[Notebook Completed] The Nerdy Rebound Girl Special Book It's Maico's POV.

Nayi's Note:

READ "THE NERDY REBOUND GIRL" FIRST BEFORE READING THIS. HINDI PO KASI KAYO MAKA
KA-RELATE OK?

Hindi po ito talaga bagong story. Ito lang po yung laman ng notebook na binigay
ni Maico kay Jacky noong naghiwalay sila. Meaning, it;s Maico's POV. Since hinah
anap niyo ang POV ni Maico sa TNRG ito na po. After nito is yung sequel na ng TN
RG =)

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BASAHIN NIYO 'TO. U-T-A-N-G-N-A-L-O-O-B

Hindi ko po kayo pinipilit na basahin ang mga stories ko. Kung hindi niyo nagust
uhan, tigilan niyo ang pagbabasa. Simple di ba? Hindi niyo na kailangang ipagkad
uldulan sa akin na nawalan ka ng ganang basahin. Open naman ako sa criticism eh
. May iba nang gumawa niyan. Pinasalamatan ko pa. Pero sana sa maayos na paraan
hane? Hindi yung kung makapagsalita eh akala mo nakapatay na ako. Alam kong OVER
RATED ako dito at ang mga stories ko pero kasalanan ko ba? Namilit ba akong basa
hin niyo ang gawa ko? Kailan? Tsss. Nakikibasa ka lang. Wag kang peste.
Nagsusulat ako dito ng walang bayad. Hindi niyo po ako palamon. Oo, nagiging ma
saya ako na naibabahagi ko ang mga istoryang naiisip ko pero sumasama rin ang lo
ob ko sa ibang mambabasa rito. Kaya kung hindi mo ma-appreciate ang effort ko, J
UST.SHUT.THE.FUCK.UP. manahimik ka na lang. Hindi ka po nakakatulong. Ang mas na
kakainis pa nga, kung sino yung silent reader sila pa yung demanding. Sila pa yu
ng may ganang magsalita ng masama. Kapal lang ng mukha.
Isinulat ang author s note para basahin. Para maintindihan niyo ang nangyayari. Pa
ra hindi paulit-ulit. Pero ano bang nangyayari? Marami pa rin tanong ng tanong.
Nakakabanas na po. Basa-basa rin pag may time ha? Minsan lang kasi ako nasa moo
d na sumagot ng maayos eh. Madalas may topak ako.
Baka may magsabi na naman jan na ang drama ko o ang arte ko. Pakialam mo ba? Wa
g kang epal ok? Page ko 'to. Kung gusto mo, magdrama ka rin sa page mo. Hindi yu
ng magtatanong ka pa kung bakit ang da-drama namin ha? Lakas mong makasabi ng ep

al eh ikaw 'tong malaking epal.

Ok tama na. Siguradong may magp-PM na naman sa akin na ang sama ng ugali ko. wha
hahahh!! leche.
K. Vroooom Vroooom!

Alam kong nasaktan kita ng sobra-sobra. Pero hindi ko inakalang isusuko mo na la

ng ako basta. We can be happy you know? Ang mahalaga lang naman talaga eh magkas
ama tayo di ba? Pero bakit ganun? Mas ginusto mong lumayo at ipagtabuyan ako sa
isang babaeng hindi ko naman mahal? Ang unfair lang Jacky.

Pero kahit ganito ang nangyari hindi pa rin ako susuko. Alam ko sa puso ko na ik
aw lang ang mamahalin ko at panghabambuhay na ito.

Wherever you are, always remember how much I love you. Maybe this is not the tim
e for us but I promise you, we'll be together... someday.

I love you so much, Jacky...

-Maico
Saturday, 01/12/2013

Bakit ba napaka-clumsy mo? Alam mo ba kung gaano mo ako tinakot kanina? Akala ko
malulunod ka na ng tuluyan! At bakit ba ako ngasusulat ng ganito sa notebook na
'to?

Well, narito na rin naman ito ipagpapatuloy ko na. Gusto ko lang ng mapaglalabas
an nito.

