2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development

Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

JOURNAL FOR 2nd QUARTER IN PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT

October 18, 2021

From the days of overthinking and worrying, I found time to give myself a rest, a rest from all negativity and worries
that had been eating me these past few days. I’ve been keeping myself busy by showering my time with a whole
studying and school work just to clear my mind and to avoid thinking so much negativity and anxiety because I know,
those will just make me blue and may stop me from continuing my day.

October 19, 2021

I do hope that everything I’m working hard on right now would be repaid by the goal and achievement I’ve been
meaning to reach. I hope these papers on my desk will be worth it someday that I would say “I’m glad, I did my
homework that day” and “I’m so happy that I chose not to give up and dream up high”

October 20, 2021

I’ve been so insecure about my body; I never liked it nor appreciate it. It was actually one of my biggest insecurities, it
makes me feel weak and sad whenever I see girls my age having my ideal body and being gorgeous without even
trying. I thought to myself, how I wish I’m beautiful as her and petite like her, but I did not realize that maybe I looked
down on myself is because I keep neglecting the fact that I feel comfortable this way, and that this is the result of not
giving a mind on the standard of society.

October 21, 2021

I need to help myself stand, no matter how big and strong the storm is, I need to be strong as well, I need to have the
courage and heart to continue and never give up just because I thought that I can’t even though I certainly could if
only I keep on trying.

October 24, 2021

All I have in mind this day is to finish my tasks and lessen the papers I have on my table. I never got the chance to do
this and that because I was too busy to finish my tasks before submission. I look like a student running for
valedictorian at that time because I was so busy and so focused.

October 25, 2021

I feel so exhausted, after a long day of work and chores. That is why my favorite time of the day would probably be
the nighttime, it is the time there is no sunlight that will wake me up, no people that would tell me to get up, it would
be just me, spending time with myself.
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Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

October 26, 2021

“Trust is not the same as faith. A friend is someone you trust. Putting faith in anyone is a mistake” by Christopher
Hitchens. A mistake I will never ever commit is to give faith and my trust in anyone just because I believed in the
image I created in my head.

October 27, 2021

I am hoping for a fast recovery for my sister, she was not feeling so well these past few days, she had been vomiting
a lot. I hope she’ll be fine.

October 28, 2021

A family is somehow described as comfort and home; however, I believe not all family is your comfort and probably
not everyone in your family is your home. Even a family member is too hard to trust and to understand. Are we
sticking and staying because of love? Or was it because of gratitude and the word ‘family’?

October 31, 2021

It’s not busy, it’s not stressful, it’s just a normal day of school, in front of tons of modules for this week. I suddenly feel
like I miss my friends, it has been a while since I saw them, maybe I should hang out with them more often, huh?
Maybe, after these school papers.

- NOVEMBER -
November 01, 2021
Why do we need to open our doors to anyone? Is it really necessary? Why do it feel so hard for me to entertain new
people in my life? I don’t need to be like anyone else, right? I keep on telling to myself that I don’t need to be like my
friends, a five or ten person is enough for me, I don’t need to be friends with anyone I meet because I love it this way,
having a lesser people in my life makes me feel safe, however, why does it feel wrong? Why does keeping my door
shut feels so lonely?

November 02, 2021

A family is such a good word for home. Today as I step unto our house, it feels like comfort, like it is a new time for
myself and to stop pretending. After a long day of trying to be like them, I get to have a time for myself where I could
be me, where I could act how I truly act, someone who never hides from its own shadow, this is the time where I truly
feel safe.
2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development
Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

November 03, 2021

I do hope that everything I’m working hard on right now would be repaid by the goal and achievement I’ve been
meaning to reach. I hope these papers on my desk will be worth it someday that I would say “I’m glad, I did my
homework that day” and “I’m so happy that I chose not to give up and dream up high”

November 04, 2021

I’ve noticed that I’ve been writing about negative thoughts. So, I’ll write how my day went in a full of positivity. I had a
really fun day, me and my family spend our whole day together, we went shopping and roam around the city, eat and
laugh and it was therapeutic, it feels like my happy space.

