu­da­si, mag­
ram xel­sac is miS­lis, rom mi­si mim­de­va­ri vi­yo.


is, rac Cven­Si Ta­nag­rZno­bas ve­Rar aR­Zravs, aRarc iT­vle­
ba da aRarc ar­ se­
bobs. aq­ve vxvde­biT, Tu ra­ tom wyvets ase
swra­fad Cve­ni war­su­li Cve­nad yof­nas _ ra­Ta is­to­riad iq­ces,
iseT ra­med, rac uk­ve aRa­ra­vis exe­ba.


gu­lis siR­rme­Si gin­do­des, iyo ise­Ti­ve uqo­ne­li, ise­Ti­ve
Se­sab­ra­li­si, ro­go­ric Rmer­Ti.
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ada­mia­nebs So­ris nam­dvi­li kav­Si­ri mxo­lod mdu­ma­re Ta­
nam­yo­fo­biT myar­de­ba, ga­re­ga­ni kav­Si­ris arar­se­bo­biT, idu­ma­
li da usit­yvo ur­Tier­To­biT, ro­me­lic Si­na­gan loc­vas hgavs.


rac sa­mo­ci wli­sam vi­ci, is vi­co­di oci wlis asak­Sic. or­
mo­ci wlis xan­grZli­vi, fu­Wi gar­ja Se­mow­me­bis­Tvis...


ro­gorc we­si, ise var dar­wmu­ne­bu­li, rom yve­la­fe­ri mok­
le­bu­lia mdgra­do­bas, sa­fuZ­vel­sa da ga­mar­Tle­bas, vin­mes Se­
wi­naaR­mde­ge­ba rom gae­be­da, Tun­dac is ada­mia­ni yo­fi­li­yo,
vi­sac yve­la­ze me­tad va­fa­seb, ma­Sin­ve Sar­la­ta­nad da WkuaT­
xe­lad war­mo­mid­ge­bo­da.


bav­Svo­bi­dan vgrZnob­di saa­Te­bis svlas, Ta­vi­su­fals yve­
la­nai­ri kav­Si­ri­sa­gan, yve­la qme­de­bi­sa da mov­le­ni­sa­gan, dro­
is gan­cal­ ke­ve­
bas im yve­ laf­ ri­
sa­gan, rac is ar iyo, mis av­
to­no­miur ar­se­bo­bas, mis gan­sa­kuT­re­bul sta­tuss, mis im­pe­
rias, mis ti­ra­nias. cxad­ze cxa­dad max­sovs is Suad­Re, ro­ca
da­ca­rie­le­bu­li sam­ya­ros wi­na­Se pir­ve­lad vi­ya­vi mxo­lod da
mxo­lod dau­mor­Ci­le­bel wam­Ta rbo­la, rom­le­bic sa­ku­Ta­ri
mo­va­leo­bis Ses­ru­le­ba­ze uars am­bob­dnen. dro Cems xarjze
scil­de­bo­da yo­fie­re­bas.


io­bis­gan gan­sxva­ve­biT, Ce­mi ga­Ce­nis dRe ar da­miw­yev­lia.
ai, da­nar­Ce­ni dRee­bi ki SeC­ve­ne­be­biT avav­se...

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sik­vdils mxo­lod uar­yo­fi­Ti mxa­ree­bi rom hqon­des,
kvdo­ma ga­nu­xor­cie­le­be­li aq­ti iq­ne­bo­da.


yvelaferi aris. araferi ar aris. ro­gorc erT, ise meo­re
for­mu­las Ta­na­ba­ri uS­foT­ve­lo­ba moh­yve­ba Tan. mSfoT­va­re
ada­mia­ni ki, Ta­vis­da sau­be­du­rod, am ors Sua rCe­ba, akan­ka­
le­bu­li da dab­neu­li. yo­vel­Tvis ra­Rac wvril­ma­nis Sem­yu­res,
Za­la ar Ses­wevs, See­ked­los yof­nis an ar­yof­nis usaf­rTxoe­bas.