Hindi ka nagdadahan-dahan kaya naiinis akong kasama ka. Pero kahit ganun parang
may kulang naman sa akin pag hindi kita kasama. Alam mo ba kung gaano ka-frustra
ting yung pakiramdam na yun? At kanina? Noong nadulas ka at nahulog sa pool to t
hink na hindi ka marunong lumangoy? Pakiramdam ko ako yung nalulunod. Hindi ako

makahinga. Alam mo bang ngayon ko lang nararanasan ang ganito? Kahit kay Lana hi
ndi ko 'to naramdaman!

Hindi ko man maamin sa sarili ko pero sa tingin ko nagugustuhan na kita. Tsk! Oo

na ang corny ko na, pero yun ang totoo! Simula noong gabing yun nagkaganito na
ako. Lasing ako, oo pero alam ko ang nangyari. Bawat detalye noon naaalala ko. G
abi-gabi akong hindi pinapatulog ng pangyayaring yun. Marami na akong naikama pe
ro hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ikaw ang hindi mawala sa isip ko.

Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong pangit ka. Hindi ka lang talaga marunong mag-ayos.
Unique ka, gaya ng sabi ko sayo. Saka mabait, maaruga, mapagmahal... tama na nga
! Nagiging mais na ako!

Itatapon ko na lang siguro itong notebook na ito.

-1Monday, 02/04/2013

Ang sabi ko itatapon ko na ito pero di ko pa pala nagagawa. Anyway, wag na nga l
ang. Mukhang kakailanganin ko pa 'to eh.

Maybe you're wondering why I can't look you in the eye these past few days. You
keep asking me what's happening and I keep telling you nothing. Well, it's becau
se I really feel guilty. Hindi naman tayo pero sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko.
Hindi ko naman alam kung ano talagang nangyari. Sobrang nalasing lang talaga ak
o.

I met this girl, Elaine. Mabait siya at sobrang friendly. Magkakasama pa kaming
naginuman para sa last day ng pagi-stay ko roon sa resort ng pamilya niya. Then
I woke up beside her, naked. I swear to God I don't remember anything! I don't e
ven remember getting into bed, much more with her.

Every time I see you, there is this feeling that I couldn't explain. Para bang k
apag pinatagal ko pang magkasama tayo palagi eh masasaktan lang kita. I like you

, I know that now. But I think I will never change. I'm a cheat, it runs in my b
lood.

Maybe, I should end this. Wait, what is there to end? Hindi naman tayo eh. Lalay
o na lang ako. It's for your own sake. I know how you feel about me and I cannot
do anything about that. Marami dyang mas deserving sa isang katulad mo.

I guess this is goodbye.

-2Sunday, 04/28/2013

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Hoy Jackelyn Gervacio! Ilang bote ng gayuma ba ang pinainom mo
sa akin at hindi kita maalis-alis sa sistema ko? God damn it! I'm already losin
g my mind!

It's been what, 3 months? 3 months na simula noong layuan kita pero ano? Paikotikot ka pa rin dito sa isip ko! Alam mo ba yung nangyari kanina? Nasampal lang n
aman ako. Bakit? Kasi tinawag ko yung pangalan mo in the middle of having sex. W
hat's more frustrating is that it already happens for so many times now. Other w
omen don't mind but the one earlier? She'd just slapped me awake from my illusio
n that you're the one I'm having sex with!

I can't take this anymore! Mababaliw na talaga ako pag lumipas pa ang ilang araw
na hindi kita nakakasama. Ugh! I hate this feeling! I really hate this! Uuwi na
ako ng Pilipinas. Siguro naman pag nakasama na kita magsasawa rin ako pagtagal.
This is not me. Definitely not THE Maico Buenaventura who can have any girl he
wants.

I'll give us some time and maybe in time mawawala ka rin sa sistema ko. Just wai
t, Jacky. I'm coming back.

-3Saturday, 05/04/2013

At last, we meet again. Nahawakan, nahalikan at nayakap kita ulit. Hindi mo lang
alam kung gaano ako kasaya kanina.

Ilang araw na rin kitang sinusundan. You know, baka kasi nakakita ka bigla ng ip
apalit sa akin eh kailangan kong maghanda sa laban. But like I ve expected, you st
ill didn t have the heart to let go of me. Boastful as I am but it s true right?