November 07, 2021

I feel so exhausted, after a long day of work and chores. That is why my favorite time of the day would probably be
the nighttime, it is the time there is no sunlight that will wake me up, no people that would tell me to get up, it would
be just me, spending time with myself.

November 08, 2021

I woke up with a clear mind, was it because I slept too early last night? Or because I had a good dream? Anyway, I
continued my day following my schedule for today, avoiding procrastinating, and focused on finishing my task for
today. I don’t really like procrastination these days, the feeling of cramming and doing school works last minute is a
literal nightmare.

November 09, 2021

I could say my life is dull and boring compared to other people who always seek for fun and excitement, however, in
my case, I love spending my time in the couch watching Netflix or listening to music while I caress my dog, I
sometimes find peace in just cleaning the house while the weather is cold and could use some time for my paper
works, and for me, that’s what I call a best day.

November 10, 2021

Here comes again, a time full of worries and feeling of anxiety. A lot of things make me worried these past few days,
I’ve been thinking about random thoughts and small things that are unnecessary, this is why I always want to keep
myself busy so that I won’t have the time to overthink about every detail in my life.
2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development
Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

November 11, 2021

I’ve been thinking lately, how does it feel to be significant and useful to others? How does it feel to be very talented
that everyone is there looking for you because they find you very useful in any sort of activities? It’s just a thought.

November 14, 2021

If I could wish for one thing in this world, I would give my parents more and more time to live, I am not yet in the stage
where I could repay all their efforts for me, I can help them in my age but I want to give them something they haven’t
or did not gave to themselves because they were too busy catering our needs. I want to get to the point where It’s my
time to take care of them and sustain their wants.

November 15, 2021

I feel a little pressure in my surroundings, the people, and the socials that I’m with. They make me want to be more
adult in my age, it pressures me to be better, to strive, to be just like them just to be part of them because I feel like if
I don’t, I will never belong, I will always be on my comfort space. I’m starting to doubt if I chose the correct path? Or
this is a mistake that may change me and regret later?

November 16, 2021

The sun that reflects through my room feels new, I always wake up late but today is different since I have classes to
attend. Facing in front of my laptop the whole class might be better if we’re studying and in class personally

November 17, 2021

I find peace in simple things such as music and arts. I don’t know why some people doesn’t like music or it annoys
me but for me it is very calming and I could spend my whole day listening to that one song over and over again.

November 18, 2021

I realized today while I was doing my task, a random thought just came into my mind that people live life just to wait.
We wait for love, we wait for success, we wait for that day and we wait until all our hard works gets repaid because
everything happens in the perfect time, that is the phrase that I truly believe.

November 21, 2021

A family is somehow described as comfort and home; however, I believe not all family is your comfort and probably
not everyone in your family is your home. Even a family member is too hard to trust and to understand. Are we
sticking and staying because of love? Or was it because of gratitude and the word ‘family’?
2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development
Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

November 22, 2021

I had a blast day, it was simple actually, it does not involve anyone but myself. I started my day with a positive
thinking, a little stretching to wake myself up and a tip of coffee in my body as I started my day. I had a ton of papers
in my desk and I’m happy that I did almost half of them, I would say that it is indeed a fantastic day.

November 23, 2021

I could say my life is dull and boring compared to other people who always seek for fun and excitement, however, in
my case, I love spending my time in the couch watching Netflix or listening to music while I caress my dog, I
sometimes find peace in just cleaning the house while the weather is cold and could use some time for my paper
works, and for me, that’s what I call a best day.

November 24, 2021

I spent my day with my friends and it was fun, getting out from your comfort zone is fun and exciting. They’re the
people who are with me throughout my whole high school days and having them until now is the greatest luck I have,
I am surrounded with positive people, we never see our friendship as somewhat a competition, we never see each
other as our own insecurities, instead, we feel much more comfortable when we are together.