nor­man­diis am sa­na­pi­ro­ze, ad­rian di­las, ara­vin mWir­de­bo­da.
To­lie­bi ner­vebs miS­lid­nen _ qve­bis sro­liT gav­ya­re. ma­Ti yu­
ris­wam­Re­bi, ara­bu­neb­ri­vi ki­vi­li, bo­los miv­xvdi, zus­tad is iyo,
rac mWir­de­bo­da _ rom mxo­lod sa­za­rels SeeZ­lo Ce­mi dam­Svi­
de­ba, rom swo­red mas­Tan Se­sax­ved­rad av­de­qi mzis amos­vlam­de.


cocxali _ uec­rad man­cvif­rebs am sit­yvis uc­nau­ro­ba,
TiT­qos is arc ara­vis esa­da­ge­bo­des.

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ro­ca yve­la­fe­ri cu­da­daa da sa­ku­Ta­ri tvi­nis Se­co­de­bas
viw­yeb, dauo­ke­be­li sur­vi­li mip­yrobs, qvey­nie­re­bas gan­cxa­
de­be­biT mivmarTo. ai, swo­red ma­Sin vxvde­bi, Tu ra ubad­ru­ki
uf­skru­le­bi­dan Zvre­bian re­for­ma­to­re­bi, wi­nas­war­met­yve­le­
bi da mxsne­le­bi.

vi­sur­veb­di, Ta­vi­su­fa­li vi­yo, usaS­ve­lod Ta­vi­su­fa­li. Ta­
vi­su­fa­li, ro­gorc mkvdrad­So­bi­li.

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is, rom cxad­Si am­de­ni gau­geb­ro­ba da usia­mov­ne­ba aR­wevs,
Cve­ni uZi­lo Ra­mee­bis uxei­ro ga­mo­ye­ne­bis Se­de­gia.


da­ba­de­biT Cve­ni Sep­yro­bi­lo­ba, ro­mel­sac Cve­ni­ve war­su­
lis winareSi ga­dav­ya­varT, ge­mos ukar­gavs Cvens mo­ma­vals, aw­
myo­sa da war­sul­sac ki.


iS­via­Tia dRee­bi, pos­tis­to­ria­Si aR­mo­Ce­ni­li, Rmer­Te­bis
mxia­ru­le­bas rom ar Se­ves­wro ada­mia­nis epi­zo­dis mi­wu­ruls.
sa­Wi­roa al­ter­na­tiu­li xed­va im droi­saT­vis, ro­ca uka­
nas­kne­li sam­sjav­ros idea aRa­ra­vis daak­ma­yo­fi­lebs.

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idea, ar­se­ba, yve­la­fe­ri, rac ki gan­sxeul­de­ba, kar­gavs
Ta­vis sa­xes, gro­tes­kad iq­ce­va. gan­xor­cie­le­bis frus­tra­cia.
ara­so­des ga­moZ­vre Se­saZ­leb­li­dan, ine­biv­ro ma­ra­diul ga­
dauw­yve­tel­Si, dagaviwydes, dai­ba­do.


nam­dvi­li, er­Ta­der­Ti ube­du­re­ba _ dRis Su­qis xil­vaa. igi
sa­Ta­ves ag­re­siu­lo­bi­dan iRebs, da­sa­bam­Si ga­me­fe­bu­li eq­span­
sii­sa da mZvin­va­re­bis prin­ci­pi­dan, yve­la­ze ua­re­sis­ken mis­
wra­fe­bi­dan, ro­mel­mac isi­ni gaaR­vi­Za.


