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I make playlists to save my

memories by Nieve de Limón AUGUST/ELOKUU 2023 Memories #36

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I have 164 playlists, one per month since 2016 plus extra thematic
Diary Notes playlists, including birthdays, goodbyes, heartbreak, loveydovey,
languagelearning, missingMéxico, etc. Music can bring us back
Ajaton
from the nightmare of forgetting.
Rakas päiväkirja,
G l o s s o l a l i a
Mä päästin irti ja luovuin mun hölmöstä Memories/Muistoja
toivosta. Aina ei saa sitä viimeistä sanaa,
minkä tahtoisi kuulla ennen kuin irrottaa. Nyt Farsi// (Maybe shesbornwithit)
I’m enamored with this term/idea/phenomena “pre-nostalgia” or anticipated-
niitä sanoja ei tullut, mutta hiljaisuus kertoo nostalgia - a feeling of missing something before it’s gone. It usually manifests as prematurely
sekin jotain. baaz fiilesh yaade hendustan kärd: again
thinking something will be a great memory, a making of the memory in the moment,
elephant reminisces of India: to think about
feeling a sadness that something will end. It’s recognizing time is relative but doesn’t stop
Tuntuu hetken jos toisenkin kurjalta kun good memories and wanto go back to
moving, and then perhaps that we are mortal, everything only happens once - but still
yksikään siemen, joita kesän aikana on those times. (Hafez)
having a yearning to remember it exactly as it is - the feeling, the light, the smell, the taste.
kylvänyt ei puhjennutkaan kukkaan. Samalla We exercise this ephemeral grasping in photos, souvenirs, recounts to our diaries,
on selvinyt ihmisten raadollisuus, mutta Yaad baad aan ke nähaanät näzäri baa
evidence of events, sometimes for others’ benefit but mostly our own. We think “this person
onneksi kukkia on löytynyt muutakin kautta maa bud : “Remember the one whose
would have loved to be here” or “I want to be able to relive this moment”. But what happens
ja ne kukkii villinä ja vapaana, kaikkialla, secret glanced at us!”God or the universe
to the moment itself, the experience, the doing - is it through a lens of “I’ll love that I’ve done
mutta piilossa katseilta. Ja ehkä joskus, or “a hidden thing” is glancing or watching
this”? What is missed or lost, gained or retained? Is there a better record of the presented
todella harvoin, kestää joillain kukilla hitusen over humans.Nowadays this can have a
memory or something experienced with foresight of the present becoming the past?
pidempään ennen kuin ne aukeaa. sarcastic, funny, or blackmailing vibe.
I like to try realities on in my head - it’s also a kind of pre-futuring, but an
Finnish//Suomi (Unelma Tyttö Han Lei)
imagining of what the unknown could feel like rather than how the present will be
Mä oon kukkis, joku outo kukkien ja Aika kultaa muistot : time goldens the
perceived. They’re both projecting imaginary feelings across time, to a place where
yksisarvisten yhteinen ja kaunis sekasikiö. memories. Time makes the memories
we don’t know how we’ll feel but that we try to grasp and imagine. This situation
On vaikea löytää toista samanlaista, yhtälailla sweeter.
forecasting helps me to think about what exactly I want and how I might feel in
sekaisin ja järjestyksessä, moniulotteinen ja English// (Long-winded Mary)
certain situations. It’s like trying on other people’s shoes, hats, gloves, or glasses.
monimutkainen, mutta kuitenkin helppo. It’s on the tip of my tongue: I can almost
Both are flirting with reality and the fantasy of controlling memories or fates, our
remember the word
past or futures, reminiscing and planning. My current goal is to listen to my thoughts in the
Opin tänään antamaan henkisen halin Memory like a goldfish: forgetting
present, sit within the moment, and chase boredom.
itselleni. Se teki hyvää. Opin myös, että everything quickly
Long-Winded Mary
tärkeintä on, että on kivaa :) Joten, päästän Memory like an elephant: having a good
irti, en katso taakse, enkä turhaan kysy miksi. memory