Alam mo bang buong araw kita sinundan kanina? Mula pa noong magpunta ka kina Lan
a hanggang sa pagpunta mo sa mall nakabuntot ako. Tawa pa nga ako ng tawa nung n
akipagsagutan ka dun sa dalawang babae eh. Actually kasi nakita nila ako nung mg
a oras na yun nagtago lang ako. At alam mo ba? Na-touch ako noong sinabi mong un
ique ka. Bakit? I m the one who told you that. It only means that you re still thin
king about me. Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako napasaya nun.

Oo nga pala, pagpasensyahan mo na yung inasal ko kanina. I just can t help it. The
moment I saw you, I just felt like kissing you, crashing you in my arms and mak
e love to you on the very spot where we re standing. Leche lang kasing telepono ya
n tumunog pa. Nabitin tuloy ako. But don t get me wrong. It s not what I want from y
ou. Well, yeah it s one of the reasons but there is a more reasonable thing that I
want... it s your heart. I may sound corny to you but it s true. When I came here I
only want to be free from my misery. But the moment I held you in my arms, I ju
st know.

Ok lang kahit hindi ka umoo kanina. Alam ko naman na bukas makalawa eh bibigay k
a rin. Patay na patay ka kaya sakin! hahaha! Bukas babalik ako at papatunayan ko
yan. Sasabihin mo sakin na Oo Maico, pumapayag akong maging girlfriend mo . Makiki
ta mo Jacky, bukas na bukas akin ka na.

-4Sunday, 05/05/2013

Where the hell are you? It's almost midnight pero di ka pa rin umuuwi! God, Jack
y! Kanina pa ako nag-aalala. I've been here for twelve hours now! You're not eve
n answering my calls!

I was excited when I came here but I realized you're not home, I was disappointe
d. So ayun, ipinagluto na lang kita para sa hapunan pero di ka naman umuwi kaya
mas lalo pa akong na-disappoint. Minsan lang ako magluto tapos hindi mo man lang
nakain kaya tinapon ko na lang. Tsk! Nasaan ka na ba kasi? Hindi mo man lang na
isip na may boyfriend kang nag-aalala dito oh! Wait, what am I saying? You never
acknowledged being my girl.

Kasi naman eh! Umuwi ka na please? O sagutin mo man lang yung tawag ko. Pagpatak
ng alas doce at hindi ka pa dumarating magre-report na ako sa pulis!

Shit! Sana maayos ka. Mababliw na ako dito. Umuwi ka na ohh. Kita mo, paulit-uli
t na ako. Uwi ka na. Please?

-5-]
Monday, 05/06/2013

Buti natawagan ko si Lana kanina at nalaman kong nasa probinsiya ka kaya hindi n
a ako nag-alala. Pagpasensyahan mo na lang yung mga kalat ko. Kilala mo naman ak
o di ba? Hahaha! Gusto ko kasi pag dumating ka madadatnan mo ako kaya hindi na
ako umalis.

Nakakatuwa ka talaga. Nakita mo kung paano kita napasunod sa simpleng halik ko l

ang? Grabe! Sorry talaga pero na-miss ko lang naman yung luto mo eh kaya kinulit
kita.

Sinadya ko ring alisin yung shirt ko kanina habang kumakain. Gusto ko kasing nak

ikita kang pinagnanasahan ang katawan ko eh! Uy, joke lang ha! Kahit na pinagnan
asahan mo naman talaga ako! Haha! Uhaw na uhaw ka na kanina 'no? Pasensya naman
kung hindi kita napagbigyan! Gutom eh!

You re so lonely earlier. At dahil malungkot ka pakiramdam ko mas malungkot ako. T

here is only one thing that I thought when I saw you crying, a live show. Hindi
ko makalimutan yung mga ngiti mo habang pinapanood mo ako. You just don t know how
proud I am when you started laughing! Naisip ko, gusto ko ako lang ang nakakapa
gpangiti sa iyo ng ganun. Ako lang ang makapagpapatawa sayo pag nalulungkot ka.
And I succeeded earlier. My efforts are worth it!

I meant what I ve said. I m happy just seeing you happy with me. And I ll do anything
to keep that smile on your face.

-6Saturday, 05/11/2013

Yes! Sa wakas sinabi mo na rin! Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano mo ako pinasaya nu
ng sinabi mong Ma-swerte nga ako kasi ikaw ang boyfriend ko . Grabe parang gusto ya
tang kumawala ng puso ko kanina sa sobrang saya eh!

