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*CHANCES:Kaydie*

*Chapter1*

*Ndaizivei*

"Ko kuzokwesha kudaro," ndakasekwa na Olivia

who was sitting next to me tese tichikwesha

man'a asi andizive zvangu kuti sei kukwesha

kwangu kwakazoita as if it was worse than

kukwesha kwaaiita iye. Ndakatarisa tsoka

dzangu, smiled ndichiona kuchena kwadzo

ndikati, "iwe kwesha ako man'a wakanyarara

ipapo."
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Achiseka zvake sipo yakabva yatsvedza

ikawira mumvura. Iniwo ndakatanga kugegedza

ndikati, "hokoyo namai Olivia nhasi."

Akazunguza musoro achisimuka kuti atevere

sipo mumvura ini ndikaenderera mberi

nekuwedzera kukwesha tsoka dzangu.

"Pane vanhu here apo?" Ndakanzwa izwi ra Tau

ndichibva ndaseka ndikadhonza Zambia kuti

ndizvivhare. "Ehe pane vanhu," ndakataura

ndatopedza kuzvivhara, Olivia akabva amhanya

achidzoka kuti atore zambia azvivhare. We

knew kuti kuuya kwa Tau mukomana wa Olivia

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aitovepowo. Pandakasimudza meso ndakaona Tau

akamira akazembera zvake muti ndichibva

ndanyemwerera. Akandidaidza neruoko Olivia

akati, "I hope kuti Tau wako haana kundiona,

haa ko kuzotaura vanhu vasvika chiiko nhai

we were not even done yet."

"Wanga uchiri kuda kuitei inga tapedza

kugeza kudhara wani?" Ndakataura ndava

kusimuka kuti ndiyende kwaive na Tau.

Ndakasvika pamuti waakange akazembera

ndikanzi, "ko wanga usati wapedza kugeza?"

"Ndanga ndapedza, kwanga kwasara kupfeka

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hembe chete?" His eyes shifted achimaendesa

ku Zambia randaive ndakamonera akati,

"unoziva ka." Nekunyaririra ndakatarisa

zvangu kuside akati, "ko hug yacho." It's

not as if akamirira kuti nditaure anything

asi ndakazoona ndava mumaoko ake

ndambundirwa ndikanzi, "Ndai, why do you

have to torture me like this when you know

kuti zvinonetsa. Rudo rwandinarwo newe ka

zvinoshupa kuti ndizvidzore?"

He caressed my back, grabbed my ass a little

ndikati, "andikupe Tau nekuti ndakakuona

kuti wava kunyanya kuwirirana nemuzukuru

wambuya Tafi."
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"Akazviramba akati," mbuya Tafi asked for

help inini ndoenda kunobatsira whenever she

calls me, pane pandicharega kutaura nemunhu

anenge ari pamba pavo here." Ndakapikisa

ndikanzi, "why do you have to listen to

people Ndai. Usaite as if you don't know kuti

there are people kunze uku vane godo nesu."

Ndakabatwa muchiuno ndikanzi,"tinodanana

vanozviziva."

"Ndakaudzwa kuti iwewe wakavhunzwa kuti une

musikana here ukataura kuti auna asi iwewe

wakaenda kunoudza tete vangu kuti wava kuda

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kundiroora. Unondiroora sei kana uchiramba

kuti hauna musikana, nekuti ane mota nemari

here?" Ndakavhunzisisa ndichibatikana nekuti

ndainge ndava nemazuva ndainzwa nyaya yacho.

Tau wacho had not been there, kudzokera

kwakaita muzukuru wambuya Tafi ndiko

kusuduruka kwainge kwaita Tau akaita mazuva

asipo.

"Ndai," akandidaidza achizama kundinyaradza

nekuti pfungwa dzangu dzainge dzaenda kure.

"Ndinoda iwewe hakuna mumwe," akataura

ndichimuzembera ndikati, "ndanga ndava

kufunga kuti tirambane zvedu ndiwane mumwe."

Akandibvisa paari akati, "ah zvauri kutaura

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wakazviudzwa naani kuti zvinoerekana

zvangoudzwa munhu. Nekwatabva here?" He

asked me ndikati, "kwatabva kwacho kunozoita

meaning here kana iwewe wava kuda

kundirasisa?"

He kissed me akati, "andikurasise, ipapa

ndava kuda kutounza date rekuti

ndichikuroora, zvekuti ndirambe ndichiita

zvekuhwandira kudai hazviite." I kissed him

back ndichiiteerera kakunaka kaibuda pane

zvataiita. Ndakamiswa ndakazembera muti

ndichibva ndadzikiswa Zambia zvishoma

achisiya mazamu angu ari panze. Akamabata

akatsinzinira maziso akati, "ndinoita as if

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ndicharasa mbeu nekungomabata kudai."

Ndakatarisa all sides scared that someone

would see us there, then looked at Tau who

seemed to be enjoying what he was doing.

Zvaive nekakurwadza mukati saka ndakamubata

maoko ndikati, "usandirwadzise ah." Akaseka

akati, "sorry," kwava kudzora, ipapo

ndakanzwa zvava kundiita kuti ini wacho

ndizvifarire.

"Chiso chako chinobva chawedzera kunaka

paunotanga kunakirwa neni." Mashoko

akataurwa ndava kunzwa kanenge kadzungu

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ndikanzi, "ko ndikangonzwa zvishoma chete."

Ndakadhonza Zambia ndikati, "watanga Tau,

nyaya dzako idzi handidi kudzinzwa kana

iwewe usati waroora." Ndakasunga nekukasika

akati, "saka andichatotenderwi kubata?"

Ndakaramba ndikati, "kwete, plus zvekuti

ndinzwe dzungu ndiri muno musango kwete

andisi kuda, ko ndikafa?"

Akandiseka achindibata ruoko akati, "kufa

neiko, unopenga here iwe, Rega ndiyamwe

zvishoma?" Ndaitorevesa, zvekufira musango

ndaisada. Ndakakumbira kunopfeka ndikanzi,

"Mira." Ndakamira akati, "ndoda kutambisa

this just a bit." Akabata chuma chandaive

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nacho muchiuno akati, "haa iwewe ka,

ndinobva ndatanga kufunga zvese

zvawakadzidziswa kuti uite."

Smile yaive kumeso kwake

yakangondinyungudutsa ndichibva ndafamba

ndichimusiya kuti ndiyende kunopfeka.

Ndakasangana na Olivia akati, "hande time

dzafamba vanhu vakawanda vanenge vava

kuuya."

Takarongedza zvinhu zvedu nekukasika, walked

back home umwe neumwe aine wake tikasiyana

tava pedyo nekumba. Tati fambei Olivia asked

me akati, "saka ataura kuti chii pamusoro

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pemuzukuru wambuya Tafi?"

"Hanzi hapana chiripo hanzi anoda inini."

Akagutsurira musoro tikaramba tichifamba.

Ndakavhunza ndikati, "kufunga kwako

angadanane naye here?"

"Hamheno ah, zvinonetsa shaa, kana iye ari

kuti hapana iripo maybe hapana iripo just

trust him, anditi akataura kuti arikuda

kuroora here saka ngatione."

"Maybe I should simply go and ask mbuya

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Tafi," ndakange ndava kufunga kuti maybe

munhu mukuru was much better kuti pfungwa

dzangu dzigadzikane. Akandiseka akati, "iwe,

how can you ask munhu mukuru nezvenyaya

yakadaro hazviite haa hazviite siyana

nazvo." Ndakange ndisina kutarisa from that

angle asi paakataura ndakaona kuti zvaisaita

kuvhunza munhu mukuru zvinhu zvakadaro.

Ndakazopesana zvangu na Olivia ndichienda

kumba, kwandakasvika ndikarara ndaida

kumukira kuharare kunohoarder ma jeans

ekutengesa.
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Tau

Ndakange ndarara nemanhede ndichifunga kuti

nyaya yangu ndoifambisa sei. Ndai ndaimuda,

even Tsungi wacho ndainge ndava kunzwa

kumuda in simple terms I had lied to Tsungi

kuti andina wandiri kudanana naye yet

knowing kuti Ndai was there.

Ndakatanga kufunga Ndai nezvandainge ndaona

ndiinaye kwava kufunga futi ndikaona kuti

maybe it was best kuenda mberi nekuroora Ndai

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wandainge ndajaira. "Barika haungarigone,"

ndakataura laughing at myself, nditarise

Tsungi wacho ndaitowona kuti zvaigona

kuzondiremera kana ava kuda zvinhu

zvandaisakwanisa kumuwanira.

"Ndai is a decent girl, I can't let her

down," ndakataura ndega trying my best to

convince myself kuti being with Ndai was the

best decision that I could make for myself.

Ndakaverenga mari yandaive nayo, thought

hard ndikadzosera payaigara. "If I marry her

then I will definitely forget that I was

beginning to fall in love with Tsungi."

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Feeling like ndava kukanganisika pfungwa

ndakabuda ndikambonoita zvandaida kuita

ndikadzoka kumba kwatodoka. Kwakadarika

mazuva maviri ndikafonera Tete va Ndai

ndichida kunzwisisa kuti vainge varonga

kudii vakati, "ah ndanga ndava kuda

kutokanganwa ini ngationane mangwana kuti

zviite." Before I could change my mind

ndakanovaona vakandipa list racho kuti

ndigare ndagadzirira. "Maitabasa,"

ndakataura ndatambira vakati, "ndizvo chete

hapana hapo zvimwe."

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"Mazuva acho haasi kure zvawo Tete saka

ngatingoitai nekukasika." She laughed at me

and asked kana ndainge ndashatisa mwana

ndikati, "kwete maiguru asi kuti sometimes

zvinhu zvinofanira kukasikirwa chete."

Ndakaseka ndichitaura zvangu navo

ndikazobvako ndava kuenda kumba.

Ndichangozorora ndakafonerwa na Tsungi

achitaura zvekuti she was coming kubva

kuharare. Ndakashaiwa zvekutaura kusvikira

anditi, "ko chii Tau." Ndakangomudaira

ndikati, "tinotaura kana uchinge wasvika

it's okay."
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Chapter2

Tau

"Wadii wauya kumashops then toenda kumba

tese?" Tsungai akakumbira ndichibva ndabvuma

ndaona kuti maybe nguva yatinenge tichifamba

hedu kubva kumashops taikwanisa kutaura

zvakawanda.

"Saka chirega ndibude," ndakamuudza ndava

kutosimuka. Ndakapfeka butsu ndikatora phone

yandakaisa muhomwe ndikaburitsa zvekare

nekukasika ndichida kufonera Ndai. Akadaira

ndikati, "uri kupi?" Pandakanzwa kutaura

kwevanhu ndakaziva kuti ainge aenda close to

the mine kunotengesa zvinhu zvake.

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She confirmed zvandaifunga akati, "asi uri

kuda kuuya here?"

"Ndouya ndokutora," ndakamuudza thinking

that by then Tsungai would be on her way back

to Harare. "Ndichakuudza kana ndava kuda

kutorwa," she said ndikati, "waenda wega

here kana kuti waenda namainini." Akaseka

akati, "haa Mati asara kumba uyo, aramba

kufamba neni nhasi, ko zvekutaura nevanhu

anombozvida here." Ndakaseka akati, "uri

kufamba kuenda kupi?" Ndakanyepa kuti

ndaienda kumba akati, "Tete vandiudza kuti

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wakanovaona?"

"Ehe ndakanovaona inga ndakakuudza wani kuti

ndava kuda kukuroora, hamheno manje kuti

unozvikwanisa sei zvekuva mukadzi wemunhu

and still do your ups and downs kudaro."

"Ko kuroorwa kunomisa munhu kushanda here?"

Ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "zvinonetsa ka manje,

nekuti mukadzi kana ava kuziva murume

zvinonetsa kuti akunde miyedzo ava ega kunze

uko." Akaridza tsamwa akati, "Tau

unozombondigumbura iwewe, une zvimwe

zvekungofungira zvisina basa rega ndishande

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ndotaura newe ndava kuda kuti uuye." She hung

up the phone ndikafambisa zvangu ndava

kuendakumashops.

Ndisati ndasvika kure ndakabva ndadhumhana

nemunin'ina wa Ndai Matilda. Semunhu ainge

anyepa kuti ndiri kumba ndakanyara, iye

achibva akasika kundimhoresa akati, "bamkuru

muri kumhanyira kupi." Ndakaseka nhando

ndikati, "ndiri kuda airtime, phone yakata

ndichitaura na Ndai, ndichada kunomutora

saka ndofanira kugara ndiine airtime."

"It's okay," akataura achitambanudza ruoko

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akati, "ndipei ye drink." Waitove mugariro,

pese pandaonekwa ndaitogumihwa mari chete

and hapana kana pandaikwanisa avoiding it.

Ndakamupa dollar ndikati, "rinokwana mainini

andina kana mari." Akangoseka achiisa

muhomwe akati, "saka hamusi kuda

kuperekedzwa." Knowing that Tsungai was

coming ndakaramba ndikapa excuse yekuti she

would stress me ndaida kufamba ndega.

"Makukanganwa kuti ndini ndaienda netutsamba

twerudo anditi." She said laughing

ndikamubhabhaisa neruoko ndava kutofamba

kuenda. Tsungai haana kutora nguva kusvika,

aive munhu aimhanya nemota. Achisvika

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ndakapinda mumota make tikafamba zvishoma.

Akamisa mota pasi pemuti akati, "sei usiri

kufara nhasi, asi hausi kufara kundiona

here?"

Ndakamanikidzira kunyemwerera even though

hana yangu yairova. Ndaishaiwa kuti nyaya

yangu ndoitanga sei kuti ndimuudze.

Ndakanyepa ndikati, "inyaya yekuti ndiri

kunzwa musoro, otherwise kwawabva kurisei?"

"Kuri bho pane zvandauya kuzosiira mbuya

vangu and I thought of seeing you."

Akanyemwerera achibuda makomba mumatama,

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ndakayeverwa ndakamutarisa ndikazvivhunza

kuti ndaikwanisa here kumuudza kuti ndainge

ndafunga zvangu kuroora Ndaizivei.

"Wakanaka," ndakamuudza iye akati, "newewo,

I can't believe kuti ndanga ndakusuwa."

Ndakamanikidzira kuseka ndikati, "sure here

Tsungi?"

"Ehe pangonzi pane zviri kuda kuenda kwagogo

ndatobva ndatongofunga zvangu kuti ndiuye

kuzokuona." Ndakabva ndatongoremerwa

zvakanyanya nekutaura, all because she was

different from the last time yatainge

taonana. She had not expressed her feelings

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much to me saka zvaitonetsa panguva yacho

kuti ndinzwisise where we stood.

"Tau," she said nezwi raive pasi ndikati,

"ehe watii?" Akambomira kutaura achiita

seaitya kutaura. Maoko edu akazoerekana

abatana ndikaita sendanzwisisa what she

wanted to say to me. "Andisati ndamboita

munhu anondirovesa hana sewe," akataura

akatizve, "since the last time we met I have

been thinking about you more than I should."

"Ndanga ndichiti hauna basa neni,"

ndakataura akati, "zvinonetsa kana usati

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wava kuziva munhu, but even though

ndisinganyanye kukuziva gogo vangu vaitaura

vachiti uri munhu ari right."

Ndakanyemwerera taking that as a compliment

ndikati, "gogo vanozongotaura zvakawanda

wanda zvavo."

"I don't think she was lying nekuti ndiri

kunzwa kuti she was telling the truth, if

she was not, why then have I fallen in love

with you?" Ndakatura mafemo ndikazviseka

nechemumoyo. Lying to her freaked me out

ndikati, "I'm not perfect Tsungi."

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"Who is," akandivhunza ndikati, "pane

zvandoda kukuudza asi manje zvinogona kuti

ushaiwe hanya neni." Akanditarisa ava

kushushikana ndikati, "usanditsamwire."

"Asi wakaroora here?" Akavhunza ndikati,

"aewa handina kuroora asi ndakanyepa kuti

andina munhu wandanga ndichifambidzana

naye."

Akanditarisa zvemunhu abatikana akati, "Tau

are you saying that you are dating someone

when I have just confessed my feelings to

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you?" Ndakatarisa pasi ndabatwa nenyadzi

ndikati, "sorry Tsungi, it's not right I know

but I thought that hauzombondide. When you

asked me that day ndakangodaira ndisina

kufunga."

"Takaenda tese kuharare wani, we spent time

together wani saka nguva yese iyoyo hauna

kufunga kundiudza here?" Ndakazama kumudzora

marwadzo ndikati, "sorry ndakatadza nekuti

even though I was hiding something hazvina

kumisa hana yangu kurovera iwewe." Akaseka

akati, "Yaa zvakaona I can't believe I came

all the way to confess my feelings wobva

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wandiudza kuti ndapedza nguva yangu unoda

mumwemunhu."

"Handina kuti iwewe handikude, kukuudza

kudai inyaya yekuti andisi kukwanisa kuramba

ndichivanza. At the same time rudo newe ruri

kukura ndoita sei Tsungi andina kubvira

ndafunga kuti I would fall in love with you."

Akaramba akanyarara achizunguza musoro,

paakanditarisa ndakaona ajenga misodzi

akati, "there are men out there, vakawanda

in town and my heart decided kuenda pane

munhu ane musikana kare. I feel stupid what

am I supposed to do to get rid of these

feelings that I have for you. Do you want me

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to just forget about them, I don't understand

Tau."

"Andisi kuda kuti uregedze kundida,"

ndakadaira akati, "saka ndodii iwewe wati

pane arimo mulife mako. Ndakavhunza paye

nekuti ndaida kunzwisisa, dai wakandiudza

kare ndaidzora moyo wangu."

"Tsungi Sha, mashoko ako ari kurwadza,

kunyanya nekuziva kuti I did this to you.

Ndiri kuzama kuda kunzwisisa, maybe these

feelings are saying something to me andisi

kuziva nekuti dai mafeelings aya asina

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chirevo they would never have been there

anditi." Akaseka akati, "zvakaoma I just

want to go back, let me reverse everything

that I said to you hazvina hazvo basa I will

befine."

"Andikwanise kukanganwa," ndakataura akati,

"Tau I can't think right now ndiri

kurwadziwa." Akamutsa mota tava kuenda,

akadonhedza misodzi ndikati, "usacheme

ndokumbirawo." Akangonditarisa akazunguza

musoro, drove quietly before she said to me,

"arikupi?"
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"Anogara kuno," ndakamuudza achibva aseka

akati, "hoo okay." Takafamba tikasvika close

to her house kwava kumisa mota. Akanditarisa

akati, "I guess you love her that much thanks

for telling me ndava kuenda kumba kwambuya

vangu."

"Saka ukapedza wava kudzokera here

kuharare?" Ndakamuvhunza akati, "ndinenge

ndichamirira chii, anditi munhu wacho

wandanga ndafambira ndiwe here, zvawandiudza

zvacho andina kuzvifarira."

"Ndokumbirawo kukuona usati wadzokera,"

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ndakamuudza akandivhunza kana taive tichine

chekutaura. "I believe we do," ndakadaira

ndava kunzwa kuti I didn't want to go and

there was unfinished business pakati pedu.

"Unondiudza anditi?" Ndakavhunza zvekare

akati, "I don't know, let me just go and see

my grandmother andisi kukwanisa kutaura

right now." Ndakaburuka mumota ndikafamba

ndichienda kumba. Andina kwandakasvika,

ndakamira ndikanyora message ndikati, "I'm

sorry Tsungi but ndinokuda." Andina mhinduro

yandakatarisira nekukasika ndakangoti as

long as anzwa zvandaida kumuudza.

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Chapter3

Tsungie

Ndakamisa mota muyard yambuya vangu

ndichinzwa kuda kuchema. Ivo nekunzwa mota

vakabuda vachisekerera vakati, "ndazviziva

zvangu kuti uchauya pano." Ndakazama

kusekerera even though my heart didn't want

to asi ndaisada kuti mbuya vangu vakasike

kuona kuti pane zvaindinetsa. Ndakadzika

nekutovapa hug ndikati, "hesi gogo, ehe

ndauya." Ndaive nemishonga yavo

kusanganisira mapiritsi ebp nezvimwewo

zvakasanganiswa. Ndakavapa vakati, "wasiya

mama varisei?"
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"Vari kuda kuenda kuBotswana mangwana."

Ndakataura ndava kufamba navo kuti tiende

mumba. "Hanzi kunei?" She asked me

ndikavaudza kuti vainoshanya zvavo. I could

hear her chuckle, ndakagara pasi vakati,

"Mai vako kufamba vanokuda, manje baba vako

vanobikirwa naani nguva dzese ivo vachiti

vhiki rimwe chete munyika votobuda

rinotevera racho?" Izvozvo ndaisakwanisa

kupindura on behalf of my mother. Ivowo

vakangozunguza musoro, placed her medicine

where it was easier for her to find it

vakati, "saka uri kudzokera nhasi?"

I was so confused zvekuti ndakaramba

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ndakanyara not even sure kuti nditaure kuti

chii?

"Tsungai," vakandidaidza ndikati, "sorry

gogo ndiri kufunga zvamataura." Vakasimuka

vakati, "zvamai vako here Tsungai, haa

kwanga kuri kuvhunzawo zvangu semunhu

mukuru, iwewe siyana nazvo."

"Ndogona kurara kana kudzokera gogo,"

ndakazodaira her question asi vakaramba kuti

ndidzokere vachinditi ndirare. It was one

and the same thing kwandiri, I had nothing

to rush for, my job was not a job that I

needed to report to someone.

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"Ndaneta ndiri kuda kurara," ndakaudza gogo

vakanditi, "mota inonetesa ndakanzwa

vakawanda vachitaura kudaro." I didn't have

a choice but to agree with her but the truth

was that the discussion with Tau had left me

weak. Vakandisiya ndichibuda, went into my

room ndikanorara imomo. Ndaizama asking

myself a lot of questions, at the same time

I had no idea kuti message ya Tau yekuti

anondida ndakaiverenga kangani. Ndakasvika

pakupindura ndikati, "Tau usade

kundirwadzisa nekundiudza mashoko

asingachinje chinhu. Ini kana ndada munhu

zvinonetsa kuti nditambire kuti pane mumwe

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waanoda."

"Saka uri kuda kuti tisazame here tione kuti

tinosvika papi." Ndakazunguza musoro

ndikaramwa phone yacho ndikaisa kure neni.

Andizive kuti misodzi yacho yakabuda sei,

ndakaona ndava kupukuta kwava kuzevezera

ndikati, "Tau usandidaro." There were men in

Harare, men that were way better than him

but I wanted him for some reason.

Ndakashanyarika ndichitadza kumisa pfungwa

dzangu kufunga.

Ndakasvika pakumuka ndikagara, held my face

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in my palms ndikazunguza musoro. "I'm going

crazy," I whispered ndichibvuma kuti the

more I was in pain the more I was wanting

that same man that had confessed that he lied

to me. Ndakatora phone ndikaona message

yaive yakanzi, "usadzokere kuharare usina

kundiona, kana zvisingaite huya undiudze

kuti hazviite asi andisi kuda kuti undiudze

paphone." Ndakapererwa ndikasimuka

ndichibuda kuenda kwaive nagogo nemusikana

webasa ndikanzi, "ko ndiko kurara kwacho

here?"

"Zvaramba gogo maybe ndanyanya kuneta,"

ndakadaira ndichinyemwerera kuri kuvavhara

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zvangu. Once again I didn't want her to

notice that I was hurting. "Ariseiko Tau,"

ndakavhunza gogo vakati, "hamheno vhunza

Mucha uyu ndiye angatozive." Mucha wacho

akadaira akati, "haa gogo manje mukadaro

munoita as if tinowonana nguva dzese ka." I

faked a laugh ndikati, "zvaMucha veduwee,

ndakamuona aine musikana wake the other time

andina kumumhoresa ini."

"Upi, akasimba so nekachiuno katete?" Since

I didn't know munhu wacho I simply smiled

ndikati, "kuda ndiye I'm not sure." Akadaira

akati, "haa kana ari iyeye ndiye." Andina

zvandakataura gogo vakati, "pese apa ndinoti

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haana musikana kaini."

"Anaye gogo uya uya ane vabereki

vakadhirikirwa kumine vakafa vari three

amai, baba, hanzvadzi kukasara iye

nemunin'ina wake."

"Hoo avo, inga zvakaoma nhai," gogo

vakadaira vachiratidza kubatikana vakati,

"mhuri iya so zvakaoma, hoo ndiye musikana

wa Tau? Saka havachina vabereki?"

"Ndiye, ndanganzwa kuti vana bamnini variko,

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ndivo vanoita vachivatarisa," answered Mucha

sounding very sure ndikati, "asi anopenga

Tau, remember paye achiti haana?" She

laughed akati, "pamwe akarohwa nechadzimira

cherunako rwenyu sisi."

"Iye aine musikana wawati ane muviri

nekumusoro kutete here?" Ndakaseka faking it

asi mumoyo muchirwadza Mucha akati, "ah, ko

zviye zvine basa reiko imi muri mushoma here

inga makaumbwa wani."

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Tau

Ndakabuda ndichinotora Ndai wandakaona ava

kutofamba kuuya kumba. Ndakatora zvaainge

akabata ndikati, "ko kwasara zvishoma

kudai?"

"Ndinoshanda kaini," akataura achisekerera

kwava kuburitsa mari yake akatanga

kuverenga. Akapedza ndikati, "haa washanda

Sha, sorry ndanga ndava kunonoka ndazorara

ka."
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"Iribho , saka nhasi hauna kubuda?"

Ndakadaira ndikati, "mbichana haa mbichana,

ndaona mainini ndikarohwa dollar as always."

"Anonzi Matilda, mari akainzwisisa stereki

but haa haakumbire munhu wese ka anokumbira

iwewe." Ndakabva ndamubata ruoko tava

kufamba tichienda zvese nekutaura nyaya.

Takasvika nepamba pavo Matilda akati,

"bamkuru madzoka?" Ndakabvuma smiling akati,

"ndakugaririrai paroad mukasadzoka paye ko

maenda nekupi?" Ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "inga

ndati ndotokutiza chete mukadzi

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ndatenderera."

Ndai went inside their kitchen akauya

netumbler yaive nedrink akandipa kuti

ndinwe. Ndichipedza, message ya Tsungi

yakapindawo akataura zvekuda kundiona.

Ndakaivhara nekukasika ndikatanga ndaoneka

ndipo Ndai paakati, "hausi kuda kudya?"

"Mangwana kubasa babie totaura ndoda

kukasika kurara hona dzatova past seven."

Akamira padoor akati, "okay thanks

ndokuona." Ndakatanga kufamba ndikanzi, "ah

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sei usiri kushupira kuperekedzwa?" Zvisinei

nekuti ndaida kuona Tsungi, zvaisaita kuti

ndifambe na Ndai husiku zvekare achizodzoka

ega. I explained vakaronga kundiperekedza

vese na Mati. Handina kupikisa, takafamba

tese ndikasiiwa ndava kutosvika kumba. It

was around nine when Tsungi told me kuti

vanhu varara ndichibva ndabuda ndava kuenda

kumba kwavo.

Akabuda mumba ndikati, "kutaura pano sevaroi

hakuite hande kumba." Akaramba akati,

aizowonekwa nambuya vake kuti haapo, asi

ndakapikisa ndikati, "aewa kutaura manje

ndiko kunomutsa vanhu. We decided to walk to

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my house went inside tichibva tagara

pamubhedha. Akatura mafemo akati, "ndaudzwa

nezve musikana wako na Mucha ndaudzwa kuti

munotodanana zvekuti."

"Ndaroora here Tsungai?" Ndakamuvhunza

akati, "aewa hauna."

"Saka what's the problem kana ndisina

kuroora?" Ndakamuvhunza ndikaona ajenga

misodzi zvekare. "Why am I even here nhai

Tau, I should be by my grandmother's house

and not here ndichitaura newe, what am I

doing here?" She asked me nezwi remunhu

abatikana ndikati, "nekuti uri kuziva kuti

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pakati pedu pane zviri kuda kuzadziswa, you

know kuti we can't ignore it handiti."

"I want to ignore it, I want to be okay and

go home, andisi kuda kukuda ini."

Ndakaswedera pedyo naye ndikati, "uri

serious here kuti hausi kuda?" Akaramba

akanditarisa ndikati, "ndiudze kuti hausi

kuda pamwe ndingazame kusakuda, ukasandiudza

andifunge kuti ndingakwanise kukurega."

Ndaitamba neruoko rwake ndiine shungu

dzekuti, ataure zvaive pamoyo pake asi pane

kuti ataure we kissed. Ndakamira ndikati,

"torega here Tsungie?" I had her in my arms

ndichiona kuti zvekusada yatova imwe nyaya

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asi zvatainzwa zvairamba kuti tiregedzane.

Ndakabatwa maoko ndikanzi, "aewa Tau zvava

kunyanya." Ndakavhunza ndikati, "pane

zvinonzi zvava kunyanya here. Tomboti zvava

kunyanya, zvakaipei kuti zvinyanye harusi

rudo here Tsungie?"

