Republic of the Philippines

Pangasinan State University

Asingan Campus
Domanpot, Asingan Pangasinan
Tel. No. (075) 531-1502

Name: Estrada, Rayshane N.

Year and Section: BSE III-English
Learning Activity #: 1

Technical Form

I’m Rayshane N. Estrada. I am thirty years old student Mom who is currently
on my third year in the university taking up Bachelor of Science in Education Major
in English. I am a simple person who has a big dream not only for me but for my
small family as well. That is why despite of my age I still pursued education. If
other people consider a person “the one that got away” for me that is not a person
but education. My desire to finish a degree never went away even after marriage
and having a kid. It is always my frustration, and finally after few years of setback I
am on my way to end this frustration. Though I am still far from the goal what’s
important is that I already started.

I spend most of my time inside the four corners of our house. I am busy
tutoring my kid who is now a kindergarten student. And since there were no
physical school since the pandemic started I became his tutor and playmate
because he has no other kid to play with. When I am not busy studying, I spent my
free time watching Korean dramas. Maybe others will laugh about this kind of
hobby or diversion but for me Korean dramas helped me get through my sad days.
And I can attest it really helped with my mental health as well. It is always
important to look for anything that will make you sane and happy.

But life for me was not all sunshine and rainbows, there were always been
challenges that started when I was still very young. Growing up without a definite
family foundation is the most challenging obstacle that life put me on. I with my
other siblings grew up in an extended family where we lived along with other
relatives, without the supervision of our parents. If I recall the times where we will
be put in a situation where we long for a parent to stand up for us but to no avail it
was really heart breaking. That situation taught me how to be strong and
independent which was very beneficial for a child growing up in this cruel world.
After I graduated with my technical/vocational course under TESDA when I was 18
years old I then started working in a Drugstore where my first job was a Pharmacy
Assistant then later on I was promoted as a Supervisor. But I was never satisfied
with the repetitive cycle of my life. So I decided to go to Manila to look for a
greener Pasteur, eventually I worked as a Call Center Agent then as a Customer
Service Assistant in an Internet Café.

COG 2: CREATIVE WRITING

 Republic of the Philippines
Pangasinan State University
Asingan Campus
Domanpot, Asingan Pangasinan
Tel. No. (075) 531-1502

As a person, I face several challenges throughout my life but none

of them were as impactful as the lessons I learned while dealing with people who
continuously torture me mentally just because I am different or that they find me
difficult to deal with. My family describes me as a silent type of a person, that’s for
sure because I have an introverted personality. I won't talk to anyone unless I am
comfortable with them. That is the main reason I am not good with my social
relationships. There were times that I just break down and ask myself was it really
all because of me. Sometimes I just blame myself for having this kind of
personality. But I know that I can't control other people's perception about me, that
we can only hope that we will have the liberty to live our lives happily and quietly. I
learned that no matter how you try to fit in the environment where you live in,
there will always people who will criticize you. Just continue to live your life without
thinking about others opinions about you and value the people who care and love
you the most.

Creative Form

There is always a big dream that was instilled in my heart. “The one that got
away”? For others it is a person but for me it was education. It is always a desire to
be fulfilled, a frustration to be ended. If I think that I’m still far from it I don't feel
weary because all that has started was bound to end clearly.

The four corners of our house don't bore me; it was the fake intentions of
people that haunt me. It is best for me to be alone than to mingle with the people I
don't get along. Spending time with a kid brings happiness it always brings out my
inner childishness.

Korean dramas were never been a laughing stock, if it makes me sane I

embrace it I’m in luck. Sad days are over when I became a Korean drama lover. No
matter what my hobby is, what important is the happiness it brings.

Life for me was not all sunshine and rainbows. There were challenges and obstacles
that follow. But every situation brings some lessons that made me independent and
strong. Sometimes heartbreak comes from the ones that I call family but I stand up
and fight, life is a complete battle I’ll lose if I hesitate.

Dealing with people who tortures me mentally was not easy, but their
behaviour is not something I have control with. I choose my battle wisely and my
peace is always the top priority. My personality is a product of the hardships I went
through. I don’t try to fit in the environment that I move in. Their perception about
me is not important. I don’t try to explain myself because the people who trust me
don’t need it. I just want to live my life peacefully without people’s judgement.

COG 2: CREATIVE WRITING

 Republic of the Philippines
Pangasinan State University
Asingan Campus
Domanpot, Asingan Pangasinan
Tel. No. (075) 531-1502

I am not everybody’s cup of tea, I am not perfect. I try to live my

life by being just myself and cherish the people who love me.

COG 2: CREATIVE WRITING