Now I know how many problems you are facing. Your family depends on you. It s a sh
ame that your older brother doesn t have that courage you have to face life s diffic
ulties. Puro sa yo lang siya nakaasa. Hindi ko naman siya ma-kwestyon kung bakit h
indi siya maghanap ng magandang trabaho tutal malakas naman siya. Iniisip ko pa
lang na halos ikaw ang nagpapakahirap para mabuhay sila lalo na akong humahanga
sa yo. It made me love you more. At natutuwa ako kasi hinayaan mo akong tulungan
ka.

Napag-desisyunan kong akuin na lang ang pagpapa-aral kay Gelai. Tutal nagustuhan
ko na rin naman ang bata eh. I know you wouldn t agree but I ll still insist. Kawaw
a naman kasi ang bata kung hindi man lang mapapa-aral ng maayos.

I m also happy that you re proud to introduce me as your boyfriend to your family. T
hough I m one of a hell gorgeous guy whom anyone should be proud of having, it sti
ll pleased me. Ok, now I m boasting around (again) but it s true! Haha! Don t hate me
please. I m just telling the truth!

This will be a long night for me. Katabi kita rito pero hindi naman tayo nag Ugh!
Ayoko namang gisingin ka dahil nakikita kong pagod na pagod ka. Magsha-shower na
nga lang ako! Tsk!

-7Monday, 05/13/2013

Seriously, Jacky I was bothered by your question earlier. Hindi ko talaga kasi m
aintindihan kung bakit mo itinatanong kung hanggang kailang kita girlfriend eh.
Do you like that Anthony guy? He's good looking and I can't help but be jealous
of him. I can see that he likes you, you know? The way he looks at you, the way
he motions around you... it's so obvious that he's into you.

I know it's futility to say that our relationship as girlfriend/boyfriend will o

nly end if we get married but it's the only thing I know. Break up is never in m
y list and never will be. You're the only thing in my life that I can't afford t
o lose. You've been a part of me since that unfortunate night that we first shar
ed. Unfortunate it is, but I cherish every second of it.

Speak of marriage. Do you know that I vowed never to be tied with that sacred ce
remony? Sa tuwing naaalala ko kasi yung nangyari noon sa mga magulang ko eh nadu
duwag ako. Pakiramdam ko hindi magiging successful ang mariage life ko. Na tulad
ni Papa, magloloko rin ako. Like I've said before, being a cheat runs in my blo
od. Ugh! I don't know what to think anymore! We can be together without marriage
, can we? But it will be unfair to you. Eff! I'm starting to hate myself.

-8Wednesday, 05/15/2013

Habang hinihintay kita ngayon napapa-isip ako. Parang nagiging selfish na ata ak
o at ayaw na kitang i-share sa iba.

Naka-ilang tawag at text na nga ba ako? Hindi ko na rin mabilang eh. Kanina gali
t na galit na ako. Ayaw kasi talaga kitang payagan na sumama jan sa Rica, Nica o
kung ano mang pangalan niyang kasama mo. Basta gusto ko ako lang ang kasama mo.
Pero naisip ko na hindi nga pala sa akin umiikot ang mundo mo. Kailangan mo rin
g makisama sa iba.

Naalala ko tuloy kahapon nung hinatid ka ng bago mong kaibigan na yan. Inis na i
nis talaga ako. Akala ko kasi si Anthony yung naghatid sayo eh. Tsss. Oo na ang
OA ko na. Pero natuwa talaga ako nung nalaman kong babae yun. Tawanan mo na ako
pero ganun talaga eh. Ayoko lang naman na nakikita kang may kasamang iba.

Gusto ko sanang makasama ka ng mas matagal ngayon kasi dalawang araw din akong m
awawala. Ngayon pa nga lang nami-miss na kita eh. Iniisip ko pa lang na dalawang
araw tayong hindi magkikita parang may kulang na agad. Alam mo yun? Nasasanay n
a kasi ako na nanjan ka palagi sa tabi ko eh.

Sige na. Parating ka na rin siguro. Sana lang hindi ka nagalit sa pinaggagagawa
ko. Tsk!

-9Saturday, 05/18/2013

I don't know why you have to change yourself. I mean, I like you the way you are
. Yeah, you look more beautiful now but still, I want the old you-- the nerdy gi
rl who captured my heart. Ok, enough of that. Wala naman na akong magagawa eh. A
ng mahalaga, we're together.