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Chapter4

Tau

Akazunguza musoro asi muviri wake uchitaura

zvimwe. Even though she wanted to stop,

zvandainge ndava kunzwa inini wacho

zvakandirambira kuti ndichimira. Zvese

zvekuti it was wrong timing ndaizvinzwisisa

at that time yes but there is a certain time

yaunonzwa pfungwa dzichiti chirega asi

muviri uchiti andisi kukwanisa.

Ndainzwa achinyanya kufemereka which didn't

make it easier for me. Aiti akada kundimisa

ndozongoona aregedza. Kuti nditi ndakazama

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kumira it's a lie, ndini wacho ndaitoramba

ndichimubata with the intention of keeping

her feeling a certain way. Pandakatanga

kunzwa kutsvedzerera kweganda rake muviri

wangu wakawedzera heat even what I was

wearing became an enemy to me.

"Hazvichaita Tau," akadaro achizama kubva

pamubhedha. Ndakamira zvishoma ndikamubata

zvisina kumhanya mukati. Ndakazevezera

ndichivhunza ndikati, "tiri kufanira

kumirira chii?"

"Hakasi kekutanga kangu, ndakanyeperwa

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kumashure nemunhu akandisiya saka

andikwanise kudai." Ndakavhunza ndikati,

"munhu akakusiya ndini here Tsungai, andinei

nekuti iwewe wakamborasiswa saka ndopikira

mhosva dzemumwe here."

"Iwewe neni tagara tiri kunetserana nyaya

yekuti une mumwe." Akataura ndikati,

"handisi kupikisana nazvo saka tongosiya

zvatiri kunzwa nekuda kwekuti pane mumwe

here. Tadii tazama Tsungai," ndakakumbira

kissing her neck with my hand on her breasts

ndichibata nemukati. Teasing her nipples

akandibata ruoko akatanga kushanyarika

kusvika ndamuradzika pamubhedha ndikaenda

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pamusoro pake.

"Aaaaaaah Tau," akataura achirwisana

netshirt yandaive ndakapfeka ndichibva

ndaibvisa, ndikamubvisa zvekare yaaive

akapfeka. Ndakanzwa kutsvedza kweganda rake

ndamurarira, maoko ake achifamba nekumusana

wangu. Kissing her naked breast,

ndakadzikisa bottom randaive ndakapfeka

ndikadzikisa the tights that she had on.

Kunonokerwa ndiko kwandainge ndaita,

zvakawedzerwa nekutota kwandainzwa aita

panguva yandakamugumha. Akandimisa akati,

"aewa Tau, wakadaro here zvinotyisa izvi."

Ndaiziva pandimire nekuti ndaive munhu

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aigara achitariswa. She was right I didn't

know about her, ndakavhunza ndikati,

"hausati wambotariswa here?"

"Ndakatariswa," akazevezera ndikati, "kana

neni but andisi munhu anogara achisangana

nemunhu andina kana chandinacho."

Ndichitaura naye kudaro ndaitonzwa

ndichinyengetedza kupinda pachiratidza kuti

pava nenguva pasina asvikapo ndikati,"I'm

going to trust you, ukandiuraya unenge

wandiurayawo."

"Would you hurt me knowingly?" Akavhunza

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ndikati, "dai ndaida kudaro ndingadai

ndakuudza here kuti pane zviripo?"

Akachemerera achinzwa ndichizama kwava kuda

kuvhara makumbo ndikati, "Tsungi ndokuda."

Kuyamwa kwandakaita mukama wake akabva

avhura makumbo ndikapinda ndichiita

zvekumanikidzira. Kudziya kwacho

kwakandirova pfungwa, I stopped sucking her

breast ndikati, "unondiuraya Tsungai." Iye

akachema akandibatirira akati, "Tau zvandiri

kunzwa kani Tau." Ndakaita nesimba ndikanzwa

kuti hakuna kana kwandingamboenda naye.

Ndakafunga ndikati ndonyadzisa here kwava

kubuda akati, "Tau." Ndakazunguza musoro

ndichiona achishanyarika kwake, kwava

kudzokera zvekare. Ndakaita nekukasika

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ndichinzwa achiwedzera kuchema zvekare

nekutambirira ndakadzvanyirwa mukati.

Ndakaramba ndichiita nesimba at the same

time ndichizunguza musoro kuitira kuti

ndisanyanye kufunga zvandainzwa maari.

"mamaaa kani Tau," akatambirira achiramba

akandidzvanyirira. Takarwisana pamubhedha

ndisingade kumusiya kusvika muviri wake

wataura wega kuti wagumirwa. Ndakanzwa

kugwinha mukati akatanga kutsvaga muromo

wangu. Akauwana ndikamupa, hapana chandainge

ndichamirira kugwinha kwa aiita

kwakandipedza simba ndikapererwa.

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Ndakatadza kutenda zvainge zvaitika pakati

pedu nenguva diki diki, ndakatomboramba

ndakamurarira until I heard her sniffing

ndikasimudza huso. "Why Tsungi?" Ndakavhunza

akati, "I can't believe we did this Tau."

"Zvakashata futi here?" Ndakavhunza akati,

"you know zvandiri kutaura." Akandipedza

simba pandaifunga kuti tanakirwa tese. "I'm

sorry ndatadza kuzvidzora, I will never

blame you for this nekuti ndiri munhu mukuru

andina kukwanisa kuzvidzora."

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"Ukandirwadzisa ndoita sei asi?" Akavhunza

ava kuchema ndikati, "Tsungai ndokumbirawo

kuti umbomira kufunga zvakawanda." Akaramba

akati, "andigone kurega ini."

Ndakamutarisa mumaziso ndikati, "ndokuda,

what we shared just now is something that I

can't forget."

Tsungai
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Akandiradzika on his chest akati, "zvimwe

ndezvimwe usanyeperwe uri mukadzi Tsungai."

Mashoko akanakidza nzeve dzangu kunzwa asi

ndaisada kuti andifungire zvisizvo. Munhu

wandainge ndakazivana naye aive mumwe chete

uye zvainge zvisina kubvira zvaitika the way

yazvakaitika nayo na Tau.

Ndakatura mafemo , even though ndichiziva

kuti kwaive nemumwe. I couldn't let him go

especially nezvainge zvaitika pakati pedu.

Hazvina kubvisa kumutsamwira kwandainge

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ndakaita, hazvina kubvisa kutya kusiiwa,

zvakandiita ndinzwe kumuda even more.

"I hope kuharare hakuna ari kufunga

nezvako," akange anditarisa ndikati,

"hakuna, kana ariko andisi kumuziva ini."

"Shanje dzandava kunzwa parizvino Tsungai

haungakwanise kudzinzwisisa." Takange

tagumhana mhanza achitaura kudaro ndikati,

"kana neni Tau." Maoko ake akafamba pagumbo

rangu akati, "your skin is so soft ndiri

kunyara kukumara nemaoko angu."

Ndakanyemwerera ndikati, "haasi kundimara

wani." Takaturirana mafemo ndikarangarira

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kuti ndaifanira kuenda kumba.

Ndakamuudza akati, "wava kuda kuenda here

Tsungai, andisati ndava kuda kuti uende."

Munhu wandaitya aive gogo asi ndaiziva kuti

vaisabuda husiku vaive nebucket ravo reweti

mubedroom mavo. Even though ndainzwawo kuda

kuva naye ndaisakwanisa kubva ndazviratidza

kudaro ini ndainge ndatombofarisa kudaro. He

turned me kuti ndimupire gotsi akati,

"Tsungai," achindisimudzira gumbo. Ndakaziva

zvaiuya ndichibva ndaita zvaiita iye

asanyanye kushupika. I cried when he entered

me, thrusted deep ndikanzi, "I can't have

enough of you Tsungai." That angle killed

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me, it was so good I couldn't talk I was

crying with pleasure and nothing else. My

own body was moving slow with his hands on

my breasts again I felt the best feeling that

I could ever feel.

"Ndoda undiudze kuti mune chii mukati umu

Tsungai," akazevezera akati, "variko here

vakadzi vanonaka sewe, sei ndiri kunzwa

kunge ndiri kurota?" Ndakasvika pakudaira

ndikati, "Tau kana ndichinaka ndoti kudii

pamusoro pako?" Kissing me all over

ndakadairwa ndikanzi, "zvekukusiya

andikwanise Tsungai, kwete nezvandanzwa

wabva wandinyudza." Dai kuri kunzi kwaive

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nemunhu panze ainzwa kuti ndirimo mumba uye

ndiri kuchemedzwa na Tau. Hapana pandisina

kubatwa, hapana pasina kunakirwa, once again

ndakasvitswa pandakaimba nekunakirwa.

Zvakanditorera nguva kuti ndidzikame asi

ndichingodzikama we both knew kuti

ndaifanira kudzokera kumba. Akabuda neni

akandipfekedza jacket rake tikafamba husiku

hwaive husina kana munhu aifamba. Tasvika

close to home ndakamuudza ndikati, "ndiri

kukutyira pakudzokera kumba." Akanyemwerera

kissing me paroad ipapo akati, "ndokuda

chienda mumba, ndiri murume hapana

zvinondiwana relax." Ndainge ndava kuenda

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akaramba akandibata ruoko, akandidzosa paari

akati, "tonight was too much for me

usakanganwe kuti uri munhu waTau."

Ndakanyemwerera hana ichinyunguduka

nemashoko ake kwava kufamba zvinyoro nyoro

ndichinopinda mumba zvisina noise.

Ndakamuudza kuti aende, ndikamirira kusvika

kwake kumba. Whilst waiting for that message

I could not stop myself from reliving

memories of our love making. Hazvina hazvo

kumisa hana yangu kurova, here and there

ndaizvituka futi kuti ndakurirwa sei,

nerimwewo divi ndichinzwa kuti ropa rake

nerangu rainge radairana. Ndakazorara

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andiudza kuti asvika, ndikaisa jacket rangu

paside pepillow kuri kungoda kunzwa kunge

ndaive ndakarara naye padhuze.

Ndichimuka kuseni ndakatanga kuona jacket

rake kwava kumhanya kubata phone ndiine

tarisiro yekuona message. Ndakanyemwerera

ndichiverenga message yaive yakanzi, "Ruva

rangu ramuka sei?" Ndakadaira ndikanzi, "uri

kuenda nguvai?"

I was not sure saka ndakamuudzawo kuti I was

not sure. He had gone to work kuseni seni,

hazvina kundipa pressure, ndakamuka

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ndikaviga jacket rake mubag mangu. Mvura

yakange iripo kare, ndakangotora

ndikanogeza, gogo vainge vachiri vakarara.

Nguva dzaibuda Mucha kuenda kunotsvaga

chingwa, ndakafunga kuenda naye kumashops

ndichidawo hangu kumboona nzvimbo.

Taitotaura nyaya tichiseka, I parked my car

ndikanzi, "ndiyeka munhu wamakaona aina Tau

uyo." Ndakatarisa kwaakanongedza ndikaona

musikana wacho, aive akapfeka ma tights asi

akasunga Zambia pamusoro zvinoitwa nema

Zambians, rakamugara seakazvarwa naro.

Kumusoro akapfeka verse, mutsoka aive

akapfeka maslides akanzi Dior ndakatadza

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kana kutaura Mucha achibva avhura door

achibuda.

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CHANCES

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Chapter5

Tsungie

Ndakaburuka mumota maziso angu achiramba

akamutarisa, here and there ndichiita

ndichitarisa pasi nekuti ndaisada kuti

andione ndakamutarisa. Mucha wo akandivhunza

akati, "asi hamuchada kuenda neni here nhai

sisi?"

Ndakamuvhara nekuti ndaizama kuona kuti

ndalocker mota zvakanaka here. Tichipinda

mushop macho mataida, ndimo maive nemusikana

wa Tau uyo akamhoreswa na Mucha. She smiled

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achikwazisa kwava kusimudza meso achisangana

neni akati, "ndeip." Mashoko akamboda

kuramba kubuda, ndainzwa hana yangu kurova,

ndakamanikidza kuti, "urisei," akati, "uri

muzukuru wambuya Tafi anditi."

"Ehe," ndakadaira akati, "hoo okay uri bho?"

Ndakagutsurira musoro akati kuna Mucha, "ko

uri kutsvagei kuno?"

"Chingwa," akadaira achiwedzera kuti, "nema

sweets." Vakaseka vese akati, "hoo, it's

okay neniwo ndoda kutenga zvishoma."

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"Zambia rako rakanaka wena," said Mucha

akanzi, "kana uchimada ndinawo kumba ndiri

kumatengesa asi kwasara mashoma."

"Ndingamakwanise here, haadhure?" Asked

Mucha akanzi, "seven dollars chete akabva

kuZambia." Ndakatarisa kuside ndava kushaiwa

kuti ndotarisa kupi nekuti the more I looked

at her the more I saw visions of Tau and I,

nezvese zvatainge taita. Ndakatura mafemo

ndikafamba ndichibva padhuze navo ndava

kutarisa zvimwe zvinhu zvaive mushop

ndichiita ndichidzosa maziso kuna Mucha na

Ndai.
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She came to me after some minutes akati, "haa

Ndai anotengesa zvinhu zvakanaka hake."

Ndakatarisa zvekare kwaaive akamira kuchibva

kwapinda musikana aive akafanana naye uyo

waakatanga kusarudza zvinhu naye. Ndakadaira

Mucha ndikati, "ehe zvakanaka asi ndiro basa

rake?"

"Ehe ndiro, pakafa vabereki vake vanhu

vakaita ka contribution ke mari, ndiyo

yaakatanga nayo kuhoarder. Vanhu vekumine

support her a lot vanenge vachiti vari

kusupporter mwana wemumwe wavo."

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Ndakanzwisisa ndichibva ndati, "chitenga

tiende."

Patakange tava kubuda akamiswa naNdai

akanzi, "mune mota kaimimi ndokumbirawo lift

inini na Matilda." Mucha akanditarisa, truth

is I didn't want to give her a lift because

I knew that it would be awkward, asi kuramba

zvekare was even worse. Ndakangogutsurira

musoro ndichibuda kuenda kumota, sat there

ndikatura mafemo as well as ask myself to

calm down.
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She got into the car with her sister who said

to me, "haaa ndiwe shamwari ya bamkuru vangu

yandakanzwa." I didn't know how to answer

her nekuti ndaisamuziva, even though I

wanted to know what she heard about me. Mucha

ndiye akaseka akati, "wakanzwa kuti chiiko

nhaiwe Matilda?"

"Hapana kungoti they are friends chete."

Ndakamutsa mota ndakanyarara ndimukatarisa

nepaview mirror, her sister was looking at

her neziso rekuti be quiet. Ndakabva ndaisa

music on, played it on low Matilda akati,

"asi hautaure nevanhu."

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"It's not that," ndakadaira looking ahead

akati, "okay saka chii?" I didn't know what

she wanted to say to me exactly ndaive munhu

aitonetsekana mupfungwa. "Ndinenge

ndisitorina zvekutaura ini," ndakamuudza iye

akati, "ah hoo."

"Ndozvavari sisi havataure taure," said

Mucha achiudza Matilda who simply nodded

akaramba akanyarara. Takazovasiya tasvika

close to their house, vakatenda vakaburuka

vava kufamba kuenda. Ndaida kuziva hangu

kuti vaigara kupi, ndakavhunza Mucha who

showed me their house nekunongedzera imba

yacho. Even though she was out of my car but

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I could not simply ignore the fact that

ndainge ndakwidza Ndai mumota and I was

feeling jealous.

Ndichisvika kumba ndakaenda muroom mangu,

lay there quietly before texting Tau

ndichimuudza kuti ndainge ndatakura Ndai.

Akafona ndichibva ndarega kudaira, I was so

emotional, feeling things that I could not

express. Akaramba achifona kusvika ndadaira

ndikati, "andisi kukwanisa kutaura ndina

gogo, anyway ndiri kudzokera nhasi

kuharare."

"Tsungi," akataura nezwi raive rakadzikamira

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ndikati, "hee," ndava kuda kutochema.

Akataura akati, "ndiri kuzvinzwa zvauri

kufeeler and I'm sorry." Handina kumudaira I

sniffed akati, "wamutakurirei kana wanga

uchiziva kuti hazvizokubate zvakanaka?"

Ndakavhunza what I was supposed to do when

she had asked for a lift.

"You could have said you were not going in

her direction chete?" Akadaira ndikati, "she

is very pretty."

"You are no less Tsungi stop please."

Ndakafemera padenga wiping my tears

akati,"how can you be crying after last

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night?"

"Because of last night I'm more emotional

than ever Tau." It was as if zvandaimunzwira

zvainge zvatowedzera zvakanyanya. Even after

ndaona Ndai hazvina zvazvakachinja I still

wanted him so much it hurt.

"Chidarika nekubasa kwangu kana uri kuenda

nhasi." Akakumbira ndichibva ndangobvuma

ndikasiya phone. Ndainzwa kurwara, kutopisa

muviri chaiko kutadza kunzwisisa kuti what

kind of love was that, that made me insane

like that. Nguva dzandakadzikama, ndakabuda

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ndadaidzwa kuti ndidye asi ndakangonwa Tea

after ndaudza Mucha kuti ndaisada chingwa.

"Manje ungatobva watadza kudya here Tsungai

iwe uine rwendo." Gogo vakavhunza ndichibva

ndavhara nekuseka ndikati, "haa gogo chingwa

chinonaka here, ini handichide ini dai manga

muine mbambaira."

Tau
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Ndakange ndagara pandakafunga kufonera Ndai,

after that call na Tsungai ndaida kuziva kuti

zvaifamba sei. Akadaira akati, "Matemai,"

ndikati, "murisei Machuma."

"Ndiri right ini," akadaira kwava kutaura na

Matilda achiti asiye kuvhura wallet yake.

"Kurisei kubasa?" Ndakavhunzwa ndikati,

"kuri bho uri kuitei, mainini varikuita

sei?" Akaseka akati, "haa unomuziva wani

munhu wacho, tabva kumashops ipapa, ko

tapihwa lift neshamwari yako." Ndakanyepera

kusaziva akati, "haa iwe Tsungi."

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"Wava kuziva zita rake?" Ndakavhunza akaseka

akati, "ehe ndariziva nhasi, ndamboda

kumuvhunza kuti ndakanzwa kuti Matemai

vakakuti havana munhu ichokwadi here?" I

faked a smile ndikati, "Ndai unopenga here?"

"Ah iwe nyaya yacho ichiri kundivava, she

was too quiet ndatomboda kufunga kuti anga

achibhowekana nesu, ended feeling bad kuti

takumbira lift when we could have walked."

"Haasi munhu anotaura taura Ndai that's

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all."

"Hoo," akadaira akati, "it's okay ndiri kuda

kubuda saka ndiri kurongedza zvinhu zvangu.

Unouya here kuzonditora kana kuti

ndongofamba zvangu ndega."

"Ndinouya babie," I said akati, "usanonoke

Tau sezvawakaita the other day handidi

zvekufamba usiku." Ndakaseka ndikati,

"ndakunzwa kani Machuma, ndokuda futi?"

"Ndokudawo," akadaro achikata phone

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ndichibva ndatura mafemo ndikabata kumeso.

Ipapo musoro wangu wakapisa nekuti

ndaisaziva kuti nyaya yacho ndoifambisa sei,

pakati pavo hapana wandaikwanisa kusiya

ukuwo ndaifanira kuroora Ndai. Ndakazviseka

nekuti kuudza Ndai nezva Tsungai was a none

starter ndaimuziva munhu wangu kana hasha

dzanyatsobata chaizvo chaizvo.

Ndakaita nguva ndichiseka, not kuti

zvainakidza asi kuti I didn't know kuti

ndodii chaizvo, it was a difficult situation

to handle. Ndakazvipa nguva yekunyarara

ndichibva ndafonera sekuru ndichida zano

phone yavo ichibva yaramba kuita. A couple

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of times ndakazama ichiramba kusvika

ndazvisiya ndichiti painoita pacho

ndaizongotaura navo. Dzatova kuma two,

Tsungai akasvika kubasa kwangu, ndaive

nekashop kangu kandaive nako kandaitengesawo

zvinhu kachindiraramisa. Akapinda mukati

akamira pacounter, akanditarisa

ndikamutarisawo ndichiedza kuwongorora

maziso ake ndikati, "wakanditsamwira?"

Shaking her head ndakamuudza kuti auye

kuseri kwandaive achibva afamba achiuya

ikoko. Ndakambovhara shop akati,

"wavharirei?"
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"Ndoda kutaura newe, wakandikoshera zvekuti

andisi kuda any disturbances." She looked

down ndichibva ndambokumbira ruregerero

ndakamumbundira ndichipuruzira musana wake

ndikanzi, "ndazvinzwa Tau kani."

"Kana wazvinzwa sei ndisiri kuona kufara

kwako. How do you expect me to feel iwe

uchienda kuharare wakadaro?" Haana kudaira

ndikazama zvimwe zvandaikwanisa

kumunyengetedza nazvo kuri kutya kuti

ndogona kungonzi handichada. Akapedzisira

onyemwerera, allowed me to kiss her kusvika

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zvatozongoipa zvekare mushop imomo. Ndakabva

ndatoona kuti Tsungai ainge ava

kutondikanganisa pfungwa.

"Unondiita sei asi?" Ndakavhunza ndichibata

chiuno chake akati,"Tau , andizive shaa."

Takaita nguva takamira tichiyemurana

nekunyemwerera, apo neapo tichizongoona tava

kupanana kiss.

"Ndava kuda kuenda," akandioneka ava kuenda

kuharare ndisiri kuda kuti aende. Ndakafamba

naye kuenda kumota ndikati,"zvauriwe

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ukanganwe kuti zvachinja."

"Jacket rako?" Akataura smiling ndikati,

"enda naro unless usiri kurida."

Akanyemwerera akati, "ndorida, ndoda kunzwa

kunge uri padhuze neni." Ndakavhunza

ndichinyemwerera ndikati, "saka wanga uchida

kundipirei?"

"Nekuti ndanga ndichida kuti unditi ndigare

naro." Rakabva raiswa kure ndikati, "ndine

shungu dzekuti ugare wakaripfeka ukavhunzwa

wotaura kuti ndere muridzi wangu."

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"Tau ka," she said achiyema ndikati, "ehe ko

hauna muridzi here Tsungai?"

"Ndinaye," again akataura achiyema ndikati,

"muridzi wako ari kupi?" Ndakadairwa with a

kiss akati, "wandapa kiss." Akabva asuduruka

kubva pandiri ndikati, "Tsungi mhani mira."

Ndakamupa ye fuel ndikati, "it's not much

but dira fuel." Akaramba akati, "ndakauya

ndakaisa full tank." Iniwo ndakapikisa

ndikati, "wedzera obviously yadzikira."

Mubra rake ndimo mandakaisa then kissed her

breasts ndikati, "chivhara mukaka wangu."

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Ndakafamba ndichidzokera mushop, stopped by

door and watched her leave, ndakasara

ndichinhuwirira perfume yake.

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Chances:

Kaydie

Chapter 6

Tsungai

Ndakafemera pamusoro reversing my car

ndichibva pabasa pa Tau. I could not keep my

eyes off him, pese pandaida kutarisa

kwandiri kuenda I found myself looking back

at him. Handina kunzwisisa kuti sei zvairema

kuti ndingobva ndichienda ndisina

kumutarisa. Ndakasvika pakumisa mota, jumped

out as if I had forgotten something and ran

into the shop where he was. His arms were

already open for me, he hugged me ndikati,

"why am I unable to simply leave you and go

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home Tau?"

Andina kumirira kuti andidaire, takatarisana

ndikati, "tell me."

"I wish I could explain it to you asi

andikwanise, ndiri kutotsvagawo angakwanise

kunditsanangurira kuti sei ndisiri kuda kuti

uende." I knew I had to get back to Harare

chero hazvo ndainzwa kuda kuramba ndiina

Tau. We kissed slowly until ndanzwa kuti

ndava kufanira kuenda ndichibva ndamira

ndikanyemwerera ndichimuudza kuti ndava

kuenda. Ndakamhanya ndichibuda, went inside

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my car, at that time ndakaona kuti pane vaive

vava kundicherechedza zvakanyanya vachida

kuona mafambiro angu nekuda kuziva zvekare

kuti ndiri kuita nezvei.

I drove my car until the main road, called

Tau ndafunga kunyatsorova tara ndikati,

"Tau." Akadaira ndikati, "Ndokuda."

"Ugozvirangarira kana wasvika kuHarare kuti

munhu wawaudza kuti unoda ndiTau anditi?"

Ndakanyemwerera ndikati, "eho ndazvinzwa

ndava kuenda ini."

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"Ndakusuwa," akataura nezwi raive pasi

ndikati, "voice rako ah." Raindinakidza

kwete kuti ndainge ndabatikana kuti

radzikira. Kudzikira ikoko hamheno zvaraiva

zvandainzwa kuti ndiri kufarira.

"Undifonere wasvika," akataura ndichibva

ndakata call ndava kutarisa nzira kuti

ndichifamba zvakanaka. Ndakasveerera radio,

yandakabatidza ndikatanga kuridza nziyo

dzerudo, with a smile listening to Joe Thomas

singing I wanna know. With the volume up, I

sang along to every lyric with memories of a

time that I had with Tau.

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Around 5 ndakange ndasvika kuharare, mama

vakange varongedza vachiti she would leave

the next day kuenda kuBotswana. Ndakavhunza

ndava kufunga mashoko ambuya vangu ndikati,

"don't you miss cooking for dad." Vakaseka

zvekuti vakati, "are you alright mwanangu?"

Ndakanyemwerera hoping that I would not

offend her ndikati, "I'm okay mama ndiri

kufunga kaipapa kuti you are always on the

road."

"We have a maid in the house, Monalisa aripo,

don't worry about your father, he is well

taken care off. Besides, your father loves

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how I spend his money, ndikatogara ndisina

kubuda ndinotovhunzwa kuti kwakanaka here."

Ndakabva ndagara pasofa mumba mavo

ndakatarisa vachigadzira musoro wavo, her

words were ringing in my head asking myself

kuti kuvhunzwa kwavo kwaireva here kuti baba

vangu vaida kuti Mai vangu vagare vachifamba

kana kuti it was an indirect complaint from

him.

"You will understand it when you get married

to a man with money," vakataura smiling

vakati, "and I hope you know that your

husband has to be someone who meets our

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standards." I faked a smile ndikati, "ah mama

ko ndikashaiwa ane mari ndodii, zvakaipei

kungowanikwa newandinenge ndawana."

Vakasimuka and opened her wardrobe door,

took her robe vakati, "usataureka zvisina

basa Tsungai if I your mother could find a

man like your father ndiudze kuti iwewe wacho

unokoniwa nei?"

Moyo wangu wakasviba nekuti in her

description of her right husband for me, Tau

was definitely not there. I didn't want to

rush thinking about it zvakanyanya.

Ndakazama remaining calm asi hazvina kumisa

pfungwa dzangu kufunga kuti saka baba vangu

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vaidiwa here kana kuti it was all about the

money. Zvakarema kuti ndinyarare, kwava

kuvhunza sounding as if It was a normal

question asi ndichiziva kuti muhana mangu

mava kutobatikana kuti pamwe baba vangu

havadiwe.

"If dad didn't have money, would you have

married him?" Vakanditarisa vakati, "what

kind of a question is that?"

"Anditi mati money comes first here mama?"

Ndakange ndava kuita kunge ndini ndatadza

kuvhunza asi vachinzwisisa zvavo kuti I had

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asked her a simple question that needed a

simple answer. Vakagara pasi vakati, "don't

get me wrong, maybe I would not have looked

at your father but look at it this way, I

was thinking about you mwanangu."

"Inini?" Ndakavhunza confused vakati, "ehe,

anditi mukadzi anofunga future, kuti

ndikaroorwa nemunhu akadai vana vangu havafe

nenhamo here?" Vakabva vasimuka and packed

another dress which she asked me if it was

proper ndikati, "ehe rakanaka."

"I will leave in the morning, iwewe unoitawo

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uchitarisa daddy, men can't be trusted

anditi you know?" Andina kuda kudaira nekuti

hamheno how I was feeling already about the

whole conversation, haina hayo kundiitira

zvakanaka. Hazvina kundimisa kusekerera kuti

ndivavhare, ndakatobata musoro wavo ndikati,

"this weave is nice mama." Vakanyemwerera

looking herself in the mirror vakati,

"thanks mwanangu, weave yangu iyoyo isalary

yemumwe mukono werume." Vakaseka zvavo

ndichibva ndavhura door ndikabuda.

I met my father on my way out of their

bedroom, everything mama said about him came

back ndikanzwa kubatikana. "Maswera sei

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daddy," ndakakwazisa, he smiled vakati,

"wadzoka." Ndakabvuma smiling Monalisa

achibva abudikirawo akati, "maswera sei

daddy." Akatora laptop yavo vakati, "hesi

Mona."

Ndai

"Ndai, mukomana wako anozviziva here kuti

wakabatana kudai?" Ndakazunguza musoro

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ndichitarisa Trust aive akagara mumota.

Hamheno kuti mota yacho yaive yaani nekuti

umwe aivemo ndaisamuziva, Trust was a friend

wandaingotaura naye here and there.