Learn something by heart: to memorize it PS by Nieve de Limón: This first time editor wants to thank Long-Winded Mary for letting
Terveisin, Spanish//Español (Nieve de Limón) her lay this issue <3.
Ajaton La nostalgia encoge la memoria: Nostalgia
shrinks memory.
I ate tacos yesterday. And felt the urge to message
somebody and say that I ate tacos. We had an interesting
conversation about how in the ‘old’ internet, it felt natural
to message an acquaintance on IRC or ICQ and mention
random things about daily life that usually wouldn’t be a
C r o s s w o r d / / 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11
conversation topic with a non-intimate person (what is even
Ristisanatehtävä that?). I don’t know. With so many communication protocols
#36 by LWM 12 13 14
there is no space for chit-chatting, and I am a big fan of chit-
ACROSS: chatting, but not about the weather or current news. Also, it
15 16 17
1. Yoga sounds feels that communication did not need a precise AIM. If I said
4. Dad, Persian I ate tacos, maybe I just wanted to say I ate tacos; perhaps
18 19 20 21
8. Sign of use I wanted to hear that the person had eaten brownies. If I
12. One, Française 22 23 24 25 26 send a taco picture and somebody asks what the meaning
13. Retail object
is, I have no idea. ‘Are you flirting with me?’. I have no idea; I
14. Singer Fitzgerald 27 28 29 30 can’t process information that way, I do not know the answer,
15. You can drink, spill or
and I am unwilling to know. I think communication is a fissure
smoke it 31 32 33 34 that cannot be glued together. Of course, people have less
16. National bird of Finland
17. Made of lines time now, and I was a child by then, but if they can talk
35 36 37 38
18. Internet abbr. about the weather, why can’t they hear that I ATE TACOS?
20. Pop : a quiz :: placement : 39 40 41 42 43 Fran Trento @franciscotrento
22. Corner
23. Both sun and bread 44 45
24. &
27. Smut, backwards 46 47 48 49 50 51 M U S T S !
29. Uncle, Spanish
30. Winnie the Pooh character 52 53 54
Long-Winded Mary
31. A _______ a tasket (This month’s musts are inspired by a recent trip back to Cape Cod and Paris.)
33. Originally considered a 55 56 57 EAT: Clam Chowder
condition in which fantasy There are many variations of this soup, but New England style is
dominates over reality always creamy and usually very simple. It’s usually made with quahog
35. Cream or cubes or cherrystone clams, but when living abroad you can use mussels or
36. Abbr. for people of diverse 5. Russia and Ukraine are 48. Abbr. for this fruit that made toast
6. Michael Jackson hit boujee
canned clams. Recently I’ve found my new favorite at Brewster Fish
ethnic backgrounds
7. Condition of losing memory 50. Masculine proper title House. @brewsterfishhouse
38. Strong desire
39. Donkey 8. Cried DRINK: Pastis!
40. Home of the Mormons 9. “Mr. Blue Sky” artist If you like the flavor of anise and an easy magical cocktail, you’ll love it!
42. Pointy shape 10. Beer It’s often served in 3 parts - the pastis, ice, and water - and when you
44. down : __ :: __ : ennemi 11. Memory chip combine them it turns a milky white. Mix to your own taste! Available from
45. Hello, Spanish 19. Sure, sure Alko usually is the standard Ricard, but Henri Bardouin is a bit better.
46. 1312 21. Host of 1988 Summer Aaro 1
99 LISTEN: Juana Molina
49. Album + Final remark Olympics 8
24. Greek philosopher
This trip I was luck enough to see Argentinian musician Juana Molina
51. French train
25. A longing for the past live! I think perhaps she passed through my ears in my youth, but is still
52. It’s in the air and the (#35 - solution)
sheets 26. The one in control in kink making great music. The style of experimental indie pop and higher voice
53. Wolves, Italian 28. Job of cheerleaders remind me a bit of a latin Deerhoof.
54. Falsehood 31. Aunt, Spanish WATCH: Salut les Cubains by Agnès Varda (2005).
55. Smell 32. 90’s completely This short film shows a snapshot 4 years after the Cuban Revolution,