Kanina nung tinitignan ko si Lana naiisip kita. Ano kayang hitsura mo 'pag pinag
bubuntis mo na ang anak natin? Iniimagine ko rin na si Lana ikaw at malaki yun t
iyan mo. Tapossisigawan mo ako para manghingi ng kung anu-ano. Naisip ko nga rin
na tumaba ka eh. Natatawa na talaga ako kanina. Pero bakit parang ayaw mo naman
? Hindi mo ba gustong magka-anak tayo? Nagtataka lang kasi ako sa mga reaksyon m
o tuwing binabanggit ko ang pagkakaroon natin ng anak. I am just excited you kno
w? I want us to have our own child, our own family.

I was surprised that you and Ella (my sister) whom you're calling as Mica hangs
out. Like, seriously? Small world isn't it? To think, pinagselosan ko pa siya. S
aka, you're older than her. She's only nineteen. Tsk! But I'm starting to hate t
hat little brat. She's ruining our night! We could have--- ugh! I've took a show
er but I still can't get over it for goodness sake!

-10Saturday, 05/25/2013

I've missed you. Ilang araw din akong naging busy. Tapos isu-surprise mo pa pala
sana ako kagabi kaso sinundo ko si Mommy sa airport. But still, I was surprised
to see you in my bed early in the morning. I felt like all my tiredness was was
hed away. You even cooked for me and all. Pakiramdam ko tuloy asawa na kita. But
--- anyway, hindi na talaga ako nakapagpigil kanina kaya yun...

Hindi ko talaga mapigilang matawa kapag naaalala ko yung pagkahuli sa atin ni Mo

mmy. It's not that I don't respect you but if you saw her face? You'll laugh lik
e hell! Gulat na gulat siya. Hindi siya siguro inexpect na ganung eksena ang mad
aratnan niya.

Masaya akong nagustuhan ka ni Mommy. Masyado kasing mapili yun. She always match
es me to her friend's daughters and I hate it. I dated them yes, but I never lik
ed any of them. I just did it to indulge her whims. To think that you're not eve
n my mother's type made me wonder if she sees what I see in you. You're a gem, o

ne of a kind.

-11Wednesday, 05/29/2013

I know you're a bit angry with me. I'm so sorry I wasn't able to call you. I jus
t panicked when I received the call from Lana. She needs my help and I'm sure yo
u'll understand. But still, I should've called or texted you so I'm sorry.

I told you to stay away from that Anthony guy didn't I? But still, you're befrie
nding him. You even let him take you home. Do you know how frustrating that is?
Yeah, I know it's somehow my fault. I wasn't able to fetch you. Maybe it's reall
y that hard to commute so you ended up hitching with him. But I can't help but b
e jealous! He likes you, you know that! You could have gone with another guy jus
t not that Anthony!

But anyway, you see Lana's child? She's cute isn't she? She looks like Jace! I'm
wondering if our child would look like me too. It makes me feel more excited. W
hen will you give me a son or a daughter perhaps?

-12Wednesday, 06/13/2013

Kamusta ka na kaya? Anong ginagawa mo? Kasama mo ba siya? Ugh! Bakit ba kasi kai
langang si Anthony pa ang makasama mo jan? Alam mo ba kung gaano ako nag-aalala

ngayon? May tiwala ako sa'yo, oo pero sa lalaking yan? Tsk!

Hanggang kahapon gusto kitang pigilan. Isang linggo din akong gulong-gulo dahil
jan. I don t want that guy to be near you. Alam ko namang susundin mo ang bilin k
ong layuan mo siya pero yang lalaking yan? I doubt if he ll let you do that. He ll f
ollow you anywhere. He s crazy about you dammit! I can see it in him!

Kausap mo kaya siya ngayon? Sabay kayon kumakain? Hinahatid ka pa niya sa tapat
ng kwarto mo? Ugh! Hindi ko na 'to kakayanin. I can t focus here knowing that you re
out there alone with another guy. Tomorrow, I ll fetch you there myself.

-13Friday, 06/14/2013

Until now I can t forget what I saw. He kissed you for Pete s sake! Alam mo ba kung
ano yung pakiramdam ko kahappon? Para akong sinuntok. I went there to surprise y
ou pero mukhang ako pa ang na-sorpresa.