Ndakamira zvandaiita ndikati, "Wanwei

sahwira?" Akaseka akati, "hapana ndiri

kunzwa kuda kukudenha zvangu, hamheno zvauri

mazuvano hausi kubatika, asi uri

kungobatana."

"Ndiwe usipo, ko uri kuita nezvei?"

Ndakavhunza akati, "inga ma deals angu

unomaziva ndiwayo, ndakakuudza kuti tamba

neni mushe asi pamwe unorambidzwa na Tau

muchapedza mari ye tuckshop." Ndakazunguza

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musoro ndikati, "iwewe une isiri yetuckshop

wati waiteiko, ko kungotamba neni mushe

usina kushora Tau andizvide. Besides nyamwe

ukaiti tuckshop, anditi iri kutomuraramisa

here."

"Eho sorry handina kuti tsamwa ini ndanga

ndichida kungodenha." Ndakaridza tsamwa iye

kwava kunyemwerera ndikati, "wakadya window

ka that's why uri kuonererwa, anditi

uchaburuka hako kana shamwari yako iyo

yakusvitsa pabustop rako." Munhu wacho aive

kumberi akasimudza musoro maybe kuda kuona

kuti ndiani ari kutaura. Hamheno kuti

akafungei, akabva aramba akatsikitsira pasi

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achivharwa zvekare ne cap yaainge akapfeka.

Handinawo kuzoda kumira, ndakatakura zvinhu

kuti ndiyende, ndikanzwa ndichipihwa hug na

Tau. Ndakanyemwerera ndikati, "ndanga

ndichida kukutsvagira mhosva yekunonoka."

"Wanga uchitaura kuti chii na Trust," he

asked me ndikati, "muvhunze anditi aripo

here." He took bag rangu akati, "Trust, ko

wamira kutaura nemukadzi wangu nekuti

ndasvika here."

Trust wacho akazunguza musoro akati, "kupi

kwacho ndanga ndichiti mupedze kupanana rudo

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ndozokwazisa hangu, ko uri kuzvigona sei?"

"Kuzama kwega kwega," Tau answered Trust

akati, "mukadzi haachafanira kufamba netsoka

achiuya kunotengesa kuno uyo. Ita plan

wangu, ndikamupa lift futi unozoti

ndakujairira."

"Wakatenga mota riiniko zvatakangofanana

nhai Trust, ukadzika imomo anditi takafanana

here?" Ndakabva ndatoti kuna Tau tiende

ndisingade hangu kuti nyaya iyoyo iyende

mberi. Trust wacho aitoita kunge ari

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kudenhera svoto zvake.

"Mufambe bho guys atisi kurwa," Trust

akataura ndichibva ndamunongedzera

chibhakera kwava kundundurudzana zvangu

naTau.

"Chii neshamwari yako nhasi?" He asked me

achiratidza kuti abhowekana ndikati,

"unomuziva wani anodenha."

"Kana zvadaro hushamwari hwacho cancel,

besides andichada zvema male friends izvi."

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Ndakaseka ndikati, "Tau asi chii?" Akamira

kufamba akati, "hamheno zvazviri kundiita,

ndine shanje newe Ndai andidi zvangu

miyedzo."

Ndakanyemwera ndikati, "hoo saka iwewe

hauchashamwaridzane na Tsungai anditi?"

Akaramba akanditarisa akati, "wagara haudi

ndishamwaridzane naye, ndinotoda kuti muite

ma best friends." Ndakagegedza ndikati, "asi

chii, imbomira izvozvo." Akanyemwerera

akati, "zvapera ngatitaure zvimwe."

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Takasvika kumba tese ndichibva ndatanga

ndaenda kunogeza, he was not in a rush saka

akandimirira kuti ndipedze kugeza. Akatodya

kumba tikatandara tese kusvika Matilda

asimuka achienda kunorara akandisiya ndiina

Tau.

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Chapter7

Ndai

Ndakamutarisa ndikati, "manje manje ndiri

kuenda kunorara ini." Haana kuratidza

kunyanya kuita hanya nazvo akangovhunza

akati, "saka hausi kundiperekedza kunosvika

kumba?" Ndakaseka ndikavhunza kuti

ndaizodzoka naani Iko kunze kwacho kwadoka.

"Ndasuwa kuva newe," akataura achinditarisa

mumaziso ndikati, "zvekuenda kumba kwako

husiku zvinonetsa hazvo, ndipo paye

paunotanga kuramba kundidzosa kumba. Plus

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last time unoziva zvakazopotsa zvaitika, dai

ndisina kuchema paye waitondivharira ka."

Akazviseka akati, "saka uri kutoramba here

nekuda kwezvakaitika last time?"

Ndaitoramba nekuda kwaizvozvo, zvekuti

ndimuke ndava kumba kwake ndizvo

zvandaisada. Akabvuma hake akati, "it's fine

saka ndava kuenda ndega, manje ndikapondwa

muroad hamheno kuti zvichafamba sei."

"Ukaenda neni kwacho hautye kupondwa wava

kudzokera here," ndakavhunza ava kutamba

nezvigunwe zvangu zvemumaoko. Takatarisana

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akati, "unongorara ka, hapana zvandoita inga

ndiri kudzidzira kuzvidzora wani. Kubva

riini tiri tese plus ndava kuroora wani."

"Hausati waudza tete date wani," ndakati

ndinzwisise iye akati, "iwewe uri kuda

riini." He kissed me pamuromo zvishoma

ndikati, "ndini ndinosarudza here Tau kana

kuti ndiwe unosarudza?" Again he kissed me

akati, "ndoda usarudze."

Kundivhunza inini ndaikwanisa kutaura kuti

kana mangwana asi ndaida asarudze ega zuva

raive rakamunakira. "two weeks," akataura

ndikati, "saka unoudzaka Tete." Akabvuma

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nekukasika akati, "ndovaudza mangwana babie

don't worry."

Muviri wangu wakange wava kudziya

ndichibatwa na Tau. Ndakatya kakufemereka

kake, ndaiziva kuti kana odaro zvatokwidza.

Akandiradzika pasi, kissing me nekundibata

zvaindishaisa simba. Ndakatanga kubatwa

nekadzungu kaye zvekare ndikati, "Tau

ndakunzwa dzungu zvinhu zvako izvi

zvinorwarisa."

"Ehe zvinorwarisa mbichana, if you pay

attention unonzwa kurwara kuye kwachinja."

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Zvakandityisa ndikati, "aewa ko ndikatadza

kufema andichagone kufema zvakanaka ini."

Ndakange ndava kutadza kufema, iye achitaura

kuti that was normal. Ndakaona kuti

ndanyeperwa chete asi nekuti simba rakange

rava shoma andina kukwanisa kumumisa

zvaaiita.

Akazevezera akati, "ndoda kutamba nezvuma

zvangu." Akatanga kuzvibata sucking my

nipples slowly kwava kutsudzunura Zambia

randaive ndakamonera. Kuti ndimise masounds

andaiita ndakatadza akauya pamusoro pangu

akandirarira akandivhura makumbo. Maoko angu

akamira kumubata ndikati, "Tau zvakwana hona

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andisisina kupfeka." Iye akange asisina t-

shirt yake, akandigumha gumha pakati akati,

"uri mukadzi wangu kare you know that wani."

Kugumhiwa kwacho kwakandimhanyisa ropa

ndakange ndotambisa chiuno sekudzidziswa

kwatainge takaitwa kuti ndiwo mutambirirwo

unoitwa murume.

Hamheno zvakangondibatawo panguva yacho,

ndakafuririka ndikamutendera kusara asina

chinhu I wanted him to do it. Ndakanyatsonzwa

zvichinaka paakange ondibata pakati

pemakumbo ipo pachitsvedzerera. Achingobva

kugumisa iye Tau mudiki Matilda akachema

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achidaidza Zita rangu. Ndakavhunduka

ndichisunda Tau, ndakanhonga top kwava

kupfeka fast nekumonera Zambia ndichiti

hamheno zvaitika kwaari.

Ndakabuda panze running to the bedroom

akati, "sisi kani mumba mune nyoka."

"Iri pai?" Ndakavhunza hana ichirova ndava

kushaiwa kuti saka ndoita sei. Ndakatanga

kufunga huni, rushed into the kitchen

ndikawana Tau achipfeka ndikati, "nyoka

Tau." Ndakasimudza huni rushed outside iye

akati, "Mira, mira hausi kuziva kuti iri

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kupi." Ndakange ndovhura door zvishoma

ndikati, "wakwira pamubhedha here?"

"Ndipo pandiri,"akadaira sounding scared Tau

akati, "mainini iri kuside ripi chaizvo."

Akataura Tau kwava kupinda mukati ndikasara

ndakamira padoor uneasy. "Bamkuru chenjerai

imi," Matilda said to him asi Tau haana

kudaira ndakatonzwa kuti arova something.

"Hiii," said Matilda ndikaona Tau achibuda

Mumba nayo. "Yanga ichitadza kufamba pafloor

iyi, koimimi munosiya door rakavhurika sei?"

Matilda akadaira akati, "bamkuru andisiye

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door rakavhurika ini, inyaya yekuti

zvangoitika nguva diki pandabuda ndichienda

kutoilet." Ndakaitarisa ndikabata hana yangu

yairova, nyoka ndicho chinhu chandaisada

zvangu kunzwa nezvacho. Akanoirasa kure

ndikasara ndakamira ndichidedera,

kundishevedza kwainge kwaita Matilda had

left my body shaking.

"Ko zvawava kuita kunge ndiwe wafambwa

nenyoka?" Asked Tau andiona shaking ndikati,

"you have no idea nezvandanzwa andidi

nyoka." Akandibata ruoko akati, "yafa chiuya

ugare pasi." We went back into the kitchen

Matilda akatevera imomo afraid of being

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alone. Takapedzisira taronga zvekuti tirare

zvedu mukutchen hapana akange oda kurara

mubedroom macho.

Tau akazoona kuti hapana hapana akaoneka ava

kuenda kumba.

"Ko imi sisi asi mune zvamanga mava kuitwa

na Bamkuru?" Asked Matilda ndikati,

"zvinengei?" Akaseka akati, "ndanzwa kuti

manga muchichemerera ini." Ndakamusikiza

mbama ndikati, "ziva zvekurara apa, asi

ndiwe wapinza nyoka mumba."

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"Ndagova muvhimi here anovhima nyoka nhai

sisi ah, ndisiyei zvangu ini." Ndakanzwa

kunyara kuti ndanzwikwa. Ndakabva

ndatovharisa nyaya dzacho ndikati munhu

ngaarare. Ndavhara maziso ndakange

ndotongorota Tau nezvese zvatainge taita

nekupotsa kuita. Ndakavhura maziso, ndikaona

message yekuti ainge asvika kumba.

"Ndanzwikwa na Mati, ndiri kunyara zvekuti

ipapa?" Ndakamuudza akati, "kunyara kuri

nani, ndiri kurwadziwa ipapa ndazvimba haa

usadaro Ndai. Unoda ndiite sei asi kana

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zvichinge zvakadai?"

"Zviri kunyanya kurwadza here?" Ndakavhunza

akati, "zvekuti ndouya here ndikutore?"

Ndakaramba ndikati, "aewa ko Matilda anozoti

chii pamusoro pangu, she even asked kuti

wanga uchindiita sei." Haana kuzodaira kubva

ipapo iniwo ndichibva ndanyarara.

Olivia akandimutsa kuseni, uyuwo Matilda

ainge abuda kare kuenda kuchikoro writing

her june exams. "Ko uchiri wakarara, ko

wakarara mukitchen?" She asked me ndikati,

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"ehe mumba makapinda nyoka nezuro husiku."

"Nyoka?" Akavhunza ndichimuka kuti ndipete

magumbeze. Ndakatanga kurondedzera nyaya

ndichipeta akati, "mmm inga zvakaoma, anyway

ndiri kuenda kuharare kunohodha."

"Wakazopihwa mari na Shepherd?" Ndakavhunza

akati, "ehe ndakapihwa nezuro, ndoda

kunohodha zvima Crocs izvo haa ndogona kuita

mari nazvo." Ndakabvumirana naye, ini wacho

ndainzwa nungo asi ndaitodawo kunohodha

zvekare. Ndakafunga kugeza kuti ndibude

naye, tava munzira ndipo paakati, "asi

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nhaiwe asi Tsungai na Tau vanowirirana

zvekudaro here?"

"Unorevei?" Ndakavhunza akati, "ah

ndakamuona achibuda mushop yaTau nezuro and

shop yacho ndainge ndasvika yakavharwa."

Ndakamutarisa ndikati, "kuvharirwei?"

"Andisi kuziva andina kumuvhunza," akadaira

ndichibva ndatura mafemo ndikati,"She gave

me a lift nezuro wacho ndichibva kumashops.

Akataura akati they are just friends wani."

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"Ndangovhunza Ndai," she said asi moyo wangu

wakange watovhiringidzika. "Nezuro manheru

akataura zvekuroora in two weeks."

Ndakataura akati, "it's okay let's just go

to town." Ndakaramba kusiya nyaya ndikati,

"paakabuda pacho what happened?" Akaramba

akanyarara ndikati, "just tell me sha."

"Hapana Ndai, she ran back to the shop and

hugged him handina chimwe chandakaona ini."

Kungonzwa zvehug moyo wangu wakatsva kana

zvekuenda kuharare kwacho I didn't want

anymore. Ndakamanikidzira ndikahodha

tikadzoka. Ndakasvikogara kumba moyo

uchitsva kwava kusimuka ndichienda kubasa

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kwa Tau.

Akanditarisa smiling, ndakatadza

kunyemwerera I didn't have reason to. "Chii

babie?" He asked me ndikati, "iwewe

wakavharira Tsungai muno nezuro anditi ka,

tell me kuti maiitei shop yako yakavharwa?"

"Watanga kuteerera makuhwa?" He asked me

ndikati, "aewa Tau haasi makuhwa, ndiudze

kuti chii chiri kuitika. Why did she run back

and hug you, waimupa hug yei?" Maziso angu

akange atoyangarara misodzi akati, "okay

calm down please."

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"Andisi kukwanisa Tau," ndakamuudza akati,

"dambudziko nyaya ikabva nekune mumwe munhu

haibude zvakanaka inobuda nemumwe mutowo."

"Ingondiudza iwewe then," ndakakumbira

akati, "Tsungi akauya ndichiita stock take.

Kana ndichiita stock take ndovhara shop inga

unozviziva wani. I simply opened akapinda

ndikavhara kuti ndiyende mberi nezvandaiita.

Haana kana kutombogara babie, akataura neni

nguva diki akabuda ava kuenda. She had

forgotten her phone, ndakadaidzira atove

mumumota, she came out running took the

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phone, yes she hugged me akati, thanx Tau.

"Haagone here kuita thanks yacho pasina

hug?" Ndakada kunzwisisa akati, "Ndai

unoziva wani city life munhu anenge akajaira

zvekutown." Ndakaramba ndikati, "kuno hakusi

kutown, wakambondiona ndichihugger Trust

here. Saka ndizvo zvakaitika here ndofamba

hangu ndichipa vanhu vese mahug nekuti

ndoiriko."

"Haa izvozvo hazviite manje," akaramba

ndikati, "saka ndiri kufanira kufeeler sei?"

Ndakadonhedza misodzi achibva anditora to

hug me ndikati, "andisi kuda, iwewe

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wakapihwa kare hug na Tsungai uri kuda imwe

yei?"

"Ndai please, sorry, I'm sorry babie I'm

sorry." Akamanikidzira hugging me kusvika

ndabvuma ndikati, "Tau hausi kundinyepera

here?" Akaramba akandibata kwava kufonera

Tete akati, "Tete date ndava naro," akabva

atotaura ipapo, looked at me akati, "do you

believe me now?"
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Tau

She nodded achigara pachair yaive mushop,

ndikatora an empty bottle ndichida

kunomutsvagira something to eat. After

buying chocolate coated biscuits nedrink,

ndakafamba ndava kudzokera kushop kwandainge

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ndasiya Ndai. Ndaizvivhunza kuti ndiani

zvekare ainge ataura zvakadaro kwaari, shook

my head and wondered how long she would be

fed information about me. The last thing I

wanted was for her to believe that I didn't

love her anymore, my feelings for her had

not changed by a single bit.

Ndakamupa drink nemabiscuits asi akamaramba.

She was sitting looking down achifunga,

andina kumunetsa asi hana yangu yairova all

I wanted was for her to talk to me and tell

me that we were okay. Ndakagara paside pake

quietly ndikapuruzura musana kusvika

anditarisa. "Chidya something," I said

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akati, "aewa," achizunguza musoro."

"Chidya mukadzi wangu," ndakataura

ndichinyengerera ndikati, "ini ndicharwa

nevanhu vanoda kuti kanganisa just eat

please." Ndakavhura mabuscuits acho, took

one ndikamudyisa. Akatsenga zvishoma kwava

kuramba ndichipuruzira musana sendiri

kunyengerera mwana mudiki.

"Ndivhure drink?" Ndakavhunza iye kwava

kungonditarisa ndakanyemwerera ndikavhura,

pandakada kumunwisa akatora akanwa ega.

Ndakaona ava kunyevenuka zvishoma

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nezvishoma, kusvika ava kutonyemwerera

ndikati, "ndonakirwa nekuona mazino ako when

you smile."

"Haa Tau," akanyaririra ndikati, "akanaka

nekuchena zvese." She sighed staring at me

ndikati, "ndanonokerwa nekuti undizvarire

vana."

"Wakuda vana?" Akandivhunza ndikati, "newe

ehe, a little us, a symbol of our love,

mudiwa wangu." Akanyemwerera ndikati,

"wakaponeswa nenyoka ka nezuro, marovero

andakaiita soo ka." Akagegedza iniwo

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ndichibva ndaseka akati, "Tau wakakwana here

asi?"

"Ndakaitarisa ndikaita sendichaisvina.

Ndakaivhunza ka pandakanoirasa ndikati,

tsano matumwa here chii nemi?"

"Kuvhunza nyoka?" She asked laughing asi

ndaitorevesa nekuti nyoka iyoyo yainge

yandikanganisa. Kana kurara ndakatadza

kurara nekuda kwekutorwadziwa kuti

ndavhiringwa nezvinhu zvisina basa.

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"Kwakanaka sei uku," ndakataura ndichireva

zvandainge ndaona pakati pemakumbo ake.

Akazama kuhwanda nenyadzi ndikati, "haa

ndichafa zvangu I know." She placed a finger

on my lips akati, "Tau usataure nyaya idzodzo

hamheno zvandonzwa."

With a smile I brushed her hair ndikati,

"ndoda kuti urukwe zvakanaka anditi, ndoda

kuroora munhu akachena musoro." Ndakaburitsa

mari ndikamupa, kissed her ndikati, "babie

do something nice anditi?" Akasimuka ava

kuda kuenda, ndakatarisa zvaive kumashure

uku nechemumoyo ndikati, "vadzimu

ndisunungureiwo." Ndakafamba naye until the

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door, closed it ndichida kuratidza rudo kuna

Ndaizivei. I wanted her to know that I was

still her man uye ndaitomuda.

"Ndokuona kumba," ndakamuudza ava kuenda

ndichibva ndavhura door. Paakaenda ndakasara

ndikazvivhunza zvekare kuti who could have

seen me na Tsungai. The only person aiziva

Ndai was Shepherd asi handina kufungira kuti

angasvike pakundiitira makuhwa he was my

best friend.

I called him ndikati, "wangu do you know

something?" Akavhunza zvandaireva ndikati,

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"Ndai was asking me about Tsungai." Akaseka

akati, "Tsungai akawonekwa na Olivia."

Ndakazunguza musoro ndichipukuta kumeso

ndikati, "haa saka pakaipa, nowonder she was

that angry."

"Washinga here?" He asked me ndikati,

"ndovada vese sha."

"Zvinonetsa ndezvekuti panapa pane vanhu

vanoziva iwewe na Ndai, kuuya kwa Tsungai

muchizovhara madoor and all inyaya

isingatane kufamba. I'm not saying kuti

Olivia ndiye akaisvitsa asi kunogona kune

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mumwe munhu akakuonai."

"Munhu wako sha, I know they are friends and

all but zvimwe zvinhu hazvisi zvekumhanya

kutaura."

"I would do the same," Shepherd akataura

akati, "you are my friend, same as Olivia

and Ndai, hapana paaizonyarara Tau let's be

realistic." Ndakawirirana nazvo ndikati,

"anyway thats all I wanted to know waita basa

wangu but dai wakanditipirawo."

"She never asked me about it that's why

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ndisina kuita basa nazvo."

"Its okay," ndakataura ndava kukata call.

Ndakafonera sekuru ndikati, "Sekuru ndiri

kuda mombe kaini."

"Wakazoti chii nenyaya yekuroora?"

Vakavhunza ndikati, "mavhiki maviri Sekuru

ndichauya ndotaura nemi ndine nyaya

yandinayo."

"Mari yacho yakwana here haikona

kundisimudzira mari isina basa."

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Zvakandisekesa ndikati, "sekuru zvakarongeka

don't worry about me."

Tsungai

Pfungwa dzaive kure when I walked from my

bedroom ndichienda kunotora chekudya. I was

close to the kitchen when I looked kudining

ndikaona Monalisa akapfugama achigeza daddy

maoko. Ndakamira ndikatarisa sezvo ndaive

ndakanzi ndichiita ndichitarisa zvinenge

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zvichiitika kana mama vasipo. Not that

ndizvo chaizvo zvandaiita ipapo asi kuti I

had never seen my mother doing it to my

father. Akapedza akavapukuta maoko,

vakanyemwerera vakavhurirwa plate yaive

yakavharwa iine chikafu, baba vangu

vaifarira kudyira muplate yesimbi kunyangwe

zviite sei.

Mama had made sure to get him plates from

kangol aive akamirira daddy, hamheno kuti

zvaive nemusiyano here pakudya pacho.

Ndakatura mafemo ndikazembera madziro

ndakatarisa ndikazobva ndaona ava kufamba

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kuuya kukitchen. Ndakagara imomo, looked at

my food, iye akapinda akati, "Is there

anything you need me to do for you."

"Why do you wash my father's hands like

that?" Ndakaerekana ndavhunza. It was

obviously a question yakauya asina

kutarisira zvekuti naiyewo akangoshama

akazama kutaura asi akatadza. All she said

was, "I'm sorry if its not proper."

"Andina kuti it isn't proper ini

ndangovhunza kuti why?" She cleared her

throat akati, "ndikadira mvura chete he does

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not wash his hands."

"It's okay," ndakadaira ndatoona kuti answer

yandiri kuda ndaikwanisa kuishaiwa. Akabuda

achienda ndikasara ndodya ndiri ndega

mukitchen. Pandakabuda ndakananga kunorara

asi ndaingonzwa kakusagadzikana muhana

mangu. I was not going to work early the next

day, ndakamuka daddy vatoenda, passed by my

mother's bedroom and saw Monalisa making the

bed. She picked up my fathers dirty clothes,

ndakasuduruka when she was leaving his room

achibuda nehembe dzaive netsvina.

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Andina zvandakataura nekuti zvaaiita was

nothing new even mama varipo she would do

the same. I decided to walk up to her smiling

ndikati, "Monalisa." Akaratidza

kusagadzikana ndikati, "whaat, indava chiso

chako chisiri kufara?"

Akada kutaura akatadza ndikati, "haunete

nekushanda here?" Akadaira akati, "ibasa

rangu andikwanise kuneta ndozoitirwa naani?"

Ndakagara where she had placed the washing,

ndikati, "haufanire kushanda none stop

zvinozoita here unozvikuvadza nekushanda?"

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Akaseka akati, "some of us do not have it

that easy Tsungai, we don't have it easy at

all." Ndaida kunzwisisa zvaaitaura asi

ndakatadza kwava kusimuka ndikati, "ndanga

ndichingotaurawo zvangu kuti here and there

unofanira kuzorora, rega ndiyende zvangu

kubasa."

Ndakanogeza ndikabuda ndava kuenda kubasa,

ndavako zvekare ndainzwa kuti ndasuwa Tau.

Akafona ndava kuda kumufonera ndikati,

"wafona ndava kufona."

"Hana dzedu dzaroverana," akataura zvinyoro

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nyoro ndikati, "ndiri kukufunga Tau."

Akadaira akati, "ndikakuudza zvinoita as if

I'm lying asi ndiri kutadza kugadzikana."

"Uri kuuya riini kuharare?" Ndakavhunza

akati, "kuswera mangwana ndiri kuuya."

Ndakasurukirwa ndikati, "Tau huya mangwana

ndokuperekedza."

"Ndanga ndisina kuronga zvekuuya mangwana

ini," akadaro ndikati, "babie ndokumbirawo."

Akapedzisira abvuma ndikanzi, "uri kuda

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ndiuye nguvai?" Ndakamuudza dzandaida

dzacho, mupfungwa dzangu ndainge ndava

kuronga where I wanted to go with him just

to relax tiri two. Kungoziva chete kuti ari

kuuya zvakanditadzisa kugadzikana, ndaiita

kunge ndiri kutoona asvika, nezvese

zvandaida kuita naye ndaitowona zvese

mupfungwa dzangu.

Ndakasvika kumba ndichitonzwa kufarisa,

ndakataura namama ndichivhunza when she

would be back vakati, "ko ndingauye before

weekend here waita mwana mudiki here?"

Ndakaseka ndikati, "haa mama handina kudaro

ini, kutongokusuwai chete."

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"I bought you stuff," vakataura ndikati,

"aewa ndiigirei tuma fleece nditwo twandiri

kuda itwotwo."

"Ndakatenga kare Tsungai, I'm spending my

husband's money, kushanda kwake kushandira

ini saka don't worry I'm covered."

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*Chapter9*

*Monalisa

Ndaive pakati pekurongedza hembe, Tsungai

paakapinda akati, "Mona hesi ndadzoka."

Chero zvazvo ndaive nekakumuzeza

ndakagutsurira musoro ndikati, "waswera

sei." Ndakatarisa zvandaiita akati,

"ndaswera, haa nhasi ndakaneta ndichamboenda

kunorara."

"Ndokumutsa kana ndichinge ndapedza kubika?"

Ndakavhunza iye akanyemwerera achibvuma

nemusoro. Paakabuda ndakasara ndikatura

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mafemo. Kubva musi waandivhunza pamusoro

pekugezesa baba vake maoko ndakange ndava

kunzwa kumuzeza. Ndakanzwa achivhara door

remumba make ini ndikabuda ndichienda

kunotora dzimwe hembe dzaida kurongedzwa.

Nguva idzodzo ndaitarisira kuti her father

would be back home any minute. Knowing how

he loved his dinner on time ndaida kukasika

kubika ndichidawo kuzokasika kurara.

Andina kuziva kuti vatosvika kana sound

yemota ndainge ndisina kuinzwa, maybe I had

been so focused nezvandaiita ndikasanzwa

kupinda kwazvo. Ndakaziva nekubatwa muchiuno

ndichibva ndavhunduka ndikajamba. Hana yangu

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yakarova looked at him ndikati,

"munondiuraya nekundivhundutsa."

Ndakatarisa kudoor, ndichida kuona kuti

hapana aivepo here vakati, "asi pane mumwe

munhu anobata chiuno chako nhai Monalisa?"

"Hapana daddy," ndakadaira ndikati, "asi

musadaro ndakataura wani kuti

hazvindiitire."

"Ucharamba kusvika riini Monalisa,

ndakakuudza kare kuti nyangwe ukada

kuwanikwa nemumwe munhu hazvife zvakaita."

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"Why do you have to threaten me like that?"

Ndakavhunza nekuti nyaya yacho ndiwo aive

matangiro nemaperero ayo. Ndikada kuramba

chete vaitotaura kuti hapana kwandaizoenda

zvikabudirira.

He still held my waist and said,"I'm not

threatening you, andizive kana iri mhosva

kukuda." Ndakavhunza ndikati, "ndofanira

kutsanangura zvakaita sei, andidi zvemurume

ane mukadzi wake ini."

"Ndiyo reason yacho chete here Monalisa,

mukadzi wacho wauri kutaura kuti ndinaye ari

kupi?" Vakandivhunza asi kubuda kwemukadzi

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wavo kwese vaikuziva. "Kufamba kwavo anditi

ndimi here munokuziva daddy, saka why muri

kuda kuita as if hamuzive."

"Dai ndaive ndega waindida anditi?" He asked

me ndikati, "ah andina kubvira ndazvifunga

nenzira yakadaro ini." Ndakavharirwa nzira

ndava kuda kuenda vakati, "Tanga

wandidaira." I looked at him ndikati, "aewa

ndaisambokudai ini." Vakaseka vakati, "saka

iwewe unofunga kuti ungandinyepere here

kusvika ipapo?" Ndakange ndisisazive kuti

ndiri kufanira kutaura kuti chii nekuti as

long as I opposed him vaitotaura kuti ndiri

kunyepa.
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"Ndava kuda kunobika," ndakataura

ndichikumbira kuvhurirwa nzira vakati, "hug

me first." Ndakazunguza musoro vakati, "uyu

musoro ndichaudimbura nekushandiswa kuita

zvimwe zvinhu zvandinenge ndisingade kuti

uite. Why musoro uyu uchibvuma zvese zvese."