ro­de­sac vin­mes mra­va­li wlis Sem­deg isev vxvde­biT, ajo­
bebs, er­Tma­ne­Tis pi­ris­pir dav­sxdeT da saa­Te­bis gan­mav­lo­ba­
Si ara­fe­ri vTqvaT, ra­Ta si­Cu­mis wya­lo­biT Cvens gaog­ne­bas
sa­ku­Tar Tav­Tan sit­kboe­ba das­cal­des.
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sak­vir­ve­li si­ber­wiT aR­beW­di­li dRee­bi. imis ma­giv­rad,
rom mi­xa­ro­des, ga­mar­jve­bas vzei­mob­de, rom es gval­va dRe­
sas­wau­lad vaq­cio, mas­Si Ce­mi miR­we­vis, sim­wi­fis, er­Ti sit­
yviT, Ce­mi ga­Ta­vi­suf­le­bis mow­mo­bas vxe­dav­de, Tavs ne­bas vaZ­
lev, jav­rma da cud­ma gan­wyo­bam Se­mip­yros, im­de­nad Zlie­ria
Cven­Si pir­ve­li ada­mia­ni _ dau­Ra­la­vi gaiZ­ve­ra, ro­mel­sac Za­
la ar Ses­wevs, gau­Ci­nar­des.


aR­ta­ce­bu­li var in­du­ri fi­lo­so­fiiT, rom­lis ar­se­bi­Ti
amo­ca­nac sa­ku­Ta­ri Ta­vis daZ­le­vaa; da yve­la­fe­ri, ra­sac va­ke­
Teb da ra­zec vfiq­rob, aris mxo­lod me da mes usia­mov­ne­ba­ni.

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ro­de­sac vmoq­me­debT, mi­za­ni gag­vaC­nia. uk­ve gan­xor­cie­le­
bul qme­de­bas ki Cvens Tval­Si ise­ve aRar aqvs rea­lo­ba, ro­gorc
mi­zans, rom­lis gan­xor­cie­le­ba­sac ves­wra­fo­diT. am­gva­rad, am
yve­la­fer­Si ar­se­bi­Ti bev­ri ara­fe­ri iyo _ mxo­lod da mxo­
lod Ta­ma­Si. mag­ram arian ise­Te­bic, rom­le­bic TviT moq­me­de­bis
momentSic ki Ta­maSs ac­no­bie­re­ben: isi­ni das­kvnas wa­nam­ZRvreb­Si
xe­da­ven, gan­xor­cie­le­buls _ Se­saZ­le­bel­Si; isi­ni Zirs uT­xrian
se­rio­zu­lo­bas uSua­lod im faq­tiT, rom ar­se­bo­ben.
irea­lo­bis, uni­ver­sa­lu­ri arar­se­bo­bis xed­va er­Tob­li­
vi Se­de­gia yo­vel­dRiu­ri Seg­rZne­bi­sa da uca­be­di TrTo­li­sa.
yvelaferi TamaSia _ am aR­mo­Ce­nis ga­re­Se Seg­rZne­bas, ro­mel­
sac ada­mia­ni Ta­vi­si dRe da mos­wre­ba daa­ta­rebs, ar eq­ne­bo­da
da­ma­xa­sia­Te­be­li ni­Sa­ni, ro­me­lic Cvens me­ta­fi­zi­kur ga­moc­di­
le­bebs esa­Wi­roe­baT, ra­Ta gan­sxvav­de­bod­nen ma­Ti­ve imi­ta­cie­
bi­sa­gan, sxva­das­xva diskomfortisagan. ne­bis­mie­ri dis­kom­for­
ti xom mxo­lod da mxo­lod mar­cxia­ni me­ta­fi­zi­ku­ri ga­moc­di­
le­baa.
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ro­de­sac ga­mog­ve­le­va in­te­re­si, ro­mel­sac sik­vdi­li­sad­mi
vi­Cen­diT, da miv­xvde­biT, rom mis­gan mets ve­ra­fers mi­vi­RebT,
da­ba­de­bas mi­vub­run­de­biT _ uZi­ro xrams mi­va­Su­rebT...


ai, zus­tad am mo­men­tSi tkivils gan­vic­di. es mov­le­na,
Cem­Tvis ase mniS­vne­lo­va­ni, arar­se­bu­lia, war­moud­ge­ne­lic ki
da­nar­Ce­ni ar­se­be­bi­saT­vis, sul yve­la­saT­vis. Rmer­Tis gar­da,
Tu­ki SeiZ­le­ba am sit­yvas mniS­vne­lo­ba hqon­des.


