2nd part of the video-

Miss the mom

Anxious, what are you worried about- that it will not be done right (talking about his people doing
the work), results are given to his commander

What are you worried will go wrong? He and staff will not look well, scrutinized even more;
added pressure; got to be a matter of trust (more than just me but others too)

Also about being seen as being competent

Put in a situation where he is learning all over again, challenging- due to his promotion

I am wondering if he feels comfortable/how comfortable he feels in asking for help/guidance?-

does his concern over how he s viewed prevent him from asking

Being in a crowd in the past used to make him a little nervous

Anticipation of going to work- hated getting up to go on Monday; load has lessened since
personnel change (much easier to get along with; less artificial)

Learning curve with the job is getting better

Wondering how children saw him- went in separate cars to leave, thinks children probably
asked about it; beat himself over it; thinks of guilt (if did not go with them some place)

Pt.2
I am confused- children’s need for me now is different than before (what effect have I had on
their lives)

Developed panic and anxiety

Panicky that he would want to run away; safety zone was the house

Fear that he would not be able to get home

Pt. 3
Split second thought did not like being in big crowd, when being pressed in
Overall alot of failures, regret, wish he could have been better or stronger
Someone said, guilt is a waste of emotion

Brother out doing stuff, but you stayed home- it was safe