Malinaw naman yun sinabi ko di ba? Stay.away.from.him. Pero hinayaan mo pa rin s

iyang makalapit sayo. You even let him kiss you. Do you know how hurt I am? I al
most lose my mind thinking that you re cheating on me! I love you so much. Can t you
see that? Ang sakit sakit lang kasi. Ni hindi ako tumitingin sa ibang babae sim
ula nung naging tayo tapos ganito lang ang mapapala ko?

I m sorry that I ve hurt you. Nadala lang ako. Sobrang sakit na kasi. Siguro kung ik
aw din naman ang nasa kalagayan ko ganun din ang magiging reaksyon mo. Naisara k
o ang isip ko. Kung anu-anong nasabi kong masama sayo. Pero kahit na ganun, I di
dn t mean it. It s just a spur of the moment.

Pero masakit pa rin yung sinabi mo. Mas magaling siya? Mas napapaligaya ka niya
sa kama? What the fuck Jacky? I know you didn t mean it. I know you re not sleeping
with him but still, it hurts me hearing that from you.

Physically, I ve hurt you. And I regret it. Hindi ko sinasadya. Nadala lang talaga
ako ng galit ko. Pagkatapos nun, gusto kong suntukin ang sarili ko. I can t belie
ve what I ve done. It s not right. And what hurts me the most? When you embraced me
even after what I ve done. I felt so loved by you that I thought I m not worthy even
a bit of your heart. How can you be so indulgent? That s when I thought of the co
ntract. Maybe if we set some rules, no one will get hurt again, neither one of u
s. I m guessing this will be the best thing. I hope you consider.

-14Friday, 06/14/2013

Ok, this is it. I ve been here for an hour pero di ka pa rin dumarating. Kanina pa
ako nae-excite eh. Gusto kong makita yung magiging reaksyon mo pag nabasa mo yu
ng kontratang sinasabi ko.

I asked Atty. Delgado earlier to make us some sort of contract having terms in o
ur relationship. It was just a simple no dating other guy/girl, make time for ea
ch other... mga simpleng bagay lang na normal sa isang relasyon. She even laugh
ed at me and said that those things don t really need to be written but I still in
sist. As the hours gone by I realized something, why not make it a lifetime cont
ract? I guess I m ready if it s you whom I ll share my life with. So I immediately cal
led Atty. Delgado to cancel the contract and replace it with a marriage contract
instead.

My proposal is onset now. I wrote some kid of pledge in the paper that I will gi
ve you. Kinuntsaba ko pa yung matandang lalaki na may-ari ng unit sa kabilang bu
ilding na katapat ng unit mo. There is this banner saying WILL YOU MARRY ME? han
ging in front of his window. The old man finds it so romantic that he even gave
me an old coin (that he said was given to him by his late wife) for a good luck
charm. Your engagement ring is here at my pocket. See? I m well prepared for a man
who had just decided that he wants to get tied with the woman he loves!

I hope I ll get a yes. And I know I will!

-15Saturday, 06/15/2013

What happened? I thought you said you love me, only me. I heard you. But why are
you doing this to us?

I've tried telling you I love you but you kept on pushing me away. You didn't ev
en bother to read what's on the folder I've given you. Ugh! Why are you so hardh
eaded? All my efforts were wasted tonight. We should have been engaged by this t
ime and working on our wedding plans. But it's okay, baka naguguluhan ka lang. W
e can work this out. I'm not going to give up on you. And that is why I'm here.
In this noisy comedy bar you're in with your girlfriends.

I've been following you since you went out of your unit. I don't know but I
obligated to do so. I thought you'll be seeing that Anthony guy but when I
Genna ang Aya, I was relieved. t not anymore, since you've had more alcohol
our system than necessary. Seriously, Jacky? You're allergic to alcohol for
st sake!

feel
saw
in y
Chri

-16-

Saturday, 06/22/2013

Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. I've been following you around for the past we
ek. I was there all night when you're having a good time with your office mates.
Masaya ako nun knowing that you're stepping out of your shell. I know you've ne
ver gone out with others except your friends, kaya hindi ako lumapit kahit na ma

gdamag kayong magkatabi ni Anthony.