yo­ve­li mxri­dan gves­mis, rom Tun­dac yve­la­fe­ri amao iyos,
kar­gad ake­Teb­de imas, ra­ sac ake­
Teb _ amao ar aris. mag­ ram
esec amaoa. imi­saT­vis, rom am das­kvnam­de mix­vi­de da bo­lom­de
gauZ­lo mas, au­ci­le­be­lia, ara­nai­ri pro­fe­sia ar gqon­des, an
uki­du­res Sem­Txve­va­Si, me­fe iyo, so­lo­mo­ni­viT.


ise viq­ce­vi, ro­gorc yve­la da maT msgav­sa­dac, vinc yve­
la­ze me­tad mZuls; mag­ram saq­mes imiT vas­wo­reb, rom vna­nob
yve­la qme­de­bas, rac mo­vi­moq­me­de, kar­gsa Tu cuds.

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sadaa Ce­mi Seg­rZne­be­bi? isi­ni Cem­Si gau­Ci­nar­dnen, da vin
aris es me, Tu ara ja­mi am gam­qra­li Seg­rZne­be­bi­sa?

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araCveulebrivi da umniSvnelo _ es ori zed­sar­Ta­vi sa­
xe­li erT aqts mie­mar­Te­ba da, Se­sa­ba­mi­sad, im yve­la­fers, rac
mas Se­de­gad moh­yve­ba, upir­ve­les yov­li­sa ki _ si­coc­xles.
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go­ne­bis sic­xa­de er­Ta­der­Ti man­kie­re­baa, ro­me­lic Ta­vi­su­
fals xdis _ Ta­vi­su­fals udabnoSi.


wle­bis gas­vlas­Tan er­Tad mcir­de­ba ma­Ti ric­xvi, vis­Ta­nac
saer­To enis ga­mo­nax­va Seg­viZ­lia. ro­ca aRa­ra­vin dar­Ce­ba, vi­
sac miv­mar­Tav­diT, bo­los viq­ne­biT ise­Te­bi, ro­go­re­bic vi­ya­
viT sa­xel­Si Ca­Zir­vam­de.


ro­de­sac li­ri­ku­lo­ba­ze uars am­bob, er­Ti gver­dis Sev­
se­
bac ki ga­ moc­
dad iq­ ce­va: ris­
Tvis un­da we­ro _ rom Tqva
zustad, rac saT­qme­li gqon­da?


ver da­vuS­vebT, vin­me iseT­ma gan­gvsa­jos, vinc Cven­ze nak­le­bi
itan­ja. da rad­ga­nac Ti­Toeuls Ta­vi ara­Ria­re­bu­li io­bi hgo­nia...


voc­ne­bob aR­sa­re­bis idea­lur mim­Reb­ze, ro­mel­Ta­nac yve­
laf­ris Tqma, yve­laf­ris aRia­re­ba SeiZ­le­ba, voc­ne­bob yve­
laf­ri­sad­mi gul­gril wmin­dan­ze.

ux­so­va­ri droi­dan mo­yo­le­bul­ma kvdo­mam coc­xa­li sik­
vdils SeaC­ via. sxva ri­Ti av­
xsnaT, rom mwe­ ri Tu mRrRne­ li,
ada­mia­nic ki, co­tao­de­ni pran­Wva-­gre­xis me­re axer­xebs, ase
Rir­seu­lad gaf­Si­kos fe­xi.


sa­moT­xe au­ta­ne­li iyo, To­rem pir­ve­li ada­mia­ni mas ro­
gor­Rac Seew­yo­bo­da. es sam­ya­roc ase­Tia, rad­gan an sa­moT­xes
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miv­ti­riT, an sxva sa­moT­xis ime­di gvaqvs. ra vqnaT? saiT wa­
vi­deT? mar­ti­vad, arc ara­fe­ri vqnaT da arc ar­sad wa­vi­deT.