56. Blushy, backwards 34. Cute term for bum pairing video content and photo montage that creates almost vintage
57. Head hole 37. College site
gifs on top of audio, the film is a beautiful peek into a proud and hopeful
DOWN 41. Big animal, memory brain area
with 37 across
Cuba.
1. “Jesus freaks ___ __ the
43. Intense partyer READ: The Very Hungry Caterpillar by Eric Carle
street”
2. The development of 44. Ride-sharer I read it (for the first time in maybe 30 years) to my baby niece
systems for memory 46. Hello, Australia when visiting. If you have some small cuties in your life, it is highly
3. Underwater hippocampi 47. Fish common in Portugal and recommended. It was written and illustrated by Carle, beautiful and
4. Compounds of 2 Mass. tactile, and available Suomeksi as Pikku toukka paksulainen.
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S e c r e t s
+My “first time” was with Karma Police by
Radiohead playing in the background.
+I don’t remember anyones birthdays
+Fuuuuck, my life is shit but I try to keep
calm exterior so that no one knows how
I feel deep inside. I’m almost forty but I
haven’t even got close to figuring out all
my shit. I just wish I could be a kid again
because I can’t handle all the adult stuff.
Why no one tells you in advance that being
an adult is soooo hard...
+I don’t like Flow. It is not even a secret but
a fact not considered as an option by the
mass
+hei little person, fold your arm, hold
my hand. the cheek bone high, the rim
of a tablespoon, the long parentheses
M i x t a p e # 3 6 framing your mouth. the hand long, the
wrist chiselled, the soft forearm, a swan’s
MEDITERRANEAN neck bending slightly towards the floor.
MEMORIES your fingers slender, nervous, and kind
by Youknowbywho tip-tapping on my shoulder. they let me
know you see the foxy creature sat under
1. Ko Shin Moon - Jamileh
my stern. I deeply inhale and exhale. hei
2. Altin Gün - Goca Dünya
you, grand and forever and now. how?
3. Nu Genea,Celia Kameni - Marechià
your index finger scratching my palm. I floss to save my memories by Nieve de Limón
4. Sababa 5, Yurika Hanashima - Tokyo Midnight I am not gonna lie and say I love flossing. It is a pain in the ass, but ever since I learned
awkwardly, wanting, smooth, hook, certain,
5. Liraz - Bia Bia how dental health can alter our health in huge ways, I make sure I do it every single
shy. fifteen years apart, much loved
6. Hamlet Minassian - On the Day’s time I brush my teeth. Apparently flossing may help prevent memory loss and in
already. what are you? what I? it doesn’t
7. Hamid Al Shaeri - Ayonha general cognitive decline. This rang a huge alarm inside me. The ability “to remember”
pierce it tickles this weird love is soft. I only
8. Ebi - Nazi Naz Kon has always been an important subject in my life and my memories are my most
want short hair, plump boobs, small bum.
9. Şatellites,Vicky Ashkenazy - Olurmu Dersin valuable belongings. I shudder thinking that I could lose them, as that would mean
I also want your knowing eyes and mine. I
10. Santi & Tuğçe - Hikâye losing the people I love and the way I am loved by them. It would mean losing myself.
just want to sit by your side and talk, only
11. Neşe Karaböcek - Çayelinden Öteye/ Yali Yali Maybe this little reminder will ring bells inside you and you will appreciate the time you take
talk and see me and don’t go. (iris altra)
12. Ramesh - Rood Khooneha with your teeth as something vital for your brain and heart.
+I know there is no particular way of living
13. Barış Manço - Alla Beni Pulla Beni
the life that we are born in to. I think ppl
14. Googoosh - Mano Tou
consider me as a person with courage,
Muistoja kuumuudesta
15. Douaa - Haditouni (Habibi Funk 015) Inka Lähteenaro (@inkalaht)
but still I feel so often anxiety and seep
16. Elias Rahbani - Dance of Maria
saddness of the world and life in it. I bite
ympäröivä kuivui kehooni
L my nails, and my fingers are sour daily.
Marianis,Mimi, Nota, Chunch,