Sobrang uminit ang ulo ko nang makita kong nakaakbay siya sa'yo. I know he's dru
nk but I can't help myself. I'm too jealous for Christ sake! So I didn't stop my
self and punched him! Good for that bastard. He's been hooking you up even thoug
h he knows that you're mine. Do you know that I've talk to him? He just looked a
t me and smile. Wala siyang balak na sukuan ka. Huh! As if I'll let him steal yo
u from me.

But that was last night. When I thought you love me. Do you know how hurt I am w
hen you said you're not interested in the contract? It means you don't want to b
e with me. You don't love me. So here I am, drinking myself to death. I need to
be away from you, if it's the only way to make you happy.

I love you.

-17Friday, 06/28/2013

I've been here in our resort for the whole week. You're in my mind every second
of it. Bakit ba ang hirap mong kalimutan? Kahit yata uminom ako ng sanlibong bot
e ng alak, hindi kita makakalimutan.

Well, ngayon wala na siguro akong dahilan para kalimutan ka. The receptionist to
ld me that my girlfriend, Jacky is coming. My heart pumped so hard when I heard
your name and because you're coming. Hindi mo ako natiis. Meaning mahal mo rin a
ko di ba?

I've been fixing myself for the past hour. I want you to see me irresistible so
you'll sure be coming back to me. I won't lock the door for a dramatic effect. H
aha! I can't wait.

-18Saturday, 06/29/2013

I know I've been ignoring you this morning. I just wanted to see you jealous. Bu
t God Jacky! I've never expected you to wear that piece of cloth! Nagiinit talag
a ang ulo ko lalo na nung lapitan ka pa nung lalaki at alukin kang lagyan ng lot
ion sa likod-- which you accepted willingly. Ugh! I could have broken that guy's
neck! I was so frustrated that I wanted you to be jealous and it turned out I w
as the one fuming with jealousy!

I was just waiting for the right time. Inaayos pa kasi ng staffs yung kwarto par
a sa proposal ko. But ugh! I really can't believe you did that! Yes, you have a
great body and all but I want it for my eyes only ok?

But this day is really great. See, you accepted my proposal! Though I know you w
ill, I still had this feeling that I could not explain. You made me so happy Jac
ky, my future wife.

-19Monday, 07/15/2013

I don't know what to do. The girl I was telling you, Elaine, she's just came her
e in my office. And she is pregnant with my child. Kahapon lan kami namanhikan s
a inyo tapos may gaitong problema akong biglang malalaman. Ugh! I don't know how
to tell you this. I don't want to lose you. Which I know I will once you found
out about this.

Like I've said, I don't really remember what happened. Pero hindi si Elaine yung
tipo na manloloko ng tao. She's well off; she doesn't really need my wealth. Ka

ya naman alam kong anak ko talaga ang dinadala niya.

I hope you still marry me when you found out.

-20Saturday, 08/03/2013

I can't take away the smile on my face. Did you really say that I'm going to be
a father? Well, yeah there's Elaine but knowing that I'll have my child with you
is really mind blowing! But still, how will I tell you about Elaine? It's been
almost a week and I can't think of a way to tell you. It's driving me crazy.

Like I've said earlier after we watched that movie, "bakit sila nagpakasal kung
hindi naman nila mahal ang isa't-isa?" hindi ko kayang pakasalan si Elaine dahil
lang buntis siya. And besides, you're pregnant too. That's what gave me hope th
at we're still going to be together in spite of me having a child with Elaine.

I talked to her and she agreed to let us raise the child. I know you'll understa
nd. I'll be telling you when I get back there. But for the meantime, I'm going t
o help my crazy, spoiled brat sister unpack.

-21Sunday, 08/04/2013

It's killing me seeing you like that. Masakit din sa akin na nawala ang anak nat
in. Gustong-gusto kong patayin ang Kuya mo sa ginawa niya pero hindi ko yun gaga
win. Hindi nun masosolusyunan yung problema. Pero habang tinitignan kita at kung
paano ka umiyak kanina, ang sakit sa dibdib ko na gustong-gusto kong sugurin an
g Kuya mo.

Hindi man lang pinatagal yung kasiyahan natin. I really want to have a child wit
h you. But I guess it's not the right time. We can make one again right? Pero sa
nakikita ko sayo, mukhang dinamdam mo ng sobra ang nangyari. The doctor said it
's normal to be depressed for someone who'd just have a miscarriage. Lalo pa sa
naging paraan ng pagkalaglag ng anak natin.