"Sorry," ndakadaro hoping that he would let

me go asi vakaramba kusvika vandidhonzera

pavari and hugged me. "hug me back

ndokuregedza," he said ndichibva ndaramba

vakati, "Monalisa I won't let you go if you

don't hug me?" I hugged him nekukasika kwava

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kuregedza vakati, "ah iwe what kind of a hug

was that, tiri vana vadiki here, dzosera

maoko kuseri kwangu." Ndakadzosera ndaona

kuti azvina zvazviri kubatsira.

"Much better," he said squeezing me tightly,

kwava kudzikisa maoko vakamafambisa zvekare

kumusana kwangu. Ndakada kubva ndikati,

"daddy musarambe muchidaro."

"Sorry maoko haasi kukwanisa kumira Mona."

Vakataura vachiramba vachindibata.

Kupukunyuka kwacho kwakaramba nekuti he was

stronger than me. Ndakatanga kuda kuchema

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ndikati, "daddy musandidaro." He looked at

me vakati, "saka uri kuda kuchema here

Monalisa, why don't you let me be the man in

your life unozoona wega kuti it's worth it."

"You are lying kunenge kuri kundishandisa

mondisiya, ko mama vanoti kudii muchidai?"

"Monalisa kani," he said trying to kiss me

ndichinzvengesa muromo, vakati, "do you

think I will allow anyone to kiss you?"

Ndakadaira ndikati, "ndinongogara ndakadaro

it's not as if I will die without anyone

kissing me. I was kissed before ndikaita

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nhumbu ndikasiiwa ndega hapana chinyowani.

I'm trying to work for my child and you are

doing this to me why?"

"Because you are being stubborn, what does

your daughter need that I cannot provide?" I

wiped a tear vakati, "you love me I know it

Monalisa, you may not say it but I know that

you love me." Ndainge ndava kuchema

vakanditarisa mumaziso vakati, "I know how

you look at me Mona, whatever you are afraid

of, I never said that I would leave you.

Whoever left you left you and I don't know

why you bother with that man." He took a deep

breath and said, "I wish that you could lose

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his number, if you don't, then I will tell

him to stay away from you."

"No William," ndakaramba vakati, "why do I

feel like besides my wife he is the other

reason you are not giving me a chance. Are

you having hope that he will come back and

fix things with you?"

I wiped my tear ndikati, "he wants to fix

things, we have talked about it already."

"Nooo you are not doing it Monalisa, I

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promise you, you will see the worst of me if

you do it." Ndakashama muromo in shock then

he kissed me. Ndaida kuzama kuona kuti

zvinoenda kupi na baba Rati but William was

not having it. Honestly muedzo wacho wakange

wava kundikurira zvichiwedzerwa with our

lips akange asangana ava kusada kusiyana. He

let me go and asked me, "unofunga kuti

unoenda kupi iwewe?"

Ndakatadza kudaira vakati, "saka uri serious

kuti haundide?" Mashoko akaramba kubuda

ndikanzi, "uri kuda ba Rati?" Ndakada

kudaira asi ndakaona kuti munhu wandava

kutaura naye pfungwa dzake dzava kuda

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kudambuka. Even though I was not his wife

asi ndaiziva zvangu kuti pasi pekuseka paive

nemunhu ane hasha dzekuti akafunga kuita

hutsinye ndiye futi.

He asked me zvikanzi, "uri kundidaira

nguvai?" Ndakabatwa nemweya wekutya kwava

kukakama kusvika ndati, "zvakwana daddy."

"Urikuda kuramba basa?" He asked me ndikati,

"aewa andina kudaro?"

"Saka inini ndini wauri kuda kuramba?"

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Ndakavhunzwa ndichibva ndati, "andigone

kudanana nemunhu ane munhu shanje

dzinozondikurira William."

"Takabvira kudanana kudhara you know it," he

said moving away from me. He sat on his bed

akati, "ndiri kunyepa here, the eye contacts

everything, I'm tired of the hide and seek,

it's clear kuti iwewe ndiwe wava kutamba

nemoyo wangu manje."

Ndakaramba ndakamira pandaive ndakamira, he

lay on the bed nemusana vakatarisa mudenga.

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I didn't know what to say or do, he called

me zvikanzi, "huya pano." Ndakaswedera

padhuze ndikasvikomira.

"Ndati huya pano," he said again ndikati,

"ndauya wani." He asked me zvikanzi, "ndipo

pandiri here ipapo?" Ndakaona kuti hapana

kumira zvakanaka kwava kutiza hangu nekuti

he was on the bed ini ndakamira kwangu ndega.

Ndakasvika kukitchen ndiine confusion,

trying hard to think zvichiramba.

Kana kubika kwandakaita ndakatya kuti

zvichatadza kudyika. Tsungai akakumbira

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kuunzirwa kubedoom kwake, ndakanosiya ikoko

ndikaenda kunopa daddy chikafu.

Vakanditarisa ndikatarisa pasi kwava kutanga

havo kudya. He stopped eating vakati, "ndiwe

wabika?" Ndakabvuma nemusoro ndikati, "I'm

sorry I was disturbed nezvaitika." Vakaenda

mberi nekudya finished eating quietly

ndikavageza maoko.

Ndakatora nguva ndiri mukitchen, cleaning

and getting ready for bed but the whole time

ndaifunga how I was going to handle my

situation, I was caught inbetween

ndichifanira kusarudza pakati pemurume

akandimitisa akandisiya and the married man

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I worked for.

After a deep breath I went to my room, took

my towel ndikanogeza, zvese izvozvo yaive

nyaya yekuda kunzwisisa kuti saka ndiri

kufanira kuita sei. Ndakapedza kugeza

wrapped a towel around me ndikapinda muroom

mangu only to find William sitting on the

chair.

"Close the door," he said ndichibva

ndatarisa door as if it was something that I

didn't know kuti ndiro door racho.

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*Monalisa*

Ndakamira ndakangotarisa door at the same

time with questions, what was he doing in

my room, why I had to close the door and what

he wanted to do in my room at that time of

the night. I tried faking a smile at the same

time trying to control how my heart was

pounding, ndakazongonzwa door ravharwa na

William, locked it kwava kufamba kuenda

kunorara on my bed looking up.

"Wha what was that?" Ndakavhunza nezwi raive

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pasi at the same time ndisingade kunzwikwa

nemumwe munhu ndikanzi, "I closed the door

anditi wanga uchitadza." Ndakatarisa kudoor

zvekare as if I was double checking kuti

ndione kuti ravharwa zvechokwadi here. I

didn't know what to do anymore kwava

kumutarisa ndikati, "why did you lock the

door, you should not be in this room. What

if Tsungai looks for you, kana kuti mama

vakaerekana vadzoka then what?"

"Come here, unless you want me to bring you

here." Akataura not smiling, neither did he

look angry ndikati, "I need to dress up

William stop acting like you are mad."

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Ndakafamba ndiine kakudedera ndikanomira pa

wardrobe ndichida kutsvaga chekupfeka

nekukasika. The wardrobe had been locked

kuita as if he had locked the door knowing

that I would look for something to wear.

Feeling a little defeated I looked at him

ndikanzi, "I simply want to talk, our

conversation ended nekuti iwewe waona

zvakanaka kunditiza. Maybe tomboti the room

made you uncomfortable saka ndauya."

"Mama vakaziva kuti you were in this room

ndinofa honestly, chibvai ipapo daddy

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mudzokere kuroom kwenyu kani."

"Come here," he said ndikaramba ndakamira.

He shook his head and said, "fine let me come

to get you," ndakaramba ndikati, "okay wait,

promise you won't do anything stupid I will

scream."

"Okay," he answered ndikafamba kunomira

kumakumbo. "Ndambokuti chii pawamira

kumakumbo earlier." He asked me ndikati,

"zvinoita here kuti ndiuye ipapo ndiine

towel chete and besides azviite kuti muve

ipapo futi."
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"Ndati huya pano," vakadzokorora kutaura

vakati, "do you want me to call ba Rati?"

"Where did you get his number?" Ndakavhunza

worried vakati, "haisi iyi here," kwava

kudaidzira kuti ndinzwe ndikanzwa dziridzo.

Ndakatenderera pfungwa ndikanzi,

"ndomufonera uyu," then he dialed the

number.

"It's okay ndouya don't call him," ndakadaro

ndavakuenda pamubhedha ndikanzi, "do I have

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to threaten you kuti uite zvandinenge

ndichida kuti uite?"

"Hazvisi kunakidza William," ndakadaira

ndasvika padhuze ndikanzi, "once you call me

William zvadhakwa and you know it. Simba

rekundidaidza nezita ndiro randipa simba

rekupinda muno."

"Ok sorry daddy ndichamira kukudaidzai

nezita," ndakazama negotiating ndikanzi,

"saka kunditi daddy ndiko kunoita?"

Ndakadaira ndikati, "anditi ndizvo

zvandakanzi ndinofanira kukudaidzai

ndichiita here?" Mukadzi wavo ndiye akange

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akanditi vanonzi daddy saka ndaidaidzawo

sekuudzwa kwandainge ndakaitwa.

"Okay fine chisiya daddy vaite zvinoita

daddy," ndakabva ndaiswa pamusoro pavo kuti

ndivararire. Ndakazvitya ndikati, "aewa

daddy andisi kuzvida izvozvo."

"He is one call away and you know that," he

reminded me about ba Rati ndichibva

ndapererwa kwava kunyarara kutaura tichibva

tatarisana. "Saka uri kuda kuchemei?"

Ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "andisati ndarara

nemurume asiri ba Rati and andisi kuda kurara

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newe William. Moyo wangu hauzokwanise

zvinogona kutevera after that." I was very

afraid of what may happen to me afterwards,

he was a married man I could not expect a

commitment, he was a man I could not expect

love from, it was complicated and I didn't

want to bring trouble to my already

complicated life.

He kissed me and ignored zvandaitaura, it

was obvious he was not bothered he didn't

want to listen to me anymore. Kwaari all

about his wife all about baba Rati didn't

matter to him, he wanted what he wanted and

he was getting it. Ndaiti ndikada kuzvibvisa

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paari ndodzoswa neforce kusvika ndava kunzwa

kupera simba with the more he caressed my

body. If he didn't caress me better than baba

Rati maybe zvaikwanisa kuita nyore kwandiri

asi ndakaona musiyano wemabatiro muviri

wangu ukatanga kunakidzwa. Maoko ake akange

atokwidza towel leaving my ass outside,

kamhepo kacho ndakakanzwa asi panguva yacho

what he was doing to my ass was making my

whole body want more. My legs had been spread

kurarira kwandakange ndakaita William

position yacho zvainge zvakatogumhanha.

On my mind I reminded myself that I was

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becoming one of those maids vaidanana na

boss, it didn't seem good, ndakada kubva

ndikadzoswa zvekare pasi ndikanzi, "stop

trying to resist me Monalisa." I was

breathing heavily, managed to respond

ndikati, "ndiri kutya William I don't want

to be one of those women that break people's

homes." He was caressing my breasts when he

asked me akati, "who breaks a broken home?"

"Yipi yacho iri broken?" Ndakavhunza then he

laughed akati, "Monalisa uri munhu mukuru

anditi, I don't have to spell things out to

you."
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"Kangani varume vachinyepa kuti things are

not good William, I'm not a child who can be

lied to by those words or any sweet words."

He kissed my nipples ignoring me,

ndakazongoona kuti he was nolonger dressed.

How I opened my legs andina kumbonzwisisa

asi kugumhiwa ndakakunzwa. Andina kubvira

ndaziva kuti kugumhiwa chete kunganaka

kudaro kana uchinge wabatwa zvinofadza

muviri. I moaned zvekuvhundukira ndikanzi,

"usade kundiona kunge inini nababa Rati

takafanana wazvinzwa." Vakange vasina

kufanana zvavo nekuti baba Rati vaive

nekamwe kakurwadzisa kavaiita. Ndakanzwa

ndononokerwa daddy vachiita kusikiza sikisa

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sevaivhura nzira. Ndakanzwa vachifemereka

vakati, "ndiri kunzwa kuda kumora huchi."

Ndakashaiwa kuti saka kunonoka kwacho kwaive

kutya kurumwa nenyuchi here nekuti

zvandakange ndonzwa zvaisada kuti vachimira.

Ndakange ndonyanya kushanyarika, pakapinda

musoro ndakachema ndikati, "daddy chii

chamaita," kwava kugamuchira zvakatevera

muviri uchishama kuti zviriko here.

"Monalisa," vakataura zita rangu rese, ini

ipapo ndakange ndotadza kunzwisisa kuti chii

chava kuitika kudaro, kutadza kuziva kuti

vane mushonga unoita kuti zvinake kudaro

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here kana kuti chaiva chii.

"Monalisa," vakandidaidza zvekare asi

ndakange ndonyanya kuchemera kuti

zvichinyatsouya zvese, ndakatambirira

kuratidza kuti zviri kuita. Ndakange

ndovabatawo kwese crying none stop kunzwa

kuti havasivo vaimora huchi ini zvangu

Monalisa ndini ndakange ndomora huchi. Kubva

ndisangane nababa Rati zvinhu zvakadaro

ndainge ndisina kuzvinzwa, ndaingoziva

kufadza murume zvopera zvakadaro asi na

William ndakafadzwa zvandisina kubvira

ndaona.
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Vakazevezera vakati, "Mona, ndiudze kuti

huchi huri hwega here uhwu." Ndakadaira

ndakabatirira ndikati, "daddy hamuna

kundiudza kuti zvinhu izvi zvinonaka kudai."

Vakadaira vakati, "anditi ndiwe wanga

uchizviramba here?"

"Sei zvava kudarikidza," ndakavhunza ndanzwa

gear rachinja vakati, "hazvisati zvambosvika

apa here?" Ndakaramba ndikati, "nhai daddy

mukamira ndopona here?" I was about to scream

loud vakati, "ndikamira unofa siya

zviwedzerese." Mutambiro wacho wandakaita

kana pana baba Rati andina kuwuita, kunzwa

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gotsi kuoma kutarisa munhu kudai ndikati,

"daddy mandibaya panonaka." Vakashinyirawo

vakati, "chiuya Mona." Ndakashaiwa kuti

kuuya kupi, asi ndakanzwisisa pakaregedza

muviri ukatanga wega kupopota nekunakirwa.

Vakandivhura muromo newavo vakaita noise

yavo vakandivhara muromo. Ndakaita nguva

ndiri in a state of shock zvainge zvaitika

chaizvo chaizvo andina kuzvinzwisisa asi ivo

vakanditarisa vakati, "waita basa

nekundifadza kwakadai." Ndakatura mafemo

ndikazunguza musoro, vakanyemwerera vakati,

"unochema kudaro Mona?" Ndakanyara ndikati,

"chiregai kutaura nezvazvo kani."

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Ndakatekenyedzwa kusvika ndava kuseka

vakati, "ndokumbirawo kurara muno." Panguva

yacho nezvandakange ndanzwa ndakaona kuti

kudzinga munhu andifadza kudaro hwatova

hutsinye.

Ndichipukuta kudai ndakashaiwa kuti ndiwo

mudziyo wakange wandichemedza kudaro, kana

hope dzacho hadzina kutana kuuya. Four

kuseni dzakakwana ndichinzwa kufemerwa

mugotsi zvikanzi, "Mona murume anomutswa."

"Mamukasei," I whispered zvikanzi,

"kundimutsa hwai kwakadaro?"

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"Ndokumutsai sei?" Ndakaita sendisiri kuziva

vakati, "ndiri kutoda kunzwa uchichema

chete." Vakasimudza gumbo vakapfekera

nekuseri ikoko. Ndakachema ndikati, "daddy

madarireiko?" Vakadaira vakati, "sorry Mona

asi zviri mukati umu zvandikurira." Ndianiko

aiziva kuti kuseni hakuna kumira zvakanaka,

who knew kuti ndichabata gumbo ravo kuti

varambe varimo, kuchema ndichirasa

magumbeze. Kutarisa munhu kudai ,kunzwa kuti

ava ndovanonzi varume.

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*Monalisa*

"Ndinoda kugeza newe," ndakaudzwa munzeve

vachiita zvekuzevezera zvaitekenyedza.

Ndakaita sendisina kunzwa ndikanzi, "iwe

Mona." Feeling a little embarrased, holding

on to the blanket I could feel him hand

holding my waist. He whispered again

ndichibva ndafunga kumuka nekuti nguva

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dzacho dzakange dzafamba.

"Ndazvinzwa," ndakadaira maziso angu

achitsvaga chandaikwanisa kuzvivhara nacho

asi hapana chaive padhuze panguva yacho.

Ndakatarisa William ndikanzi, "hande."

Kuramba ndakarara kwaive kumirira kuti amuke

ini ndosara ndichitevera mumashure. I was

not used to being naked around him, kana

kutova naye murudo ndakange ndisina kujaira

zvakanga zvichiri kundiremera.

"Ndoda kukugezesa," he said ndikati, "haa

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hakuna zvakadaro."

"Akusvibisa handisini here," he asked

laughing kwava kuuya pamusoro pangu

ndikanzi, "tiri kugeza nguvai?"

"Ndipei towel rangu," ndakataura ndichizama

kuritsvaga ndikanzi, "hande." Magumbeze

akaraswa kure ndikasara ndisina chinhu kwava

kuvhara mazamu angu akange akayamwiwa. He

chuckled and asked me why I was covering that

specific area. Nenyadzi ndakangoti hapana

asi ndichiziva kuti ndainyara nawo. "Haana

kumbodonha aya, wandisiya wani ndichimayamwa

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wakuda kumavanza ini ndapedza nawo kare."

Vachipedza kutaura he got off me, pulled me

from the bed ndikaendwa neni kubathroom.

Hana yangu yakange isisina kugadzikana

nekuti nguva dzekumuka kwa Tsungai dzakange

dzakwana. Semunhu akange akasika kurara

zvekare I expected her kuti akasike kumuka.

Izvozvo zvega ndizvo zvakaita kuti ndikasike

kugeza ndichitya kuti ndikaita zvekunyara

she would find her father leaving my room.

He went out of my room after that bath,

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ndikakasika kupfeka kuti ndimhanye

kunogadzira breakfast yekuti vadye.

Ndakapedza zvese Tsungai asati amuka,

zvekutya zvakasvika pakupera ndaona kuti

ndakange ndava kuzvinetsera pasina.

She only came into the dining when her father

sat to have his breakfast, iyewo achiratidza

kuti akange aine hope. "What can I give you,"

ndakavhunza ndichipedzisa kuisa sugar

mucoffee ya daddy, added more milk ndikavapa

kuti vanzwe. Maziso angu akaenda kuna

Tsungai uyo akange atarisa baba vake

ndikati, "tea or coffee?"

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"Coffee," akadaira nezwi remunhu akaneta

baba vake vakamuvhunza kana akange anonoka

kurara. "I slept early and woke up early

ndava kunzwa hope daddy." Ndakasiya

vachitaura ndikanouya necoffee yandakamupa

akati, "thanks Monalisa, I really needed

this." Ndakanyemwerera, looked at daddy

ndikaona vachibirira kunditarisa. Ndakanzwa

masvosve kufamba kwava kusuduruka ndichienda

kukitchen, stood there ndikashaiwa kuti

daddy ndivo here vakange vandichemedza

kudaro. Ndakanzwa ndava kuruma muromo

wepasi, smiled ndikadzokera kuroom kwangu

kunowaridza mubhedha.
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His boxer shorts were still on my bed,

chavainge vabuda nacho were simply his

bottoms, ndakasimudza ndichibva ndanowacha

ndikayanika before going back to the bedroom

kunowaridza. He called me paphone vakati,

"ndava kuenda kubasa."

"Ndiri kuwaridza," ndakadaira ndikanzi,

"Hauna kundipa laptop yangu." Ndakafamba

ndichibuda muroom mangu, went to his room

where I took his laptop ndikatevera kumota

nayo. Ndakamira ndichivatambidza, ndikanzi,

"wanga uchiri kuwaridza nanhasi?" Ndakadaira

ndikati, "aewa daddy asi masiya panty." He

narrowed his eyes, I smiled shyly ndikati,

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"boxer short."

"Saka wawacha panty racho?" Ndakavhunza

kwava kutanga kufamba ndichitiza.

Ndakadairira kure ndikati, "ehe ndawacha

rachena ndichakupai kana raoma."

"Iwe Mona," he tried kuti psiii ndichibva

ndafambisa ndichipinda mumba, ndaisada

kuramba ndakatarisana navo ndichinzwa

nyadzi. He called me again, ndakadaira

ndikanzi, "ndoda kudzoka ndichikuona usina

panty." Ndakangoti, "ah," kwava kukata

phone. Izwi ra Tsungai rakataura akati,

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"what happened." Hana yakarova, ndakamira

kufamba, looked at her ndikazama kumira

zvakanaka. Ndakanyemwerera zvenhema ndikati,

"haa baba Rati vanotaura zvisina basa

ndakata call nenyadzi chaidzo."

She sighed kwava kuita as if she had

something to say asi achishaiwa kuti otaura

sei. "Pane zvauri kuda kuti ndiite here?"

Ndakavhunza ndichireva kuti maybe she had

clothes that needed to be washed

nezvakangodaro daro. Akazunguza musoro

akati, "aewa handina anyway ndiri kunonoka

kubuda hangu don't worry."

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Ndai

Olivia akasvika ndatopedza ndikatora zvinhu

zvandaive nazvo kuti tibude. I was trying

kumudzidzisa kutengesa kuitira kuti even

ndisipo she would still be able to do it on

her own. Ndakavhara madoor akati, "ndatoti

pamwe ndichaona wapedza zvese kaini."

Ndakadaira ndikati, "haa ndapedza, inyaya

yekuti ndanga ndichingonzwa nungo,

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kutongonzwa kuti andisi kuda zvekufamba

nhasi."

"Saka ndini ndava kutokushusha ka," akataura

achisimudza zvinhu zvake ndikati, "kana,

mari ndiri kuida, gore rinouya ndoda kuti

Matilda aende ku A level."

Takabva pamba tava kufamba kuenda, kazuva

kacho kainzwika kuda kupinda muganda.

Ndakafunga kunotora umbrella ndikaona futi

kuti kuitakura kwacho yaigona kundiremera

kana kutozoirasa. Andina kufamba kuenda

kure, ndakanzwa kunge chuma changu

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chadambuka. Ndakamira kufamba kwava

kugadzika bag pasi. Ndakaona kudonha kwema

beads mashoma ndikanzwa kusagadzikana nekuti

chaisafanira kudambuka. Ndakamira looking a

little worried kwava kutsudzunura Zambia

randaive ndakapfeka asked Olivia to cover

for me. "Ko chadambuka asi wasimbisa?"

Akavhunza ndikati, "andina kusimbisa ini, my

waist is still the same Olivia." Ndakavhura

skirt ndikachibata kwava kusunga zvekare

feeling uneasy. Ndakazunguza musoro Olivia

akati, "saka chadambuka sei?" Semunhu

aisanzwisisa zvaiitika ndakazunguza zvekare

musoro ndikati, "honestly I don't know asi

hachifanire kudambuka."
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Immediately ndakanzwa kuti zvava kuipa

pandiri, opened my bag ndikaburitsa a pad

just Incase zvaigona kutanga anytime. It was

not because chuma changu chainge chadambuka

asi kutiwo nguva yacho yakange yaswedera

pedyo. "Nhasi zvineni," ndakataura

ndichiudza Olivia uyo akadaira akati, "haa

ndosaka wanga uchinzwa nungo handiti."

Ndakapfeka ndakanyarara ndikati, "hande shaa

andidi zvekupihwa stress nezvinhu zvisina

basa." Ndakasimudza bag rairema nezvinhu

tikatanga kufamba tichitaura nyaya on the

way. "Ndakamuvhunza about what you told me,"

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ndakaudza Olivia ndichireva nyaya ya Tau

akati, "wakamuudza kuti ndini ndakakuudza

here?" Ndakaramba akati, "good zvinozoita as

if ndini ndinofamba nemakuhwa."

Ndakadaira ndikati, "asiwo toti ndaona

zvandisinganzwisise pana shepherd

ndingatadze kukuudza here Olivia, hakuna

zvakadaro ndinotokuudza chete."

"Yaa even still, asika munhu wako haazogone

kuzvinzwisisa." Andina kupikisana nazvo,

takaenda mberi nekufamba ndikati, "anyway

hanzi akasvika Tau achiita stock take saka

akamuvhurira akapinda."
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"Hoo," akadaira ndikati, "do you think kuti

ari kunyepa, date rekuroora akabva ataura

hanzi two weeks of which apa tava kutotaura

kuti less than." Akadaira akati, "handigone

kutaura kuti anyepa here kana kuti haana

kunyepa nekuti munhu wako Ndai,

munonzwisisana. Kana ataura zuva rekuroora

kureva kuti he is serious with you zvana

Tsungai kutamba anditi?"

"Hanzi ishamwari," ndakamuudza akati, "saka

iwewe unotoda kuti Tsungai aite shamwari

yaTau here?" Honestly I didn't want,

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ndakamuudza ndikati, "akanditi I should be

friends with her." Olivia looked at me and

laughed, asked me akati, "unoda?"

"Koiwewe waenda kupi?" Ndakavhunza akati,

"hamheno munhu wako ari kuona as if I'm not

enough for you." Takaseka tese ndikati, "ah

iwe hamheno, ndichataura naye nekuti ini

hangu shanje ndinadzo, takapotsa tarara tese

musiuno ko akakurirwa akarara na Tsungi

muhushamwari hwavo. Ndakamuudza kuti zvema

hug avo andidi ngaiitire kuharare."

Takabva tamira pamashops tava kuverenga

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chiposter chaive chakanzi Enzo ari kuuya

kuzoimba kumhondoro. Ndakataura na Olivia

ndikati, "uyu munhu ndomufarira unoziva, haa

even Tau akaramba ndosva ndauya ndega."

Takarovama maoko akati, "kana neni, nguva

dzacho hapana kana anomboona kuti nhingi

anga ariko unless matotarisana mumaziso."

Ndakagegedza ndikati, "maramba kuroorwa, I

will just tell him kuti ndiri kuda kuenda

kushow ya Enzo, anongouyaka neni ah,

zvakaipei asi."

"Hazvina," akadaira achiswedera padhuze kuti

anyatsoona. Ipapo ndakafunga Tau ndikati,

"uri kupi shop yakavharwa." Akadaira akati,

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"ndaenda kunohoarder babie ndokuona

ndadzoka."

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*Tau*

"Hauna kutaura kuti uri kuenda kutown

kaiwewe," ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "ehe sorry

chirega ndiite zvandiri kuita." Ndaifunga

kuti achakata call asi akaramba aripo akati,

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"sei pauri pasina noise?" Ndakatarisa

Tsungai uyo wandaiona kuti kugadzikana kwake

kwava kunetsa.

Kuti mashoko abude akaramba

zvakandimanikidza kuti ndichikata call

ndikaisa pasilent. Kuti ndichitaura zvekare

na Tsungai ndakashaiwa mashoko,

takangotarisana ndikaisa phone pasi hoping

that I would find something to say to her

nekukasika.

Akatura mafemo kwava kugadzika a slice of

pizza pasi ndakazviona kuti kana kudya

kwacho kwava kumuremera. "Hauchada kudya?"

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Ndakavhunza ndichiramba ndakamutarisa

mumaziso, akazunguza musoro ndikati, "sorry

ndadaira call."

"Anditi ndizvo zvawanga uchida here it's

okay Tau." Kutiwo ndichidya ndakaremerwa

kwava kuregedza kudya tikagara

takangotarisana pasisina achakwanisa kuita

anything. I regretted answering that phone

nekuti maresults acho haana kundibudira

zvakanaka. "Ndozviziva kuti unotida tese,"

akapedzisira ataura ndikati, "shungu dzangu

hadzisi dzekukurwadzisa."

"Saka uchamuudza here kuti ndiripo, kana

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uchindida Tau."

"Kumuudza ndiko kuratidza kuti ndinokuda

here?" Ndakavhunza achibva ambotarisa vanhu

vaidarika. Akadzosa maziso kwandiri akati,

"ehe, unless uri kuda hako kuti tingoramba

takadai. Wadaira call yake ndiripo Tau,

akanyanya kukosha anditi, what do you want

me to do with my feelings, wadii kudaira

wabva pano?"

"Ndakanganisa Tsungai, I'm really sorry

andisi kuda kuti utsamwe, handina kuuya

kuzoti iwewe utsamwe." Akajenga misodzi

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akati, "I wanted our day to be special

ndisingade kufunga kuti when you go back

kuMhondoro kuna Ndai. I wanted to spend the

day with you tingori two chete, kungosiiwa

in my own fantasy hamheno kana ndiri kutaura

zvine musoro or asking for too much."

"Zvinawo musoro," ndakataura feeling worried

that I had messed up our entire day. It had

never been my intention, nguva idzodzo

ndakatanga kufunga kuti ndingamuudze chii

just to get her back in the mood.

Ndakasveerera ruva raive pedyo nesu

ndikadimbura kwava kuisa mumusoro make.

Akanditarisa ndikati, "rinomboziva here ruva

iri kuti wakanaka kuri darika." Akaribata

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keeping her eyes on me, smiled a little

ndikati, "kubva wanakira svoto kudaro."