7 CDMX pöllyävä maa levisi keuhkorakkuloihin

Mare, Mija, Nieve de Limón.

99 Bleed, often. I try not to show my fingertips

He is Emilio, but also Emi,

empini m

to ppl, they are the look of my anxied-kid jotka sulkeutuivat hapettomuudesta hopeiksi
Pollo, Mijo, Emolio. 1

varpaani rasahtelivat allani

Emo, Memo, Batman,

I am Mariana but also

inside me.

Aaro 1998
+ I think I like him. And the reason is that
ympärillä kasvitieteellisesti luokiteltuja piikikkäitä ruumiita,
his ego is not at all fragile.
et joista kuumuus painoi esiin ruusun tuoksun
send secrets here: joka sai muistamaan

miten hän oli pyörinyt aamulla kädet sivuillaan kuin majakka,

työntäen sormillaan kuumaa valoaan huoneeni jokaiseen nurkkaan

OPEN INTERVIEW! (made through instagram) Elmer´s Forest

by anonymous multiple voices aka you by ines montalvao (@i.montalvao)
HAPPINESS IS wandering through a forest of glass bottles branching out in the sun to the
What do you want to remember most? Would you rather remember tingling sound of metal tinkling and wind spinning colours.
-Everyone I have loved and everyone that has everything or forget everything? a forest inhabited by humming birds, old typewriters on pedestals, empty candy
loved me. And how my favorite food tastes. -Remember everything for sure. dispensers, metal plates announcing a flooded world or a forgotten brand of soda. Elmer
-All the sweet moments with all the sweet people. -Forget everything! You get to lives here, with his wife, hidden inside. He came outside today only a couple of times
-My growth and progress. What I’ve learned. experience everything for the first and talked to people roaming through the forest. his forest of sculptured trees amidst the
-Feelings, tastes, and people. time again. collection of wonders he gathered for years.
-The home I grew up in. -Remember everything. it’s still growing though he has been feeling tired, lately. his long hermit kind of beard tells
-The feeling of wonder, freedom and endless -It depends when you ask. Today I’d stories under a hat covering his light skin from the sun.
possibilities when playing as a child. & the feeling like to remember everything. I hear him talking about resilience and love and being positive, I come closer. he says he
of new possibility when arriving in Finland to -Remember everything! has no friends though. He doesn’t trust people. He enjoys the loneliness of saying hi to
study at Aalto. strangers who ask him why he has created such a place, answering the same every time

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-All the people I love and who love me back. and going back inside to himself. and the wife.
What’s your favorite memory from this for conversations & contributions:
but these trees people are so attracted by are not just a hobby. they have his heart and
summer? insta:@salarakashel the soul of his father with whom he started collecting bottles in the 50s when he went
-The two weeks my parents spent in Helsinki with email: salarakashel@hotmail.com camping and fished a barracuda. that blue one there, he got it when he was eight or nine
phono: 0452510121 for love notes. <3
me. years old. they are special, the trees, he says. we say it at the same time.
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-I swam in the ocean and the weather was the wind is whispering through the bottles.
moody. I was alone and I wasn’t scared of it. it is a visual feast, a hearing sparkling curiosity place like no other I’ve seen.
-The sun on my skin. And conversations with until he was 8 there was silence. no TV nor radio. no talking, just books. He read them all
strangers at the skatepark. from the classics to the war strategic planning to the bible. his parents were both deaf so
-Taking my mom to live the mökki experience for
Horoscopes he didn’t really develop the social abilities of most human beings, he says to me.
the first time. Jim P. Stone who comes knocking on a deaf persons door?
-I caught a bike pike and grilled it on the open nowadays, everyone who comes, is welcome and doesn’t even have to knock
fire. Virgo: Let your body know that you
-Kun me karattiin Anvilista kahdestaan! appreciate all of the work that it does
What was your first memory? for you.
-“Singing/dancing” with a microphone filled with Libra: Just admit it when you are
candy in underwear. I was probably 3. confused and observe what happens
-A (maybe) dream. My fav [teddy bear] stood up next.
and walked around the room and went to the wc. Scorpio: Your experiences are your
-Spending the winter holidays in Acapulco with own.
my family & constantly getting into trouble. Sagittarius: Introduce yourself to
-Me burying my face in my mom’s arm. someone.
-When I was 3 years old and I learned to say Capricorn: You are not alone in this
“eläintarha” I felt like I knew everything. careless universe.
What object for you holds the most memory? Aquarius: Pay attention to the
-My kraftwerk “man machine” cassette. My dad archetypes you’ve been given.
gave it to me when I was very little. Change the plot.
-Self knit wool jumper Pisces: You don’t have to be perfect.
-Sadly probably my phone. Otherwise my hands. Aries: Fear is the greatest
-I have a blanket I bought 15 years ago that I incapacitator.
bring everywhere I go. It holds very precious Taurus: Are you seeking intensity or
memories. stability?
-A copper painting of a gold-panner. It’s from my Gemini: Bring the ruckus.
Mummila. Cancer: You are as free as a
mockingbird.
Leo: Follow your own pace.
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