jan­mrTe­lo­ba uTuod si­ke­Tea. mag­ram jan­mrTe­lebs war­
Tmeu­li aqvT amis da­nax­vis Se­saZ­leb­lo­ba, rad­ga­nac gac­no­
bie­re­bu­li jan­mrTe­lo­ba, Ta­vis­Ta­vad, saf­rTxe­Si myo­fi jan­
mrTe­lo­baa, an er­Ti na­bi­ji uk­lia aqam­de. rad­ga­nac ara­vin
tkbe­ba avad­myo­fo­bis­gan Ta­vi­suf­le­biT, Seg­viZ­lia yo­vel­
gva­ri gaz­via­de­bis ga­re­Se vi­la­pa­ra­koT jan­mrTe­le­bis samar­
Tlian sas­jel­ze.


zo­gierTs ube­du­re­ba das­tydo­mia Tavs, sxvebs ki ak­via­te­
ba stan­javs. ro­me­li uf­ro Se­sa­co­dia?


ar min­da, Cem mi­marT sa­mar­Tlian­ni iy­vnen. yve­laf­ris ga­
re­Se ga­vi­do­di io­las, usa­mar­Tlo­bis to­ni­kis gar­da.


`yve­la­fe­ri tki­vi­lia~. ga­Ta­na­med­ro­ve­bu­li bu­dis­tu­ri for­
mu­la it­yo­da: `yve­la­fe­ri koS­ma­ria~.
ase­ve, nir­va­nac, ro­me­lic mo­wo­de­bu­lia, bo­lo mou­Ros
qvey­nad ga­me­fe­bul tan­jva-­wva­le­bas, mxo­lod zo­gier­Te­bi­saT­
vis gan­kuT­vni­li saS­ve­li ki aRar iq­ne­bo­da, ara­med ise­Ti­ve
sa­yo­vel­Tao gax­de­bo­da, ro­go­ric Ta­vad koS­ma­ria.


ra aris er­Ti jvar­cma im yo­vel­dRiur jvar­cmas­Tan Se­da­
re­biT, ra­sac uZi­lo­biT ga­tan­ju­li uZ­lebs?

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gvian sa­Ra­mos aqeT­-i­qiT xeeb­Ca­ri­ge­bul gzas mi­vuy­ve­bo­di,
ro­de­sac Cems fe­xeb­Tan wab­li Ca­mo­var­da. xmam, ro­me­lic wab­
lma gax­le­Ci­sas gai­Ro, eqom, ro­me­lic am xmam Cem­Si ga­moiw­via,
Jruan­tel­ma, sru­liad Seu­sa­ba­mo rom iyo am um­niS­vne­lo Sem­
Txve­vas­Tan, sas­wau­lis mo­zia­red gam­xa­da, bo­lom­de ga­mab­rua
da da­maT­ro _ TiT­qos me­tad aRar ar­se­bob­da kiT­xve­bi, mxo­
lod da mxo­lod pa­su­xe­bi... mTvra­li vi­ya­vi aTa­so­biT mou­
lod­ne­li sic­xa­diT, ro­mel­TaT­vi­sac ar vi­co­di, ra meq­na...
ai, am­gva­rad, TiT­qmis Se­ve­xe umaR­less. da mainc, vam­jo­bi­
ne, seir­no­ba ga­meg­rZe­le­bi­na.


Cvens tki­vi­lebs sxvas mxo­lod imi­tom vu­zia­rebT, rom ma­
sac gan­vac­de­vi­noT tki­vi­li _ Ta­vis Tav­ze ava­Re­bi­noT. gu­
lis mo­ge­ba rom gvndo­me­bo­da, mas mxo­lod Cve­ni ab­straq­tu­li
tan­jvis mo­zia­red gav­xdi­diT _ ai, amas ki si­xa­ru­liT Tan­
xmde­bian isi­ni, vi­sac vuy­var­varT.