Akapedzisira aseka akati, "Tau ka."

Ndakapuruzira musana wake, kissed her

zvishoma kwava kurara hangu manhede pamusoro

pezambia rake takagara zvedu mupark.

Ndakatura mafemo ndichiramba ndakamutarisa

ndikanzi, "saka uri kuhoader?" Ndakamumisa

ndikati, "tadii taisiya nyaya iyoyo

Tsungai."

"Ndiri kuvhunzaka," akataura seaida

kundidenha ndikati, "ehe ndiri kuhoader rudo

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kwauri asi hei nhasi ruri kudhura

zvekudaro." Ndakabva ndatora zvangu phone

yake akati, "uri kutsvagei imomo."

Ndakangoseka asi ndaitoda kuona vanhu

vaanotaura navo, ndakamupa kuti aise

password akati, "isa."

"Andirizive babie," ndakamuudza akati, "Isa

zita rako." Ndisati ndaisa ndakaramba

ndakamutarisa ndava kufunga kuti kwaingove

hako kuda kundifadza nenhema. Ndakaisa Zita

rangu and her phone unlocked kwava

kusekerera feeling loved ndikati, "wanga uri

serious." I was welcomed by a photo of us

akati, "ndogara ndichikufunga."

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Ndakaenda zvangu kuwhatsapp kwake scrolling

through ndichimuvhunza kuti ndivanaani

achitaura. Ndakavhura yeshamwari yake

ndikati, "saka haazive kuti ndiriko here?"

Akazunguza musoro which put me off a little

ndikati, "why, how can your friend not know

kuti ndiriko." Akatarisa kuside akati,

"ndichamuudza Tau inyaya yekuti

tichangotanga ko akakufarira

ndikakutorerwa?" Ndakazviramba ndikati, "dai

shamwari yako iri munhu akadaro waisatamba

naye, unless uri kungonyarawo zvako neni?"

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"Andinyare newe Tau," akataura achizama

kuchinja pfungwa dzangu asi inini ndakange

ndabatikana ndava kutofungawo zvangu. What I

knew was that vakadzi vaisatana kuudzana.

Even asati ava kudanana nemunhu shamwari

yaitoziva chete kuti umwe wangu ari kudiwa

nanhingi. Ndakatura mafemo ndichibva

ndadzosera phone yemuridzi ndikaramba

ndakarara ndakatarisa mudenga, ndichifunga.

"Tau," akataura neni nekazwi kainyengetedza

ndichibva ndavhura maziso ndikamutarisa,

ipapo ndakange ndava kufunga kuti maybe rega

nditongonohoader sezvandainge ndanyepera

Ndai kuti ndiri kuita.

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"It's okay," ndakataura kwava kusimuka kubva

pandainge ndakarara ndikati, "andisi

kugarisa zvangu I need to go back early

ndinovhura shop." Akanditarisa with shock

akati, "we agreed that you would spend the

day with me wani."

"Yes but chinondiraramisa ndicho

chandakavhara."

"Uri kundinyepera Tau it's not that, are you

going all because you got that call here,

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kana kuti all because handina kuudza Yolanda

nezvako here?" Akandibata ruoko ndikati, "am

I being childish? To want to be known by your

friend and all. Imagine I'm out there

kuMhondoro uko and iwewe uri kuno, I also

want to feel like there is nothing that can

come between us, I want to feel kuti kuHarare

uko vanotoziva kuti Tsungai ndewa Tau."

"Ndomuudza Tau sorry," akataura ndichibva

ndaramba ndakanyarara akati, "saka wava

kutoenda nekuda kwaizvozvo. Inga I cleared

my schedule for you, neniwo I should be at

work asi ndinewe wani."

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"You have workers and I don't, ndiko kusiyana

kwazvo." Ndakamuudza akati, "ayas zvakaoma,

yet we agreed, all because of Yolanda wava

kuita kunge ndakuisa at a disadvantage

stereki. Just tell me mari yacho yauri kuona

kuti walooser nhasi ndikupe hangu just so we

can continue with the day zvisina kunetsana

mukati." Ndakaramba ndakamutarisa

ndichifunga zvaainge ataura. I felt a little

insulted ndikati, "are you serious?"

"I don't know what else to do Tau, uri

kutaura zvekushop kwako as if ndanyanya

kukuitisa loss."
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"So you are offering to pay kuti uve neni?"

Akazunguza musoro achibva atsvukisa maziso

ava kuda kuchema. Pasina nguva akadonhedza

misodzi achibva asimuka kubva paainge

akagara. Akatanga kufamba which made me

follow her.

"Tsungai," ndakamudaidza ndichibata ruoko

rwake kuti amire akati, "Tau uri kuda ndiite

seiko," nezwi remunhu ava kuchema. Akaenda

mberi akati, "what's going on today, what's

really going on, I'm trying wani andichaziva

ini."
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"I wish you could reverse what you said last

Tsungai, offering me money to spend the day

with me is the highest level of disrespect.

Makes me feel like I'm not a man at all.

"I'm sorry but why would you say zvawanga

wava kutaura?" Ndakaramba ndakamutarisa

akati, "tell me Tau?" I could see also that

I had gone a little overboard with my own

jealous. I tried explaining akati, "what

about me, how do you think I feel yet I

control it." With tears running down her

cheeks, I simply hugged her and squeezed her

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tightly, with my heart pounding hoping that

she would calm down. She squeezed me back

and sniffed, keeping her head on my chest.

"I didn't know this love would start making

us like this," I whispered and took a deep

breath. Ndakamuregedza ndaona vanhu vava

kudarika vachititarisa since we had moved

kubva patainge takagara pekutanga.

Ndakamubata ruoko, went back with her

tikagara pasi where I apologized again

kusvika ava kunzwa zviri nani. She took a

photo of us kissing, sent her friend akati,

"are you happy now."

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Ndakanzwa kakunyara kwava kuvhura that box

of pizza ndikatanga kumufeeder. Around 2 we

decided to go kuMhondoro sezvo ainge

akataura kuti she would take me back. She

stopped her car pamba pangu ndikati, "are

you not worried?"

"About my grandma?" Akavhunza ndikati, "ehe

about your grandma." Akazunguza musoro

akati, "will say I gave you a lift, that is

if she ever sees me kana kuti vakanzwa kuti

ndambouya kuno. How many people know me

anyway?" Akavhunza ndikati, "andizive

babie." Ndakatarisa door repamba, looked at

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Tsungi ndikati, "hausi kudzika?" Akatarisa

tarisa vanhu, neniwo ndaitotarisawo ndichida

kuona kana paive neaiona kuti ndadzoka ndina

Tsungai.

"Ndiri kuda kudzika," akandiudza achiratidza

kuti zvakawanda zvainge zvapinda mumusoro

make. Nenguva dzacho padzaive, ndaiziva kuti

Ndai was not home, ndakaburuka mumota,

opened the door repamba Tsungai akapinda

neni mumba.
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*CHANCES

Kaydie*

*Chapte13*

*Tsungai*

I was a little uncomfortable ndichipinda

mumba make nguva dzekuti anyone who knew me

could easily spot me. Zvekuti maybe Ndai

could come akandiwana ndiripo was not much

of a problem nekuti neniwo ndaitonzwawo kuda

kuti azive kuti ndirimo mulife ya Tau.

Sevanhu vainge vambovhiringidzana kuti

ndikasike kuenda ndainzwa kuti a part of me

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would not be okay, I wanted more time with

him.

"Ndanga ndisina kutsvaira, ndabuda ndava

kumhanya," akataura achiratidza kuti ari

kunyara nezvainge zvakaita mumba make.

Andina kuita basa nazvo, ndakasimuka

ndikatanga kumubatsira kunhonga nhonga

zvinhu. Ndakavhunza ndikati, "saka iwewe

unodonhedza hembe pasi sei when you have a

washing basket?"

"Hamheno babie, maybe ndiko kuva murume

kwacho." Akaseka ndichibva ndasekawo

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ndikati, "hakuna zvakadaro ndiwe zvako

unenge uri kure kure ne smart."

"Ndoitirei smart yacho when you can always

come and do this for me." Ndakamutarisa

necorner yeziso ndikaona akamira akapeta

maoko watching me. Ndakangonyemwerera kwava

kubvisa magumbeze kuti ndiwaridze mubhedha

wake. "Hauna masheets," ndakataura in a

complaining manner akati, "ehe handina ini,

ko ndine basa nazvo here?" Chero hazvo aive

asina asi airatidza kuti magumbeze acho

akawachiwa. Ndakaenda mberi nekuzunza

ndichiwaridza, kwava kutsvaira a little even

though maive musina tsvina yakanyanya.

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Ndakabatwa chiuno ndava kuda kuworera marara

ndikati, "Tau usade kundi disturber."

"Wandi disturber pashoma here?" Akandivhunza

at the same time making me aware kuti

disturbance yaaitaura iye yaive yechii.

Ndakamurova neruoko akati, "hazvina

kumbomira mushe babie." Ndakaisa mutsvairo

pasi ndikati, "aewa tanyanya Tau."

"Pane chinonzi tanyanya murudo here kana

zvese zvichiitwa murudo?" Ndakamira

ndatarisana naye ndikamuvhunza kuti mashoko

ake aimawana kupi chaizvo. "Andisati

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ndanyatsokutarisa kuti ndikurumbidze

zvakanaka Tsungai." Akataura akabata

mashoulder angu ndikavhunza zvaireva

chaizvo. "I want to admire your body

zvakanaka, I saw you in the dark then again

kushop zvaive zvekukasikira. Ndiri kuda

kukuona zvakanaka pasina kumhanya, kana neni

ndoda undione zvakanaka."

"Ndakanzwa kudziya kwemuviri ndakamutarisa

kunzwa kuti pane zvava kumhanya neropa.

Paakakwidza dress rangu zvishoma, ndakaramba

ndakamutarisa mumaziso, akakwira naro

zvishoma nezvishoma making sure to caress me

at the same time. By the time he reached my

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neck, it was impossible to pretend like I

didn't want him when it was clear I could

not stand the heat. Akaribvisa ndikaramba

ndakamira ndichizama kufema zvakanaka.

"Wakanaka Tsungai," akadaro achibata mazamu

angu, izvo zvakaita ndimubate chiuno, kwava

kuramba ndakamutarisa achimabata.

Ndakabvisa t-shirt yake ndichinzwa kuda

kugumhana naye pasina hembe, kugumhana kwedu

kwakamhanyisa zvakawanda ndakazongoona tese

tisina chinhu miviri ichipopota kutsvaga

zvayaida. For the first time, I looked at

him, looked down feeling myself wet

nekungotarisa chete. "Are you happy with

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that?" Akandivhunza ndikati, "Tau I want

it." Akanyemwerera akati, "Tsungi

zvaunondiudza ka."

"I want it Tau," ndakataura kissing him

stroking him ndichinzwa kukura kwayo mumaoko

angu. Ndakatadza kumirira, stopped kissing

him ndikati, "Tau." We landed on the bed,

akazevezera akati, "ndivhurire ndikupe."

Ndakavhura nekukasika, looked at him akati,

"I love how submissive you are." I could

already imagine on my mind what he was going

to do to me and the feeling that I was going

to get from him. With my legs up and spread

apart, he looked at me there akati, "Tsungai

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zvandakatarisa zvandikuvadza."

"Tau," ndakadaidza nezwi remunhu aibva

ndikanzi, "Tsungai ndezva Tau

zvandakatarisa." Ndakachemerera feeling the

head ndikanzi, "Tsungai wakanaka ndikafunga

mumwe munhu achikuda ndinorwara Tsungai."

Akabva apinda achipedza kutaura kudaro,

ndakashaiwa pekubata iye kwava kuita

zvinyoro nyoro zvekuti ndakatadza kuziva

kuti ndiri kuitwa seiko.

"Tsungai wangu," akataura letting my legs

wrap him, ndakafambisa maoko kumusana wake

ndikamuti, "Tau handisati ndambonzwa

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zvaunondiita." Kwakanga kusiri kunyepa,

akadaira akati, "ndoda ndikunzwise ndega

Tsungai." He kissed my neck, stopped

ndikanzi, "Tsungai wangu." Takatarisana

ndikati, "Tau." Akaramba akanditarisa

ndikati, "Tau ndokuda." He kissed me

thrusted hard, stopped and looked at me

akati, "Babie wangu." He kissed me again

thrusted harder looked at me ndikati, "Tau,"

beginning to moan louder, that pleasure was

increasing. Akaramba akanditarisa ndava

kutambirira, kissed me a little ndikanzi,

"Tsungai ramba uchidaro."

Still going hard, ndakabata kumeso kwake

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ndikamuti, "I can't have anyone else who

ain't you."

"Keep moving babie," he said ndikati, "Tau I

need you."

"You have me," akadaira asi ndichirwadziwa

kuti I loved a man who loved us both.

Munakiro wazvaiita ndiwo waiita ndide

kuchema ndichifunga kuti ko akamuka

asisandide. Ndakasvika pakumuudza akati, "I

promise you ndofa newe Tsungai."

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I screamed kamwechete feeling him

achidzimura moto waakange abatidza mandiri.

Ndakavhara maziso ndikazomavhura iye ava

kubuda. He kissed my thighs achimapuruzira

keeping my legs parted.

Tau
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Akabatwa nehope ndamuradzika pachipfuva

changu, andina kumuvhara, ndainakirwa

nekuona ganda rake raitsvedzerera.

Ndakasvika pakubatwawo nehope, asi

ndakatanga kumuka ndikati kuna Ndai,

"mukadzi wangu ari kupi?" Akadaira akati,

"wandikatira phone siyana neni."

"Pane zvanga zvichiitika," ndakanyora akati,

"ndiri kwandiri ndichiita zvandiri kuita."

Ndakanyepa ndikati, "ndiri pamba penyu sei

usipo?" Ndakaudzwa ndikanzi, "hamheno vhunza

madoor kuti ndaenda kupi?"

"Ndiri kuuya kuzokutora," ndakamuudza akati,

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"regedza hako ndina Olivia ndinofamba naye

tiri two." Andina kuda kupikisa, ndakaisa

phone pasi ndikatarisa Tsungai akange ava

kupfakanyika. Akavhura maziso looked at me

akati, "babie inguvai?" Ndakamuudza akati,

"okay ndava kudzokera manje, I can't believe

I slept for so long."

"Thanks for spending the day with me even

though it started off bad," ndakamuudza

ndava kurangarira how it had started. She

sighed, nodded ndikanzi, "ndoda kugeza."

Ndakabuda naye warmed up water pagas

ndikanogeza naye. Takazorana mafuta

chichibva chatotsva zvekare, pakashaya

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akazvidzora.

Akazoenda ndava kunzwa hope futi, asi

ndakafamba ndichienda kunotora Ndai.

Ndakasangana navo vachitodzoka vese

vakatakura zvinhu zvavainge vaenda

kunotengesa. Ndakangotora bag racho

ndakanyarara even though aida kuramba naro.

"Ndeip Olivia?" Ndakakwazisa akati, "ndeip."

Ndai akaramba akanyarara ndichibva ndamubata

ruoko ndikati, "ndizvo zvazvinoitwa here."

"Wandikatira phone wadii kunditumira message

uchitaura zvirikuitika?"
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"Pandanga ndiri babie pane munhu wandanga

ndichitaura naye zve business." Akaridza

tsamwa ndikati, "Ndai usadaro I'm sorry."

Takafamba tichienda kumba akanyarara, kana

kuti nditaure na Olivia wacho didn't make

sense, takasvika kumba pasina ataura

nemumwe.

"Bamkuru?" Matilda akadaro andiona ndikati,

"hesi mainini."

"Ndaona mota yeshamwari yenyu kumasikati,"

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akadaro Hana yangu ichibva yatorova nekuti

ndaisaziva kuti aona ineni here kana kuti

kwete. "Nguvai," ndakavhunzira nhema akati,

"haa zvekuma 4 yanga ichimhanya kuratidza

kuti munhu anonoka." Ndai akanditarisa kwava

kupinda mubedroom make maasina kuita nguva

akabudamo. Kutiwo nditi Matilda nyarara

zvaisaita but I could see kuti pane zvafungwa

naNdai.

"Kuchikoro kurisei?" Ndakavhunza ndava

kuchinja nyaya akati, "kuri nani ndapedza ma

exams nhasi, hoza December." Ndakaseka

ndikati, "kunei December?"

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"Christmas box bamkuru, even though

Christmas isati yasvika mugare pandipa."

"Murikudei mainini," ndakavhunza asi ziso

rangu riri kuna Ndai uyo akabuda panze akati,

"huya kuno," ava kutofamba. Ndakatevera

ndaona kuti atotora road yekuenda kwangu,

ndakazvivhunza kuti sei afunga kunanga

kumba.
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Chances

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Chapter14

Ndaizivei

"Ndai," akandidaidza ndichifambisa asi

handina kumira, ndakanzwa ava kumhanya

akasvika achindibata ruoko. Ndakamira akati,

"ko kumhanya zvaita sei, tava kuita as if

hatisi kufamba tese." Ndakamutarisa ndiine

mashoko andaida kutaura asi ndakarega

ndikanyemwerera zvenhema. "Ndoda kukasika

kudzoka," ndakamuudza akati, "kunei kwauri

kuda kuzomhanyira kudzoka?"

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"Just because hatina vabereki vatinogara

navo hazvirevi kuti todokerwaka tiri

kumaraini. Kana iye Matilda anodzidza chii

kwandiri kana ndichibuda newe ndodzoka

husiku siku." Ndakasimudzira tikafamba

taenzana. Hamheno kuti sei ndainzwa kamwe

kakusagadzikana pandiri as I walked going to

his house. Aizama kutaura nyaya asi inini

wacho ndaingonzwa that feeling yekuti

something was wrong.

Zvekunzwa kuti Tsungai had come ndizvo

zvakandirovesa hana. Nomatter how much he

told me that there was nothing I wanted to

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make sure kuti hapana chaivapo. "Chimira

kufambisa," he asked me ndichibva ndatoseka

ndikati, "ndiwe here uri kutaura kuti

ndimire kufambisa, nguva dzakawanda hausiwe

here unenge uchipopota kuti ndiri kunonoka."

"Ndambofamba nhasi uri kuzviziva wani," he

complained again ndichibva ndadzora speed

tikafamba zvishoma kusvika tasvika kumba

kwake. Ndakapinda naye mumba make, went to

his bedroom mandakaona makarongedzwa. Andina

zvangu kuita basa nazvo nekuti here and there

he would clean up his room kana inini ndisina

kumubatsira.
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"Watsvaira," ndakadaro akati, "ehe ndanga

ndanyanya kuita mazuva ndisina kutsvaira."

Ndakaramba ndakanyarara akati, "you didn't

want to speak to me why wangochinja so

suddenly?"

"Wanga uchida kuti ndirambe ndakatsamwa?"

Ndakamuvhunza ndichinzwa kamwe kaperfume

kandaisanzwisisa. He sat next to me

ndikanzi, "noo babie your sudden change

yangondivhundutsa, from a hurricane to a

soft wind."

Ndakakwira kunogara pakati pemubhedha

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ndikati, "ehe ndava kuda kunzwa kuti

business partner uyo ndewekupi and arikuda

business newe pachii?"

"Do we have to talk about that now?"

Akandivhunza ndikati, "ehe," deciding to lay

on his bed. The moment yandakarara

ndakanyatsonzwa perfume yemunhu kadzi

ndichibva ndamuti, "ndiani anga ari pano."

He frowned akati, "ndini, why would you ask

that?"

Hana yakange yava kurova nekuti that perfume

was very familiar it was the same perfume

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yandainge ndanzwa musi wandakwira mota ya

Tsungai. Ndakabva pandaive ndikati, "Tau

ndiani anga ari pano?"

Akaramba akati, "hapana Ndai, ko uri kutaura

kuti chii, watanga futi zvekunzwa makuhwa

wouya uchinetsana neni." Ndakaburuka

pamubhedha ndikati, "the perfume on your bed

Tau." Akatarisa pandainge ndabva

akandivhunza zvandaireva nekuti he could not

smell it. Ndakaseka ndikati, "Tau, Tsungai

auya pano anditi and she came into this room,

she was on your bed anditi."

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"Aewa Ndai and please stop, what is this

obsession na Tsungai zvekuti iwewe wava

kutonzwa munhuwi wake nepausiri." Ndakaramba

ndakamutarisa ndava kunzwa hasha dzekuitwa

benzi ndikati, "Tau haungandidaro mhani.

Andisi munhu anotadza kunzwa different

smells mhani kana neniwo ndinotengesa ma

perfumes mhani I'm familiar with these

scents."

"And I'm telling you that you are wrong. Oh

wow so you were walking fast uchibva kumba

kuti uuye kuzo creator nyaya chete?"

Ndakashama ndikati, "wati chii?"

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"Wanzwa kuti Tsungai was in the area, next

thing you rushed to my house just so you

could make up a story and create smells that

are not even there." Pane pekuti unoita weak,

even uchida kutaura unonyatsonzwa kuita

weak. Ndakapererwa ndakamutarisa zvekuti

ndakatomboda kubeliever kuti maybe inini

ndini ndaive wrong. Nehasha I pulled the

blankets off the bed, her smell was just all

over, ndakadhonza one ndikamuisa pamhino

ndikati, "tell me that you can't smell it."

Akabvisa pamhino akati, "stop Ndai every

smell yava ya Tsungai handiti?"

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"Siyana neni," ndakadaro ndava kuenda nekuti

ndakange ndava kuchema. Mupfungwa dzangu

ndakatongoti Tau anofanira aita musikanzwa

chete and I could not accept that.

Akandidhonza moving me away from the door

akati, "hausi kuenda." He was looking at me

with a serious face ndikamuti, "Tau,

zvekurwadziwa andikwanise. Already ndiri

kurwadziwa kuti uri kundiita benzi."

"Andisi babie, andisi," akadaro ndikaita

nharo ndikati, "ndisiye mhani Tau uri

kundinyepera. Wandikatira call uri kuharare,

ndakuvhunza kuti why was the place so quiet

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ukakata call before you answered. Ndiudze

kuti chii chaita kuti iwewe utadze

kundipindura. You never called me back until

wasvika kumba, ndiudze kuti road yese iyi

watadza here kutaura neni uchindiudza kuti

wava kudzoka, unless wanga uine munhu

wawanga usingade kuti anzwe uchitaura neni."

Ndakataura ndichidedera akati, "calm down

babie, andisi kuziva why you are like this

and I don't know why zvinhu zvacho zvava

kuita so isu tava padyo kuwanana. Andisi

kuziva kuti imhepo yakaita sei inomirira

zvava kuda kuita yobva yasimuka kudai."

Ndakaramba ndikati, "mhepo Haina kusimuka

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Tau, iwewe wacho ndiwe watova problem you

are hiding things from me, uri kudanana na

Tsungai here Tau, why is her perfume on your

bed mhani."

Akaramba akati, "haisi yake Ndai."

Ndakavhunza ndikati, "saka ndeyaani, nekuti

even yako does not smell like this, yako

ndoiziva and it's on the bed as well,

chindiudza kuti imwe yacho ndeyani, wanga

wakarara nani Tau."

Ndakachema akandirambira, ndakarwadziwa

ndikati, "Tau uri kundirwadzisa."

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"I'm not letting anything come between us

not even what you think is true. Munhu wauri

kutaura knows about you, andina kuuya naye

but yes andiudza kuti achauya kuno. Semunhu

anga ari busy andina kuzomuvhunza kuti

afamba sei."

"Hoo, saka mufonere," ndakadaro akati,

"ndimufonere kuti zviite sei?" Ndakataura

ndikati, "mufonere uchinzwa kuti auya nguvai

uye afamba sei." Akaramba akati, "why would

I call Tsungai ndiine mukadzi wangu. Ko

ndikamufonera aine muface wake zvinobuda

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here kuzonzwikwa ndava kuvhunza munhu kuti

wafamba sei?"

"Tau ndati mufonere," ndakataura akaramba,

ndakanhonga washing basket ndikamukandira

akarinzvenga. "Mufonere," I said screaming

at him akati, "andisi kufonera mumwe mukadzi

ndine mukadzi wangu."

"Andichada," ndakataura ndichifemereka

akati, "hauchada chii?"

"Andichada Tau, I can't do this anymore

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zvakurwadza I can't." Akadaira akati, "kwana

we are not breaking up, haurambane neni

nekuti iwewe you have things that you are

suspecting, things that are not true futi

akuna zvakadaro." Akasimudza washing basket

akati, "ikoko kwauri kuenda kunana Trust

ndiko kwawava kudzoka uchindiitira attitude

manje Trust wako ndichamukuvadza mukada

kundiitira mafunnies muri two." Ndakashaiwa

kuti nyaya yashanduka nenguvai, akange ava

kutotaura nehasha, akasundira hembe kure,

came close to me akati, "inini newe for life

Ndai. Noone is coming between us ndofa newe

iwewe."
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Ndakachema ndakamutarisa, I felt helpless,

it was pointless fighting with him when he

was denying everything chandaimuvhunza. He

held my waist ndikati, "Tau une chokwadi

kundiita benzi here?"

"Andisi kukuita benzi kana tatadza kusolver

nyaya yedu zviri nani tiende kwatete."

Ndakazunguza musoro ndikapukuta misodzi

kwava kumuudza ndikati, "it's fine ndava

kuda kuenda kumba."

"Hausi kuenda," akaramba ndikati, "Tau

please andisi kuda zvekuti tirambe

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tichinetsana ndava kuda kuenda kumba."

"Kwete usati wandiratidza kuti unondida,

ukasandiratidza zviri nani ubva watizira

zvako." Ndakazviramba akaita nharo ndikati,

"kutizira muna November here?"

"Kwasara two days dzekupinda muna December

zvine basa rechii?" Akavhunza ndikati, "aewa

andisi kuda Tau."

"Ndiudze kuti unondida Ndai, ukasandiudza

nekundiratidza zviri nani titongogara tese

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nekuti pfungwa dzako andichadzinzwisisa."

"Imbondisiya ndiri kurwadziwa please," I

begged akaramba akati, "ehe tsamwa but that

should never affect kupanana rudo kwedu."

Ndakaita nharo then he kissed me by force.

Ndakamborwisana naye kusvika ndakurirwa,

kubatwa kusvika hasha dzatonhora. Kusvika

ndava kumubatawo, ndava kutodedera mumaoko

ake. Akafemereka achida kubvisa t-shirt

yangu ndikati, "Tau mira."

"Babie I can't," akadaro achitora ruoko

nekundibatisa. Ndakavhunduka akati, "babie

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bata please." Akandiyamwa ndikatanga

kushanyarika ndakaiswa kumadziro, I wanted

him but I couldn't. "Zvakwana Tau,"

ndakazama kubva akati, "babie I can't

please, ndipe mukadzi wangu please." I was

trying to tell him kuti it was that time of

the month but he was not getting me.

Paakagumha nekure ndipo paakati, "haaa

Ndai."

"I was telling you wani," ndakamuudza

ndikaona apererwa. Akangoseka akati, "haa

ma1." Akamira kundibata akaramba

akanditarisa kissed me slowly akati, "I love

you." Zvakandiremera kuti ndimuudze kuti

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ndaimudawo, ndaive ndichiri ndakatsamwa.

"Ndatii?" Akavhunza ndikamudaira, ipapo

akabva andiperekedza kumba kwaakaramba ari

kusvika tatodya akazoenda. Pandakasara ndega

ndakachema nekuti ndaiziva zvandainge

ndanzwa kumba kwake. I didn't want to believe

that he was cheating on me asi denying the

scent on his bed killed me.

Ndakasvika pakufonera Tete kuseni ndikati,

"Tete hamheno zviri kuita Tau ndiri kufunga

kuti Tau ane mumwe munhu waari kudanana

naye."
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"Ko zvaita sei futi?" Vakavhunza ndikavaudza

zvainge zvaita kuti ndifungire kudaro.

Vakadaira vakati, "Ndai ati haachakuda

here?"

"Haana Tete but why kundinyepera kudaro,

ndinganzi dofo here kutadza kuziva munhuwi

wemumba maTau Tete?" Ndakanzwa votura mafemo

vakati, "haa saka inga zvakaoma, ambotaura

here zvekuchinja date remarooro nekuti

mutauriro wakoka zvekuti munhu ashaikwe musi

wemarooro zvinonyadzisa."
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"Tete kana aine mumwe ini handisi kuda,"

ndakataura vakati, "Ndai, varume vanotoita

wekuside achisarudza wekuisa mumba, saka

zvekuti kana aine mumwe hauchadi andione

zvichiita nekuti shoko rekuroorwa kwako

rakasvika kunana baba kare. Kana zviri

zvekupengereka rega zvipfuure asi tariswai

ropa musati mawanana, huya naye kuno kana

zvanetsa tibudirane pachena."

I didn't know what to do, but I couldn't

relax anymore. Ndakabva paphone natete

ndichibva ndaenda zvangu kuside kwana mbuya

va Tsungai. Munhu wandaida ndiMucha. Andiona

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akauya kuzondimhoresa ndikati, "ko Tsungai

akatodzokera here ndaida kumuona." She

frowned akati, "Tsungai akauya kuno riini?"