November 25, 2021

A fun day yesterday leads back to a busy day today, I was on my desk all day dues to my unfinished modules and
performance task that I need to pass this week, it was stressful but I get to managed my time.

November 28, 2021

A family is such a good word for home. Today as I step unto our house, it feels like comfort, like it is a new time for
myself and to stop pretending. After a long day of trying to be like them, I get to have a time for myself where I could
be me, where I could act how I truly act, someone who never hides from its own shadow, this is the time where I truly
feel safe.

November 29, 2021

Like a normal day it is, I had a coffee as soon as I woke up and it wakes up the sleepy part of me. I started my day
with a new pile of paper works and some house hold chores, it was a productive day.
2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development
Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

November 30, 2021

I can feel the cold weather the moment I woke up, it was a chilly morning. I got out of bed even though my bed is still
calling for me, I thought that a lot of works are waiting for me. While I was busy preparing my day, I thought of how
these works actually enthralled me, it is the one that keeps me going throughout my day, it is the thing that keeps me
awake and prepares me for the future.

- DECEMBER -

December 01, 2021

A great and fine day in December, Christmas lights are starting to light up the whole city, and ‘Parol’ is being placed
already their homes. After another day being at home, the Christmas is the only month that we get to see the beauty
of the world again. I would say that today is a calm and relaxing day for me.

December 02, 2021

Today is my grandfather’s birthday so after I passed my modules I immediately went home because a family dinner is
waiting for me, it was fun, the food and the conversation we had was good.

December 03, 2021

Meditation helped me to ease my head from overthinking a lot and worrying about the single details that do not
matter. Through spending my time with myself, thinking, and breathing, gave me answer to y countless questions
about living and spirituality; it helped me realize my mistakes, and to decide on some hard big decisions.

December 07, 2021

It was a busy day for me, I need to finish my performance task and modules before deadline and I still got five
modules left, so I was on my laptop the whole day to finish my work. I really hope everything is worth it.

December 08, 2021

A Monday means new modules in line, it was just like the other days, it was normal and it was peaceful. Just like the
life of a normal student, a student who have works at home and works at school then sleep whenever she’s tired and
do something that would lessen the stress.
2nd Quarter Journal in Personal development
Kate D. Castillo
Grade 11- Faith

December 09, 2021

It’s getting busier and busier every day because Christmas break is approaching. I get to manage my time; I always
make sure that I would not be stick in front of my gadget the whole day since I already have a poor eyesight because
of this habit.

December 10, 2021

We celebrated my friend’s birthday! Enjoyed a little fun karaoke, food, and conversation! It was a very fun night a little
pause from all the school works I did these past few days.

December 13, 2021

I need to help myself stand, no matter how big and strong the storm is, I need to be strong as well, I need to have the
courage and heart to continue and never give up just because I thought that I can’t even though I certainly could if
only I keep on trying.

December 14, 2021

I don’t feel alright, I’ve been thinking a lot. How can they understand a person? Do they need to look unto the place of
that person in order to understand the situation they’re in? or do they have to get to know you first before you have
the capability to understand? If that’s the case, I’ve been living on the same roof as them, so, why do they refuse the
signs that I’ve been delivering like a meal covered in a delicious fragrance?

December 15, 2021

As we grow older, the things that we feel excited about when we were kids doesn’t really excite us anymore, like
birthdays and Christmas. For us, it’s a holiday for happy families, however, we keep on celebrating it because it is the
only holiday that keeps us in one.

December 16, 2021

Exams are coming soon; I need to excel in the subjects I failed last quarter so I reviewed a lot. I need to keep my
family proud at all cost and also to make myself proud.

December 17, 2021

Storm is starting to hit the country, they said it is a super typhoon so we prepared, we fixed all the fragile parts of the
house and got ourselves ready for the storm, hoping it won’t affect anyone and people to be safe during the entire
typhoon.