I won't give up on you, you know that. Please be strong for me Jacky. We can mak
e it through this. I promise I'll never give up.

-22Sunday, 08/18/2013

It goes out so well, I can't believe it. Akala ko mawawala ka na talaga sa akin.
Alam kong masasaktan o magagalit ka 'pag nalaman mo ang tungkol kay Elaine kaya
hindi ko yun masabi sa'yo. Pero masyado nang nagiging komplikado ang sitwasyon
at ayoko namang malaman mo pa ang tungkol dito mula sa ibang tao kaya napagdesis
yunan kong sabihin na sa'yo.

I know you'll be a good mother to my child in the future though he's not your ow
n. Kilala kita, mabuti ang puso mo kaya panatag ako sa'yo. Isa rin yun sa mga da
hilan kung kaya mahal na mahal ko ang isang tulad mo. At maswerte ako dahil maha
l mo rin ako.

Salamat sa lahat Jacky. Kahit marami nang pasakit ang dinala ko sayo ay tinatang
gap mo pa rin ako ng paulit-ulit. I love you always.

-23Saturday, 10//05/2013

I thought we're okay. I thought you're fine with it. But why did you do that? Yo
u let Elaine get away from me with MY CHILD! Di ako makapaniwalang nagawa mo yun
. Masaya pa tayo noong mga nakaraan dahil sa wakas malapit nang lumabas ang anak
ko ah? You even said that you're excited to be a mom. What has changed? Bakit b
igla-bigla na lang ganito?

I should hate but I don't. I love you, you know that. Siguro nga mahirap para sa
'yo ang nangyayari. Iintindihin ko na lang wag ka lang mawala sa akin. Hindi ko
na yun kakayanin.

I'm so sorry for hurting you. For always making you cry.

-24Sunday, 10/20/2013

No! No! No! You're not leaving

asabi mong hindi tayo magiging
an ako di ba? I'll do anything
na kayaning mawala ka. Please

me! Please why are you doing this? Anong bang sin
masaya? Na hindi ka magiging masaya? Mahal mo nam
to make you happy, wag lang ganito. Baka hindi ko
Jacky, don't leave me.

I don't believe in fate Jacky, I only believe in love. It exists. It's in the tw
o of us. Sa'yo lang ako magiging masaya. Hindi sa iba. Wag mo naman akong ipagta
buyan dahil hindi ko kaya. Ikaw ang buhay ko, sayo na umiikot ang mundo ko. Baki
t ba hindi mo makita yun?
Jacky, I'm not giving up. Kahit paulit-ulit mo pa akong itaboy hindi ako susuko.

Mali ka, sapat na ang pagmamahal para lumigaya tayo. Patutunayan ko yan sayo.

-25Wednesday, 11/27/2013

Hanggang sa huli hindi ako sumusuko. Ilang beses na nga ba akong natulog sa hara
p ng pintuan mo para lang tanggapin mo ako ulit? Hindi ko na mabilang. Ilang be
ses na rin ba akong naghintay sa labas ng opisina niyo para lang kausapin ka? H
indi ko na rin mabilang. At ilang tawag na nga ba ang ginawa ko para lang makaus
ap ka? I guess you re really decided to end what we have and I should let you go.

Bukas na ang alis mo papuntang States. I hope you ll be happy with your decision.
Kahit sa huling sandali pupuntahan kita. Makita man lang kita kahit sa huling pa
gkakataon. Pero naniniwala ako, darating yung araw na magkikita tayong muli. Maa
ring iba na ang mga buhay natin at iba na rin ang nararamdaman pero ito ang sini
siguro ko. You ll always be in my heart. No matter how far you are, nandito ka lan
g sa puso ko.

I won t say goodbye to you. It s not the proper words to say. You won t really be away
from me for you ll stay in my mind, my heart and in my dreams.

I love you. I ll see you soon.

-Last PageNayi's Note:

Salamat po sa patuloy na sumubaybay. Posted na po ang Book 2 ng TNRG.

Book 2: Still Into You

Ito po yung address: http://www.wattpad.com/24999509
Or Click niyo yung external link.

Salamat!

-purplenayi