Ndakadaira ndikati, "nezuro ka." Akaseka

akati, "wakamuwana kupi, Tsungai haana kuuya

pano."

Zvakandishamisa nekuti ainge aonekwa, kana

iye Tau had admitted kuti ainge akati she

would come. Ndakaseka ndikati, "haa ndofunga

munin'ina wangu akatadza kuona, anyway

ndokumbirawo number dzake pane zvandoda kuti

nditaure naye."
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CHANCES

Kaydie

Chapter15

Ndai

"Mira nditarise muphone," Mucha akataura

achifamba kudzokera pamba pavo. Ndakaramba

ndakamira paroad until mbuya va Tsungai

vabudikira vakandimhoresa. Ndakatyora muzura

ndikati, "gogo makadii henyu."

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"Ndiripo ko wamirirei kuroad," vakavhunza

ndikafamba zvangu kuenda padhuze navo.

Vakanditarisa vakati, "kwakanaka hako,"

vachiramba vakanditarisa as if pane

zvavaitsvaga." Ndichinyemwerera,

ndakagutsurira musoro ndikati, "hongu ndiri

kuda hangu number ya Tsungai ndoda kutaura

naye."

"Kwakanaka hako," she asked me ndikati, "ehe

gogo kwakanaka, ko kungagoshatei?"

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"Riri sei basa," vakavhunza ndikati,

"kwakanaka gogo ndichatozouya nema Zambia

mumaone pamwe mungawane ramuri kuda."

"Iwe ndokuziva nema Zambia," vakataura

vachiseka ndikati, "ehe haa ndomada gogo."

"Tau akazviwanira musikana wake akanaka

fani," vakadaro looking at Mucha who came

nekapepa kaive kakanyorwa number ya Tsungai.

"Thanks," ndakadaro ndichitora ndikaoneka

mbuya vake. "Uchengetane mushe na Tau,"

vakadaro ndikati, "maitabasa gogo ava kuda

kuroora manje."
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"Hauone, ndizvo zvinoita murume akarongeka

izvozvo," vakarumbidza Mucha akati, "saka

wava kuda kuroorwa?" Ndakangoseka ndikati,

"muvhunzo wako Mucha ka rega ndiende

thanks."

Handina kuzombomira, ndakajuicer phone yangu

bought bundles ndichibva ndafonera Tsungai.

Akadaira ndikati, "ndeip Tsungai ndiNdai."

Haana kudaira ipapo ndakatongoti semunhu

ashokeka maybe that is why anonoka. "Ndeip,"

akadaro pava paya ndikati, "ko nezuro

wakadzokera ndisina kukuratidza mazambia

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anogona kudiwa nambuya vako."

"Did we have an appointment?" Akavhunza

ndichibva ndaseka ndikati, "haa no

ndaingotarisira kuti kana wauya kuno

ndozokuratidza utengere gogo vako she likes

mazambia andinotengesa."

"Havana kundiudza," she answered calmly

ndikati, "zvakanaka saka uri kudzoka riini?"

"Andina kubvira ndati ndakauya," akadaira

zvekare aine hunyoro ndikati, "unogoti hauna

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kuuya sei when my sister saw you, anditi

kuuya kwako wakauya na Tau here, even Tau

wacho told me kuti wakauya nezuro."

"What's the purpose of this call Ndai?" She

asked me ndikati, "you know what, we are two

grown women, there is no need for me kuti

nditenderere anditi. Ndakanzwa perfume yako

pamubhedha waTau, I need to know what is

going on, kuti kudanana here or you are just

friends, kana muri ma friends are you friends

anogarirana pamubhedha here?"

"Is there a certain answer that you are

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expecting from me kana kuti is there a

confirmation yauri kuda Ndai?" Ndakavhunzwa

ndikati, "zvandiri kuda kuziva ndakuudza

wani andisi kuona chakaipa pakudaira."

"Tau akuudza kuti chii, and ndanyanya kuita

sei zvekuti you remembered my perfume?"

Ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "zvaTau andina basa

nazvo I need you to answer me. Tau can lie

to me nekuti murume but iwewe hauna reason

yekundinyepera." Akadaira akati, "andina

relationship newe Ndai, the only person that

owes you an explanation ndi Tau. Whatever he

tells you take that."

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Ndakanzwa kutsva ndikati, "are you saying

kuti akanditi muri kudanana I should take

that?" Akadaira akati, "it's clear haana

kukuudza izvozvo and that is the reason why

you looked for my number ukandifonera. His

explanation is not good enough for you, why

should you trust me and not your man?"

"Do I have to tell you again why I asked

you?" Ndakavhunza akati, "do I also have to

explain that I don't have to explain anything

to you when Tau is there to explain that?"

"Iwe shaa Tau and I are supposed to get

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married in a week and I smelt your perfume

on his bed, ndavhunza kuti what's going on

kana muri shamwari neshamwari iwewe

waitsvagei pamubhedha pake?"

"If you don't have anything else to say I

will gladly hang up Ndai, Tau never gave me

boundaries, I'm sorry if that bothers you so

much but I think that is a discussion you

should do with him and not with me."

"Did you hear zvandati we are getting married

in a week?" Ndakavhunza akati, "yes and

congratulations in advance." She hung up the

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phone on me ndichibva ndaseka nekurwadziwa.

I couldn't tell if she had been rude to me

or not but her responses had sure left me

pissed off.

Ndakafamba ndakananga kumba kwaTau ndichida

kuona kuti ariko here, ndakasvika ndikamira

pachivanze ndikaona matsimba emota.

Ndakafamba nehasha tried opening his door

asi raive rakakiiwa kuratidza kuti atoenda

kubasa karesa. Ndakarova door, ndainzwa kuda

kurova munhu nomatter how much she had

avoided answering me, I didn't need to be

told that she had been the one in his room.

Ndakanzwa kunge ndichatadza kufema zvakanaka

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ndikatanga kudzokera kumba ndichinanaira

trying hard kuti ndisacheme.

Tau

"Thanks Tau," Tsungai akatumira message

yandisina kunzwisisa ndichibva ndafona. She

didn't pick up my call, ndakaramba

ndichifona asiri kudaira ndikafunga kutumira

message ndichiti maybe she was very busy and

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couldn't attent to her phone.

Haanazve kudaira message yangu ndikati,

"Tsungai why am I feeling nervous now, is it

because you are busy here kana kuti pane

zvimwe zvava kuitika?" Once again haana

kudaira, ndakaisa phone pasi ndikazorora

ndichiti she would call. Iniwo wacho ndaive

busy zvekuti, andina kuwana mukana

wekuzonyanya kubata phone yangu. During

lunch time Ndai sent me a message akati,

"it's okay Tau, ndataura na Tsungai

akandiudza kuti akauya newe kuno nezuro.

Iwewe wakaramba kuti makanga muri mese, she

is the woman that was in your room kana kumba

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kwavo haana kusvika nekuti akagumira kumba

kwako iwewe. Hazvina basa wafunga kundidai I

will be fine it's okay."

"Shiiiit," ndakadaro hana yangu ichirova

ndikati, "babie I thought nyaya iyi yakapera

nezuro, why would you go and look for number

ya Tsungai kubva waratidza vanhu kuti inini

newe tiri kunetsana?" Haana kudaira,

ndakazama kufona akaramba kudaira kusvika

ndafonera Matilda uyo akadaira akati,

"bamkuru."
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"Ndai ari kupi?" Ndakavhunza akati, "haa

vabuda kare sisi havasati vadzoka ava

ndatoti maybe vauya kushop kuzokuonai ini."

"Haako," ndakadaro akati, "ah saka vaenda

kupi." Ndakatura mafemo ndikati, "sisi venyu

vari kundifungira mainini, can you look for

her for me I need to know where she is."

"Andina airtime ini," akataura ndikati,

"don't worry ndiri kutumira right now."

Ndakamutumira nekukasika ndikanzi, "muri

kufungirwa kuti chii by the way?"

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"It's a long story mainini just call her

first ndokumbirawo," ndakadaro ndichiramba

kumuudza zvandaifungirwa. Ndaiziva kuti

nyaya yacho yaitozofamba kuvanhu vakawanda

ndikazotadza kuidzimura. Ndakabata kumeso

ndikati, "Ndai." Ndakazunguza musoro

ndikashaiwa kuti saka Tsungai akange audzwa

kuti chii na Ndai. One more time ndakazama

number ya Tsungai haana kudaira call yangu.

Ndakamuudza ndikati, "andichakwanisa

kushanda just answer me."

Akaramba kundidaira zvakandipedza simba

ndakange ndisisazive what else to say or do.

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Pakafona Matilda ndakange ndava kuda

kumufonera ndikanzi, "havasi kutaura ava

vangoti vari kuuya asi havana kutaura kuti

vari kusvika nguvai."

"It's okay thanks," ndakadaira ndichikata

call ndikaziva kuti conversation yacho may

have been bad. Ndakazviseka ndega asked

myself how I thought I would be able to

handle it without hurting anyone. Surely I

had not thought things through kana strategy

yacho zvayo yekuti zvese zvifambe smooth

ndakange ndisina. Phone yakandiremera kubata

nekuti chandaitya kwaive kuudzwa kunzi

andichadiwa.
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Nguva dzandakachaisa ndakashaiwa kuti

ndonanga kupi asi ndakananga kumba kwana

Ndai nekuti ndiko kwandaiziva kuti akuna

kumira zvakanaka. Ndakawana Ndai asiko,

Matilda was beginning to get worried. "Why

is she not telling me where she is?" Matilda

asked me ndikati, "amheno maybe she knows

you will tell me."

Akazunguza musoro, closed the doors akati,

"ndava kuenda kumba kwana Olivia I can't just

sit here." Ndaida kuenda naye asi akaramba

akati, "if you are fighting then it's best

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murege kuenda neni." Akange ava kuda

kutoenda when Ndai showed up. Takatarisana

akandidarika achipinda mumba mandakatevera.

I found her sitting on the bed with her palms

joined ndikati, "hesi." Haana kundidaira,

ndakagara paside naye ndikati, "babie can we

talk, message yako ndaiona but can we talk

please." Akaeredza misodzi ndichibva

ndapererwa, felt really bad ndikamuti,

"please." Akanditarisa akati, "just tell me

the truth please, did you come with her?"

"Yes," ndakadaira akati, "she was in your

house on your bed?"

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"Yes," ndakadaira akati, "it's her car ine

mavhiri andaona pamba pako?"

"Yes," ndakadaira akati, "and you lied to

me, you lied to me nezuro why did you even

dare Tau."

"Because of this, you get angry by the

thought of her, how do you expect me to tell

you about her Ndai."

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"Saka imhosva yangu?" Akavhunza ndikati,

"Ndai haudi kunzwa nezva Tsungai."

"What was she doing on your bed?"

Ndakavhunzwa ndikati, "ndikakuudza will you

believe me kana kuti you will call her kuti

uzive." Akazunguza musoro akati, "dananai

Tau why would she come here and not go to

her grandma's place, wakosha kudarika mbuya

vake, of all places she came to your house,

spent time with you in your bedroom."

Akasimuka akati, "chienda hako Tau I need to

sleep."
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"Tichiri kutaura," ndakadaro akati,

"ukaramba wakagara I swear I'm going to do

something that I will regret."

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*Chapter16*

*Tsungai*

"What's going on?" Yolanda akaramba

akanditarisa ndichichema. I was hurt, really

hurt nekuti even though I knew that Ndai was

there, why did she have to be the one to tell

me that she was getting married to Tau.

Ndakazviseka ndichichema Yolanda akati,

"shaa usadaro did Tau hurt you?" Andina

kudaira, ndakasimuka kubva pamubhedha wake,

stood by her wardrobe and wondered kuti what

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did he really want.

"I wanna see where this takes us, " he had

said and I didn't know if where we were is

where all of it had taken us.

"Hello," ndakanzwa Yolanda achidaira phone,

ipapo ndakamutarisa ndikaona kuti adaira

phone yangu yandainge ndaswera ndisina

kudaira. Ndakazunguza musoro I didn't want

to speak to him, ndaiziva kuti ndi Tau chete

afona. Yolanda akanditarisa ndikazunguza

musoro zvekuti andisi kuda kutaura naye.

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Akaisa paloud akamuti, "Tsungai haapo Tau

asiya phone." Akazviramba akati, "no Yolanda

Tsungai is there I know kuti she is there,

haasi kuda kutaura neni and andisi kuziva

kuti what's going on. Can she at least tell

me kuti ndatadza papi ndirerukirwe."

Yolanda akatura mafemo akati, "andisi

kunyepa asiya phone. Ndazodaira nekuti iwewe

wanyanya kuramba uchifona ndaona kuti

azviite kuti ndidzime phone yake."

"Yolanda please let me please talk to her,"

he pleaded with her asi ndaisada kutaura at

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that time. I was very emotional, ndainge

ndatonyura zvekudaro I had no idea if I could

control my emotions with him. Akasvika

pakukata call aona kuti ndanga ndisiri kuuya

pacall yacho. Ipapo Yolanda akanditarisa

akati, "ndiri kuziva kuti pane zviri kuitika

wadii wangotaura." Zvairema kuti ndimuudze

kuti ndiri kudanana na Tau who had told me

kuti ane mumwe waari kudanana naye. Kumuudza

kuti munhu wacho azondifonera akandiudza

kuti they were getting married the following

week. "Oh my gosh," ndakataura ndava kufamba

kubva pandaive ndiri.

"It's not funny," akadaro Yolanda ndikasvika

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pakumuudza zvainge zvaitika zvacho.

Akaratidza kupererwa akati, "Tsungai asi

chii, why did you allow yourself to get into

all this."

"I don't know Yolanda, I had fallen for him

and I also wanted to see where it took us."

She hugged me tightly akati, "poor Tsungai,

haa sha dai wakandiudza I would have stopped

you hangu, waitsamwa hako asi ndakumisa

ini." I wiped my tears ndikati, "I love him

Yolanda, kutongomuda akadaro and I don't

even know if thats madness or love."

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"He does not deserve you," akadaro ndikati,

"I don't know Yolanda asi ndomuda." Akaramba

akanditarisa shook her head akatura mafemo.

Akaseka akati, "haa kana akakudyisa chete

wakatanga riini kunyura murudo zvekusvika

pakutadza kufunga. Stooped Lower than your

level, ndokuziva uchidiwa nevakomana, varume

vasvinu mhani kwete some guy from mhondoro."

Ndakatarisa pasi akati, "kana iye Brian

akanzwa kuti ndizvo zviri kuitika angasaseka

here aewa sha snap out of this dream of yours

and do better. You can't cry for him like

this no hazviite, he is going to marry

someone else when you are there haa kana."

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She took my phone ndikati, "what are you

doing?"

"Ndoda kumufonera Tau wako he is an idiot."

Ndakaramba ndikamuti, "Yolanda siya

ndipedzerane naye ndega iwewe usanetsane

naye, after all I got myself in this

situation ndega andisi kuda kuti iwewe

upinde mazviri." Akaramba akati, "aewa iwewe

you can't deal with this nekuti wanyura but

I can." Ndakaramba still nekuti ndaida

kupedza nyaya dzangu ndega.

"Did you at least use protection, are you on

the pill stuff like that?" Ndakazunguza

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musoro akati, "haa wangu usade kuita zvinhu

kunge hauna kufunda. You are not getting

pregnant for that guy wanzwa. Iwewe neni tiri

kuita pregnancy test," akadaro ndikati,

"Mira mhani iwe andina nhumbu ah."

"Kana usina then that test will confirm,

iwewe woziva kuti pakati pako na Tau

hapasisina bond."

"Ndati andina nhumbu nhai Yolanda stop it."

Ndakabva ndasimuka ndava kuenda kumba she

was also putting me under pressure and I was

beginning to regret telling her zvaindinetsa

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zvacho. Ndakabuda kwava kurangarira kuti

phone yacho ndasiya mumba make went back and

took it ndikadzokera kumota kwangu. She came

out, looked at me akafamba achiuya pamota.

Akamira pawindow akati, "you are my friend,

I love you and you know that, I'm sorry for

thinking that you deserve better."

I was already crying saka ndakatadza kudaira

ndikabuda ndava kuenda kumba. I walked into

the house waved at my mother ndiri kure

vakati, "ko hausi kuuya pano."

"Ndiri kuuya mama," ndakadaira ndichienda

kuroom kwangu. Ndasvikako ndakadzima phone

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yangu, went to bath ndichibva ndamboita

kanguva before finally heading out to see my

mother.

Monalisa

"Monaaaaaa," mama called me ndichibva

ndaenda nekukasika vakati, "where is

Tsungai's food mwana wangu asvika asikana

itaika fast fast." Ndakagutsurira musoro

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Tsungai akati, "ndadarika nekwaYolanda

ndakaguta ini."

"Arisei Yolanda," vakavhunza Tsungai akati,

"haa she is okay manga muchimhoreswa."

"Ndiende hangu?" Ndakavhunza sezvo ainge

aramba chikafu vakati, "yes of course enda

hako, waita here coffee ya daddy enda nayo

kustudy he needs it." Ndakange ndisina

kuita, ndakadzokera kukitchen ndikanogadzira

nekukasika. Pandakadarika ndavakuenda she

asked me if I added biscuits ndikati, "no

mama handina kuisa, handiti he does not like

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too much sugar kana yava nguva yekurara."

"Ho zviya kutokangwanwa," vakataura

vachitarisa Tsungai uyo wava kati, "ndava

kunzwa hope let's go to my room pane ma wig

andatumirwa you should choose one."

Ndichipinda mustudy ndakaona daddy

vachipedzisa basa ravo, ndakaisa coffee pasi

ndikati, "goodnight ndava kuenda kunorara."

Vakandibata ruoko vakati, "Monalisa whats

going on with you, you have changed for the

past days."
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"Ndachinja papi?" Ndakavhunza vakati, "you

know what I mean, why do you take long to

respond to my messages, are you angry with

me?" Ndakazunguza musoro vakati, "okay what

does Rati need?"

"Hapana," ndakadaira zvekare vakati, "do you

think that I don't know you?"

"William please," I said ndisiri kunzwa kuda

zvekutaura. He got up tikamira takaenzama.

"I miss you badly when you are right in this

house," he said touching me.

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"William stop," ndakataura ndava kutya

ndikanzi, "stop torturing me Monalisa." He

kissed me ndichibva ndakasika kubva padhuze

ndikati, "don't do this when she is here

please." He ignored me like always, once

again he was that stubborn William who didn't

want to listen to anything I said.

Ndakamubata nesimba akati, "don't do that."

"What if she comes here," ndakavhunza fear

ichiwedzera ndikanzi, "have you any idea how

many seconds you waisted?" Ndakavhunzwa

feeling his hands lifting my dress up. Again

I tried stopping him akaramba kusvika ndaona

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kuti kunonoka kwangu kubuda kuchandibatisa.

He turned me ndikabatiswa table yake all

because that's what he wanted. In seconds he

had my panty on the side and finding his way

inside me. He was already breathing heavily,

the moment he went inside ndakanzwa muviri

kumerera zvakanyanya. Ndakataura kamwe

ndikati, "William," iye akatanga kuita

nesimba. Ndakavhara muromo kuti kusaite

noise, I could not understand how my body

switched and went under fire. I was moving

with him kunzwa ndichibaiwa pandaive ndisina

kutarisira. His hands were searching for my

breasts akamabata ndikanzwa kuti ndava kuda

kuchema. "Mona," he called me akati, "Mona."

My ass was moving fast ndaida that feeling

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that he had given me before, ndakawedzera

kukotamira ndikanzi, "Mona," leaving my

breasts to hold my waist.

Hamheno the way he adjusted and hit the spot

ipapo ipapo i moaned, looked back at him

almost in tears ndikanzi, "who is daddy?"

Ndakadairira pasi ndikati, "you are," kwava

kutanga kumover faster. "William,"

ndakazevezera feeling him hit harder.

"Aaah," i moaned ndava kugwinha

ndakamutarisa holding the urge to shout out.

Ndakapotsa ndadonha neforce yaakaita nayo

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cuming, achingopedza he kissed me ndikanzi,

"ukarara nemumwe munhu hamheno hako uchaona

zvinoitika." I didn't want to think much I

knew I had to leave immediately. His wife

and daughter had gone to the bedroom,

ndakapinda muroom mangu and closed the door.

Ndakazama kudzikisa hana yairova, slowly

moved ndakananga kushower kwandakatora

kanguva ndichigeza.

I put my head on the pillow ndapedza , slowly

reached for my phone baba Rati vakati, "ko

nhai mai Rati inga takati tiri kufanira

kuonana what happened hausi kupindura."

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Ndakaramba ndakatarisa message, typed slowly

ndikati, "ndiri busy nebasa ba Rati

ndokuudzai kana ndava free."

"Paunoita off pacho, why are you not

prioritizing our relationship?" Zvakabva

zvaita as if he has been there for me always

which made me feel a little irritated, he

had abandoned me after all. Ndakada kuvhunza

kuti Rati wauri kutaura haasiye wawakaramba

ndikaona kuti ndaisada kukanganisa husiku

hwangu, I was stressed as it was.

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*Chances

Kaydie*

*Chapter17*

*Monalisa*

"I love you Mai Ratidzo," William

akanditumira message ndava kuda kurara.

Ndakaramba ndakaitarisa ndaisakwanisa

kutaura anything nekuti ndaisaziva kuti

zvaizofamba sei kana message yacho yabatwa

by mistake. I wondered where he was, wondered

if he had moved from where I had left him.

Ndichifunga kudaro ndakafunga mashoko akange

ataurwa ndichibva mustudy, mashoko ekuti

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hamheno hako ukarara nemumwe munhu. Panguva

yacho handina kunyanya kuzviisa mumusoro,

asi ndazorora zvakadzoka ndikanzwa hana

yangu kurova. Ndakazvivhunza kuti zvairevei

and only William could answer that question

for me.

Kuti ndichinyora zvakaramba ndikafunga

kumirira kuseni nguva dzavanobuda pamba.

Kuseni kwacho vakanonoka kubuda, asi

ndakatora mukana and asked him during

breakfast nekuti mama vakange vakarara. He

chuckled ndikati, "hazvisi kunakidza William

what did you mean by what you said?"

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"Uri kuda kundiwanira mumwe here just know

kuti andingakurege uchirara na ba Rati."

"You are not answering me," ndakazevezera

worried akati, "iwewe chiri kukunetsa chii,

uri kuda kurara nababa Rati here?" Ndakabva

ndatoziva kwaienda nyaya kwava kubuda

ndichienda feeling angry with him. It's not

kuti ndaida kurara nababa Rati asi situation

yacho yaisatendera kuti andiite

zvandaifungidzira kuti maybe andiita.

Ndakagara mukitchen ndichitura mafemo until

he came inside zvikanzi, "zvauri kufungira

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hazvisi Monalisa there is no need yekuti

utsamwe like that."

"It's not funny, you can't make decisions

for me kuita as if inini andina pfungwa.

Ndinadzo five senses dzekukwanisa kufunga

ndega." Ndakadonhedza misodzi but he shook

his head, opened his wallet and gave me a

hundred dollar note neimwe 50 pamusoro

ndikanzi, "buy something for Rati ndava

kuenda kubasa." Ndakada kunzvengesa muromo,

his face changed until I kissed him back

ndikanzi, "you are mine, we are going out

over the weekend, paunoita off tiri kuenda

tiri two." Andina kupihwa mukana wekudaira,

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he left me in the kitchen looking at the

money yainge yaswa paside pangu.

Ndakainhonga nekukasika ndanzwa kunge kune

munhu ari kufamba achiuya. Zvakaitika

saizvozvo, Tsungai akapinda mukitchen

achiratidza kunge munhu asina kana

kumborara.

"Ndeipi," akadaro achibata kettle akavhunza

kana paive ne coffee yasara. "Just a bit,"

ndakadaira ndikavhunza kana aida kuti

ndimudirire. "Ndoita rega hako," akadaira

achitora cup. Zvakandiremera kuti

ndisavhunze zvainetsa. She smiled akanditi,

"asi zviri kunyanya kuoneka here kuti andisi

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kunzwa zvakanaka?"

With a smile ndakadaira ndikati, "ehe maziso

akazvimba kuita as if you were crying kana

kuti maybe dzingoriwo hope zvadzo." Akaisa

sugar akati, "haasi mazuva ese anonakidza

Monalisa."

"A girl like you, unoshayei?" Ndakavhunza

akati, "everyone lacks something Mona, it

does not matter what they have asi munhu wese

ane nguva yekushungurudzika ma problems

ndiwo akasiyana."
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"Ako ndeeyi?" Ndakavhunza zvekare akati,

"matters of the heart haana mugoni. Poor or

rich zverudo hazvina mugoni izvi." Akabva

atobuda necoffee yake, ndikasara ndava

kuzvivhunza kuti ndianiko aitoshungurudzawo

Tsungai. Zvakandinetsa ndifunge kutsvinda

kwake zvakandirambira. Dai aive nemaziso

aisaratidza better asi maziso ake ndiwo

airamba achindirangaridza kuti she was

hurting.

After shaking my head ndakabuda ndikatanga

kuita basa rangu, ndakafonerwa nababa Rati

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kwatova masikati vakati, "ndodawo ka kukuona

shaa." Nezvange zvarongwa na William

ndakashaiwa kuti saka ndoita sei ndikati,

"ndogona kushaiwa off baba Rati."

"Iwewe wava kunyanya, kana usingade gara

wataura kuti hausi kuda pane zvauri kuita

izvi. Uri kuda kushaina zvako but can you

really take care of Ratidzo alone. It will

come a time when that child will look for

me, her father, hapana pauchamuudza kuti

dzinza rako ndiro dzinza rake. Imbomira

kuzvikoshesa iwewe wega timboita zvemwana

wedu who should be a priority right now

anditi."
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Ndakapererwa ndakabata phone ndichibva

ndavhunza ndikati, "baba Rati who has been

taking care of her, why muri kuda kutaura

mashoko anondikanganisa pfungwa?"

"It's because you can't see that I'm trying

anditi and I have a right to feel the way

that I'm feeling."

"What gives you that right baba Rati munema

nappy amakatengera mwana here, makamuramba

ichiri nhumbu, ichiri nhumbu," ndakataura

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ndikanzi, "why do you have to bring that up.

Vangani vanoramba nhumbu, ndini ndatanga

nazvo here asi ndakati sorry wani."

Ndakanzwa kuzarirwa ndichibva ndati,

"unozivei the fact yekuti you want me to be

okay panguva dzauri kuda shows that you don't

even care about me it's okay." Ndakakata call

ndikamira ndava kuchema, I was confused and

I didn't know what to do. Ndiri pakati

pekuchema ndakafonera teacher vaRati

ndichitaura navo kuti ndaida kubhadhara mari

yake yekuchokoro kahwani ye term rese. Iyoyo

yakange yabva kuna William yacho ndiyo

yandaida kushandisa kubhadharira mwana

chikoro.
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Ndakaenda mberi nebasa, towards three tete

vakafona vakati, "dai wauya Mai Rati, ukaona

murume ava kudzoka kudai abengenuka aona

kuti kunze hakuna chiriko iwe pururudza."

"Ndogona kutadza kuuya Tete nekuti ndiri

kubasa," ndakadaira vakati, "hakuna munhu

asina off, zviri kuramba kuti ubatike watova

mweya wetsvina, mweya usingade kuti iwewe

uvake imba yako."

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Tau

Ndakasvika pakuzviseka, I was caught up in a

situation where both of them didn't want to

talk to me. I had decided to spend the day

with my uncle avo vakange vambozama

kundionesa vachiti being with Tsungai was

probably infatuation asi andizvo

zvandaifeeler.

"Hauna mazuva Tau," vakadaro ndikati, "ehe I

will speak to Ndai kusvika tanzwisisana."

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"Manje ini andidi kuzouya ndichiti tiri

kuenda kumarooro zvotadza kufamba

zvakanaka." Vakadaro vachisimuka kuti vaende

ndikati, "ndichauya na Ndai kumba that's if

kana achinge abvuma." Ndakafamba navo

chating ndikazodzokera kushop kwangu.

Ndavako ndakazama zvekare phone ya Tsungai

iyo yakange yambodzimwa ndikanzwa yava

kurira.

Akadaira ndikati, "Tsungai why kudzima phone

kurara the whole night usina kutaura neni,

another day went by kusvika zuva radoka why?"

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Akangotura mafemo ndikati, "do you want me

to come to Harare ndinouya zvangu kana

zvekutaura paphone zviri kunetsa." Akaramba

akanyarara ndikati, "babie please." Ndainzwa

hana yangu kurova, iyewo aingotura mafemo

until she said, "it's fine."

"Ndiuye?" Ndakavhunza akati, "yaa it's

fine." Ndakabva ndafunga going to Harare the

next day asi ndakange ndiine munhu wandaida

kuti atange kushanda mushop, ndiye

wandakabva ndamirira kuuya kwake after that

call. I didn't know how to think, I didn't

know what to say even though mupfungwa

ndaitonzwa ndichimuudza all the apologies

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that I could think of.

