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Coca (Geraniales Family)
Coca (Geraniales Family)
Coca
(Geraniales Family)
To withstand
This is the strength she speaks of
I dont have right to live unless I have a challenge
Very little need for nourishment
I walk the room with great strides
I feel buoyant and flexible
Cocainemore hallucinations
Not so much ecstasy and bliss
Coca is about endurance stamina
CASE from Sankarn Summit (unsure if was Coca case) (but putting in SC anyway) (has the feel)
CASE - LIVE
Weak shakey
Like going to pass out
Worst headache
Heat in room
Dead from here down
Stops right here scream get hot
Makes me want to blow up (HG)
No thirst, no hunger
Never have hunger huge thirst, drink gallons and gallons of water
Worst hangover when wake
Quite a while to get going
I have to work out every morning or cant get going
Weakness from here down
The energy explodes out of body up (HG)
Vicious cycle, salty meat, gallons of water
Shakes really bad
Holding a pen and writing is too much
What is not working inside
Like I had ten cups of coffee
(HG) ON, mind is always ON
Close eyes, inside eyes are ON!
Out this way!
Really ANGRY
Couldnt quit laughing about it
Stops here and comes back up! (HG)
Sugar and salt, salt then drink water, back and forth
DRY, DRY lips, nose,
INTENSITY
Faster and faster and CANT STOP
Keep going, legs going, shaking
Cant sleep
HATE TO SIT! keep moving or sit down
ANSY have to keep moving - I want brain to shut off
I want to be normal
I know where everything is
Everything I do I excel at
I give it my all not just little piece I have to know the whole thing
I NEVER FORGET anything
Coca
(Geraniales Family)
WHAT IS NEEDED TO
PARTICIPATE
Prove yourself
Ironman
Super-elite prove that
you are worthy
Dont have to prove you
are an elite-athlete
Not worthy I good
have done better, I should have pushed harder
Shouldnt have been so weak
Beyond what is comfortable to excel
No pain no gain
PUSH harder
Steel trap push push always on
TELL ABOUT CHILDHOOD
Dad was drill sergeant
Dictatorship least little bit blow up
Slammed against the wall
Awlful
HOW DID IT FEEL TO BE IN THAT SITUAITON
A kid couldnt do anything about it
No control of situation terrified
As long as he was home
They were scared,
(snap) you had to be there or you were in trouble
NOW, I dont want to wait 5 seconds
So impatient
You cant control
DESCRIBE THE MIND HAS THOUGHT IT IT
HAS TO BE DONE NOW
My head is going to bust because it takes too long
to move your hands and raise the zipper
He couldnt sleep until things are fixed
Until things are right
DREAMS DURING CHILDHOOD
Im running, legs floating thru the air and Im
barely touching the ground
I want to go faster and faster
My legs wont go faster
I want to hit the ground and go faster
Legs go faster and faster
More flying than running
WHAT IS EXPERIENCE WHEN YOU WANT TO
GO FASTER
Come on gd it (E)
I WANT YOU TO DESCRIEB THE EXPERIENCE
OF IT
I want to explode
Coca
(Geraniales Family)
this
Coca
(Geraniales Family)
Im confident
Unsure, uneasy
WHAT IS THE EXPERIENCE< WHAT IS BEHIND
THAT?
Your dad belittling you
Like stepping on you (HG) the wind taken out of
your sails
Flattened nothing left
Sinking
Bleak, weak and sinking
In stomach sinking feeling
Their fist in you and pushing down
Like been kicked in gut and all air knocked out of
you
Like Im going to cry
Like dont have strength to stand up
Constant battle to stand up and be strong when
something pushing you down
Constantly fighting to keep it up
WHAT DOES IT TAKE?
Strength everything I have
Drill sergeant need to not show weakness
Options keep fighting or lying down and die
WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO KEEP FIGHTING?
Every bit of energy that I have
Will power
Want to drink gallon of ice water
Who knows what they think
If they dont know you
Im safe at home Im a homebody
Never left my dogs before
Spending money I shouldnt be spending
HOW ARE YOU WITH COMPANY
Im fine around people but need to be on my
own
I like to be by myself and with my dogs
And with my music
Like hard driving beat
I feel something
The bass gives me energy makes me feel alive
I like noise
I dont like loud bangs
So much energy in brain I need something to
equalize it
The dead silence drives me crazy
The music drives out the on-ness in my brain
COLORS?