Tavs ver va­pa­tieb, rom da­vi­ba­de. TiT­qos am sam­ya­ro­Si
Se­moR­we­viT ra­Rac sai­dum­lo Sev­bRa­le, ra­Rac uze­naes val­
de­bu­le­bas vu­Ra­la­te, ga­mouT­qme­li cod­va Ca­vi­di­ne. Tum­ca
zog­jer, ro­ca nak­le­bad mkac­ri var, da­ba­de­ba im ube­du­re­bad
war­mo­mid­ge­ba, rom­lis ar­cod­nis SemTxvevaSi ve­ra­fe­ri ma­nu­
ge­Seb­da.


az­ri aras­dros aris ucodveli. rad­gan Seub­ra­le­be­lia,
rad­gan ag­re­siaa, igi bor­ki­le­bis msxvre­va­Si gvex­ma­re­ba. Tu
mo­va­So­rebT imas, rac az­rSi bo­ro­tia da de­mo­nu­ric ki, ma­Sin
ua­ri un­da vTqvaT ga­Ta­vi­suf­le­bis idea­zec.
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yve­la­ze sai­me­do sa­Sua­le­ba, rom ar Sec­de, aris is, rom
ueW­ve­lo­bas ueW­ve­lo­ba­ze uT­xa­ro Zi­ri.
Tum­ca faq­ti faq­tad rCe­ba: yve­la­fe­ri, rac mniS­vne­lo­va­
nia, eW­vis miRmaa Seq­mni­li.


rac Ta­vi max­sovs, Seg­ne­bu­li maqvs, rom aq, qve­moT is ad­
gi­li ar aris, rac me mWir­de­bo­da, da verc aq yof­nas Se­ve­gue­
bo­di. amis ga­moa, rom er­Ti be­wo su­lie­ri sia­ma­ye ar Sem­ma­te­
bia, da rom Ce­mi ar­se­bo­ba war­mo­mid­ge­ba, ro­gorc deg­ra­da­cia
da fsal­mu­nis cve­Ta.


Cve­ni­ve pa­ni­kiT nak­ve­bi Cve­ni fiq­re­bi mo­mav­lis­ken arian
mi­mar­Tul­ni, Si­Sis gzas mih­yve­bian, sik­vdils er­wymian. da­ba­
de­bis­ken ma­ Ti mi­ mar­
Tva da iZu­ le­
ba, rom dar­ Cnen iq _ niS­
navs, ukan da­vab­ru­noT, isev im gzas ga­vu­ye­noT, ro­me­lic uk­ve
ga­moia­res. am­gva­rad, isi­ni da­kar­ga­ven Za­las _ am dauc­xro­
mel da­Za­bu­lo­bas, ro­me­lic sik­vdi­lis sa­Si­ne­le­bas udevs sa­
fuZ­vlad da ro­me­lic sa­sar­geb­loa Cve­ni fiq­re­bis­Tvis, Tu
surT, ga­far­Tov­dnen, gam­did­rdnen, Za­la moik­ri­bon. ax­la uk­
ve vxvde­biT, Tu ra­tom ak­liaT Se­mar­Te­ba sa­wi­naaR­mde­go gzis
gav­li­sas da ise ara­qaT­ga­moc­lil­ni arian, rom ro­ca bo­los
da bo­los Tav­da­pir­vel saz­Rvars miad­ge­bian, imis Zalac aRar
aqvT, iqiT ga­dai­xe­don _ aras­dros­ga­Ce­ni­lis­ken.


Ce­mi saw­yi­si ki ar aris Cem­Tvis mniS­vne­lo­va­ni, ara­med Ta­vad
saw­yi­si main­te­re­sebs. me Tu Cems da­ba­de­bas _ meo­re­xa­ris­xo­van
ak­via­te­bas _ Sub­liT vas­kde­bi, imis ga­moa, rom ver mo­va­xer­xe,
sul pir­vel mo­men­tam­de mi­meR­wia. yve­la in­di­vi­dua­lu­ri cu­
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