Nigel akauya, tikadzidzisana, ndichipedzawo

basa ndakada kuenda kunoona Ndai ndikafunga

zvandainge ndaudzwa zuva rapfuura I decided

to give her a little bit more time.

Wandakataura naye was Matilda ndichivhunza

kuti Ndai arisei ndikaudzwa kuti akange

abuda kuenda kunotengesa. Ndakabva ndaenda

kumba kwavo ndikanosiya muriwo wekubika.

Matilda akanditarisa akati, "bamkuru if you

are cheating on my sister ndingarwadziwa,

sisi vanokudai zvekuti."

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Ndakaremerwa nekudaira, faked a smile

ndikafamba ndava kuenda kumba kwangu.

Ndakarara pamubhedha kwava kunyora message

kuna Ndai ndikati, "I'm not perfect babe asi

ndinokuda, maybe ndihwo hurombe hwacho but

I'm sorry?" Handina kuona achipindura,

ndaitoziva kuti she would not respond nekuda

kwehasha. Ndakarara ndichishushikana, woke

up in the morning ndikamboenda kunobatsira

mukomana kushop.

Ndakazosvika kuHarare during lunch time,

went to see Tsungai kwatainge tati

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tisangane. Akanditarisa, that moment I knew

I had hurt her. Akatura mafemo ndikati, "I'm

sorry, until now I don't know what got you

mad."

"You never told me that you were getting

married Tau," ndakarohwa nehana achipedza

kutaura akati, "next week if I'm not

mistaken." Akaseka akati, "you told me that

she was just your girlfriend, you never said

anything about marriage soon. If you had said

it maybe I would have tried my best to resist

you, to let you go, I simply didn't know that

it was that serious." Ndakatarisa pasi

akati, "when you decided to marry her,

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wakadii, kundiudza, did you want me to know

after watoroora here. Getting married is a

big thing, zvasiyana nekudanana kwekuti you

know kuti zvinogona kuita kana kuti

zvinogona kuramba. You made Ndai appear like

a woman who was just there."

Akatanga kuchema, pandakada kutaura akaramba

akati, "no Tau mira, I have been crying since

yesterday, when you said to me let's see

where it will take us, ndipo pano here pekuti

not even a month and a half wakuroora. If

that was the trial and error and you realized

hauchada nezvangu why didn't you simply say.

Wakandiudza wani kuti you have a girlfriend

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after you had lied to me and told me things

that made me love you. Is this a pattern that

I always have to find things out ndatonyura

murudo newe? If you were so sure about

marriage, why did we even try. I'm not saying

don't marry the woman you love but come on

Tau couldn't you just tell me wega kuti

wafunga kuroora. Did Ndai call me ega here

kana kuti wakamutuma hako, maybe she was

pretending on the phone muchizivana?"

"I didn't know Tsungai trust me I didn't

know." Akazunguza musoro akati, "anyway

thanks for the ride I guess we have come to

the end of our journey right."

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"Nooo," ndakadaira akati, "Tau uri kuroora

next week mhani, did Ndai lie to me? Tell me

that she lied and I will believe you."

"Tsungai, I need to talk to you without you

thinking andikude, I love you and that has

not changed. Ndai didn't lie to you,"

ndakataura achibva anditi, "chienda Tau."

"I'm not going anywhere before we talk, we

will talk until we understand each other."

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"Noo Tau nooo," she said crying ndikati, "no,

I'm not leaving and I'm not letting you go."

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*CHANCES

Kaydie*

*Chapter18*

*Tau*

"Andisi kuda zvekutaura," akandiudza

ndikazviramba nekuti ndaida kutaura naye

ndichiona kuti ndoita sei. Akazunguza musoro

asked me akati, "okay what do you want to

say?"

Honestly ndakashaiwa pekutangira nekuti I

didn't know how she would react kana

ndamuudza nyaya dzacho. Ndakaona abata bag

rake, which was a sign yekuti aneta

nekumirira kuti nditaure, akange afunga

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kuenda. Ndakabata bag ndikati, "I'm sorry

andina kukuudza kuti I made arrangements to

marry Ndai. Before I met you, I had plans of

marrying Ndai and thats the truth."

She smiled akati, "okay don't let me stop

you, I wish you the best Tau, ndini hangu

ndanga ndakanganwa kuti you and I were an

experiment, it's not like you promised me

heaven on Earth no."

"Stop talking like that, Ndai heard rumors

about us, she wanted to break up with me

immediately, even without proof, I decided

kuvapa date rekuroora. This happened ini

newe tisati tatomboenda kure, remember when

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you came kushop ndikavhara shop and all, the

day we made love in the shop, her friend was

close by she saw us akaenda kunoudza Ndai.

Honestly I didn't know how to handle the

situation that's the truth."

"Tau if you love her that much how did you

even look at me, did you want to see how it's

like being with me before you get married?"

"No Tsungai when you put it like that then

it comes out wrong. Even until now I want to

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be with you still, yes I love Ndai but I love

you too." Akazunguza musoro akanditi,

"marriage is a big thing Tau, I can't

understand my part in your life since you

have decided to get married. I didn't know

that you would make that decision so soon

and honestly I'm hurt nekuti when you made

that decision, there was still time to tell

me ndorega kunyanya kunyura murudo newe. I'm

thinking kuti kana waroora zvinenge

zvachinja ndinenge ndava hure rakoka anditi

ndizvo zvinotaura vanhu. Being with you when

you are married is different from being with

you tese tiri vasikana vako, zvakatosiyana.

Manje apa she will be entitled to you and I

will be just that other person, it's better

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ndisiyane nazvo hangu I don't think my heart

can handle iwewe marrying someone else

ndiripo."

Ndakapererwa zvekutotadza kutaura, losing

her was more painful than I had ever

imagined. Takatarisana and we failed to

break that eye contact, ndakabata ruoko

rwake ndikati, "Tsungai would you want to

ever get married to me. Ndavhunza muvhunzo

uyu nekuti I don't know how you see me in

your future, you know the type of husband

that you want and looking at myself I may

not be the man that may provide every single

thing that you need."

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"Is that a question kana kuti mashoko ekuti

ndione sekuti choice yako yekuroora Ndai

yakanaka?" Akandivhunza ndikanzwisisa kuti

haana kunzwisisa kuti ndiri kutaura zvipi.

"It's a question, a genuine one nekuti iwewe

neni hatina kubvira tataura kusvika ipapo.

We know we have that deep connection, maybe

ndini ndega but I feel it patiri. Inini hangu

I would love to be with you asi andizive on

your part."

"We were seeing where it was going Tau and I

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was liking it, but wasarudza kuroora when we

had just started discovering ourselves, and

now I don't know what to say to you?"

Akatanga kuchema akati, "oh my word why would

you do this to me at this point." Akazunguza

musoro akati, "uri kuti you want to be with

me does that mean inini na Ndai tese?"

Ndakadaira ndakatarisa pasi akati, "and you

think my father will ever allow me to get

married to a man who is married to someone

else here Tau?"

"Would you want to be with me still?"

Ndakavhunza akati, "Tau marriage is

different, that is not how I imagined my

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husband."

"Marriage is different zvese izvozvo

ndinozviziva Tsungai but there is poligamy

something that has always been there kubva

kare."

"Noo Tau," akadaira achiwedzera kuchema

akati, "when it comes to a husband, I want

him home with me mazuva ese. Kuva newe

knowing about Ndai was never easy, I was also

jealous and I'm even feeling crazy thinking

that you are going to get married."

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"Babie what should I do?" Ndakavhunza akati,

"Tau wasarudza kare wauri kuda."

"I want you both," ndakamuudza akazunguza

musoro.

Ndai
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Ndakatura mafemo ndapedza kurongedza zvinhu

zvangu. Ndakatora maZambia andaida

kunoratidza ambuya vaTsungi ndikanzwa nungo

nekungofunga muzukuru wavo akange ari kumba

kwaTau akaregedza kusvika kumba kwavo. Umwe

moyo wakamboda kufunga kuti kumudaidza

vachiti agadzirise ma solar pamba pavo yaive

nyaya yekutoda kuswededza muzukuru wavo pana

Tau.

Ndakaridza tsamwa Matilda akati, "nhai sisi

saka hamusati mataura na bamkuru?" She asked

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me ndikati, "zvaita sei," nekuti ndaisada

kuti apinde munyaya dzangu. Akaramba

akanyarara ndichibva ndakumura chuma

chandaive nacho kuti ndichiwedzere zvishoma.

"Ndigadzirirei che blue," akakumbira

ndikati, "Mira ndimboita zva ndiri kuda

kuita ndichakupa."

"Ndakumbobuda," akadaro ndichibva

ndagutsurira musoro ndichienda mberi

nezvandaiita. Ndakapedza kugadzira chuma

ndikapfeka, decided to take a nap ndikarara.

Mazuva angu ekuroorwa akange atosvika and I

didn't know kuti ndichaita sei. Ndakamutswa

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neknock ya Tau, I knew how he knocked

whenever he came. Ndakamboda kuita sendisipo

asi hapana kwandaisvika nekuti nguva yacho

yainge yafamba.

Ndakavhura nemukati, ndikadzokera kunogara

pasi, he came in akagara paside pangu

nekutonyarara. Handina kutaura, kana

kumutarisa andina kusvika anditi, "I'm sorry

Ndai." Ndakaramba ndakanyarara akati, "I

know that this is not how we had planned our

lives."
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Achingotaura kudaro ndakaziva kuti something

bad was coming from that statement. Akatura

mafemo tichibva tatarisana akati, "I am in a

relationship na Tsungai, yakangotanga when I

least expected, I can't keep hiding it from

you when I know that it's there."

Ndakapindwa nechando muviri nenguva diki

diki, akada kuenda mberi ndikati, "its okay

zvakwana." Zvishoma zvandainge ndanzwa was

enough to break me, ndakafemera padenga

ndikabata misodzi yaida kubuda.

Ndakazvifanner nemaoko, zvikaramba kuti

ndirege kuchema, ndakarwadziwa.

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"I'm sorry Ndai," he said ndikamuti, "aewa

Tau usanditi sorry nekuti waiziva kuti

ndicharwadziwa. Wakazviramba kangani Tau

ndichikuvhunza?"

"Kakawanda," he said ndikati, "ehe kakawanda

and kakawanda ikako is now breaking me I

don't know what to do." Ndakashaiwa kana

pekubata looked at him ndikati, "Saka wauya

kuzondiudza finally nekuti wava kuda kuti

tisiyane zviri official handiti?"

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"No," akadaro ndikati, "what's left to say

or do iwe wati muri kudanana. Haaa zvakaoma

ndakakwira mota yemusikana wako nekuzeza

kufamba kuita sendisingazive nzira yekumba.

Une hutsinye Tau une hutsinye, how could you

do this to me."

"I'm sorry," akataura zvekare ndikati, "aewa

hausi sorry, wafara ka seeing me like this

nekuti you knew we would get here.

Ndakamufonera akandiita benzi, mese

makandiita benzi henyu kutondiudza kuti you

never gave her boundaries, what more do you

want?" Ndakanzwa hasha ndikati, "hauna

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kuzvinzwa here ndati what more do you want?"

"All I wanted was to tell you the truth Ndai,

you are angry and I understand that too, I'm

simply in a position where I can't say

anything afraid that I may make you more

angry."

"So you wanted to get married to me uine

mumwe?" Ndaida kunzwisisa akati, "yes."

"Ah," ndakadaro ndikamuti "Tau une sure?"

Ndakaseka nehasha ndikati, "saka perfume

yaive pamubhedha makarara mese handiti?"

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Haana kudaira ndikamuvhunza nehasha ndipo

paakadaira akati, "yes." Ndakamuka

ndikanhonga butsu ndichida kumurova nayo.

Akaibata ndikamusunda iye akaramba

akandibata akati, "Ndai zvakwana."

"Haundiudze kuti zvakwana ka ini

ndichangotanga, ndisiye ndiite zvandoda.

Harare yakapera varume here zvekuti she had

to come here and take you away from me."

Takakikiritsana kusvika ndaregedza butsu

yacho. Ndakatora phone ndikafona kuna

Tsungai, Tau paakanzwa ichirira haana kuziva

kuti ndiri kufonera ani asi pakadaira

Tsungai akanditarisa ndikati, "iwewe kana

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ndikasakurovai dzinza rese haufe wakatsika

mhondoro futi wazvinzwa?" Haana kudaira

ndikati, "ndati wazvinzwa Tsungai?"

She answered me calmly akati, "hoo okay."

"Wakanditi congratulations kudii kwacho when

you were sleeping with Tau, kunyepedzera

kuzungaira kuita kunge munhu kwaye uchiziva

hako kuti you were messing up my relationship

wafara here manje?"

"Are you done?" She asked me ndikati, "imbwa

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iwe stupid." Tau akada kundibvutira phone

ndikati, "iwe Tau usandibate, usatombobata

phone yangu handiti."

"Aewa Ndai stop it, Tsungai akuita sei, deal

with me anditi ndini ndine mhosva."

"Mese murimbwa Tau," ndakamuudza achibva

atura mafemo akati, "you know what thats

fine." Akafamba ava kuenda ndikati, "kupi

kwauri kuenda haufambeka ndisina kukuti

famba?" Ndakatarisa phone ndikaona Tsungai

akata kare, ndakaseka ndikati, "zvarwadza

ka, ehe munhu wese ari kuzorwadziwa."

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"Urikuda kuenda kupi when I'm feeling like

this Tau, where do you want to go when you

made me this?" Akamira padoor ndikati,

"wauya wandiudza, then what, huh then what,

you want to go to her already ?"

"I'm not going to her Ndai, I didn't say that

I'm going to her but come on, like a dog that

I am, do I even know what to say to you

anymore. Can a dog and a human communicate,

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call me names yes I don't care but don't call

me a dog."

"What am I supposed to call a man who wants

two women?" Ndakavhunza akati, "I said call

me anything else and just not that." Chiso

chake chairatidza kuti ndabaya panorwadza,

but I didn't care, all I could see was a man

who had broken me and I wanted him to hurt

too.

"You are hurting I know that too, I hurt you

but do you think that it's easy for me

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watching you hurt?" I screamed at him

ndikati, "yeees, it's easy for you nekuti

waitozvida."

"I never planned it Ndai, and telling you

has been the hardest thing for me as well."

I screamed at him and asked if that made

things okay akati, "noo, I never said that

but trust me, watching you hurt like this

happens to be something I don't even know

how to deal with."

"What am I supposed to do, forget the

relationship that we have had for so long

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here. Just accept here and be with you and

her as well how does that happen Tau?"

Akafamba akabva kudoor, stood pakati peroom,

looked at me akati, "I love you Ndai. Maybe

they are meaningless words to you I don't

know what else to say. How do I undo what I

have already done, I wish I could change a

lot of things but I can't do that nekuti

zvinhu hazvichinje nekuti we want that.

Ndakurwadzisa I know that tell me what you

want me to do nekuti mashoko chete will never

make you feel better."

Paakandivhunza ndakatadza kana kudaira, I

broke down, he tried touching me

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ndakamubvisa padhuze neni. "She is happy

right, that's why she was calm on the phone

ka?" Ndakavhunza akati, "no she is not,

usabhaizwe nephone." Ndakaseka ndikati, "hoo

she was crying and wamunyararidza, wanga

unaye, wabva kunonyararidza iye wauya

kuzonyararidza inini manje?"

Ndakazunguza musoro ndikati, "kana anga

achichema tell me what she was crying for,

anga achichema chii when you were hurting me

together." Akaramba akanyarara ndikati,

"ndidaire Tau."
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"I can't tell you all that and you know it?"

Ndakaramba ndikati, "aewa hapana

zvandinoziva sha, tell me kuti chamuchemedza

chii?"

"I never told her that I wanted to marry you

Ndai, those were our plans inini newe."

Ndakaseka ndikati, "yohwee hoo nhai waida

kuroora dununu wosiya munhu kwaye?"

"Hausi dununu," akadaira ndikati, "aewa zve

usandipikise ndiri dununu. Ambuya vaTsungi

vari kufara kuti vane mukuwasha zukuru haa

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imbwa dzevanhu mhani."

"She does not know anything Ndai besides I'm

the one to blame even Tsungai didn't know

about you kubva pakutanga I'm the one who

lied, I keep telling you that."

"Saka wakamunyenga ukamuudza kuti andiko?"

Akatarisa pasi ndichibva ndaseka ndikati,

"yaa munhu wese anenge achiziva iwe

usingazive."

"Babie," akadaro achizama futi kuda

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kundibata ndikati, "aewa maoko ako ayo

anobata Tsungai andisi kumada. Wakanakirwaka

na Tsungai nekuti ndiye aikupa makumbo,

inini ndaisakupa ndatova chimwe chinhu you

have the guts to tell me kuti iwewe unodanana

na Tsungai futi."

"Babie," akazama zvekare kundibata ndikati,

"noo Tau andisi kuda." He hugged me by force

ndikati, "ndisiye mhani." Akaramba

akandibata zvakaita kuti ndicheme, even with

his betrayal his hug was the best hug that I

ever had. "I'm sorry," akadaro rubbing my

back ndikati, "Tau it was supposed to be just

you and I wani."

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"I'm sorry babie," he said hugging me tighter

ndikanzwa hana yake ichirova. Ndakaramba

ndichichema ndikati, "we are supposed to get

married pa weekend and you are telling me

this why?"

"I still want to get married," akataura

ndikati, "getting married futi how

zvakadai?" He let me go tichibva tatarisana

akati, "it's hard to even explain, but even

though I did what I did my feelings for you

never changed."
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"Hauchandida Tau, you are feeling sorry for

me."

Akadaira akati, "never, dai ma feelings angu

akachinja pauri maybe but kwandiri you are

still that woman that I love. You are still

Ndai, I know that you don't want to get

married to me anymore but I'm saying kuti

nothing changed. Ndiendese kwaunoda

unovhunzira kana uchida, kana ari munhu

anowona chaizvo chaizvo anokuudza kuti

ndokuda."
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"Sisi," Matilda akadaidzira ndichibva

ndapukuta kumeso ndikati, "ndiri muno

wadzoka?"

"Ehe ndadzoka, ndanzwa kunge bamkuru

varimo?" Akavhunza ndikati, "ehe varimo tiri

kumbotaura."

"Ndeipi yenyu bamkuru," akamhoresa Tau

akanzi, "mainini maswera sei?"

"Tipeiwo ka dollar bamkuru," she said

ndichibva ndazunguza musoro ndikati,

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"Matilda chiiko newe uri hure here iwewe

rekuti rinongokumbira mari?" Tau

akanditarisa akati, "mainini vari kutaura

neni babie, it's not as if ari kufamba

achikumbira vanhu mari, why did you have to

do that?"

"Anoda mari yechiiko, mangwana mangwana

dollar rechii chacho?"

"I'm sorry sisi," akataura Tau achibva

avhura wallet took five dollars akavhura

door kuti ape Mati. Maybe akawana asuduruka

here ndakanzwa ava kudaidza achiti, "mainini

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ko maenda kupi?"

Ndakasara ndikagara pamubhedha ndava

kufunga, I didn't know what to do. Ndakasvika

pakurara nestress, akadzoka akandiwana

ndakarara. "Chimboenda hako," ndakamuudza

akati, "babie let's talk, ndanga ndichida

kuenda ukati no, ndagara wava kuti noo futi?"

"Andichakwanisa kutaura kana ndavakukwanisa

ndokuudza." He sat next to me, took a deep

breath before he got up and left. Ndakasara

ndikachema kusvika ndaneta, andina kana

kuzombobuda mumba. Matilda akazondidaidzira

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chikafu asi apetite yekudya ndakange

ndisina.

"Sorry hako for snapping," ndakamuudza

ndaona kuti ainge ambochema. Akavhunza

akati, "muri kurwa na bamkuru handiti?"

Ndakagutsurira musoro akati, "I'm sorry."

Haana zvimwe zvaakataura kusvika tirare.

Husiku hwacho Tau aingotumira ma message

ekuti sorry asi sorry ndakange ndisiri kuida

I wanted him to leave Tsungai.

Pandakaudza Olivia nyaya yangu akapererwa

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akati, "but Tau haangakudaro shaa.

Zvekusvika pakudanana na Tsungai nekutorara

vese haa vamwe vanhu vari loose shame."

Ndakatura mafemo akati, "saka wafunga kuita

sei?"

"Hapana kana chandiri kuziva Olivia, maybe

dai wandipawo zano nekuti ndaomerwa. Ndoudza

here vana baba kuti hazvichaita?"

"Vanobva vati hauna kurongeka," akadaira

kwava kunditi, "haa but no pfeka zvakanaka

timbobuda tifambe?" Ndakavhunza kuti kupi

akati, "iwe Shaa mhondoro ine vanhu

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vanoshandira ngatifambe." Ndakamboda kuramba

ndikazvishingisa ndikabuda naye tichienda

kwaaida kuti tiende. Takasvika vanhu

vachigadzirira kutanga church yavo, sevanhu

vaisada kugara Olivia akavhunza kana

vaikwanisa kutibatsira.

Takanongedzerwa pekuenda tikanopfugama,

munhu wacho akange akanyarara zvake kuti

zii. Akanditarisa, took a deep breath akati,

"shungu adzirambidzwe asi dzinoda kudzorwa."

"Inga ndadzidzora wani?" Ndakadaira akati,

"ndapedza here kutaura, dzapera here shungu,

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ndogara hangu pasi moenda?" He asked calmly

Olivia akati, "muregererei haazive kuti

anofanira kukupai nguva mutaure."

"Dzinza rake ndere barika," he said. "Ehe

zvingaite kunge zvamira mazama henyu asi

zvinonyuka zvekare kana vekwake vaswedera

pedyo naye." Ndakazunguza musoro ndikati,

"ndokumbirawo kuvhunza ,saka muri kutaura

kuti munhu anenge achingoda vakadzi

vakawanda?" Vakandidaira vakati, "hakuna

akadarika vakadzi vaviri kumhuri kwavo."

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"Anondida here?" Ndakavhunza ndikanzi,

"ehe."

"Koumwe uyo?" Ndakavhunza zvekare zvikanzi,

"hongu." Ndakaseka ndikati, "haa ini

zvebarika kwete hapana zvingaitwe here kuti

varambane ndisare ndiri one. Handiti mati

anondida kureva kuti rudo rwacho rwunenge

rwusiri rwe fake ka rwagara ruripo.

Ndinongoitawo ndichidzoka kusvika

amukanganwa."

He stared at me, took a deep breath ndikanzi,

"hoo." Takatarisana na Olivia uyo

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akagutsurira musoro akati, "munhu

haangapinde mumba kutanga nebarika."

"Zvakasiyanei kutanga naro nekusangana naro

pamberi rese harisi barika here?" He asked

Olivia akati, "anenge ambowana nguva

yekufara nemunhu wake vari vaviri. Zvagara

varume vanozodaro kumberi wani, saka

akambotanga ari ega better."

"Zvakanaka," he said
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Takanga tava munzira kudzokera when Olivia

asked me how I was feeling. Ndakamira kufamba

ndikati, "truth me be told ndiri kurwadziwa,

what if one of these days ndikanzwa kuti

Tsungai ane nhumbu. Vanga vachirara vese ka

ava, vanga vachipfeka condom here?" Ndakabva

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ndatonzwa mudumbu, iyewo akashaiwa kuti

ondipindura sei asi akazunguza musoro

akatura mafemo zvekupererwa.

"Kuti by then vanenge vanenge vasina

kusiyana here?" She asked me ndikati,

"nyangwe toti vanenge vasiyana Olivia, a

child with Tau will be evidence of his

betrayal, yandicharamba ndichiona."

"Anditi chauri kuda ndiTau?" Akandivhunza

ndikati, "ehe ndiri kuda Tau. Funga kwatabva

Olivia, am I making a bad decision kana ndiri

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kukanganisa ndiudze." Akatanga kufamba

akati, "andina kuti uri kukanganisa, for a

relationship to work inotoda effort kunyanya

kumukadzi. Shepherd akaita musikanzwa nhasi

usafunge kuti ndinomusiya never, auya wacho

ndiye ngaende anditi anenge andiwana ndiripo

zve."

Ndakafamba nhanho maybe about three steps

ndikanzwa chest yangu kuremerwa. Ndakamira

kufamba Olivia akavhunza kana ndainge ndava

kurwara. Ndaitonzwa kurwara kuhombe,

ndakafamba zvishoma nezvishoma

ndichizvisimbisa. Patakasvika kumba

ndakasiiwa na Olivia, ndaive nezvandaive

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nazvowo mupfungwa dzangu and ndaitonzwa kuda

kuenda kumba kwambuya va Tsungi.

Pandakasvika ndakatomboda kurega asi

pandakaonekwa naMucha ndakashaiwa matiziro.

"Ko wadzoka?" She asked me ndichibva

ndanyemwerera ndikati "hesi ko gogo varipo?"

"Ehe varipo vakagara paverandah, ndeip yako

wakazomubata here Tsungai?" Ndakamanikidzira

kunyemwerera ndakamutarisa ndikadaira

ndikati, "ehe haa ndakataura naye asi haana

kukuudza?" Takatanga kufamba akati, "aewa

haana kutaura uyu, ko anombotaura here

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Tsungai?"

"Maswera sei gogo," ndakakwazisa ndabudikira

pavakange vari. Ivo vakaratidza kunge

vakange vava kubatwa nehope. Vakamuka

vakati, "ndiani," ndikati, "ndini zvangu

Ndai." Vakakwiza maziso kuti vandione

zvakanaka ndipo pavakati, "aaah Ndai, kana

kumbozviona mazuvano uri kutambira kuno

kwakanaka here?"

Mucha akabva agara paside zvikandiremera

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kutaura zvandakange ndafambira. "Kuri Nani

zvako," ndakataura kwava kutarisa zvekare

kuna Mucha hoping that she would leave.

Ndakazoita zvekumukumbira kuti asuduruke

nditaure na gogo akafamba achienda.

"Kwakanaka here Ndai kwawadzinga Mucha?"

Gogo vakavhunza zvekare ndikati, "ndine

nyaya gogo asi andisi kuziva kuti ndoita sei

ndiri munhu apererwa." Vakanditarisa

confused, smiled vakati, "yagoita nyaya

yakaita seiko iyoyo inoda inini sendiri hama

yako." Ndakamira kudaira ndava kunzwa

kuzarirwa. Ndakadonhedza misodzi vakanditi,

"asi ndakutuka here wava kutochema nhai."

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"Haa kana," ndakadaira vakanditi, "saka

chii?"

"Handiti pamakandiona paye ndakataura nyaya

yekuroorwa naTau?"

Vakadaira vakati, "ehe wakataura kudaro,

saka chii chanetsa?" Ndakasimudza musoro,

looked at her ndikati, "zvese zvanga

zvarongeka zvakanaka, that was before

ndaziva kuti Tau ari kudanana na Tsungai."

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"Aniii?" Vakakasika kudaira ndikati,

"Tsungai, muzukuru wenyu ari kudanana na

Tau." Vakazviramba vakati, "haa kana

wakatadza kunzwa Ndai, Tsungai haasi

kudanana naTau." Vakaseka vakati, "kudanana

na Tau kuti zvaitei, kuti iko kuHarare

kwashaikwa varume vanoroora here?" Vakaenda

mberi nekuseka ndikati, "Tau akandiudza

nezuro gogo, pandakauya pano ndichiti ndiri

kuda number dza Tsungai, yaive isiri nyaya

yekuti ndaida kuzotaura business naye, yaive

nyaya yekuti akanga auya kumba kwa Tau.

Perfume yake ndakainzwa, yaive pamubhedha

waTau, zvakandirwadza nekuti Tau aida

kuzviramba asi ndakamubata chete. Musi wacho

Tsungai akauya kumhondoro kuzoona Tau chete,

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kana pamusha penyu haana kusvika."

"Iwe Ndai zvauri kutaura izvi uri kuzviwana

kupi, andidi kuti tipesane nenyaya dzaunenge

usina umboo nadzo pamwe uri kutorwa zvako

shanje." Handina kuramba kuti ndaive

neshanje, ndakavaudza ndikati, "gogo shanje

ndinadzo andingatadze kudziita ndichidanana

na Tau uye tabva kure. Dai zvichinzi andina

kumbowo ndingadai ndisina kuuya pano. Muri

munhu mukuru andingauye kwamuri nenyaya

dzisina basa. Tau akazvibvuma ega kuti vari

kudanana uye vakarara vese."

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"Haaa kana zvakadaro zvaipazve, nhaiwe Mucha

huya pano." Mucha wacho akauya achimhanya

kuita as if nyaya iyoyo inyaya yaakange

akatomirira kuudzwa. Vakavhunza vakati,

"wakambonzwawo nezvekudanana kwa Tau na

Tsungai?" Akaramba akati, "handina ini gogo,

plus vangadanana sei iye musikana waTau ari

pano ivowo vachizviziva."

"Ndipo pari kundinetsa," vakadaira gogo

ndikati, "Tau akanyepera Tsungai kuti akange

asina musikana."
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"Sorry zvako Ndai, ini nyaya iyi

yandivhundutsa zvisingaiti. Inyaya yakashata

yekuti atingasekereri zvinhu zvakadaro."

Vakazunguza musoro vakati, "haaa

zvatinoitirwa nevana ka zvakaoma. Koiye Tau

chiuno chake chakaita seiko munhu ari kuda

kuroora. Akange ashaya kumwe kwekutarisa

here, amai vake mwana uyu anovaziva

zvakanaka, kumwe hakusi kungodawo kufira

mahara here haiwawo." Vakaita nguva

vachipopota kusvika vati, "iwe Mucha Tora

phone yangu ufonere Tsungai ndinoda kuziva

kuti nyaya yake iri papi. Zvepaphone

zvinonetsa futi haiwa muudze kuti gogo

havasi kunzwa mushe vati huya nemushonga."

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Vakaridza tsamwa zvekare vakanditi, "saka

wafunga kudii?" Ndakadaira ndikati, "inini

mukomana wangu handisi kumusiya nekuda kwa

Tsungai. Ndiye akuuya pakati pangu na Tau,

ndokumbirawo zvangu asiyane na Tau kuti

tiende mberi nehupenyu hwedu sekuronga

kwatakazviita pakutanga."

Vakanditarisa vakati, "hoo, haa zvakanaka

ndichataura na Tsungai ndigotaura na Tau

wacho." Ndakagutsurira musoro ndichibva

ndasimuka ndava kuoneka kuti ndichienda

zvangu kumba.
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Tsungai

Ndakavhunza Mucha ndikati, "iwe mapiritsi

agogo ndakaunza wani what is wrong with her

futi?"

"Hanzi muviri wese," akanyora ndichibva

ndamboisa phone pasi. I didn't want to go to

mhondoro nenyaya dzakange dziri kuitika.

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Ndakasimudza phone, wrote to her ndikati,

"tsvaga mapain killers Mucha, I'm sure those

will work and besides ndakaunza type

yemapiritsi yakawanda wani?"

"Zvinonetsa sisi kana gogo vatanga kunetsa

zvinoshupa kureasoner navo, it's best muuye

muvaone henyu." Again ndakaisa phone pasi

ndikatanga kufunga kuti ndodii. I was

stressed zvekusatoda kufamba nemota

ndichiendako, zvekuroora kwa Tau was simply

too much ndaisada kusvika munzvimbo

ndosvikirana nekuroora kwa Tau.

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Handina kuzotaura na Mucha, I decided to

leave it at that, ndichipedza basa ndakaenda

kumba kwa Yolanda ndichida kumborara

zvishoma. Ndakapinda mumagumbeze chaimo, iye

akauya akagara paside, rubbed my back

ndikanzi, "hausisina kunditsamwira?"

"I don't want you to say anything negative

right now, I can't handle anything negative

ndiri kutorwara nenyaya dzacho." She

continued rubbing my back ndikavhunzwa kana

ndainge ndakataura naye.

"He wants us both," ndakamuudza achibva

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atura mafemo. Neniwo ndakatura mafemo,

changed kwandainge ndakatarisa ndikati, "I

feel like ndiri kupindwa nechando Yolanda.

It was going to be easy maybe dai andisiya

pasina ma feelings but my feelings for him

are so strong haa ndiri kurwara Yolanda.

Maybe dai tadhonza taita a series of

arguments ekuti unonzwa kuti uyu munhu

andichada asi manje all this is still fresh.

My stomach keeps turning when I think about

it."

"Wakaramba pandakati Tau anenge akakudyisa,

kana kuti maybe ane zviri paari zviri

kukucontroller Tsungai."
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"Akandidyisira kupiko as if he has ever

cooked for me, Tau haana kubvira andibikira

kauyu." It didnt make sense to me kuti

ndinganzi ndakadyiswa ndakazviramba. "Pamwe

ane something chekuti akarara nemukadzi

zvinonetsa kusiyana."

"Uri kuti haana ex here?" Ndakavhunza akati,

"ariko but you never know. Iwewe wasiyana

nevasikana vakawanda zve, une zvinhu zvakati

wandei hauna mari yababa vako yega asi iwewe

wacho une tunhu twako. Any guy would be crazy

to let you go unoziva?" Ndakamutarisa

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ndikati, "Yolanda ndatiiko nezvinhu zviri

negative, ndakuudza wani kuti andisi kuda

kuzvinzwa. Tau anondida ndinozvifeeler inini

kuti ndinodiwa. Kana achindidira what I have

then I haven't seen that nekuti pese

pandomuona anondipa Mari yefuel, he buys the

food, ndikada kutenga, he stops me." I sighed

ndikati, "if it was about the money he would

have chosen me over Ndai but it's not about

the money."

"Okay sorry," she said leaving me ndichibva

ndatomborara. Ndakamuka nekutoenda kumba

andina kuda kuzogara nekuti kwakange

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kwadoka. Mama vakauya muroom mangu after

sometime and asked me if all was okay. "You

seem distant for the past days kwakanaka?"

"Kubasa mama I'm very busy lately, ndiri

kudzoka ndapera basa ndisina kana simba

ipapa."

"Shame sorry, work hard and make more money,

ndinodada newe mwanangu." Ndakanyemwerera

vakati, "how many of your age mates are

building a home for themselves?"

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"Kusiyana kwevanhu mama kuwana kunosiyana,"

ndakadaira vakati, "yes I know ndoda

ungoziva kuti uri kuita zvinotadzwa nevarume

vakawanda. A man who wants you should know

your worth wazvinzwa, uri gold mine ipapa."

Vakabva vasimuka vakati, "ndoda kunoona gogo

vako kumusha." Ndakavhunza kuti vapi asi

vaitaura Mai vavo. "Gogo vati havasi kunzwa

mushe," ndakavaudza ndichireva vekumhondoro

mama vakati, "sometimes kwatova kunyepa iri

nyaya yekuda kudya zvavo mari yemwana wavo.

Yakambonzi inopera here ko kungokumbira

zvakanaka, kunyepa ndekweiko pachembere."

She closed the door on me, left me wondering

kuti kuvaudza ndiko kwainge kwaita kuti

vatsamwe here. I ended up feeling bad which

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made me decide kuenda kumhondoro nekuti mama

vacho vaisada.

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Ndakange ndagara nasekuru kumba kwavo

tichitaura nyaya. Vakabata phone yavo

vachibva vatarisa nguva vakati, "zvimwe

zvinhu ndaona sezvinonetsa kusiya kana zviri

muropa Tau. Kana washinga ndizvozvo iwewe

tarisa kuti anoramba ainewe ndiyani woroora

zvako, anenge afungawo kuenda hazvina basa

rega zviyende pane kutemeseka musoro."

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Ndakatarisawo phone ndichida kuona kana

paine message yakange yapinda but there was

nothing which made me decide not to speak to

anyone ndichiti anenge andifungawo

taizotangira ipapo. "Rega ndirare,"

vakataura vachisimuka nekuti nguva dzakange

dzafamba. Ndakasimukawo pasina wekusara

naye, even I was beginning to feel that need

to sleep semunhu akange ava nemazuva asina

kurara zvakanaka. "Toonana mangwana," he

said closing his door ndikananga kwangu

kwandakasvika ndikabvisa butsu ndikarara. It

was not easy not speaking to both of them,

neimwe nguva ndaitonzwa kuti let me just send

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a message asi ndakazvidzora.

Kuseni kwacho ndakamuka ndichida kunanga

kubasa sekuru vakati, "saka wakazotii nekuti

marooro acho anga ari mangwana?" Ndakadaira

ndikati, "andigone kutaura anything nekuti

Ndai akatsamwa sekuru, akataura kuti kana

ava ready achandiudza."

"Wadii watenga zvako mota muzukuru.

Koukaroora zvinhu zvochinja nekuda kwa

Tsungai, rudo rukapera kuna Ndai wacho.

Ndikafunga nyaya yako ndiri kunzwa kumira

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kwevhudzi."

"Kutenga mota here sekuru zvinobva zvaita as

if I was lying about marrying her. I can't

do that unless she tells me that she does

not want to get married to me."

"It's okay," vakadaira vachinditarisa kwava

kusimudza badza ravo vakananga kumunda.

Ndakabuda ndichienda kushop, ndatosvikako

ndakaona Mucha achisvika akabata paperbag

yaive nechingwa. Akandimhoresa ndikadaira

stopped by my door ndikamutarisa ndichida

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kuona kuti ari kuda kudii. Akatarisa panze

then came inside the shop, hesitated to speak

but still found guts akanditi, "nhai Tau

ndoda kuvhunza zvangu." Ndakaramba

ndakamutarisa akati, "Uri kudanana na

Tsungai?"

"Ndizvo zvakataura Tsungai?" Ndakavhunza

ndichifamba kubva mushop mangu leaving

mukomana kuti ashande ega. Ndakabuda panze

ndichibva ndamira iye akatevera. "Ndai

akauya kumba nezuro achiudza gogo kuti iwewe

uri kudanana na Tsungai and Tsungai has

messed up your relationship." Ndakaunyanidza

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kumeso ndikati, "Ndai akauya?"

"Ehe akauya nezuro, Tsungai akatonzi auye

kuno nagogo." Ndakaseka zvekupererwa

ndikavhunza ndikati, "kuzodii?"

"Kunyaya dzako that's why ndati ndivhunze."

Ndakatadza kumudaira ndikaramba

ndakamutarisa ndava kufunga kuti what was

going to happen kuna Tsungai. "Ayas," I shook

my head feeling irritated, ndaisada kuti

vanhu vakuru vapinde munyaya dzataikwanisa

kuti tipedze tiri two. "Kana zvakadaro ma1

Tau, amai vake will never allow you to date

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her dai wasiyana nazvo hako. Iwewe ita zve

relationship yako na Ndai nekuti Ndai wacho

ari kuratidza kuti ane moto akaudza gogo kuti

vaudze Tsungai asiyane newe."

Ndakazunguza musoro, took my phone

ndikaitarisa, there was no message from

Ndai. "Anyway thanks, ndanga ndisiri kuziva

kuti ndizvo zvaakaita I will deal with my

issues."

"Ndakuenda," akadaro achitanga kufamba. Kana

kuti ndimutende ndakatadza, I watched her

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leave kusvika ndisisamuone. Ndaida kufonera

Ndai, asi ndakafunga kuenda kumba kwavo

ndichiti titaure tichionana.

Akatarisa pasi ndasvika ndichibva ndagara

ndikamutarisa mumaziso. She looked so

innocent zvekuti hawaimbofungira kuti akange

afamba akaenda kumba kwambuya Tsungie.

Ndakabva ndanyepa ndikati, "ndadaidzwa

kwambuya Tsungie have you any idea why she

needs me there for?"

She ignored me ndikati, "Ndai?"

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"Pawaimboenda kumashure waindivhunza here

Tau anditi waingoenda. Zvaita sei nhasi wava

kundivhunza why she called you to her house,

endaka unonzwa kuti vari kuda chii?"

"There is no need to be rude especially when

you know the reason why she needs me. Hauna

kutaura here kuti you will call me kuti

titaure kana wava nani?" Akadaira akati,

"andisati ndava nani Tau, nani yei, nani ipi

yacho nani apa?" Akange ava kundikwidzira

izwi which made me get up ndikati, "okay rega

ndiyende kwambuya vaTsungie kwacho."

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Akasimuka akati, "ndakavaudza kuti muzukuru

wavo did this to us."

Andina kudaira akati, "I told her kuti vaudze

muzukuru wako kuti asiyane newe." Andina

kudaira, akaenda mberi akati, "clearly iwewe

haukwanise kuzviita."

"Ndanga ndati," ndaida kutaura ndichibva

ndamira shook my head akati, "we are getting

married tomorrow and she is not going to be

a part of our lives." Ipapo ndakavhunza

ndikati, "so you made all these decisions

all by yourself? Kana tiri kunetsana tadii

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tamira zve marriage zvacho Ndai nekuti iwewe

neni atisati tapedza kutaura clearly.

Wakaenda kumba kwambuya vake why, wakanga

wapedza kutaura neni here?"

"Kupedza nguva," akadaro ndikati, "saka

ndiri kuitei pano?"

"Don't dare stand there and tell me kuti

zviri nani timire, all because ndakaenda

kumba kwambuya vake ndikanovaudza."

Ndakafemera padenga ndikati, "Ndai are we

not adults. Wakaudza mbuya vake have you any

idea what they will say or what will happen

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afterwards?" She screamed at me akati, "iwe

andina basa nazvo vakatadza kuraira mwana

wavo vakamudzidzisa chihure. Musikana akaita

sei wekuti anofamba achirara nevanhu haazeze

kuti munhu wacho has someone, irubbish mhani

you can't compare me kunzenza Tau."

"Stop it handiti, iwewe tsamwa

andikurambidze asi tsamwa uchifunga Ndai. Do

you know kuti in some cultures ukaita

zvawakaita izvi ndinoramwirwa munhu?"

Akazunguza musoro ndikati, "the reason I

said maybe let's wait inyaya yekuti iwewe

neni hatisati tawirirana anything."

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"Nyarara mhani Tau, I won't let you embarrass

me anditi, wazvinzwa?" Andina kana kudaira I

simply walked away ndaona kuti hapana

zvataikwanisa kutaura. Ndakafonera sekuru

ndikati, "sekuru ka hamheno, Ndai akaenda

kunoona mbuya vaTsungi akavaudza nyaya

yese." Vakaseka vakati, "koukapihwa mukadzi

anoti kudii?"

"Andichaziva." Ndakadaira ndichifamba kuenda

kumba.
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Tsungai

Ndakasvika kumhondoro around 1

ndichitarisira kuona gogo vachirwara asi

vairatidza kusimba. Ndakaisa makeys emota

mubag walked closer ndikati, "hamusi

kuratidza kurwara wani gogo."

"Ndiri kurwara," vakataura ndichibva ndagara

paside pavo vakati, "wauya nei?"

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Ndakaburitsa ma tablets mubag, gave them to

her vakati, "waita basa." She didn't look

happy at all and for a moment I believed that

she probably was sick. "Mabva masuwa kudaro

here gogo?" Ndakavhunza vakati, "Tsungai

andisi kurwara nemiri asi ndava kutorwara

nepfungwa." I didn't disturb her, vakaenda

mberi vakati, "uri kudanana na Tau?" Hana

yangu yakarova, ndakavhunzwa ndisina

kutarisira ndikati, "ah gogo mungandivhunza

zvinhu zvakadaro here?"

"Uri kuda kuvhunzwa naani, ndini gogo

handisi here. Kuno kwaunouya hakusi kwangu

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here. Uri kuda kuti Mai vako vati chii

pamusoro pangu. Uri kuda vati ndini

ndaikufurira kuti unyengwe nana Tau here?"

Ndakaramba ndikati, "gogo andidanane na Tau

magarwa neiko?"

"Musikana wake akauya akataura kuti iwewe

ndiwe wavhiringidza rudo rwavo. Akataura

akati, uri kudanana na Tau and Tau wacho

akatozvitaura. Kana zvirizvo Tsungai

wadarirei muzukuru, kuHarare hakuna vakomana

here. Kuno uri kutsvagei, ndipo Mai vako kana

baba vako pavachabvuma kuti uroorwe nemunhu

wekuno here?" Ndakatura mafemo ndichibva

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ndanyatsopererwa I didn't expect her kuti

auye kuna gogo vangu, thinking kuti nyaya

dzedu taipedzerana.

Ndakatadza kudaira mbuya vangu nekuti

ndainzwa kusimuka kwemisodzi, I felt

embarrassed and every other nasty feeling.

"Hazviite kuti Ndai acheme newe, vanhu vaye

vabva kure wadarirei kushungurudza nherera

iwe uine vabereki vese. Mwana uyo haana

vabereki unozviziva wani."

"Gogo please," ndakataura vakati, "Tsungai

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Tsungai muzukuru, sure ufambe mbiri here

yekuparadza rudo rwevanhu. Ndiudze kuti

iwewe unonzwa sei kana zvikaitika kwauri?"

Ndakazunguza musoro, took another deep

breath ndikati, "ndomuda gogo."

"Kwete Tsungai," vakaramba vakati, "kwete

mwana wemwana wangu." Ndakadonhedza misodzi

vakati, "zvitarise zvauri, sure ugonzi uri

kurwira murume kuno kuruzevha here. Tarisa

kumberi Tsungai, zvinoendepi namai vako?"

"Gogo ndomuda, haana kundiudza kuti aidanana

naNdai, akandiudza ndava kutomuda."

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"Ari kuroora Tsungai, Koiwe wozodii,

wogopina paqueue yekuroorwa naye futi, aewa

kwete ndazviramba. Haa kana ndazviramba

Tsungai dzokera kuHarare ukanganwe

nezvaTau." Ndakatarisana nambuya vangu

vakati, "dzosera misodzi, haasi murume

wekuchemera and ini andingambode kuti uyende

panemumwe kwete." Ndakapukuta misodzi

ndikaona kuti ndavharirwa zvachose. "Ngaauye

pano ndoda kumuudza ndega kuti asiyane

newe." Vakataura vachirevesa, ndakada

kuramba vakataura nehasha kusvika ndamuudza

kuti auye.
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Pandakamuona ndakanzwa kurwara chaiko,

looked at him and my heart couldn't let him

go. Gogo vakabva vanyatsoti dyo vakati, "Tau

hapana zvandichakuvhunza asi uyu muzukuru

wangu haasi wekutambisa, iwewe roorana na

Ndai wako uyu wosiya awane anoroora anditi."

Akaramba akanyarara gogo vakati, "andina

kuziva kuti kuuya kwako pano kungaite

dambudziko, wakamunyepera zvakwana chisiya

adiwe nevanomuda iwe kwete ndazviramba."

Akanditarisa akanyora message yakasvika

paphone akati, "I don't care what she is

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saying ndokuda." Akatarisa gogo akati,

"ruregerero gogo zvinoita as if ndaida

kumutambisa asi kwete ndinotomuda."

"Vhara muromo wako Tau, kana usina zvimwe

zvekutaura simuka uyende."

"Gogo," akataura akati, "muri munhu mukuru

andigone kukupikisai."

Ndakabva ndasimuka ndanzwa kuti

ndanyatsorwadziwa, got into my car and left

crying. I drove ndichichema, hapana

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pandakamira kuchema nekuti shungu dzandaive

nadzo dzaive dzakanyanya. My phone kept

ringing Tau achifona, ndakasvika pakudaira

akati, "Tsungai babie uri kupi?"

"Tau stop please I can't talk, we both know

kuti zvaramba."

"Noooo," akadaro ndichibva ndakata call.

Ndakaisa phone kure and drove all the way to

Christon bank kunoona sisi Anita. When I

parked my car, vakafamba vachibuda mumba.

Ndakaburuka mumota, she stared at me vakati,

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"Tsungai ko chii?" I faked a smile ndikati,

"ndokumbirawo kumbogara pano." She frowned,

hugged me ndikaona bamkuru vachibuda mumba

with hands in his pocket.

"Mainini," he said ndikati, "bamkuru." Anita

let me go looked at her husband akati,

"Nyamuzihwa , hamheno kuti aitwa sei?"

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Feeling like she needed a hug ndakafamba naye

ndava kupinda mumba. Ndakamutarisa ndikaona

kuzvimba kwemaziso, pretended like I didn't

notice much. I took her to the kitchen where

I had a kettle of almost boiling water, I

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switched it off deciding to make something

else.

Ndakaburitsa mukaka from the fridge, placed

the pot of milk on the stove ndikafamba

ndichibuda. Ndakamira ndava pa bedroom door,

looked at Drae who was walking towards me.

Ndakavhura door asvika, went into the

bedroom ndikati, "don't ask me anything I

don't know anything yet."

"It's a heartbreak," he said picking up a

brush to brush his neatily cut hair. We had

decided to cut off our locks for a more

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mature look that we probably missed over the

years. "Do you have to do that always?"

Ndakavhunza taking the brush away from him

ndikati, "zvanyanya what's with this

lately." He smiled looking at me before he

said, "do I sense jealous?"

"It's not funny, you are paying too much

attention to your looks." It's not that I

didn't want my husband to look good but there

were moments where I noticed kuti zvati

nyanyei zvishoma. "Brush me then since you

took the brush away from me?" Vakadaro

ndikati, "Nyamuzihwa zvakwana kani, you are

beginning to make me feel uncomfortable."

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"You lie," he spoke laughing ndichibva

ndafamba ndava kuenda ndichida kunotarisa

poto yangu. "Mamoyo," he stopped me, walked

up to me slowly ndikanzi, "wabatikana?"

Ndakadaira ndikati, "Andisati, I'm simply

beginning to." Wrapping his arms around me,

he rubbed my back and said, "I don't mean to

make you uncomfortable, I will simply stop

okay."

"I need to make something for her,"

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ndakadaira ndichireva Tsungai ndikanzi,

"wanzwa here what I said?"

Ndakadaira ndichibva mumaoko ake ndikaenda

kukitchen where I made a mug of hot chocolate

and gave it to Tsungai. Akatambira akatanga

kunwa slowly ini ndikabuda ndichinotambidza

Nyamuzihwa. He looked at me ndava kuda kuenda

ndikanzi, "Nita, I love you." My heart

melted, smiled even though I didn't want to,

found myself blushing even though I reminded

myself that I was not a little girl.

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After closing my bedroom door,

ndakaritsamira with my eyes closed. "Oooh

Nyamuzihwa," I whispered, quickly opened

them ndikadzokera kwaive na Tsungai. "I'm

disturbing you," she said ndikati, "no, you

came when I was about to make coffee then

decided on hot chocolate just for your sake."

I smiled ndikati, "chii chiri kuitika?"

"Mogona kundiseka," akadaira placing her mug

down. Akanditarisa akanditi, "I love him and

I think I have that stupid love."

"Ndiyo ipi?" Ndakavhunza ndava kuda

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kunzwisisa ndikanzi, "that one yekuti you

see the odds but you still want to hold on."

Ndakabva ndaziva kuti Nyamuzihwa havana

kunyepa vakange vatozviona kare kuti ari

kurwadziwa nerudo. "Is he married?"

Ndakavhunza akati, "no he is not but he is

going to get married to someone else Anita."

Akatanga kuchema akati, "I feel like, oh my

I feel like I'm losing my mind gogo vanditi

ndisiyane naye hanzi ndisiire nherera and

mama will not agree kuti ndive naye

zvakangowanda wanda zvinhu zvacho."

Nyaya dzacho dzakanga dzati wandei, I

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decided to allow her kuti andiudze mbichana

mbichana nekuti dzakange dzava kundirasa.

Paakapedza kutaura ndakashaiwa mashoko

nekuti yaive nyaya yaitopedza mashoko. Kuti

ndimudaire, ndakashaiwa kuti ndotangira

papi.

"So anyway, here I am, in your home nekuti I

want to breath before ndatanga kupenga. I

know I have to let him go, it's the right

thing to do anditi?" Muvhunzo wake waive

wekuti ndimusimbise, ndakagutsurira musoro

nekuti ndizvo zvaakange ataura. Looking at

the situation yacho zvekare ndakaona kuti

letting him go was the best thing to do.

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"Zvichanaka Tsungai, all in good time

uchawana mumwe who will love you, just you

and be happy."

"Aewa andichada izvozvo, don't tell me all

that now anditi?" Ndakabvuma ndikati, "eho

ndazvinzwa andichataure izvozvo. Iwewe taura

zvauri kuda nditaure ndichataura izvozvo."

"He is going to be fine anditi, I mean he

was calling me none stop, I know he is

worried but he will be fine anditi?"

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Ndakagutsurira musoro ndikati, "he is man

Tsungai, he will be fine, do the right thing

anditi?" Akagutsurira musoro ndikati, "soak

yourself in hot water."

"I'm having slight back pains, I guess I was

not sitting properly during that drive."

"Yes, saka gara mumvura udziirwe."

Tsungai
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Ndakasimuka kubva mukitchen ndikaenda

mubathroom where she ran water akaisa

different kinds of salts. When she left,

ndakapinda mukati and relaxed, carried on

drinking that chocolate until yapera.

"Aaaaah," I moaned feeling discomfort on my

body. Ndakavhurira mvura kuti iwedzere

kupisa, lay in there covering my whole body.

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Ndakabuda after sometime, when I felt like I

was about to go on my periods. I realized

later that I was spotting a little bit, got

into bed ndichibva ndarara.

Tau

Ndakarara mumba mangu after ndazama zvese

ndikakundikana. Ndakazviseka ndikati, "what

were you thinking, did you think that it

would be that easy?" Ndakaenda mberi

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nekuzviseka, kuzviseka kwacho kwaiwedzera

marwadzo andainzwa. She had left crying,

ndaisaziva if she was okay. Ainge andiudza

kuti hapana future Ndai's plan had worked

just as she had wanted.

I wanted to be angry with her, asi pese

pandaida, I reminded myself kuti I had

wronged her too. Ndakatura mafemo

ndikafonera sekuru, told him ndikati,

"ndarambwa sekuru, Tsungai is gone."

Vakaseka vakati, "saka one down?"

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"Musadaro ndiri kunzwa kurwara, sekuru ka,

mwana uya ndomuda."

"Wakanyanya kutapirirwa neusavi Tau muzukuru

don't worry umwe usavi huri kuuya pasina

mazuva unege watokangwa kut kwakange kuina

Tsungai."

It was not about that I didn't expect anyone

to understand. Ndakataura na sekuru kusvika

vanditi, "chikamu nechikamu chine zvacho,

relationship yako na Tsungai yaitozonetsa,

ma levels enyu akasiyana zvakanyanya murege

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aende Tau." Ndakateerera sekuru vachitaura

zvakapedzisira zvakuita kunge maungira

chete. When I got off the phone,

ndakangozvivhara musoro ndikazama kurara.

Placing my head down on the pillow ndainzwa

izwi ra Tsungai achichemerera Ari pamubhedha

wangu, kurambana kwedu was not because taida

asi kune vaida.

Ndai
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Ndakabuda kuma 9 husiku ndikafamba kuenda

kumba kwana Olivia. Ndakamutumira message

ndasvika, pasina nguva akanyahwaira achiuya

pandaive. Takasekera pasi kwava kufambisa

tichienda kumashops kwairidza Enzo.

"Ko tikasangana na Tau?" She asked me

ndikati, "allow me to have fun please, Tau

disappointed me andisi kuda zvekutaura

zvakawanda. Let me dance off my stress

mangwana ndinenge ndava mukadzi wemunhu."

Akagegedza tikatanga kufambisa nekuti nguva

dzainge dzafamba. Kwaisatyisa hako nekuti

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vanhu vaifamba, ipapo ndakafonera Trust

ndikati, "nhaiwe uri kupi?"

"Kumashops," akataura kuchinzwika noise

ndikati, "haiwa uri kuband." I hung up the

phone my intention was to ask him to pick us

up asi sevanhu vakange vava padhuze zvaive

zvisina basa. "Ndikaonekwa na Shepherd

amai?" Akadaro Olivia ndikati, "chiiko newe

nenyaya dzekuonekwa imbomira mhani."

"Hatisati tambozviita, trust me hana yangu

iri kurova." Ndakamusunda bendekete ndikati,

"kwana." I had my leggings on nezambia rangu

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rechirasta randaive ndakasunga paside

ndakabuda zvekuti. Ndakatora scarf ye black

yandaive nayo ndikazvivhara kumusoro kuita

zvangu semunhu weku India Olivia akati,

"it's a waste Ndai. Iwewe ndiwe munhu

anobatika ne structure plus your Zambian way

of dressing."

"Ndikoko," ndakadaira ndichienda mberi

kusvika tasvika. "Ngatimire kumashure."

Ndakaudza Olivia akati, "haa kana

hatizomuone mushe Enzo wacho, hande

kumberi." Takafamba asi tichinetsekana

nekuti kwaive kwakazara. "Zvekuenda kumberi

ndiko kuzowonekwa," ndakadaro akati,

"hausiwe here wataura kuti timire zvekutaura

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nyaya dzekuonekwa." Takabva tamira kufamba

nekuti pataive pakange pakanaka. Kufara

ndiko kwandakaita nekuti tambiro yandaiita

ndaitozvinzwa ndega kuti ndiri kutamba zviri

kupupurwa nenyama dzangu.

"Aya haasi matambiro emhandara aya," Olivia

akataura achiseka ndikati, "iwe ndisiye,

vakaboorwa ndovanotamba stereki here

ndisiye."

"Zviye vamwe makadzidziswa ndanga

ndakanganwa," akadaro ndikati, "to think

kuti ndiri kuda kupa humhandara hwangu

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kumunhu anga achirara na Tsungai haiwa iloss

he does not deserve all this."

"Mira nditsvage drink," akataura

achisuduruka ndikanzwa munhu andichiti, "how

much is your virginity worth then, I will

pay you for it." Ndakacheuka fast ndikaona

akatarisa kuside wearing a hoodie. "Excuse

me?" Ndakavhunza akati, "you said he does

not deserve it, tell me your worth and I will

take your virginity womupa zvinenge

zvasara." I stood shocked akati, "a

thousand, two thousand, how much?"

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"Are you a ritualist?" Ndakavhunza akati,

"no just never been with a virgin before but

kana usingade rega." Ndakapererwa kwava

kutsvaga Olivia kuti aivepi, he placed a

paper pachipfuva changu akati, "when you

decide to sell it for it's worth call me."

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